The scale was down a smidge for me. I had to convince myself that I wasn't still hungry after dinner. Getting obsessed over a candy crush level helped me to forget.
My system seems to be backed up. It works better when dh is gone so it must be my change in diet when he's home. Hmmm.... He goes in for his TB test today and then back on Thursday for the results and an exam. I'm still worried about his fatigue.
Michele, I hope DH gets a quick all-clear, or at least a good reason why he's tired. I'd be worried too.
silver, I like to front-load my food into the beginning of the day also. It does seem to help reduce the late-afternoon indiscretions.
saef, good to hear you figured out the source of your illness and are getting back on your feet. It always seems like extra insult that work piles on even faster when one is under the weather.
andrea, thanks for posting that link. My experience was that while I was overweight, thinking about that occupied my mind a whole lot more than the monitoring of what I've been eating since I got back into the normal range. The whole article does get me thinking about scarcity and where my bandwidth is currently going.
dagmar - the eating without thinking is a killer for me too. Seems like when the bandwidth is fully occupied on other things, there isn't anything left for monitoring intake. Hang in there - the move is coming! And I do have to say, I laughed about your awful day too. I would have wanted a stiff drink after that one!
JayZeeJay, sounds like you've had your share of craziness too. Gosh, I hope everybody gets a chance to relax soon!
This week will be a 3-day average - which is better than 1 and not near as good as 7. I didn't get to see the 140's two days in a row (sigh). I'm hopeful that a weekend of de-stress plus a lot of physical activity will set me up for a good loss next week.
I burned the heck out of the top of my mouth last night. For some reason I decided that the way to tell if the pizza I made DSS to eat was cool was to eat a piece of it. Right out of the oven. It was a lose lose. It was bad for me, it wasn't cool and it blistered the top of my mouth. And really, frozen pizza isn't worth all that.
150.3 this week based on three days. There haven't been many opportunities to get in trouble. I guess the secret, as it always is, is to minimize the opportunities so that the plan can do its thing unhindered. Leaving home seems to be a good strategy so far!
One night this week, after a commute that took over an hour, I ate dinner and climbed into bed at 7:30 PM with a book, utterly done in, and was out like a light after just two pages.
I'm glad I didn't take my post-food-poisoning weight as insightful data about my body last week, since naturally, after recovering, I'm up a few pounds this week. But I'm lower than I was, and sore from some tough workouts this week.
I'm wondering if I belong here when I don't actually care if I drop five or 10 more pounds. I just realized that over the past week. I see that weight loss effort almost as a metaphor. What I want is to feel okay & strong & satisfied with myself, and unshaken by any scale weight that appears between my toes.
But all this work that I can't seem to clear off my desk is making me feel less than competent, and that extends to my control over my body.
What I want is to feel okay & strong & satisfied with myself, and unshaken by any scale weight that appears between my toes.
I wonder whether it's worth making the health and fitness thread more of a discussion thread. Still a place to record workouts but also a place to mull things over.
I wonder whether it's worth making the health and fitness thread more of a discussion thread. Still a place to record workouts but also a place to mull things over.
I really love this idea! Sometimes I post my musings along with my exercise but I often feel I'm talking to myself. I know that for myself, when I do bikram yoga, I can pull myself out of a funk, feeling fat, whatever-- I feel strong and empowered which is probably a big reason I keep doing it!
I'm wondering if I belong here when I don't actually care if I drop five or 10 more pounds. I just realized that over the past week. I see that weight loss effort almost as a metaphor. What I want is to feel okay & strong & satisfied with myself, and unshaken by any scale weight that appears between my toes.
Most days lately, I feel like this rather than truly motivated to lose more. But then there are days where I truly want to lose a bit more either for exercise-based reasons, vanity-based reasons, or like Saef said, just to exert control over something that I actually can control.
I like your idea of expanding the health and fitness thread, Silverbirch. I'd like to join it. For starters, I can log in the grueling trail marathon that I am running tomorrow! (gulp - training for this race completely fell by the wayside recently, thanks to work.)
Most days lately, I feel like this rather than truly motivated to lose more. But then there are days where I truly want to lose a bit more either for exercise-based reasons, vanity-based reasons, or like Saef said, just to exert control over something that I actually can control.
I like your idea of expanding the health and fitness thread, Silverbirch. I'd like to join it. For starters, I can log in the grueling trail marathon that I am running tomorrow! (gulp - training for this race completely fell by the wayside recently, thanks to work.)
This isn't the Tough Mudder is it? I did it last year in Tahoe and it is again this weekend. We had signed up but backed out because dh's knee is shot. I'm glad now that we backed out because I hurt my knee a week ago and am in no shape for a grueling course.
This isn't the Tough Mudder is it? I did it last year in Tahoe and it is again this weekend. We had signed up but backed out because dh's knee is shot. I'm glad now that we backed out because I hurt my knee a week ago and am in no shape for a grueling course.
No, it's the Big Sur trail marathon. It's my 3rd year running it with the same group of friends every time. And every time we ask ourselves "why???" The race is standard length (26.2) but with 5800 feet of uphill climb, and of course 5800 feet of downhill that is leg-murder. We must have some latent masochistic tendencies to do this each year (and pay money for it!). It has turned into a reunion with one friend now flying in from Missouri - maybe next time we can have the reunion without the race! Maybe at a spa...
Um, JayZeeJay, I think I mentioned I thought you were a hard case when you came back from Scotland and Orkney. This Big Sur marathon is more evidence, in my view!
Have a great time tomorrow and see you over on the H&F thread.
My update on 2 weeks of modified Fast-5 (I eat about 200 cal. of fruit/veggies and protein, plus loads of water and coffee, between waking up and dinnertime).
My weight is down about 1 pound, maybe even 1 1/2. It's tough to get an accurate figure because I have weight swings of over 2 pounds between top and bottom, so I have to guess by using a rolling average. I feel like it should be more, but really, this isn't a super-low calorie diet- probably north of 1200 calories most days- just redistributed so that my evening "binge" is built in to the plan. And for me, evening snacker that I am, it's been working on that mental problem I have where I don't want dinner to end. I can pretty much eat until I'm completely full and satisfied, not have to stop short. The hardest part is in the morning, where my life-long habit has been to eat a carb-y breakfast of ~200-250 calories- having no form of starch is really weird. Lunch is much easier, since I'm pretty used to eating mostly veggies and protein for that meal anyway. Late afternoon is pretty easy when I'm working, since I'm too busy to think much about food. That time frame is definitely more challenging on Sat-Sun if I'm home.
No marathons, Tough Mudders or even CrossFit for me. Just not that hard core I guess. OTOH, I've made it to the gym, or out jogging, every day this week except Tuesday, so I'm not doing so badly.
Seems like when the bandwidth is fully occupied on other things, there isn't anything left for monitoring intake. Hang in there - the move is coming! 
And I do have to say, I laughed about your awful day too. I would have wanted a stiff drink after that one!
