i tried telling him all of the above but somehow when you write it and i say it, it all comes out wrong:(
thank you:), and i think tomorrow will be our "third night";)
and you are so right him and my son-fortunately they can eat whatever, whenever and however much and not gain an ounce. he told me earlier that i look great-no matter what- 25 lbs ago and now, and that he's not gonna say i look better now because i looked beautiful then. it kind of hurt. kind of felt good. and then kind of made me kind of pissed and made me think "well why the **** am i torturing myself for almost 3 months now for you to not even care?? boo-hoo.

YO YO YO!!! Gs!!! Wassup?????

I motivate in case anyone missed it?

yes I do.

so sun was out here today which meant I couldn't use treadmill (too hot), I couldn't go for a walk (didn't want to). But did much positive things today, like killed a few big spiders outside, I hate those buggers. Killed one with week killer spray and realized I was also killing the pant that it was attached to.

so leaving for the coast tomorrow and really don't want to take my scale, think I should???

I am changing my goal to 96.7!!! kidding!

Dang it...that hubby needs me to drive down there and swat his butt!! I'm sorry he isn't giving you the praise that you deserve. I am sure to him you were and still are beautiful, he just may not realize you weren't feeling that way yourself. Sometimes others think we are more confident than we are or think we see ourselves the way they see us. My poor hubby is constantly being harassed to the point he has to tell me everything he notices different, all the time. I think he would like to just be left alone. But, there are sure times he enjoys the differences... :)
Keep your chin up. You are beautiful and are doing beautifully, it is really all about how YOU feel about yourself and how much healthier YOU are feeling. It is sweet you hubby even tells you that you are beautiful, mine just says I'm "cute" or that I "look nice". HUSBANDS!!

Oh... DON'T Worry! With days like today and how I have been lately... I think I may be here awhile yet. I hope that's ok :)

I just wanted to clarify something from earlier. I am so IMPRESSED by you. You have made such change and look so amazing! I don't think of you as any particular weight. I think you are beautiful, kind, happy, and you've accomplished so much!

What you say is so sweet. I don't know or believe I have all the answers but, if I am in anyway able to help, I'm glad to be of assistance.

I must own up! The determination has been shaky lately. I probably should visit the OOPS thread but, I just can't stand putting in writing just how bad I have been. I feel HORRIBLE.. let's hope that says enough. :( I just got sick of where I have been.. stuck and bored and hating the long haul and wishing for something else.. I did major emotional eating on old comfort foods and UGGH!!! YUCK.. feeling gross and horrible and, worse, my comfort foods didn't taste like and aren't so "comforting" anymore. It has been a real let down.

Oh well, I did learn that I like how I feel eating the IP way. I forgot some of the ways things made me feel. I also think, if not eating the IP way makes me feel so bad, I HAVE NO problem eating IP or simply for as long as it takes.

I have 10 pounds to make my IP goal. I have no idea when I will be allowed to go to phase 2. I think when I get to 150 I will do 5 pound evaluations to see when I want to stop. I think I want to make 135 - 140 but, I might stop before that if I feel good and like how I look.

In any case, unless I can get some great thing goin', I will be here on phase1 for another 8 weeks.



HMMM... what to do??? Introduce him to us!????? :D Get him on here with you to say hello? I don't know. Tell him it is your girl time and to go hit the "full tilt poker" game tables??? I am sure, if meeting us isn't intriguing, there is something that he likes to do without you!

Wazup P-Cat! I would say leave it but you are so obsessed you will drive yourself crazy and miss out on some of the fun you should be having so maybe you should just smuggle it along???

come down and swat him for sure! actaully he has family in paola and osawatomie kansas(outside kansas city, mo). maybe i'll drag his butt up up there! ARRRRRGH, men!

ellie,
i was wondering where my dear friend was tonight. um. hello, take the scale, it'll jst drive you nuts the whole time you're gone if you don't:lol:
hahahahahaha!! @motiv8edmama-P-CAT, that's sticking for sure!

You are so wonderful!! Impressed??? Oh my...I am going to have to ponder that! Thank you!!!

You know, I took off Sunday and I physically was ill. Last year I had some pancreas issues, had to go to specialists 5 hours away to find out nothing, have 5 CT Scans, MRI, two ERGDs, etc. Pretty miserable. Well, on Sunday, I had similar physical symptoms, they only lasted about two hours. I have just been thinking, I may never be able to eat the way I did before...thank God. It is like a blessing in disguise! I never liked salad and all before, now I have to have it. I sometimes look forward to it. Wow, I just said that!

