Shy ~ I know, I just get impatient. I have been trying to lose so long that I can remember when I didn't care. I think someone is trying to build character in me or something.
Zenor ~ Those eggs are really cool looking.
Tinky ~ I was glad that I took all my own food because I was able to watch GS while everyone else ate. I was to full from snacking on veggies and the food I brought to eat. LOL!
GS and I colored Easter eggs on Saturday. This was his first year and no one else got to color eggs because he ruled. He didn't complain when they were all gone and I dumped the cups but he had a fit when I put the eggs in the frig because he was hovering over them like they were his little chicks waiting to hatch.
Was successful at both parties as far as I was concerned. I didn't lose or gain anything this weekend which is great because that means I kept the 4 lbs off I lost last week and maybe I can get some more off this week. Saturday's party GS and I ate before we went because he doesn't like to eat at events, to busy. Sunday I ate my own food and passed on all the food that was cooked with the meat. I had enough of my own and was satisfied. GS took one look at his plate of food and took me to the back bedroom. He ate some cheese and chips before they served dinner so he didn't want anything.
Falafel was a hit. My Sis said she wouldn't like it because it had Chickpeas in it but she ended up eating 3/4 of what the mix makes. Lets say she got a little gassy. No one ate the pasta salad. Dad tried it, didn't like the tomato basil pizza burger. My Sis tried it but despises bell peppers. Mom gets to worked up when everyone is there and didn't eat any. My YDD and I ate some but I have lots left for the week. My Brother loved the organic blue corn chips I took and even told his wife that those are the kind she is to buy. The falafel was all gone before he got there so he couldn't try it. I think I am the only one that ate the hummus but that is alright I have lots for the week.
Even though they were open to trying they definitely saved room for the meal.
So I am changing my avi to reflect where I really am as of now. I was 177 last Monday and today I am 173. Some was bloat I am sure because I ate bad the previous weekend but this weekend I kept it together.
Well I better get going for now and do some work. I will talk to you all later.
Irish ~ Thanks for listening and allowing me to vent, I sure need it at this p point. Unfortunately that is Jose's (GS) Mom and yes she just had another in January which I have purposely stayed unattached. For the past month I have had my GS every day but dropped him off at her house and picked him up just like it was my daycare. Well today she is having a temper tantrum over the fact that I don't have the money to buy her new baby some formula. It's almost $30 a can for the larger size and $17 for the small. She gets food stamps ($450 a month) and WIC (free formula for infants provided by the state). I shouldn't have to buy him formula. So its my fault he doesn't have formula just like its her BF Sis's fault he doesn't have diaper whips. His Sis blew her money instead of buying my DD's baby diaper whips. LOL! Like its the Sis's responsibility? She has 5 kids of her own.
I was like you Irish with my kids. If I wasn't at work, I had them. I couldn't do what she is doing nor do I understand. The new baby she dumps off on others as much as possible. I think at least 3 or 4 days last week she didn't have him. She only has GS during the day and she drags him all over the country side taking him who knows where, I don't want to know. Now she doesn't even want him during the day.
There are to many issues to mention between the two of us. It all boils down to the fact that I want to her grow up and take responsibility for her life and she was to be a free spirited, irresponsible, spoiled brat that wants to blame all her problems on me and everyone else. I don't feel like taking care of her anymore or putting up with the mental abuse any longer. I also won't make excuses for her anymore and told her that.
My other issues with taking GS there during the day is the house is beyond dirty and stinks. My orders today were to lock GS in his bedroom and shut the door because she is to tired to deal with him. So how often is she doing that?
She did buy him an Easter basket and played with him yesterday when she felt like it. I really don't want any hard feelings and would just like custody of Jose and raise him. No one in the family would hold it against her if she just signed custody over to us and would actually consider it the big thing to do since she can't handle two kids.
This is just all very hard and difficult. I some times wonder why but only God knows the answer to that question.
Irish ~ Just a suggestion. Maybe you could practice and do a little show and let people decide which you should do, if you have time. They do look for people that stand out and display a wide vocal range. I just couldn't do it. LOL! I couldn't even walk up on the stage without passing out.
