Hi guys

It been a bad week for me, I need your encouragement so badly.. It started Tuesday, had a relatively good day till I got home for supper.. I was so hungry!! I was making 3 cheese tortellini, salad and garlic toast. I was so hungry that I decided to make a quick hotdog before I started cooking, and then I had a really large helping of pasta and tons of the garlic bread. Next day same story, good during the day and fall apart at home! Still had leftovers from night before so took some for lunch, came home had another large helping and topped it of with a slush and a Cadbury thins chocolate bar. Last night not bad, made nachos with beef, peppers, but my ex who staying with me at the moment had a big bag of ketchup chips, helped myself to about 4 handfuls... (I don't even really like ketchup chips) and today at work they had a big meeting this morning and there was muffins, and donuts from timmies. I had a chocolate chip muffin, and when I went to get more water a grabbed a glazed donut.. Why, I don't know.. I need to stop this before I really start to get out of control..

Other than the binging this week it has been fantastic, things are going very well in my life right know so I don’t know what is triggering this lose of control!

Good Luck latinpear, maybe we can get ourselves back on track!! I have not even weighed myself this week (Normally I am a complusive) I am scared.

ARGH
binged today
2 big bowls of cereal
bagel w/ LOTS of pb
pb right out of the jar

i haven't thrown up and i'm not going to

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i'm visiting my HIGHLY critical grandmother this weekend and i KNOW she's going to mention my weight
i wanted so badly to be unbloated when i saw her but noooooo

Nicklewise, welcome!
We all know what you're going through, hon. You've come to the right place.
Do you think you may be "out of control" with your eating times? I know everyone is different about whether they eat three or six meals a day, how much or when they eat, etc, but you need to find a rhythm that works for you. It sounds as though you're genuinely hungry at times, and when you're hungry; for us bingers, it can be too late to stop a fast-food or snack attack.
I've learned that I have to have three meals and three snacks a day. It keeps me fueled, I'm never hungry, and that cuts down on most of the binging.

Harpo, stop buying those potato flakes, sweetie.
Have you ever made roasted veggies? I'm sorry... I know I'm sounding very sanctimonious lately, but I'm making some right now, and they're really yummy and healthy. Maybe you just need to take a little step to start with. Find some stuff that you love that's even a little healthier than what you're eating right now.
I think the notion of completely going without comforting food is too much for us at times. We need to ease ourselves up the ladder, because we sure as heck aren't going to slide up it. Big hugs, hon...

Latinpear, how are you doing? Same goes for you... it's the little steps that are going to get us where we want to go. There's no instant heal around here, hon. Hang in there!!

Fatty_nomore, put it behind you, girl. And don't let your grandmother cause you stress. Start expressing yourself NOW while you're still young. Don't wait until you're 41. sigh. Don't put yourself through the grief.
Tell your grandmother that your weight is not a topic you care to discuss.
And if my mother is reading this... "I'm the size of a small mountain and I really don't give a hoot about your struggles to lose 15 pounds."

Hey everyone,
I'm still going strong but it's the weekend now and the weekend is usually when I binge. I'll try to be strong, I promise.
Harpo, mashed potatoes and grilled cheese sounds sooo good! But don't worry about the popcorn. I don't know about the States, but here a bag of popcorn (30grams) has only about 140 calories. Now that's without butter. I use popcorn to stop my cravings for fattier versions like Doritos and Pringles etc.
At the moment I'm avoiding bread because my stomach is really bloated. And to be honest once I start on eating a slice of bread I can't stop. I love the white stuff!
Today I think I'll buy a magazine when I'm out so that I'll have a treat without it being over 300 calories in value.
God, I hope I can stick with it.
Good luck everyone.
Any mothers, happy mothers' day! We had ours a couple of months ago.
Maria

i'll spare you all the gory details, last night was bad!! just a terrible out of control thing. i'm going to blame the margarita i had and just move on today.

Alright, so I am having a good and bad week.
Its good because I worked out 3 days this week and I ate OK. I didn't so so well though, 2 days this week I had french fries. And I had a bagel with butter everyday for lunch Monday-Fri. I had a huge binge on Swedish fish this weekend which was not good. Other wise I didn't do to bad. I am going to try adn exercise, wish me luck!

hope you are all doing better than I am

Maria- I usually binge on the weekends too I am around food the most on weekends.

I am suppossed to weigh in this week tommorrow, the thing is yesterday i went on the scale adn it syas i gained 5 lbs! This is impossible, I am exercising and eating pretty good, so there it must be that I am getting bloated from PMS. I usually gain like 5lbs of water weight during it-seriously!. It drives me crazy. Anyway I better go practice jumps for cheer, they look really cra*py. I am having second thouhgts about trying out this year and waiting until next year because I am not in good enough shape to pull of the moves.

