buffalosister1,
I have been even closer to goal,last June I was down to 154.I immediately went crazy with food and went back up again.When I look back at my book I see that for more than a year I have been gaining and losing the same 5or so pounds.I wish I knew why I do it then maybe I could stop.I go weigh in tomorrow for the first time in more than a month.I will have to pay I know that maybe going back will inspire me to smarten up.

I am stressed, and need to vent...hopefully you girls don't mind :)
Today, at 8am I get a call from my husband. My son isn't listening at home, he's not getting his coat and shoes on, he's not brushing his teeth...he goes on and on, how our son doesn't listen in the morning and he can't deal with it anymore. His solution? Put our son in latch key in the morning. Now mind you, I leave at 7:45am, my husband only has to "deal" with this, until 8am..I get our son dressed, breakfast and most mornings, his teeth brushed. Our son is 9, and yes he should be more responsible in the am, but he's ADHD and the mornings are our hardest. I don't feel, that I should get calls like this, right as my day starts...so of course, my day is shot...I'm in tears, popping xanax just to make it through and then I worry all day, that my son went to school sad cuz his dad was so upset.
After school they stop at my work, everything seemed great. Then I call home around 4pm...Austin is crying, saying dad is yelling at him cuz he's doing his homework wrong, etc. I've tried repeatedly to tell them, to leave homework for me...I'll do it w/him. I understand my husband is stressed, he works 70 hours a week, and w/me working he's only getting about 6 hours/sleep nightly. I seriously think he needs help, I think he needs to speak to someone and possibly go on something to help him deal with life. I don't understand why I am on pills, to deal with him! Granted, I got this Rx about 2 months ago, and have only taken 5 total...but still, it's not fair.
Part of me, wants him to go live at his parents while they're in Florida, just to see what life would be like seperated. As much as I do love him, I hate him just the same.
Alittle background, I was raised knowing my dad was #1 to my mom. That was an awful feeling growing up. My son is #1 to me, and my reasoning...my husband is an adult and could survive w/out me. My son couldn't.
About 5 yrs ago I filed for divorce. I had my first job since our son was born, and i just felt like if I was doing everything anyhow, why not do it alone, MY way and be happy. After spending all of our savings on a lawyer, and letting it sit for about 1-2 months...I gave in and cancelled the divorce. Things have been fine since...well, almost. I went back to school 2 yrs ago, and love my job...however, we need me to work. I cannot, at this point afford not to...but how can I work, and be happy...knowing, the mornigns and afternoons that they are together, are **** for my son? I'm just so stressed out, and don't know where to go with all this....He's not the dad I envisioned. He's not the same guy I married, well....he kinda is I guess. He's a very negative person, always sees the glass half empty. His job is having ups and downs and we don't know where things will go, if he'll even have a job in 6 months. It's been like this for years though, one gets tired of the "what ifs" Today he came home telling me everyone is on 8 hours, no weekends. But he isn't. he should be happy, he should be thankful...but no, he's already miserable for the "what if".
How can one live like that? What if? I enjoy life, you never know how much time you have here, why be a jerk while you are.

so sorry, I just needed to type this and figured this was the best place to go.

I'm sorry you are having such a rough time AJsMommy.I wish I could give you the answers but I suffered through a terrible marriage myself.Now that I have a good life I think the way to go is to leave and start over.That isn't always the amswer for everyone.It is a hard choice to have to make,to start over.I think you and your husband should see a councillor,it would be a neutral place to try to sort through your troubles.In the end you have to do what is right for you and your son.

After my long-winded "vent"..I never posted my daily food:

B: latte 3pts
S: bran muffins 3pts
L: Campbells soup at hand 1pt, banana 2pts, dove choc 1pt
S: 100 cal pack 2pt
D: Smart Ones dinner 5pts
WW ice cream 2pts
That's only 19 pts out of 25. Had a hellacious day, wasn't hungry, went to bed early.
According to my scale, am down 2lbs. Go figure.

So far today:

44 oz. water
Breakfast - SmartOnes - Egg McMuffin thingy = 4 pts.
Snack - may have some RiceQuakes-Apple Cinnamon = 2 pts.


