I Sharon WILL recommit tomorrow (specially since i survived the treadmill today...2 MILES!! walk/jog approx 300 cals burned) Workouts, cals to 1700 LIMIT NO EXCEPTIONS! Sighned Sharon!
Yes i survived Graduation I was so totally proud of her that I didn't have time to cry! she is a big girl now!! i was so happy for her....
Today was not so good....sucked actually...more snack cakes a mocha moolatte (large) then i just finished a reeces cup and its 1am! Tomorrow is my day though hubby stocked me up on low cal snacks and meals so I am prepared.......I am so looking foward to getting back on track......I love the feeling being healthy gives me! 142 goodbye 130 (or less) here i COME!!!!!!!!!
Ok bbq planned for tomorrow but i am going to take everything in moderation! Pool is 68 degrees BRRRR but i think i may try to get in haha.....Everyone have a great weekend I will be back on Monday afternoon (if not sooner) I am thinking of you all and sending willpower to you all!!!!!
AND YES!!!! freakin snack cakes are awful Little Debbie is the DEVIL I promise you that!!!! but hubby did NOT buy my favorites this time at my request so I am covered this time!! I realy trully hate little debbie hahhahaha
and LOOK down 2 lbs already...I think its all the water I have been drinking....it always makes me lose a few pounds quickly.....OH and I am beating the coffee monster again...I went from 6 cups to 2 cups in the last few days! Ok thats it im done lol have a great weekend!!
That's right maybe I should not have told my husband. I even told him about how I get away with eating some of the things I do. So of course when I got back from the store ( and he knew I picked up my daughter second) that I had eaten something. He said if I had not told him he would have asked for the receipt. Well, I ate almost a whole box of Wing Dings, yes they were cooked not frozen. My husbands friend knows about my problem, I asked for him not to tell his wife. I think he did, because she just kept looking at me up and down when I ran into her at the store. I became self consious and then grabbed the box of wings to eat. They are much better than Trix. HE-HE. She has a big mouth and I know things will get around and I am not ready for that. I just came out of the closet about all this as it is. Well, I will try to be brave and have control and go with the NO BINGE tomorrow. Today is shot!
I have a graduation coming up also. My son is graduating from the fifth grade. This will be hard the fifth grade teacher takes all of their pictures all the way back to kindergarten and makes a slide show with them, set to music. The school takes a lot of pictures. I have seen some of the ones in the past,they can be tear jerkers. My son did decide to play the trombone in Middle School. This will be interesting. He is singing a solo at the variety show at school on Friday. He is very nervous and he is shy but he chose to do it on his own. He is singing "What Hurts The Most" By Rascal Flatts, if any of you know it.
Well, I guess I have babbled enough. Best wishes and control to all of you! WE CAN DO IT!Catherine
catherine- sorry you are feeling so self conscious, you did the right thing by telling your DH, now you just need to let him know you need his support in making better choices for yourself, not someone to police your intake. start with your next meal and work your way from there. good luck girl!!
lealee- hop right back on!! hope you had a better day today!!
Arught guys this week I was really stressed and depressed. I didn' workout at all, and today I had a huge binge I ate:
4 pieces of cookie cake
2 Good Humor Bars
1/2 a large loaf of rye bread
Filet mignon
2 ears of corn
french fries
pancakes
and chcolate pudding.
Today was my worst binge EVER. I didn't even realize how much I ate until I wrote it all out. I feel like a fat pig. I feel ugly and ashamed,I feel like a failure. I was doing well but this week was so tough for me. I had not posted a binge in a while!
I need a group hug guys, I am really low. I don't know how I let myself do this today. I didn't leave the house today and I guess I just went at it. I had to keep shoving the food down my throat, but I guess while I am eating it I feel numb and comnforted.I haven't been so ashamed in a while.
I hope you are al doing better than me, but I haven't been on for a while so I will have to read everyone's posts.
