i'm back. BACK. brain is back. body back at work. and i will never, ever, EVER take steroids again. found out the hard way that i am one of those rare people who experience something called steroid psychosis (yes, psychosis) when i take them. my pituitary gland stopped working altogether, and for over a week my hypothalamus was completely out of whack. i couldn't sleep more than 2 or 3 hours a night before waking up drenched in sweat, i was hallucinating, bouts of hysterical crying for no good reason, couldn't stop moving (pacing/bouncing), completely disoriented. the best they could do for me was to give me sedatives so i could tolerate it a little better until my pituitary gland started working again on its own. thank god for sedatives. and thank god my pituitary gland started up again. apparently for some, it can take months. yipes.
yesterday, i felt sleepy for the first time and was THRILLED. i'm still pretty easily disoriented, but i'm not on sedatives and i slept last night. i've got GPS on my phone - it might take me a little longer to get back from work, but i'll get there, and i won't drive off the side of the road or anything like that. so i'm pretty happy.
overate candy and crap all weekend. spent a lot of time at in-laws for their grandkids' halloween party. my lame excuse? i was feeling sorry for myself with the horrendous two previous weeks. yes, coaches, nothing makes you feel more "taken care of" than overdoing it on cheetos, caramel cashew popcorn and (get this) candy corn. i was eating freaking candy corn. does ANYONE actually like that stuff? i think i have PMS but my body's so messed up from the medication i'm not actually sure.
well, OH WELL. it's done. back on plan today. i popped up 3 lbs, but i'm pretty sure it's carb overload with the subsequent water gain, since my total calorie surplus for the weekend was less than 1000. hoping they'll come off before my new charm shows up (which i did finally order.)
it's going to take me a little bit to catch up on the personals, but i'm glad to be able to focus enough to be back!
have a GREAT week, all!
Last edited by kuhljeanie; 10-27-2008 at 11:24 AM.
Great to hear from you angelmomma! Sorry that the misery of waiting continues. Keeping my fingers crossed for a good outcome.
kuhljeanie-Relieved to hear you are off the steroids! I know they have a purpose, but...they are bad news drugs. Pained to hear how awful the side effects were. Kudos for your plans to get back on track and woohoo for the charm. BTW, I too have been known to indulge in fall candy corn, all the while saying "who really likes this stuff?". I think the pure sugar combined with the nice colors is the temptation. Oh Well, we are movin' on.
Diet Coaches - In the category of small victories: DW didn't want to put away about an ounce of chess left over after she made omelets last night. Said it would get mold before we ate it. Offered to eat half of it if I ate the other half. I reached out my hand ... then thought ... then said "No!" CREDIT moi. What a role reversal, DW was playing garbage disposal. When I called her on that she reminded me that I had always played the role of garbage disposal until I went on my healthy journey and that keeping a neat fridge has been harder since then. What a lovely Non Scale Victory. So, I put the cheese away and plan to eat it on a bagel for breakfast this morning.
Jeanie (kuhljeanie) - OUCH for the reaction to steroids - that's big time awful. Glad to hear you got some sleep. LOL at candy corn. Good grief. I used to do that stuff by the handful. It's inedible, of course, but was a warm connection to my childhood where they only existed at Halloween, and then in limited quantities.
Robin (RobinW) - Kudos for "duvet is off the treadmill AND the treadmill is unfolded!!" Can't wait to hear the first day's report.
angelmomma210 - Sending supportive thoughts for your long wait.
shrinkin - Kudos for 5 veggies and 5 fruits; just love reading about healthy eating. Yay for your knee being better; hope it continues to heal. Thanks for "My vote on duvet is for Chevrolet." Am I the only person on the planet who didn't know that word? Maybe because I'm a guy? Or is duvet a French word drifting down from Canada?
Readers -
"It is best to minimize distractions when you eat, but ultimately you'll need to learn the skill of eating mindfully even if you're distracted." Beck, pg 81.
Morning, coaches,
Well, a totally OP day for me yesterday!First in a while. Continued with the very healthy eating with 4 servings of veggies and 4 of fruits plus lean meat. 30 min in the pool yesterday without flippers. Yup, followed my plan to take it easy on the knee and the elbow/shoulder but still get in a good workout. CREDIT MOI for going but not overdoing. Have a tendency to get ahead of myself which just sets me back.
BillBlueEyes- Kudos for resisting that last bite of cheese. That deserves a big pat on the back because cheese is so tasty BUT it is calorie dense. So, a little goes a long way. Chuckling for your role reversal with DW. That is happening at my house too. NICE.
RobinW-WOW, do you and onebyone have us on the edge of our seats waiting on the "Treadmill In Action" report. Highfive for getting all systems on go for a lauch.
angelmomma-still thinking of you out here.
Hmm...Didn't hear from onebyone yesterday. Hope she and kilns are OK out there.
