Fluffy- great story, AND congrats ont he 50 lbs lost! what a milestone for you... you were hovering so close for such a long time... i dont know if i could have had the resolve to stick it out, but im so glad YOU did
So, im on yellow till tomorrow.. and i was SO EXCITED to start, and yet, ive been struggling

!! i dont understand! i know 99.99% is PURE HABIT, as i dont feel very hungry... but i honestly dont feel like ive lost ANY weight yet (not even the "water weight") and i really need to see a loss tomorrow at my 1st weigh-in, to stay motivated..... I blew it last night,..... for NO reason i had 2 handfuls (large) of Chex Mix Cereal and 2 spoonfuls (large) of peanut butter..... then today i had 3 handfuls of peanuts......
Literally, not because i was hungry..... trylu out of habit.
I KNOW that if i went to bed earlier, i wouldnt night-time graze, and going tobed "early" isnt usually a problem, except right now i am cramming for tests/finals, so since i also work full-time, im staying up late doing homework.
I cant bear the thought of going in tomorrow night after work to WI and finding i havent lost anything

I resigned up with MRC for the accountability, so i HAVE to go in. i HAVE to face the scales.......
Someone, give me an a$$ whooping. i am stronger than this, and i want this more than i wanted the handfuls of peanuts today .....