I hit a weird patch of the blues last night. The skies were clouded over and dark, and I was really looking forward to rain. Then the rain started, and I just wanted to start bawling. It was like my body was begging me to release everything that has been getting me down and just let it go. I had this image in my head of standing out in the rain, arms out and twirling in it with tears pouring down my face. Everything sad, everything frustrating and scary, all of it was piling on top of me, and I had to just let it go. Only thing was, I couldn't do it. It is like I'm holding on to my pain as if it is a sort of lifeline and I'll drown without it.
I stayed outside in the rain and picked tomatoes and tended to my basil plants. I walked down the street to my dad's house and spent a few minutes with him. I introduced myself to the new neighbors who were just finishing moving a load in for the evening. I came into the house and thanked my family for all the hard work they had gone to cleaning the house. And I spent the rest of the evening wishing I had the guts to just let go. I think I'm afraid of not getting myself back if I do.
Guess this all makes me sound like a basket case, and maybe I am, but I also believe this is the next step I have to take in becoming the woman I see in my dreams. I need some alone time. I need some peace and quiet and to stop trying to work this all out in my head and just let it happen. Time to get out of head and into the heart.
Love you all! Thank you for your support and encouragement and allowing this to be such a safe place to say the things I need.
I'm at work (of course) and the phones are ringing crazy. I dislike Saturdays VERY much.
I had a hair appt at the mall yesterday (going shorter) @ 5:30 and we got there about 4:30, so I had time to kill. BAD decision. I always try to get there right about time for my appt because if I don't, then I have time to go shopping. Needless to say.....by the time it was time for my appt, my hair cutting $$ was gone. Dh and I do have two new pairs of New Balance shoes though... just perfect for exercising. Oh well, I just rescheduled for next week. I'm thinking I'm going to get some highlights too.
So, I'm standing there in Rack Room shoes, waiting on the "oh so slow" salesperson to come ring up my shoes, and behind me, I hear, "Hey... Tina!" It was a girl named Heather that I have known for a long time. (about 10 years) The last time I saw her, she probably outweighed me by 50 lbs. When I saw her last night, my eyes almost rolled out of my head. She was SO thin. Well, I don't know if I would use the word "thin"... perhaps, beautiful would be more the choice. She looked better than she did in high school. (I've seen pictures) I was absolutely blown away. Turns out, she had gastric bypass surgery and has lost 122 lbs. in the last year and a half. At one point, this girl was my nemesis. She was the first person I hired when I was managing the marketing dept. at Olan Mills and when I left and moved up, I gave her my old job. After I left, she ran me down to all my previous employees and I called her on it. We were at odds several times and even had a couple of shouting matches. Years later, long after she and I both were gone.... we both got a job at the hospital. (ironic, huh?) This time, we were both more mature and she didn't feel intimidated by me, so we seemed to get along fine, although there was still the underlying animosity between us, but we both held it down.
When I saw her last night, she looked genuinely happy. I was VERY happy for her and was very genuine with her when I told her how beautiful she looked. She proceeded to tell me about the procedure and how she had no problems and that her mother and friend were having the procedure done as well.
After I continued to *gush* over her appearance... (I just couldn't stop staring) she looked at me and said, "So.... still going to WW?"
I very calmly looked at her and told her yes, that I was still following the WW program. She said, "I thought you had lost some weight." I told her...."Yeah, about 60 lbs." She said, "Wow, you're doing it the hard way." I said, "Yeah, but it will be worth it, I think."
Now, that above paragraph was not to knock anyone who's had gastric bypass surgery or anyone that is thinking of having it. It was only to relay the conversation between two people.
I'm not sure what she meant by asking that question, but I'm leaving it alone. There are just way too many things to ponder, too many inuendos, too many old bad feelings that will come to the surface. So, I took it for what it was..... an inquisition regarding my weight from a person who has lost all of theirs. Whether she said it because she genuinely thought I had lost weight or she brought it up just to say, "Naa Naa" I'm thin and you're not." Who knows?
I do know it had me thinking most the night though. Thinking about the surgery itself. Thinking if I had it done, I WOULD be one of the horror stories. (because that is just my life) Thinking she took the easy way out. Jealous because she looked so fantastic and I felt all clunky and fat standing next to her. Angry because she stood there holding a Victoria's Secret bag talking about how happy she was that she could finally wear something from there without falling out of it.
I was a jumble of mixed emotions..... and still am. But I'm working it out. While I honestly am happy for her, I can't help but feel jealous and anxious. I know these feelings are probably very normal, but I hate feeling this way.
Ok, I've rambled on long enough about that. Time to move on. I guess.....