Kuhljeanie...hope you got some more good sleep in your system.
Off to the pool for the Tuesday routine! Have a great Tuesday!
What's up with me? I am still stress eating. This time, my excuse was the classes I face today. Hello? I'll be facing them for a few more months... cannot let that work itself into my life permanently.
To counteract this new development I will do a WATP dvd tonight the moment I get home from school. There is a 1 mile version, 15 short minutes. If nothing else, I will do that one. One new "habit" deserves another. I suspect the exercise will win over the stress eating. It has before. Need to jumpstart that engine.
New day ahead of me. New start. I'm ready....
shrinkin I could use a you-know-what to wake me up! What am I doing? I am in danger of undoing my hard work! HELP! I am not persisting in victory! Yikes.
BillBlueEyes Nice to see you flexing that resistance muscle. Will think of you when reaching for _x_ today. Kudos to you for that! And Duvet is a fancy word for "comforter" if you ask me. Think it came into vogue with the high end bath and bed shoppes ... fancy name = fancy price. And yes, it is pronounced like Chevrolet or Francais
angelmomma210 Well you are still waiting. You sound okay about it and that's good. This is so obviously out of your hands!
kuhljeanieOMG Your pituitary shut down? Wow. That's some powerful stuff to do that! Thank goodness your body wanted to turn that gland back on. I can think of nothing more out of our control that these types of bodily functions that just go on all the time within each of us... so sorry you had such a horrible reaction. Your trepidation when you even got the prescription was right on the money. Glad you are back, in all ways! Forgive yourself the food and move on. You've been through a lot. It happens. Oh Well....
RobinW Uh, no pressure but I am going to do my first workout in forever when I walk through the door this evening, no matter the time or my energy level. Looking forward to your treadmill escapades coming soon...
We're both too busy not to do this! I need it to get healthier and stronger and I seem to recall that working out just made me feel happier and more able to cope. I want that back! It'll take a few sessions though as all I feel the first few times is tired...! (Consolation: it's a good tired.) Enjoy your day!
thank you for the well-wishing! yup, those are some serious powerful drugs. i have a newfound respect for the complexity of my body and all the chemical interactions that constantly happen without my knowledge or understanding. puts weight loss in a whole new light! YOAD (hi tera!) goes into a lot of it - and there's a LOT! - and maybe i'll dig out my copy and review to see what it says about the endocrine system. just for kicks.
bill, humungous kudos on saying NO to disposal eating! it's sort of comforting to hear that thin people occasionally fall prey to that too. angelmomma, keeping you and DH in my thoughts. it's incredibly stressful to feel like you don't have any control over your life. is there anything you/he can do to get control back in your own hands? go robin go! i'm getting to be a treadmill junkie. it's kind of "my time" when i can zone out completely and listen to mindless dance music. it would be so cool to have one at home! bust it out for me. onebyone, my friends in NYC often say, whatever you do, don't panic. your temporary "wagon draggin'" is just that, temporary. i think we all hit those periods now and then! just part of the process. and exercise sounds like your magic pill. have a great workout tonight!
Whew! Looks like it's been harder to maintain a daily 3FC schedule than I expected. It would really help to have reliable internet at home, but we do what we must.
Recently OP food OP Supplements exercise today in the pool at the health club making some personal grooming decisions that should make me feel prettier
Hmmm... I need to get some moisturizer to put on after swimming. Whatever they are using to treat that pool is making my skin feel like paper. Ick!
More work to do this week, including a PowerPoint presentation on Debussy, which I know exactly zip about. Tomorrow, DH and I have a bankruptcy hearing to attend. We anticipate no complications. Our financial condition is so pathetic, our creditors probably won't even show up. I will be very happy to close that chapter of our life and clearly and truly move on to the next.
Bill: You sure do end up at a lot of pot lucks! What's your secret? for declining cheese. Your wife can tell the future too? She knows exactly what you'll be eating when and how long it'll take the cheese to go bad? (I've been fortunetelling for years, myself! Classic.)
shrinkin: As I told my dear aunt recently - every .5 pound loss is a reason to celibrate! Glad to hear that your knee feels better.
onebyone: My aunt's recent weightwatcher's meeting discussed emotional eating and she shared a slogan they brought up: Don't stuff your face, face your stuff! It's cute and easy to remember, but like most slogans, it doesn't really tell you how!
jean: That steroid reaction sounds freaky! I'm so glad it's behind you!!
I'll post after I walk tonight (thanks onebyone)
I will also remember to put my cards in my purse....they have been on the end table and need to "with" me.
Hey folks just a note to say I haven't dropped off the face of the earth I had to go out of town for a few days. I planned was to keep up with week one and I managed to do that so now I will carry on with day 8 tomorrow.