TTYL ladies
Kristen There you are!!! I was about to send out a search party. Oh, I am so sorry you had a bad binge. Here's a bunch of hugs: Yes, if you read back, we've all been having a rough time (when are we not having a rough time? ) I did something AWFUL yesterday and binged a whopping 3 seperate times. I hadn't done that in a long time. I hope we both have a better day tomorrow. And I'm going to a friend's house out of town for the day, but thankfully she is on weight watchers, so we won't be bingeing like we used to do in high school.
Put this binge behind you, bury those bad feelings, and move on. You're beautiful and strong and you can get past this. Keep in the fight.
Kristen, you are so NOT a failure, sweetie. You came here and wrote down your binge, and you feel badly about doing it. That's huge!! Put yesterday behind you and move on. We're all here for you, hon.
Catherine, don't be sorry you told your DH. You'll have more support than if you kept it a secret. Let it go, hon.
I hope graduation goes well for your son!
I ate half a bag of Doritos yesterday, but it was a conscious decision, and was my dinner and snack. After a miserable day of waxing floors, I felt I needed a little something. To my delight, I did NOT enjoy them!
Hello everyone,
I haven't been on in a while. That's because I haven't been able to face up to my uncontrollable binging.
I binged like crazy last night on chocolate and bread and cheese and cookies. I felt so sick afterwards. I still feel sick this morning.
I don't understand why I do it to myself. I don't enjoy binging. And I know that with each binge I am undoing all the hard work that has made me lose weight. I really don't want to go back up but I can't seem to stop it.
I think I'm like you Kristin. When I eat I go numb and don't have to think about anything else. I'm feeling pretty down at the moment for a bunch of reasons and until I get more positive I won't be able to stop binging.
Im trying desperately to work up the courage to tell my parents about this. They know that sometimes my eating gets outta control but they don't know to what extent.There's no way I can tell my friends, wonderful as they are they would not understand why someone would eat until they feel sick.
I wish binge-eating was recognised as serious eating disorder like anorexia and bulimia. Maybe then I'd get some proper help.
Sorry for so much complaining I just needed to talk about it.
When will this vicious circle end?
Thanks for the support ladies, you are so helpful I am going to do something for me today. and it won't be eating the entire cdontents of the refrigerator.
Arrghh, I feel like I'm going mental! I've been so stressed out lately,and my old anorexic tendencies are coming back! I fasted on Friday, then on Saturday I had a HUGE binge of homemade middle eastern food (curry, hummus, etc.). I panicked and cried and cried and haven't been out of my house since. I haven't eaten anything but watermelon and celery today, but I still feel like a cow. Every time I take a bite I'm running to the mirror to make sure I can still see my ribs.I hate this! I'm miserable when I'm not eating, but I'm even more miserable when I do eat! I know I would feel much better if I just ate regular sized meals on a regular basis, but I guess if it were that easy we wouldn't have this forum. This long weekend is just dragging on and onnnn, with just the two of us here all alone... me and my refrigerator.
I'm sorry for the rambling rant, but I just needed to spew it somewhere.
I hope everyone else is feeling a bit less crazy than I am. May you all have strength and happiness during your holiday!
BelleDeJour: Unfortunately I havenīt something essential to say that would help you- there are people in this forum who are better at that...I just wanted to say that I am thinking of you, I am sorry that you have a bad time. Donīt give up, tomorrow is a new day to start new. To be over- correct: somewhere in this wide world is morning. Thanks to the time zones.
Oh, and I want to use a few smileys:
Yes, eating regular sized meals on a regular basis would be extremly helpful for people with EDs- I guess nobody here will discuss that. But suggesting that is like saying "Hey, I have a really, really, really good idea: just stop drinking alcohol" to a alcoholic.