Not sure what for lunch yet tho.. I know Dh wants to get chinese for dinner tonight and I haven't had it in a while, so I may reward myself but measure it all out so I can have it a few times and not use any extra points. :D

Hello all. Jennifer, I really hope you have a better day today and find some resolution. That all really sucks. Figure out what will be best for you and your family. I will sent positive thoughts your way.:hug:

My eating over the last two days sucked. I went out for dinner with my friend on Wednesday. I ate too much corn bread and had pasta for dinner.

Yesterday I ate two really thick sugar cookies (iced) from the store. I took them into my son's class. Couldn't leave two in the container. :^:

Funny thing is yesterday I got on the scale in the am as I always do. It read 170.8. OH my!!! so close to getting out of the 170's. Then this morning when I did my usual scale ritual it said 172.2. Man! What a few bad days in a row can do. My energy this morning at the gym was minimal. I work out so much better when I don't eat crappy. Will be good today and will try to figure out how to get through Super Bowl Sunday on points. Basically I used my 35 points I normally use on the weekend over Wednesday and Thursday. This could be an interesting weekend for me. Let's see how I do.

Today:
oatmeal 3pts

meager work out burned only 230 calories. Better than none I suppose.

88 oz. water
Breakfast - SmartOnes - Egg McMuffin thingy = 4 pts.
Snack - may have some RiceQuakes-Apple Cinnamon = 2 pts.
Lunch - bolonga sandwich w/ 100-calorie cheetos = 5 pts.
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11 pts. so far today!!!!!

just finished up with lunch. Man! I want to eat!!!! Maybe PMS hit later than normal. I really want to consume some groceries.

after the gym I shared a bag of 100 cal cheetos with DS. I am not counting them. I know my workout was at least a point.

lunch
hot ham and cheese 3pts
cheetos (AGAIN) 2pts

That's 8 so far today.

I read a thread started regarding whole foods. I really would love to incorporate this into my WW. I just don't know how to live without stuff like the 100 cal packs and my Crystal Light. ????? Baby steps. Maybe I will get there some day.

Wow! I hope the lack of activity this weekend on our thread does not show a lack of eating well. I did okay over the weekend. By this I mean I don't think I gained any weight. However, I did not count points. Just tried to do okay. Scale this A.M. showed straight up 172.

Today

Breakfast
oatmeal are you all surprised??? 3pts

work out at gym with trainer burned 253 calories.

snack
ak-mak crackers 2pts
laughing cow 1pt

Ok let's see,today I have done well for the most part.Damn brownies!

Fibre One 1
milk 1
banana 1
walnuts 1
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lettuce
chicken breast 3
low fat ceasar dressing 2
orange 1
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Homemade corn chowder 4
french bread 2
pepsi 3
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brownie 3

Exercise:
spinning 60 minutes
yoga 15 minutes
elliptical 15

Sorry I've been MIA...we had a family emergency up north (about 5 hours) My grandma was put into ICU...we drove up Sat morn, got home late Sun night...she's been released and hopefully will be ok.
Not sure how my eating was over the weekend, I didn't get much to eat as we were on the road alot, and in the hospital...I tried, but we'll see.

Today:
B: latte 2pts
S: oatmeal breakfast bar thingie 3pts
L: soup at hand 1pt
100 cal pack 2pts
S: fiber one bar 2pts
D: chicken 6pts, potato 1pt, corn 2pts
Later: popcorn 4pts, ww ice cream probably 2pts

That's 25/25.
3 F/V, 1 milk/2 oil/lotsa water :)
Curves workout

Doing better today so far.

Fibre one 1
banana 1
milk 1
nuts 1

ww yogurt 1
orange 1
v8 1

roll 3
peanut butter 1


steak 5
cauliflower 1
cheese sauce 2
pepsi 3
22/22

workout:
weight training class 1hour
elliptical 35m
raquetball 1hour

I hope to god I lose weight this week,I need it to keep me going.

Hope you all are having a good day.

Ugh.. been MIA cause of my sweet TOM.. let me tell ya!!!