Hi I'm Ronnie, I'm new here. I did the Beck's Diet Solution last year and lost 20 pounds. I have had a problem with diet coaches fading away. So I lose my accountability. I gained some of my weight back and wanted to get back on the Beck's wagon.
I'm hoping that with this group, that I will always have a diet coach, and will have people who are using the program and understand what I'm going through as I do the program.
I'm starting at page 1 of the book and rereading. Tomorrow I'm going to plan my food and stick with it. Lately I have not been exercising. Thanks for the support!! Last time using the program I only went to day 21. I'm restarting at Day 1 to brush up on the basics.
Diet Coaches - Ate my leftover cheese on a bagel. As planned. CREDIT moi. Squeezed in a walk before eating dinner early to get to an evening Botany class. I'm loving Botany - after an entire life of ignoring it and having studied no Botany since high school biology.
Jeanie (kuhljeanie) - Here's to "the complexity of my body and all the chemical interactions that constantly happen without my knowledge or understanding." Everything I read about nutrition and health seems to reinforce that thought.
onebyone - OK, time to persist in victory here. It seems that you best stick to plan when there is enough time in your life to breathe. Is there a way to make room in that schedule of yours? And thanks for the explanation of Duvet - sorta explains why I didn't know the word; I avoid "shoppes".
Robin (RobinW) - Kudos for cards in the purse.
angelmomma210 - Waving. Continue to send supportive thoughts for your wait. Now, at least, you've got company; there are a zillion fans waiting to find out when the World Series will resume.
shrinkin - Kudos for continued work on your physical stuff.
Tera (twilit tera) - Instead of a "PowerPoint presentation on Debussy," could you just burst into song or play something on a portable keyboard, LOL. Yep, I do lots of potlucks - I have two a month at regularly scheduled community events, plus another 4 a year with another group and 2 a year with another group. I hadn't thought about it, but all the groups I meet with use food. hmmmm ... I wonder if I have anything to do with that, LOL.
happy1025 - Kudos for marching along to day 8. Glad that you're still with us.
ronnie - Congrats on the last 20 pounds lost, and Kudos for getting back to Beck from page one. Beck recently wrote that the first 14 program days are the most important. Hope that when you get to writing your Advantages Card you share some of them with us.
Readers -
"Knowing that you have to report your progress to someone else can motivate you to stick to your plan." Beck, pg 85.
Tuesday was an OP day. Went to pool for a 35 min workout. Did shoulder exercises. CREDIT MOI. Stayed OP for food. Fairly easily because I was very busy at work and had a hair cut after work, so less time for after dinner eating.
DREADING trip this weekend to deal with mom's issues again. She is only the shell of the person she used to be and the Alzheimers has changed her pesonality.
DD had brief bridezilla meltdown yesterday. She is already "tired of wedding planning". LOL but a bit understandable as she has gotten a great deal of flack from various people who have made choosing the date and venue hard on her. She somehow thought this was all going to be fun; there is some fun along the way, but also a lot of work.
onebyone-Ouch for stress, and double ouch for eating to deal with it. Kudos for getting exercise into your coping plan. OK...here it is.... Now that should return you to Persistence!
kuhljeanie-agree that exercise is the "magic pill". Not sure why it is hard to swallow it sometimes though.
twilit tera-I like the WW saying. "Dont stuff your face, face your stuff." BTW, for post pool moisturizer during the dreaded WI winter, I use udder balm. Works great on other body parts, especially legs, arms and back. You know if it works for those expensive WI cows, it actually does work....and it is not too expensive. I have stopped telling people here about it in the winter becuase there is a big run on it and it can be hard to find. Not sure if you have Farm and Fleet stores in TX...but bet there is something similar there.
RobinW-Points for mall walk and for getting cards into purse. Keep up the good work!
Happy1025-WTG on keeping with the program! Carry on, carry on!
Ronnie- to the Beck board. WooHoo for the 20 pounds! Hope you will continue to post back. We do group coaching for each other and are pretty faithful. Welcome to the group!
BillBlueEyes-That Botany class sounds like a Beck enrichment of your life!
Tueday - Seven days until US Elections
First in a while. Continued with the very healthy eating with 4 servings of veggies and 4 of fruits plus lean meat. 30 min in the pool yesterday without flippers. Yup, followed my plan to take it easy on the knee and the elbow/shoulder but still get in a good workout. CREDIT MOI for going but not overdoing. Have a tendency to get ahead of myself which just sets me back. 
Kudos for resisting that last bite of cheese. That deserves a big pat on the back because cheese is so tasty BUT it is calorie dense. So, a little goes a long way. Chuckling for your role reversal with DW. That is happening at my house too. NICE. 
OP food
in the pool at the health club
. Now that should return you to Persistence!
to the Beck board. WooHoo for the 20 pounds! Hope you will continue to post back. We do group coaching for each other and are pretty faithful. Welcome to the group!