I know a shaky day or couple of days is not going to deter you, you are unstoppable. I also know you may feel horrible, however; you are human and as such, will not be held to superhero standards by us so hopefully not to yourself. You have so much to be proud of to let this make you feel bad about yourself. :hug: Maybe it's time for that body wrap and reward yourself for what you have accomplised so far and regroup, rather than punishing yourself for a not so great moment. I think it is a great idea to evaluate every five pounds, based on how you feel, not on a number.

That swatting would be very doable. That is only 2 hours from me. Yes, lets get that in the works!!:D

Here she is ... the incredible shrinking woman! Do you have spare room for a scale? It could be an "fix" and better than sneaking off to a corner drugstore. On the other hand, you will be drinking, and who knows you might find the scale provides too much information!

I only have one phobia and it is to spiders. It is legitimate so, I guess that makes it not a phobia, just a memory I can't get rid of, right? It all started 22 years ago when I got a suitcase out of storage and something small whispered "open it, there might be dead crickets or bugs inside and you don't want to have to drag it back out to clean it." I opened it and out crawled about 300 wolf spiders, all over me and the ground! I ran screaming, hysterical, couldn't go back in the room or calm down. Probably needless to say, but, I didn't use that suitcase. (thanks stupid little voice! :dizzy: )

Hmmm.. He seems to be a smart of man. :) I think it is smart of him to always think you are beautiful. I think he could be excited and supportive of you becoming more fit and sticking to you goals.

As far as why you are torturing yourself, I hope it isn't for him. Although it is nice to have an audience who appreciates our change. The real motivation, should be what WE get out of it. I hope the last 3 months have been for you and I hope you have been getting back some of what you wanted in looks and esteem! :)

Good night my friends! Here's to IP shakes (or alternates) before bed so we can have evershrinking booties!! Woot Woot!! :carrot:

:hug: Thanks.. I needed that! :)

Really has been a very bad several days emotionally, not too much food until recently. I am trying not to be too hard on myself.

I know I have accomplished a lot. Saw an old beau a last week who I have managed to stay friends with but, I haven't seen in several months. He was so sweet and happy to see me. He kept calling me "skinny." He was really impressed with the program and the changes. This meant a lot because he is such the athlete (former NFL player) and very fit. He is a very honest and good person. The fun part was, when he asked if I wanted to "shoot some baskets", I didn't say "me?". I just said "yes". SOOO much fun!

A lot of folks will mention to me "good job on the weightloss, but the maintenance is the toughest part". My response is this: Let me get through this part first, lose the weight 1 pound and one step at a time. Why fret about the maintenance when I am still trying to lose the pounds??? Anyway, I just don;t think they realize the negative vibes they send out when they say stuff like that!

here's to great success on IP. i am going to try to post a foto.

So sorry to hear you've had some bad things going on. We're all sending you special hugs tonight, to get you on the mend emotionally...we know you're taking control physically too. :hug:

Funny you should mention that...the late night snack is the hardest for me, I am NEVER hungry and all I do is gaze at a cupboard full of IP drinks and try to force myself to drink one. Tonight I thought I would try something different. Vanilla pudding made as drink...ack, no...Added some orange flavoring...a little less ack but no...threw in some ice, then spied the blender. Aha...tossed it in the blender.wrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....ok, that looks interesting...went to pour it into a glass and it all came out kerrrrrrslurp in a huge lump that splashed onto the counter, the front of the oven and onto the floor. While I cleaned it up, I was thinking, well, the good news is, there is no sugar in here so at least if I don't find it all, it won't be a sticky mess in the morning....even my dog wouldn't eat it.

So, does that mean the food gods have left me off the hook and I don't need to eat a packet tonight? <<sigh>> I guess this is only the 2nd packet I've thrown away (the first being the LEEK SOUP DISASTERNESS) so that's not bad in 11 weeks..

Hear! Hear! About needy husbands and, more so, about our need for support. For most of my life I've been the go-to person, for help, advice, decisions, support, you name it. It is so wonderful to put that aside and wallow in comfort and help from like-minded, thinking, and empathizing
people. I raise a metaphorical glass and thank you all.

Carla - I wish I had some magic words to make it all better! :shrug: Losing weight, especially this way, is so much more mental than it is physical and we are truly our own worst enemies. :nono: I think it's a good thing that the comfort foods weren't so comforting, that means that you have made a huge step in separating the need for comfort food with the need for comfort! :hug: That is one of my biggest hurdles - food (especially food that's not good for us) does not need to be the center of every celebration, holiday, disaster and emotionally low time in our lives. There are healthier things than emotional eating. Hey, we've ALL been there.

If you stumble, don't beat yourself up, we're all here for you. :grouphug: Today's a new day, what you did yesterday doesn't matter. "Success is falling nine times and getting up ten" I don't remember the author, but it certainly applies to anyone who's tried to lose weight. :carrot: