Good Morning Becksters.
Woke up to a sun-shiny day but cold.
Brrr.
Brought in a plant last night I don't want to see die. I am glad I did, even though my backyard has not had a killing frost yet. Some neighbours have already had one. On the bus yesterday morning there was a white blanket of frost over some of the grassy areas around here. I always think this is Nature's way of getting us all used to what this place will look like all covered with snow. Nature just eases us into it....
And yesterday I had a great time in the animation part of the 2 day animation workshop. We created a set for our puppets to be in and then each of us were responsible to move our own puppets in a slow sequence. My muscle man did sit-ups, oblivious to the mayhem going on around him. I loved that he just does sit up after sit up after sit up when you make the animation into a infinite loop. So funny and they all turned out so well! I am totally inspired. I asked Graeme (the artist/instructor) if I could send him an animated Christmas card and he said his email address was on his website, so I think my friend Sharon, who was in the workshop with me and equally inspired, will do that. Fun. But boy was I exhausted once it was over. Man I was just like a zombie. Now, because of that diversion, I am SO far behind and on top of that I am very tired so I will just take it slow but I will get into my homework, starting with what is due tomorrow. It's all too much.
Foodwise I did lousy yesterday. Way too little food. Did not follow my meal patterns in spite of having food at hand. Had breakfast, missed snack 1, had mini lunch with little protein, missed snack 2, stayed out extra late and had dinner at 8pm-all protein and lots of it until I was stuffed. Oh and had a packet of 2
very calorie dense cookies from the vending machine in the student lounge at about 3pm when I was thinking I would blackout. Felt VERY woozy in the middle of the animating part of the workshop. I thought "get sugar" ... I just totally ignored the needs of my body. Very un-Beck. Very un-my foodplan. I am stalling myself weight-wise and scale-wise with this behaviour this week. I have had such a tough time getting back into it. Every day I try and then I just fall short. I seem to be forgetting why I am doing this and this seems to be re-inforced everytime I step on the dumb scale and see it above 250. I know I know it is WRONG for me to do this given everything I just wrote about being not on my plan and I intellectually know that. Emotionally I am tired, and mentally and physically and I want to just stop.
But I won't.
Because things don't just stop, they keep going and if I am not losing or maintaining in some sort of WOE, I am gaining. I cannot gain weight.
So coaches, today I will reinforce that I want to be a healthy individual and do a WATP DVD and will report back today when I do that. Throwing some
over me and running through it right now to stay OP in everyway today.
angelmomma210 Another week of waiting for you and DH. Ugh. You are smart to realize you could do a lot of damage with emotional eating in this stressful situation so KUDOS for re-committing to your program at this time and for coming here to post. It will not make you feel any better to eat over this...
RobinW Thank you for the offer of help for me re: dealing with kids. It does sound very similar. I will definitely keep this in mind as the time gets closer to deal with this, if I do, indeed, do this. I hope you got your work done and you saw the sun yesterday...and hope you have some time off today.
Tigerseye Congrats for picking up the book and welcome to the whole thing! Just take it a day at a time, do what she suggests to the best of your ability and see what happens. Post here when you need to. Yay!
twilit tera I'd love to hear more about your labyrinth workshop. Are you building one? Or talking about it metaphorically? I followed my first labyrinth last month. It was in the yard of a stop on an art tour an it was made of lavender, with willow walls. When you followed the path it smelled like lavender and chamomile. Kudos for stopping before stuffed.
shrinkin I hope your trip goes better than you expect in all ways, especially physically with that elbow and shoulder. I wish for you
a fantastic new hotel pool with optimum hours of use... and days away of being effortlessly OP... you known what awaits your return if you're not...
LOL... All the best to you!
happy1025 I was totally shocked at how often I would eat standing up and eat
on the way to sitting down. That was the worst especially when I decided not to eat standing up. Really mindless eating. I still catch myself doing that sometimes but not like before. This is really the magic of the Beck book. We actually discover all these things we have been doing that keep us in the same place and not moving forward in our quest for weightloss. Self-sabotaging behaviours. It's hard enough to lose the weight let alone us standing in our own way! Ugh. Kudos for moving forward.
BillBlueEyes Good morning. Good going on finding some good peaches. I'm glad you're doing good....LOL. (Good Gravy! Using the same word in several sentences doesn't always turn out very good.)
Sunday
Sunday fly by
You'd think that would be motivating, but so much more to go. 
Sunday home but with tons of work to do.
Then I managed to get heaps and heaps of laundry done 
(did I spell that right?) Some days, just getting the laundry done, and the carpets done can be a real feat!!
OP food
extra in the parking lot at church
losing over 3 pounds since 2 weeks ago! (Making up for last week, which I knew I would, of course!)
Still, I had one of those last minute brainwaves and stopped off at a dollar store for some craft materials.
What about passing out party favors instead of candy? It might be a bit more expensive, but it won't make kids fat or give them tooth decay, so it sounds to me like it's worth a little extra cash. I'm sure your local Party City or dollar store will have something like these: 