Grammy: WOW!!!!! I think your DD needs a kick in the..can no offense. I am 22 years old and was a very careless free spirited teenager...then I hit 17 and quit drugs and drinking pulled my act together moved out and grew up. I still have fun and where my crazy clothes and hair, I have tattoos, listen to loud music..but I also pay bills, take care of my son, cook dinner, do cleaning and all the other stuff you have to do when your a parent. I think you should force your daughter to sign custody over...the thing that worries me is what about this new baby. GS's taken care of at least most of the day by you but is this other child being taken care of??? Also I know how expensive formula and diapers can be. My son had to be formula fed and it was a huge expense we didn't count on but we managed to do it...we have a credit card debt but our son never went without. sounds like she should be giving you money a month to buy all the necessities for her children because she obviously can't manage money on her own. I am so sorry you have to go through this. but she needs to sign custody over to you leaving a small child locked in his room all day is child abuse and if you don't get custody eventually childrens services will remove the babies and then god knows where they will go
as for my song choice. I did a mini concert for my inlaws...and a seperate one for my sister and mom. all of them said my second song...the one my singing coach wants me to sing sounds like talking :S but I just recorded myself on my crappy sound recorder on the computer and the other song sounds bad where I think that one sounds good. but i don't know. I think my stomach ache maybe from all this stress of trying to pick a song.
Irish ~ The new babies Aunt on his Dad's side takes him a lot and checks up on him. When Will was born I tried to bond with him but its almost like a wall was put up in front of me. Eventually I think he will end up with his Aunt like I have Jose. His Dad and my DD both want to live care/worry free and you can't do that with kids.
HMMMMM! Hard call on the songs and it would tear me up inside also. I know the last round here in the US they were looking for unique and the talking would be unique. There were a few that got it that I was amazed but Simon stated he liked their unique personalities. Just make sure your personality can be seen through the song your singing.
Wanted to stop in and say hello. Was gone all weekend and I am going to take the day to relax. House is done, shopping at all but one store is done. Today is a relax. My feet need the break after 8 hours of shopping and 10 hours standing scooping out food for everyone lol. I am so sorry there are those of you having such troubles. Sometimes, it doesn't matter how we raise our children. They are going to go out and do what they want to do.
Hey all. Wow. This last week was my spring break for school, and it's the Monday back, and class is draaaaging. Oy. I even enjoy the professor I see the most today, but I had so much fun on my break, I don't want to be back here. During break I planted some tomato plants, and even a little herb garden with some yummy spelling italian herbs. I cannot wait until they are ready, and I can make yummy herb chicken, or super fresh tomato sauce! I also picked out some colors to paint my bookshelves, and I would rather be home painting than sitting in class. My main worry is that my classes are 2 hours long, and I'm a bit fidgity, so I like to multi-task while I listen - snacking is a favorite. I would rather be doing an activity like painting, than sitting in class, where my hands are free to snack, not paint. Boo. My diet went really well during my break, and I don't want to slip now that I'm back in school. I just have to keep reminding myself that I have to change my lifestyle, and the longer I do stick to plan, the more my body will change with my lifestyle.
On a dorkey note, I saw the movie Enchanted. Anyone see it? I think Amy Adams has the type of body I think is perfect - toned and not stick skinny, but just beautiful. The songs from that movie have been going through my head all day and keeping me giddy. It's a good feeling.
Hope everyone is happy today, and I'm sure I'll "talk" to you soon!
I ate way too much this weekend! I've been on a hormonal rollercoaster since TOM started! Boy, I don't usually have mood swings like this. Add into that the fact that holidays are just hard on me and all I can say is I did a lot of emotional eating. Oh well... I'm feeling better today and I'm back on track.
Irish~I say go with unique. That's just my 2-cents.
Audrey~I can't wait until I can start planting! Our last frost isn't until around Memorial Day, so I have to wait.
GrammyL~I'm sorry your DD is giving you so much grief! Your GS is very lucky to have you as a good stable influence!
Zenor - I hope that the planting season comes soon for you! The fragrance and sunshine is wonderful, and it makes healthy cooking so very fun. Thanks for responding!