Anyways... heres my day:

B=2 eggs and toast = 5 pts.
L=grilled cheese 100.cal - doritoes = 4 pts.
D=speghetti w/ bread = 7 pts.

BAD
half of Dh's twix bar = 3.5 pts.

Thats a total of 19.5 pts even with that bad candy bar. lol I may treat myself to some snacks later.. ;)

I will also weigh in tomorrow after TOM... today was my light day so it should be fully gone tomorrow! YAY!

Crappy crappy crappy! That is how I am doing. Very hungry and very much wanted the wrong foods.


Here's what I did today.

breakfast
waffles w/ spray butter and very little syrup 3pts

bites out of the carton of icecream:o

a few chips

most of a lite sandwich from Quiznos??? 7?
baked chips 2

a frozen yogurt from Golden Spoon 3pts.

I weigh in tonight at 6pm. Hope to maintain. :^:

Buffalosister1 forgive yourself,we all have those days.I would like to make it through one day without eating something I shouldn't.Tomorrow is a new day,start fresh I know you can do it!

Fitbyforty. Thank you! Can't tell you how much I needed that. I am just back from my meeting. I am up a pound. Oh well, I will try to do better. I had to cancel the gym for tomorrow. My four year old is sick AGAIN!!! He is coughing so bad. DH took him to a pediatric urgent care while I weighed in. He has to have breathing treatments every four hours. I hope for a year we can go without using that darn machine. Makes me ill. Anyway, I am going to eat a high point boston market dinner and call it a night. --Amy

I had wi today,and was down 1lb.
My friend called me last night, she's taking a spinning class at the local gym. Does anyone have experience w/these types of classes? I'm alittle nervous about joining her, not sure I'm up for that type of challenge. She takes the class 1x week, and then works out the other days on the machines...I won't join the gym, as I go to Curves...but thought maybe just join that class?

AJsMommy,
Good job on losing this week.I started spinning in Dec.I love it.It is a great workout and you go at your own pace,set the tension on your bike.Work as hard as you want and if you tire slow it down.I burn 700 calories in an hour doing it.One thing, the searts are hard on the butt.I bought a gelseat for my bike at home and now I use it on the spinning bike.It's a lot of fun.

Let's start with the workout cause it is foremost on my mind...I'm dying lol
60m pilates
35 elliptical
60m with personal trainer


Food:
Fibre one 1
banana 1
milk 3
nuts 1
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roll 3
pb 1
orange 1
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Baked fish 4
v8 1
potato 1
some veg 1
pepsi 3
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If I need something else I might dip into flex points.

Holy crap fitbyforty. Nice work out! So wish I could. Wish I had the time, wish I had the determination. I am so not doing well. My son is stressing me out. Almost went to ER last night. The cough was not stopping even after breathing treatments. I asked the Dr via phone if we could do more breathing treatments, she said no. Over use can result in lung collapse. :?: Let's just say it was a rough night. He seems to be doing better today. I took him for a STAT x ray earlier. They should have done one at urgent care. Anyway, I wanted to get him a treat, so we went to McDonald's for lunch. I even bought him a McFlurry. He came to me and said he was done and didn't even want his McFlurry. So, I finished off his fries, 1 nugget, and now his McFlurry. What is my problem???? Could be stress. MIL is coming tonight too. Yeah, it's stress. Anyway, I will check back later.

Jennifer, do the spinning class. They are so fun. It will give you a jump start on wanted to eat well and keep it up. It always does for me. I too have to slow things down a bit though. They "go through the sand" and my bike is more like going over hard dirt. ;) Good luck. Let us know how it goes.

--Amy

Ok, don't laugh...The only picture I had on here, was one of me at Halloween as a cat. Thought I'd try it, I'll have to get one taken soon for ya'll :)

Oh my goodness. What a cute photo. At least you didn't take your own picture(like me). I always laughed at people who took their own photo for web sites. Oh well. I must say I pictured you with long hair (like down to your butt long) straight with bangs. and much lighter hair. You look great even as a cat. ;) I want to try to get some before and afters but it took so darn long just to get my avatar on there. I don't know that I'll ever get a before on there. I have eaten more crap. I will leave it at that. Still have not heard the results of the xray. Will check in again tonight or tomorrow. Have a good one. ---Amy

LMAO, so....in other words, you pegged me for a hippie!! :) Isn't it funny how we get visions of how people look, just from talking to them?
I have, or had several shots I took myself...they all looked dumb, yours turned out great! I will have hubby take a real pic this weekend if I remember and post it....