OK I survived not one but two weekend barbecues but didnt come out unscathed I had wayyyy too many Budweiser Selects (8) on Saturday and too much bbq then sunday I did not have any beer (one day a week for drinking is my limit...funny how i can control one thing but not another) but I overate then we went to sonic last night too! we went to Walmart to buy me a float for the pool and we were all hungry and loaded up on icecream I got some that i will have to work to keep out of but i think i can do it...Ice cream is not really a weakness food for me. I made the kids get popcicles made with 100% fruit juice so theirs is healthy and I also bought more healthy snacks and meals so that I am surrounded by them. But then went to Sonic and ordered food and added Mozzerella sticks too (which i ate on the way home but shared with the kids so i only ate 2 instead of my normal 5) I ordered a cheese burger with tots sonic sized with a slush...only ate half the burger half the tots and then only a few drinks of the slush....(needed to prove to myself that i could stop when satisfied instead of stuffed)
Today has sucked but it will get better.
breakfast was one serving miniwheats (frosted) and 1 cup skim milk (trying that 24 in 24 thing with milk)
but then TOM hits (pms of it at least) and i had 6 SIX!!! chunky chocolate chips ahoy cookies and dipped them in coffee (but didn't drink the coffee...a big victory for a caffiene addict) But I will be better the rest of the day because that craving is gone and I am ready to face the day... I held myself accountable (even taking off 1/2 cookie from Fit day because one of them broke in half and fell into the coffee and i didn't eat it ) those cookies added up to a whopping 440 calories!! but i ahve to say thats less than the 2-3 little devils(debbies) that i would normally have a day.....and for the record there are THREE packages of devil squares in my cabinet that have been untouched by me in the last week! that is huge for me....lol
Heres to having a good day and working out today (although i would rather drown myself in Debbie Macomber alllll day)
Belle I'm sorry you had such a rough weekend. I hope you managed to make peace with your refrigerator. And I'm telling you, even if you ATE a cow, you still would NOT be a cow. Put the weekend behind you (and today if it was bad) and have a strong week this week. End the month on a high note.
Kate Oh, please you have great advice, and you always make everyone laugh!!! You've probably given smiles to many who desperately needed one or had been feeling absolutely horrible about themselves. I should really think about that ~ somewhere in the world it is morning, and it's time to start over now instead of when I see my sun come up.
Sharon Oh wow, I couldn't drink that much. I'd fall to the ground and be there for days. I'm done after a 1/2 glass of wine/champagne (not even kidding). I guess it's a good thing, since every ONE of my paternal/maternal older male relatives recovering/active alcoholics. I don't need another addiction to deal with. My dad has been recovered for 18 years (YAY!!!). You know I tried that 24 in 24 thing and it didn't seem to have an effect on my weight loss. I still lost, because I was still dieting/exercising, but it didn't speed it up, so I abandoned it. Let me know if it works for you and I might give it another go. I actually thought about doing a (mostly) dairy fast to see if that does anything. But I've heard too much dairy may give you calcium deposits in the form of kidney stones (YIKES!!), so I'm not sure about that. I bet Debbie Macomber is a romance novelist (see I remember ) I'm not even going to look her up.
Okay okay I need to confess, I did something incredibly stupid yesterday. I went to a restaurant, ordered a SALAD, came home that night and BINGED. And on Saturday, my diet consisted of cookies, jelly beans, malted milk balls (old easter candy) and chocolate. And I seem to remember mashed potatoes and pizza somewhere in there. BUT I have been up on my exercise, so I do feel better because of that, but why do I always lose it on the weekend. I do AMAZINGLY in the week and the weekend hits, and BOOM! I lose it. It really sucks. Blech! And to top it off, I got my period a week early!!! I think it was everyone talking about theirs!! Mine has synchronized with everyone else's on here. Thanks a lot every body!!
Okay, I'm with you. Thanks, hon. 
maybe I should not have told him
) I did something AWFUL yesterday and binged a whopping 3 seperate times. I hadn't done that in a long time. I hope we both have a better day tomorrow. And I'm going to a friend's house out of town for the day, but thankfully she is on weight watchers, so we won't be bingeing like we used to do in high school. 
) I'm not even going to look her up. 