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GrammyL- I'm sorry that you're having a bad time with DD. How awful, but I do agree with Zenor, that it's great that you're in Jose's life. He does need someone, stable, nurturing,and loving in his young but, informative life. I do hope that one day you will have custody of him. Even though I don't have children of my own, yet, I would like to think that children are true blessings. On the brighter side, I'm glad that your family was open to try some of the food. Glad that the Falafel was a hit. I love Falafels as well!!!
Irish- You should film yourself singing, and post it on Youtube! I would love to hear you sing! Are we going to see some pics of your pink hair?
Audrey- I LOVED that movie! I've been begging DF to pick it up for me. It's such a cute movie. It brought out the childish but princess side of me. LOL! Not to mention I loved Patrick Dempsey!
Grammy: I understand how you feel about bonding with the new baby. It must be tough to be in your situation. I still believe people should have to have a license to have children
Audrey: YOU CAN DO IT!!!!! What about chewing sugar free gum in class?? I always doodled in class...but I guess thats bad lol
Zenor: Glad your back on track...I over did it this weekend too so we just have to get back on the horse
Tinky: I don't have a web cam to post something on youtube but I do have a recording I did with a really bad mic on the computer but I am not sure how to show you guys it. As for the picture I will try and get one up tomorrow I need to buy camera batteries first
Well I decided to go with the unique song. My coach and my dad (he was a professional singer for years..not famous though) both said it shows my personality, my voice sounds unique and good on that song and my dad says it defenitly doesn't sound like talking after my hubby heard it he said to do it too...so looks like i just need to find my last 2 songs now lol. I am thinking maybe a saving jane song...I dunno. I also need to buy my outfit but I am wiating til the week of because I want to lose more weight by then and if I do I may be in a smaller size ...wishful thinking lol. I still have a stomach ache pretty sure its stress related now well I am gonan try and exercise now...talk to you all later
Thanks for all the notes of confidence. Found out today from one of the top CPA's in our town that I can claim all my daycare and get the earned income tax credit for my GS this year. All I have to do is prove I payed the daycare and had him more than 50% of the time. WHOHOO! As long as DD doesn't flip the switch and take him which I don't think that is likely to happen. She has her hands full with the new baby.
Today was his first day at daycare. I was hard at first because he was scared and somehow knew I was leaving him there. He was hanging onto me like a baby monkey. Then I took him to the play room and he saw the cat, dog and toys and he was rearing to play. He loves her play room, he got to play there a little last night when I took him to meet Theresa the daycare provider. She said this week will probably be the hardest because he has to learn the rules and adjust but by the end of next week it will be routine. She has been doing this for years. I disappeared while he was playing with the tractors. Shew! We talked about some of his issues like lack of social skills which leads to him getting mean with others, knowing how to play with toys and not a big eater. Doesn't seem he has a problem playing with toys there. I need to get individual bins that stack up like she has so he can see what is in each one and decide what to play with. I just have a huge tub they are all dumped in.
Tinky kids are the light of most peoples life unless you are still a spoiled brat yourself. I don't know how he can't be the light of her life, look at this face . This was last summer when he decided to clean my cupboards here at work. He is just a little doll.
They say everyone and everything happens for a reason. We never had a son and my girls always wanted me to have another, maybe that was her goal in life. LOL! This little guy is the light of our world and I am actually appreciate him more than I ever did my girls and lets say they never went without attention or anything they wanted. We sometimes think that is part of ODD's problem, spoiled.
Today is going much better than yesterday to say the least. I can actually smile and mean it. LOL! Yesterday I was smiling because I felt I was going insane. I had one foot in the funny farm and one here at work, or is work the funny farm. HAHAHAHA!
Audrey ~ I am looking forward to getting our garden in but it feels far away right now since its snowing. LOL! We always plant way to many tomatoes but I do my best to eat them all. The chickens love them also.
Shy ~ I have to say I try not to blame myself for her wrong choices. I have one YDD that is determined to make a good life for herself and we praise her all the time for all her hard work. We even praise ODD when she even makes the slightest right decision.
Not to mention I loved Patrick Dempsey! 
. This was last summer when he decided to clean my cupboards here at work. He is just a little doll.