Jodi~ Delphi & Jacqui have both given you wonderful advice and encouragement
I am here to offer a little more.
Hun, first of all, let me say that I feel so bad that you're hurting so much right now. I can't imagine how hard and stressful things must be for you and your husband. I wished we lived closer, I'd head over and give you a big giant
! Then, I'd ask my hubby if he could get your hubby a job where he works...
I've suffered from depression for a long time. Sometimes I'm fine and things just plug right along without much of an issue. Then there are the other times where my moods are all over the place, I feel hopeless, I'm eating everything under the sun and nothing seems to go right--my life falls apart. This affects everything--intimacy included. It's hard enough to get through those tough times feeling okay about facing another day, add maintaining a healthy intimate relationship into the mix and well, things start to really suffer.
Now, meds aren't for everyone, but I have to tell you that after years of denying that I needed to go back on meds, telling myself to just 'snap out of it', trying again and again to get into a positive frame of mind only to fall back down into depression...I finally made a call to my dr. I had never met the man and thankfully I lucked out big time! He is fantastic!
Anyway, I told him everything I was going through and I walked out with a Rx in my hand. There I was again, in that place I swore I'd never be--on meds. Sigh...but ya know what? Within 3 days I had stopped binging (did you know that craving carbs can actually be a sign of seratonin imbalance?! I didn't!), I started feeling somewhat 'normal' after a couple of weeks and now, well, people have actually used the words 'positive attitude' when describing me!
If you had seen me prior to seeing my dr. 'positive attitude' wouldn't have entered your mind when describing me.
Anyway, just thought I'd share my experience with depression--sometimes no matter how much you will yourself to be happy and have a positive attitude, it's just beyond your control and you need help. I find people who have the ability to turn their depression around on their own (like Delphi) amazing! I tried and tried and just never could do it. I hated asking for meds, but ya know, if I were a diabetic, I wouldn't be able to will myself better so it is with my depression.
Now, as far as personals go--hun, don't you fret! It doesn't matter if you're here posting 10 times a day writing replies to everyone or if you're here once a week or month for that matter. We're all in this boat together!
If you need us--we're here! If you want to come and brag on exercise or losing a pound--we're here! If you want to gripe, whine, complain and cry--for whatever reason--we're here! Don't worry about it for a second. And as to how I'm able to write personals--I tend to be on the computer when all the kids are otherwise occupied or asleep.
again hun! Feel free to PM me anytime if you want to chat!
