[Shy Moment]

zenor
My father died a few years ago and it is still hard on my children because they miss him very much. We all have sad days, don't beat yourself up to much about the eating. The walk was a great idea. Sounds like it is pretty where you went walking and for me, that can be so relaxing even if I am tired when the walk is over. Will keep you and hubby in my prayers about the job situation. I sure hope you find something where you want to live.

hi lady hello tinky

[amouse]

its not weigh in day but........... i broke into the 260's this morning.... woohooo. it sounds so nice 260- something lol rather then 270 or 280 csomething lol ... hehe..

[Shy Moment]

amouse
Congrats. It always feels great to get into that next 10's down from where we have been. I hope you did a little ya ya dance

[GrammyL]

Irish ~ I did great until last night got all messed up and I can't even say for sure if I messed up since I am not getting on the scale. LOL! Two dangerous things I am doing but I am sure my cloths will tell me if things are going to wrong. I just think that I may have my calorie count to high because I am never hungry and I don't think hunger is really all that bad for us. Could be why I fell bogged down all the time. I may be just processing to much food. LOL!

Shy ~ I find that walks are very relaxing and allow me to clear my head and put life into prospective. When I am tired I just walk slower than when I am wound up.

Amy ~ That is fantastic news. Just proves what your doing is working. Keep up the good work.

I think last night was a wash. DD called when I got out of work and I had to take Jose to the doctor. She finally figured out he was really sick. His RSV is back and he has ear infection. So back on his breathing treatments and antibiotics for the ear infection. Hopefully this will get him all better now. DH showed up after we got their and he kept saying Jose was fine because he was running around like a crazy little guy. Thank goodness I told him its better to have him checked. I made it plain and clear to DD that she is to continue his treatment until all his meds are gone and not stop just because he seems better. Jose is one of those kids that as long as he isn't running a high fever he is on the move. Fevers knock him flat.

The SIDS thing is crazy. Maybe its good that my DD never kept her babies in a crib. She always let them sleep with her, on older mattresses or in their seats. It just scares me infants and children sleeping on their backs because of spit up. I always kept mine on their sides.

Do any of you have smells that just make you happy, not hungry, happy. I have those smells that make me hungry to but this smell makes me happy. I know that sounds nuts but I used some moose I have used since last summer and just the smell of it put a smile on my face.

Well I better get going and get some more work done.

[irishfairy]

Zenor: Sorry about your dad! birthdays are hard my grandmother raised me along with my mom and she passed away 3 years ago. I get days like you that I am really sad I miss my nan terribly.

Tinky: I will keep you guys a up to date as possible. I can let you know if I get to the judges ( I have 2 auditions before the judges) but then I can't let you know if I made it to top 100 until it airs here in canada. I will let you know as soon as I can though.

Amy: CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grammy: I have been having some bad days lately too. I had a sm peanutbutter cup blizzard at DQ sunday (my inlaws bought it ) and then monday I ate about 1/4 of my husbands banana split from there. Icecream is my biggest temptation

well I have had a crazy last couple of days. I got my income tax and went shopping for my canadian idol outfit. I bought a pair of spandex type jeans and am not sure how I look in them but I am wearing a long tip over top of it and a zip up hoodie. I bought really cute accessories all black a white with skull and crossbones ( a hair band, earrings, rings and wrist bands) I bought new shoes with skull and crossbones too. I got second hole in my ears done as a treat for myself for losing 40lbs, I am gonna get a third hole or cartlidge done when I lose another 20. I fired my singing coach because I did some research on what a singing coach is supposed to do and Iam paying 25 dollars for stuff I am not getting he is always late and never organized one day I was over 1/2 an hour late coming out because he was supposed to record me and it took him 45 min th put the equipment together and my class is only 30 min. He makes me download music and sing with the orginal recording instead of putting it in piano music and changing the key to suit me. He tried to tell me I had to do the song he picked for canadian idol and do it his way even thoguth I wasn't comfortable. I now have less the 2 weeks left til my audition and I feel kind of lost because I have no on eto tell me where I am off key. I am taking my mom out to dinner tonight for doing my taxes so I am eating out AGAIN!! also I asked my mom to remind my sister I wanted 2 pairs of pants I lent her until I could fit into them and my mom gave me a lecture about how I am a mom now and not teenager and I shouldn't wear that type of clothes the pants in question are black with a flare at the bottem the flare has purple stars on it. and the others are balck wide leg with chains ( I am cutting off the chains) It made me feel like a bad person wanting to express my style and the clothes I like. not to mention I paid 100 dollars for each pair of pants and there mine to decide what I want to do with them....any ways thanks for letting me vent

[GrammyL]

Irish ~ You get those pants back! Just because your a Mom doesn't mean you can't be who you want to be. I wear the same pants my girls do. The both get mad because I am smaller than they are and the look better on me. They both gave me hassles at first when I started wearing them but I put them in their place. Your are only as old as you feel. You are young, not a frumpy old lady. If they make you feel good wear them.

Shoot your Mom would have a fit with my DD because her boobs are always on the verge of falling out of her shirts. To each their own. I sometimes have to look away because I don't want to see them but that is her own choice. DH asks her to cover them up when he is around because he doesn't want to see them.

Did you say your Dad was a singer. Maybe he knows someone you can train under temporarily or he can help you.

[irishfairy]

Grammy: The weird thing about my mom is half the clothes she wears her boobs are coming out the top. My mom has always wore stylish clothes and never dressed like an old lady. Infact she steals my sisters clothes. but the thing she hates is I was always a tomboy not so much anymore but I love my punk style clothing...tank tops, jeans or baggy pants, piked belts, crazy hair, piercings, tattoos, skateboard shoes. I was the first girl in the moshpit at a concert and the last person picked in gym class. lol. I was the artistic, missunderstood, outcast teenager who got average or below average grades in everything but music, photography and drama. my sister is an honer student. popular, girly, she wears heels, skirts, has perfect curly black hair, pretty blue eyes and dark italian tanned skin and is a size 5. my sister is also and identical replica of my mother same hair, height, attitude, personality. It was well known by anyone that knows my family that my sister was favoured. Some people didn't believe me until they came to my house for the day and listened to my mother. my mother would much rather have a party girl, popular, half naked daughter then a outcast daughter who wears weird clothes and walks around with headphones on all day.

as for my dad... he was in a band for 15 years. The broke up and he hasn't done music since. I hadn't talked to him since I was 8 until about 5 years ago. He ran away with a 15 year old girl that was his girlfriends daughter. I am not very close with him though I have gotten closer this last year. HIs wife (the formentioned girl) passed away last year at 25 from an allergy to antibiotics. so welcome to my jerry springer family lol.
As for help with my singing my dad lost most of his friends when he took off out west with his wife. So he really isnt' much help he listens to my recordings but can't tell me where I am fof he just says they are great....not much help really. and he lives 3 hours away