It's good to see that i'm not the only one that feels like a pig at the moment (not that anyone here is!) I don't even wana say what i've had cause i'd feel so embarrased but it's hardely dinner time and i've had so much to eat already... Is it just me or does anyone else have days where they don't feel like they wana eat anything but on other days you just want to sit in your house and eat and do nothing else?

And also, i'm more likely to binge when i've had a really healthy snack for lunch (how the **** does that happen?!?!?!)

It's my prom on thursday and i'm worried i won't fit into my dress, i haven't dared try it on since i bought it :'( I want a hug!

Leah, sending you a big hug, sweetie... Why don't you go and try that dress on now? Don't leave it until the last minute. If it's a bit tight, pick up one of those little tummy-tucker things to wear underneath it. It'll get you through the night. Hang in there, girl...

OK exercise is up but eating is stupid stupid stupid!

I have had 1433 calories today....TWO bowls of brownie sundaes.....not gonna tell you how to make them! I will not be responsible....I HATE ice cream....I threw the cookies away this morning when I almost binged on them again....Ice cream may soon follow the cookies in the trash. I am so sick with myself at the moment...but I am going healthy for the rest of the day and hope.... NO not HOPE..... I WILL make tomorrow better...I am near tears at the moment..this is a new low for me and i hate myself for it....I want so bad to be healthy but can't control myself around junkfood!

and yesss debbie macomber is romance and she is AWESOME I am reading her cedar cove series right now and it is great! ....in fact since im not hungry (because of the ice cream) I am going to skip lunch and go out to the hammock (or pool float) and read some more while the kids are at school...

Hey Ellis- after reading your post i plucked up the courage to try on my dress, and guess what, it still fits! thankyou! At least i can leave my mind to rest until the big night now, :-D Hey, maybe i will use one of those tummy tucker things to hold my stomach in after all that food lol... my mum has one (and is btw thinner than me! how embarrasing!) but i'm sure i could squeeze into it.

I'm sorry u were low today LeaLee, i hope you feel better as the day goes on xx

Welcome to the thread leah!!!! Yes, I believe we all have those days of not wanting to eat anything and then days of wanting to eat everything (well I do anyhow). I think some of us unfortunately only have days of wanting to eat everything, but we try to fight it. I can't empathize with you about wanting to binge after a healthy snack, but I'm sure someone on here can!! Happy prom!!!!

Sharon I'm sorry you are having a rough time . . . but at least you are coming on here and admitting it whereas you could be having a rough time and not be honest about it. Don't be upset, just take a deep breath and make better choices the rest of the day. You will feel better by the end of the day if you do.

I don't think you need to tell a bunch of girls with eating disorders how to make a brownie sundae I'm sure we all could manage. But unless you have a special recipe you'd like to share . . .

Ooooh, jealous. I want a hammock. Not fair. I should get one. I deserve it. I think I have a couple of trees close enough in my backyard. I bet I can find one on Ebay!

No confessions for me, although I did have an impure thought about a Hershey bar . . .

I had a nagging feeling that I missed somebody!!! You were in my head, Cadbury's, but you got swallowed up in a synapse. SORRY!!!

I HAVE noticed your absence, and I was wondering where you went off too. I'm sorry to hear you've been having a tough time. I wish binge eating was recognized more as well, because I'm sure this disease has been the indirect cause of death for millions of people. But the disease takes longer to kill you than anorexia or bulimia can, and that's probably the reason it's overlooked in the eating disorders spectrum.