My hair changes w/the wind...who knows next time you see a pic, what color it will be. It's actually lighter than that pic now, as I have some blonde highlights in now...and as for long hair, nope...I'm a short/sassy kinda gal.

Nice pic AJsMommy.I am working on finding one I like.That is not easy as I am my worst critic.I did get up my progress pics after 6months of bugging my hubby lol.Weigh in today I am praying for a miracle.

Yay!! I am so happy to see what everyone looks like. Especially since my mug is splattered all over our thread. I am not so happy it is a close up. I will work on this later I guess. Takes an act of God to get photos on here.

I ate badly yesterday. Started today off with my normal oatmeal. Hope to eat better as my son is doing better so maybe I won't stress eat so much. My daughter had two teeth pulled this morning. She had two pulled last year. I was stressing over that too. She was worried this time since she knew what to expect. Therefore, I worried. Turned out for no reason though. She is a tough little Booger. She behaves unlike any six year old I have ever seen in medical situations. Makes me very proud of her. Anyhow, I will update you all with my eating as the day goes on.

Fitbyforty, you look great! Impressive to see hard work pay off. Have a great day.

--Amy

Down 2.4 today!!!Finally seeing a result.I was invited to lunch with someone today and since I really don't have friends here I jumped at the chance.Chinese food so we know tracking that is hopeless.Aww today is a washout,tomorrow back on program.

Holy crap Fitbyforty. Great job. I thought you were praying for a miracle???? Excellent. I will remember to have you pray for me in the future. I have been doing just fine today. I guess I really am a stress eater. I hope to see some results this week. I have not been good yet. I weigh in on Tuesday and have two birthday parties to get through this weekend. We leave for Disneyland a week from today. That should be interesting. I am going with a WW friend though. That should help. She started in October and is down 54 pounds or something crazy. She is only about 14 pounds heavier than me now. Kind of makes me feel like crap. I am very happy for her though. Not real sure she is really doing the program though. She may be eating way less than her daily point allowance. She has a history of extreme dieting. You all like how I put all the focus on someone else here? Ha! At least I can see that right???

breakfast
oatmeal 3pts

lunch
ham on wheat with mustard 2pts
baked cheetos 2pts

7 out of 22. I am making chicken tacos for dinner. the chicken is in the crock pot. I will also make Spanish rice. So, two shells with chicken and lettuce and salsa is 5 with a whole cup of rice is 5 more for a daily total of 17 Maybe I will have some of the ice cream that is calling me. We'll see.

Ok, my new "plan" is this....
I work out at Curves 3x weekly...I don't think that's enough right now, I obviously need to push my body alittle further and I'm not to the point of joining the spinning class just yet...My friend is finding out info on it for me, as a non-member...however, I have a gazelle. They say, that exercise even split up into smaller incriments throughout the day, works just as good as 1 full workout...so my plan is...
To keep the Curves 3x weekly, but to also use my gazelle each morning for 15minutes, and each night for 15 minutes. I can surely fit in alittle time before and after work, In 15 minutes I "gazelle" myself 1 mile and burn 130 calories.

I need to push past this 190-something crap and get into the 180's to feel better about myself, I've been stuck for too long. Now if I can only get my eyes/mouth/and hands to agree to that...my eyes to stop looking at the food, my hands to stop grabbing the bad food and my darn mouth to stop tasting the food...If only life was that easy!

here's my day... not to bad!! Almost all of 28 points!!!!

Breakfast
2 waffles
syrup
_____
4 pts.



Lunch
Bolonga sandwich
100 cal. - Cheetos
_____
5 pts.



Dinner (KFC)
1 chicken leg
mashed taters /w gravy
green beans
biscuit
_________
18.5 pts.

Finished off today as planned. I added one Dove dark chocolate. Feels good to have an OP day. Have a good night. See you tomorrow.

