Morning!

to all...

Congrats, Hope - that's wonderful news!!

I'm in a strange place - a lot of change that I am either ignoring or simply not dealing with, effectively or otherwise, and I am starting to see that I can't - unfortunately - put it off forever.

We are, I think, a product of the choices we make... and mine haven't been making me feel very proud or good about myself. The alternative is terrifying... but the time is coming: if I want to see a change, I'm going to have to make it myself... much liike losing weight. Poop.

I'm still not working out well, or regularly - I do still blame three hours a day in the car... but it's just an excuse. I'm eating well, and the scale is reflecting it, so baby steps, right??

All for now - hang in there chicks - weekend's almost here!

Heather

butterfly

Sassy, I baked cookies yesterday night and have eaten the whole batch nearly...eeeugh dear.

I'm getting along, still feeling posative. I want to go out more, see friends and the urge to stay locked alone and in bed is beginning to wither. It is there and it lurks but overall its not as strong. Also, I'm starting to actually appreciate myself... it feels weird

Wow atleast we had some action in here. I didnt check it yesterday cause i figured no one was into posting...

We my want to eat everything in the house is dying...TOM came and usually on the bad cycle I want to eat everything in site the week before...it is quickly dying. which the scale is showing a few extra pounds but that could be just for the week it usually goes back down after TOM goes home...or to someone elses house!! I have to go take my special points exam today because of all the points I got with those two speeding tickets. I HAVE TO PASS IT. There really isnt any other time to take it if I dont pass today. The stuff in there seems easy but I always mess up the stuff with drinking and driving cause i dont drink at all so I have never paid attention to that stuff!! Ok well I need to go study then get ready to leave!!

Oh yeah its snowing here and the ground is alll covered. I was going to take the kids and get out but who knows if that will happen now!!

Lata Me

Well.........I finished cleaning the bathroom.....

I was gonna start laundry then thought that is silly when I would have to do DH's scrubs when he comes home too. So I'm waitin on that! So all I have to do left on "my list" is the cookies. I may try to get some other things tidied up a bit, but I am not killing myself! lol.

Hope --

Heather -- I totally agree with ya. I beleive it is all a state of mind. Such as today for me for ex. I did NOT wanna clean that stupid bleeping bathroom!! (who ever does??? ) But I put it in my mind that I was going to do it and get it finished and BEFORE noon because after noon seems like nothing gets done, ya know? At least for me. lol. Of course it has just made me hotter than I already am. (I think my hormones are all wonky) So I have resorted to opening the kitchen window a bit..........UGH I may open the thing all the way at this point! lol. (it is only 37 degrees here)

Spoz: I usually do not eat many sweets. It is my DH who has the extreme sweet tooth. My vice is my Mt. Dew or as my coworker calls it: Liquid Crack I just have cut down on it and tried drinking more water. I have been going out more, thanks to my friends at work. Last weekend I went out and got my hair done.

If any of you have Myspace, just pm me and you can see my new "do" on there. I was thinking of posting it in the forum here, but I dunno, just not quite that brave yet.

Momof4: Howdy Girlie! UGH I have been battling my stupid TOM for months now. She just refuses to go away!!! She will go away for a few days, then she is right back again. UGH frustrating! I am in search of a new ob/gyn as mine has moved out of state.............. on your test! I have been there before!!!

I hope you all are doing well!!!!

P.S. -- I truly love the song by Trace Adkins, "You're gonna miss this".......only sharing!!!!

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I passed so Ya...I dont get my liscense suspended. I feel weird today. It snowed out but now the sun is out, had my parents here this morning to watch kids, then fosterd went on respite at my parents for the weekend. Husband is gone until 8 tonight...so its like I want to just party like I have freedom or something...usually i leave when he works all day so I dont go crazy but I am trying to get my sisin law/best friend to come over for the day and spend some time with me...I HOPE SHE DOES...so yeah I dont really feel like doing school so I think I will do their school tomorrow since our schedule is already messed up today...Ok
Well talk to you lata all!!!

momof4: on passing! I am all alone too. My hubby is working........then after work he is hanging out with the guys from work.......so yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeee for me. lol

Thanks for the welcome! I'm glad you passed your test momof4. I woke up feeling really depressed lacking motivation and nrg but I pushed myself and worked out on the treadmill anyways. I guess it helps to remind myself that my weight is part of the reason why I'm depressed and have no self esteem in the first place. TGIF! I hope everyone has a grt weekend.

Today I had an argument with my brother over something so small, but during this petty fight he brought up how I 'eat everything in the house' and althouth he's right and he didnt say anything I already know, its hung over my head all day. I feel horrid.

Lauren, I know it hurts but look at how much you've accomplished! If he says something again, tell him about how you're trying to rid yourself of bad habits & his comments definitely do not help. No one is perfect & I'm sure your brother isn't either.

/cher

...by the way...I've been wanting to say this since you've changed your avatar - you are beautiful, so anytime you feel down on yourself, look in the mirror & tell yourself "you are beautiful & worth good things" 3x's

hey everyone!

i have a psychiatrist appointment on tuesday... i started grad school in the fall and therefore i have a new psychiatrist than i had during my undergrad (switching from UIowa to UWisconsin). i'm kind of nervous. i haven't had an intake appointment in three years!

i'm wondering if i should mention that i think i may have a problem with compulsive exercise. i also weigh myself at least twice a day. i just don't want ANOTHER diagnosis on my record. i already have Generalized Anxiety Disorder with undertones of OCD, and i don't need some form of bulimia (when i feel guilty about what i've eaten, i work out extra hard and extra long) on there too.

any thoughts? i don't want my psychiatrist to think i'm crazy (does that make sense?), but i want to make sure that i'm getting the care i need. Thanks!

CHER- your still alive????? I haven't seen you much on here...

I have a headache called dh..LOL...no i have a headache and going to watch a movie...lata...

Hi everyone!

Hope you are all having a restful Sunday.
Sassy, boy that is a little chilly! we were at -9*C this morning, but we are above freezing now. Its still feels cold and I had to turn up the heat. Sound like you had quite the day shopping.
Not to much new here. I got up and drove DdA to work this morning (she started at 6am) I hadn't gone to bed until 3am so of course when I got back home I crawled back into bed to finish my sleep. Hubby left yesterday afternoon to pick up a piece of machinery about 10 hours north of here. Hopefully the roads aren't to bad. He almost hit the ditch trying to turn onto our road on Friday. Thankfully he was able to get out and he left a message on my cell so I could come home a different way and miss the ice.
Whoops just looked at the time I have to go and pick up DdA from work.

Take care everyone and enjoy the rest of the weekend.
K

Buddly your dog is so cute! Is it a maltipoo? They say pets and things can help with depression and stuff. I ordered one online...it's supposed to be here by the end of the month but I haven't seen recent pics or heard from the ppl in almost a month. I emailed them tonight...I hope I didn't get scammed! I'm real antsy because this is my first pet and want her to have her 1st Thanksgiving with us

I had a rough weekend. Shopping, ate at the mall. YIKES.
Then company over with drinks Saturday, so all day Sunday was a blah....
I am watching COLTS now, and plan on walking 20 minutes after the game.

** perk** think I walked 5 miles at the mall chasing my preteen diva and her 3 friends. lol