Please don't go away again. We're here for you until you can garner up nerve to tell your parents or your friends. We can get through this together. Much strength.

hey guys.. i havent posted here before but i need to today... i go to college in a small town in NY and this past weekend was move-out weekend, after graduations and the spring semester.. and i am here alone now (i am going home next weekend due to money issues).. my bf was here for the past two days visiting me (we are in a long distance relationship) and today i saw him off on the bus back to his home..andnow it is really lonely and i cant sleep and i dont know of anyone else who is here now.. and due to boredom/loneliness/who knows what, i have consumed the following in the past 6 hours:

three cartons of raspberries
large spinach salad with mozzarella and italian dressing
spinach in butter sauce in a microwaveable packet
a jello sundae toppers cup
a mandarins in orange jel cup
half a bagel with plain tofutti spread
six slices of yves tofu turkey
two veggie burgers topped with mozzarella and half a bottle of marinara sauce between them
two large pieces of ice cream cake
three popsicles


i dont know whats wrong with me.. i am aware that i feel really sad but my bf is asleep and i dont want to wake him bc he has to get up early for work.. i purged a few times in between eating and it made me feel better but after that i just return to the fridge..
oh what to doooooooo....

I'm sorry you feel this way brownsugah, I know i felt that way yesterday. I've tried to purge a few times but i just can't bring myself to do it... My sister has Bulimia and it has gotten to the point where she has several medical problems associated with it, she now has to take iron tablets and some vitamin tablets because purging made her vitamin count go dangerously low... Even though i know all this, i can't help looking at her and thinking about how i want to be thinner too.

But is it all worth it? I just can't do it...

brownsugah, I'm so sorry you had a rough night. I wish I knew what to tell you. Our emotions play such a huge role in an eating disorder. I can only hope that you can put this behind you and move on, and that today will be a better day for you. Big hugs, sweetie...

Leah, I'm so glad your dress fits! I used to wear one of those tummy tuckers to parties... I was so squashed that I wasn't able to eat too much.
Have fun at your grad tomorrow night!

Sending big hugs to all of you bingers... I'm right there with you, I'm afraid. I had a binge last night, but I'm hoping for a better day today.
Good luck to everyone!

Thanks alot Ellis i'm sure i'll have a lovely night now!

Thanks for the positive attitude!

Leah xxx

yea ellis thank you so much.. today was a little bit better while the sun was out because i went walking around town but when the sun goes down and it starts to get creepy, i get restless...

brownsugah As I welcome you to the thread, I'm sorry you had to post here!!! I hoped you managed to have a better day today. Is it easier to keep in control when you are at home? I know it is for me because I can't just do it freely and have to be careful that I don't get caught. But others find their parents to be stressful and they exasperate the problem (I don't). I'm a million times worse when I'm living on my own.


Okay, I have a confession. I ate 3 pizza & basil veggie burgers, 1 spicy chicken patty, 2 slices of pizza, a big bowl of slightly undercooked banana bread, laffy taffy, a sucker, and an orange. I get so mad at myself when I eat my healthy food in a binge. That was 4 days of part of my lunches I ate in that binge. GRRRRRR.

And I'm almost desperate to eat more. I want more veggie burgers. They are so tasty.

I'm going to have a cup of tea and hope the cravings diminish.

Oh, curses.
Yesterday I ate a mixing bowl full of cereal, most of a large bag of Cheetos, two big bowls of high-fat/calorie homemade macaroni and cheese. And I'm up a couple of pounds. I just want to shovel everything into my face. CURSES!!!!

I'm going to write everything down in my food journal today... regardless of what I eat.

I hope we can all make it over to the binge-free thread soon.

i twisted my right ankle so running is out the question. needless to say, i'm devestated by this and as a result, have been eating uncontrollably

i don't want to put down what i've eaten but i've had well over 4000 calories today and it's only 2 o'clock

Hi Ladies.

I'm new to this one. I'm Fatt Lady, but feel free to call me Flady or Just plain lady. Here is my intro if you are interested: http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/showthread.php?t=83939

I am posting here because I "binged" well I think I did. Not so sure. I'm new to this area. But we ate lunch and instead of "stopping" when I was full, I kept eating. I usually try to put the food away after I'm full so I stop. But this time for some reason I did not. I don't even know why. I'm not upset or down or anything today.

Anyways. I hope that its okay I posted here? If not I appologize. I just didn't know where to turn.

Thanks for listening.

*Flady*