It really does feel good when you stay OP.I wish it was easier to do.I think I am going to switch over to core this week for a couple weeks.The last time I did that I was seeing good losses every week.
Going to start my day with the usual:
Fibre one 1
milk 1
nuts 1
banana 1
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lunch is :
whole wheat bread 2
tuna 2
ff mayo 0
lettuce
onion
celery
homemade bean soup 2
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baked beans,homemade 4
homemade bread 2
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snacks
orange 1
wwyogurt 1
Ok I am full just wrinting this stuff.I still have 4points left and I will use them...maybe a huge glass of milk.

Exercise
cardio 70 min
weight training 45

Everyone have a great OP day:)

Oh and please excuse the typos,it's early lol.

Wow, you were typing early this morning. I wish I could try core. The reason I don't is I have a huge problem with portion control. I don't know that I am real sure what comfortably full or satisfied is. I guess I do now after being with WW for a year. Perhaps I will give that a shot at some point. We will see. I need to have one full week on flex the right way and see what results I am still able to get. My husband inspired me last night. We were having one of our exhausted chats at 10:30 last night. We do that often. We are both so tired but can't shut our traps. It's cool. He's like my high school girlfriend (with bennies;) ) Anyway, he said that he is excited for me to lose the last bit of weight. He has not said much about the weight loss. He is afraid of saying something wrong. He said he never expected to "benefit from my loss" Anyway, at the risk of sounding sappy or over sharing, I will stop there. Let's just say that I really want to have an OP day even more. I won't tell him that though.

Breakfast
guess just take one guess..........yep! OATMEAL!!! 3pts

workout
40 minutes with trainer 307 calories burned.

Don't have any other plans made. I have my two nephews today 3 and 10 months. My day is kind of up in the air. Will check in later after I eat a snack and lunch. Have a great day!!

Good luck,I hope you get your OP day.I imagine after the talk you found new inspiration to drop those last few. Ha ha on the girlfriend with bennies.

Ahhhh it's been another good day so far. However, I am craving something sweet!?!?!?!?!? Here is how the rest of my day has panned out....

lunch
large slice sourdough used to make grilled cheese w/ 2% cheese and spray butter= 3pts
bag of 100 cal cheetos 2pts (I am going to turn into a cheeto)!

7 low fat triscuits 2pts

that's 10 out of 22. I think I may do Subway for dinner. Then, grab a frozen yogurt to take to my craft night tonight. I am working on my kids' valentines for school. Have a good one. Will try to check in over the weekend. --Amy

Good job Amy!I was thinking of making valentine cookies for my family but i think that would be a huge disaster.Just like the brownies lol have a great weekend.
Lynn

Howdy gang!

Ya know, one thing I've found that I have been lacking in my diet is the oil. I used to get oil in every day, with either my slim fast shake, or my popcorn. I'm going to make a conscious effort to get that in this week.

Today so far:
B: slim fast shake w/banana & oil 6pts
S: bran muffin 2pts
L: ham sandwich w/baked doritos and bean dip (yummy!) 5pts
D: (later) cola chicken 4pts, small potato 1pt, green beans 0pts
S: probably a ww ice cream 2pts
That'll be 20/25...so I know I have some playing room if I alter something at dinner, or eat alittle snack between.

AJsMommy,
A few people at my weekly meeting use olive oil on their sandwiches instead of butter or margarine.

I don't like butter on my sandwiches, my grandma always does that and I never quite understood why, lol.
I normally use mustard on my sandwich, zero pts! :)

Yesterday didn't go exactly how I planned, however, I didn't go over pts. I wound up getting one of my famous migraines around 4, and ended up on the couch until today at 10am. Hubby grabbed a pizza for dinner and i had 2 slices....so that put my total to 23/25.
Feeling alittle better today.

I can understand your pain AJsMommy,I was diagnosed with chronic migraines 15 years ago.Funny thing though got rid of the huband found a great guy,left my job and moved to the states with him.In four years I have had maybe 2 migraines.I used to take a beta blocker back then and it did help I didn't get as many.I don't take those anymore.Do you take anything for yours?