Kristen, don't feel bad. I'm sure your jumps are great and that you are just low in confidence right now. We don't have cheerleading in Ireland. We're not as big into sports in school like the States. In fact that's probably one of the reasons for the huge increase in obesity levels among Irish teenagers. We're getting our first ever fat camp soon in Dublin. The thought makes me cringe. Why does eating have to be such an issue?
I binged on bread, cheese and biscuits last night. There was no reason, I didn't even want the stuff. It's so frustrating sometimes!
Sorry for ranting. JustJodi, I really like your attitude. I'm gonna move on today too.

Cadburys- Thanks for your support. I am Irish and everyone in my family eats alot so wjat your saying makes a lot of sense lol. I think I may end up doing some kind of running sport in the fall. I will probably like that better, and really, my jumps really are bad. It's ok though not everyone can jump in teh air and do a split adn I am just oen of them I think the only reason I really wanted to cheer is because i like the idea of it but after that there's not much else I care about with it so it only makes sense ofr me not to do it. Teh otehr sport I am thinking about doing I actually like to do. I don't do it just for the glamour of it.
I binged last night too, and todays mothers day so that means more bingeing for dinner uggh! anyway for all teh mothers out htere happy mothers day!!!! you are like mothers to me!

Well, I can't say that I have binged but I have not been eating too properly. The healthiest I have had is the bowl of cereal my daughter gave me on the couch this morning for Mother's day and the PB coated banana I had with her this afternoon. I did eat two though. Yes, I said breakfast onthe couch. We take care of my father in law who has dememtia. Either myself or my husband sleep on the couch every night to watch out for him. This is not good for my marriage or my binging. I really miss sleeping with my husband beside me. We have been doing this since Christmas. We had one month free of it when we were able to put him in a home. But we could not get the help financially to keep him there. He makes too much for assistance but not enough to pay for it. My binging started back real heavy when he came home, I about had a nervous breakdown. That is when my weight loss stopped. And the gain began again! It is so depressing. I am hoping and praying and going to try real hard tomorrow to not binge and to go work out. BUt then again tomorrow is not here yet. Please think of me tomorrow someone, I will need it.
I will get to personals eventually! You all seem so wonderful and yummy! Yes, I am thinking of food right now. Have a great Mother's day back to all of you!
Catherine

Catherine, I'm so very sorry about your current situation. Is there any way you can get someone in about once a week so you and your husband can have a bit of a "date night"? I'll keep you in my prayers, dear girl.

Kristen, you sweet girl... we love you.
Keep on jumping, hon!!

Big hugs for all the bingers here.
Myself included.

Hey y'all,
I wish I had a computer at home, because I really needed support this weekend! I went to this new sushi restaurant with my mother on saturday, and I was sooo worried that I would binge, since sushi is my absolute FAVOURITE food. I was so stressed that I only had some green tea, and ended up going back home and bingeing on soup anyway. I guess that kind of defeated the purpose. The ironic thing is that I was planning on telling her about my eating disorder that day, but she seemed was so happy to see me, I just couldn't mess that up.

I had to work all day sunday, so luckily that kept me too busy to really think about food.

I also joined an anorexia support group, but I've recently started taking a lot of diet pills, so I think they kind of cancel each other out.

I hope everyone out there is doing well, and that all the mothers were treated just as great as they deserve to be treated yesterday. Strength and support to you all, I don't know what I'd do without you!

BelleDeJour,

I hope you start feeling better soon. You will be ok, at least your talking about your problems and that is a really good step! Keep it up!

Ellis,

I think your right about the amount of time I eat a day, I am going to incorporate a few more healthy snacks!

Thanks

I've never posted here before, I wish I never needed to. (I wish none of us did...) Well, this is really hard for me. I started eating better in the 2nd week of March. I successfully avoided binging longer than I ever have in my life. Until this week. The past five days have been miserable. Nothing going on emotionally. I'm not sure what triggered this. The first three days I ate probably 3500 calories a day, just eating constantly. Pretzels, candy, fast food. The last two days I've eaten well over 5000 calories a day. That is so hard for me to admit. I feel disgusting and ashamed of myself. I don't even know how I stuff it all in. Physically it feels horrible. And I'm so pissed at myself. Well, it is over now, I'm starting over today. It will be one day binge free. I will go from there. I know there will be damage on the scales, I'm scared to see how much. I figure posting this here is my way of ending it. Well thanks for listening.

cryan313

We have all been there, the important thing is to try to get back on your plan of action. I have to learn to not beat myself up when I fail! It so hard though, I feel like if I make one slip during a day the whole day has been shot! It helps to come to 3FC and talk about it. You know that people here really understand what you are going though, makes it alot easier when you know your not alone!