Kat: I SWEAR, on a stack of bibles.... I was going to call you to see if you were ok, but I couldn't find your phone number. I had it written down on the directions I had printed out to tell me how to get to Thompson, CT. but I believe I threw those away and you know the old computer was on the fritz at home, so I didn't have a way to even see if I had them saved somewhere in an email or PM. I am so thankful you are ok. I did say a prayer for you and your family though.
Natalie: That DVD sounds really cool. I've never really thought about belly dancing as exercise, but I bet it would really work and Lord knows...that is my problem area. Let me know how it goes and have fun seeing your Dad today. P.S. You did sound VERY positive about the interview. Good for you!
Mary: Hey there sweetpea. Not sure how you're feeling right now, but know that we've all been there or at least close to it. Also know, we love you just the way you are and glad you are here in some form. *hugs*
Pam: Thanks for the good morning wishes. I, myself had to be at work at 7:00am. Don't you just LOVE working on Saturday? Can you hear the sarcasm there?
Thin: I was thinking about you also during the power outage. It sounds like you and your family made the best of it though. I'm glad you all made it ok, it sounded really scary... of course, I'm scared of the dark anyways, so I would have probably been a nervous wreck. P.S. Is your dh going to the race this weekend?
Lori: I liked the website with your cat's pictures. Too cool! Thank you so much for saying what you did in one of your most recent posts. Sometimes you know what they say.... out of sight, out of mind and I just don't want you guys to think that I'm not here because I don't want to be. I had thought seriously about renting a computer, but dh doesn't want to pay all that money for something that we're not going to keep and we're expecting our child tax credit back any day now. Thanks for the idea though.
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And I can't forget the importance of EXERCISE. That has really helped me not only physically... but also emotionally and mentally.
Thank you for saying that.... I needed to hear that. I've been lacking somewhat in the exercise dept lately, but I'm hoping to do better. Got new shoes now....so why not?
Michelle: I'm crossing everything I have for you that you will get that job.....even my eyes. And.... I don't think it matters that you just got your job in June. You need to be where you're happy. I'm happy for those people that have jobs that they've been at forever and ever... it's a good feeling, I suppose and they must like them or must be paid exceptionally well. I think sometimes you just have to find your niche. Good luck my friend.
Joanne: So sorry to hear about your *new* engine troubles. That really sucks, doesn't it? I'm still having problems with my car too....pouring oil like you wouldn't believe. Dh swore he'd fix it as soon as we got home from our trip...but it has yet to be done? What is it about men and procrastination?
Sandy: I wish I had the $$$ just to go buy it off the shelf, but unfortunately, I don't. I have to wait for my check. We've had a lot of expenses here recently with school starting and all that jazz. I sure will be glad to get one though.... I *hate* not having one at home. Thanks for the idea about Dell too..... I'll check it out. {{hugs}}
Andria: I wish I could reach right through this computer and give you such a great big hug. Please feel me doing so... {{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}} I'm so happy you feel safe enough with us to share your feelings. I'm sorry you felt bad yesterday, but you can always trust us to understand, not judge and most of us have been there. I have had days where I just wanted to cry till I was dry of tears, yet I didn't know why. I wanted to cry for everything and for nothing at all. How very wise you sound, not crazy at all. Keep your head up and be strong, but it's never wrong to let your feelings go sometimes. I think it's always better than keeping them bottled up. If you ever want to talk privately, you can PM me or email me at [email protected]. I'll keep you in my prayers.
Alright my peeps.... I'm going to have to head out of dodge for now....I've been here forever. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and if you don't see me till Tuesday, don't worry. I'm still here in spirit. I'm off Sunday and Monday and won't have access to the old computer till then. Try to take it easy on me so I won't have too much to read.
Naaaaa, go crazy so I'll have lots to print out and read!
The heat wave here finally broke about two days ago. I'm starting to feel human again. Blah. I retained so much water throughout that ordeal. I was puffed up like a balloon.
I know how bad that power outage had to suck. I was living in Idaho when the entire 11 western states went out about 7 years ago. It was awful!!
I decided to live dangerously and tried some ice cream tonight. I'm not feeling to great right now. Otherwise I'm doing OK and just waiting impatiently for the kids to start school so I can have a break!!! Single mothering is HARD WORK!! I can't wait until my husband comes home. A few of the husbands have come back, and the rest of us wives are green with envy. Being a military wife and mother is HARD WORK!! It's stressing me out a bit. I've found that I'm having some of those old urges to eat the pain away. Thank goodness I can't, and when I've tried I get sick, and that usually cures those urges for a while.
Gosh, I'm just rambling! I know I'm a total flake when it comes to posting, but I will try to come back more often. Take care everyone!!
Jen
I just found the receipt from the dr's office...in the section where diagnosis goes are the words, "Exogenous Obesity." (which means my fat is on the outside....well, duh!)
I just don't like the sound of that!
I have to go back in 3 months. I'll show him!
hmmph...exogenous obesity...grrr
Andria...I don't think you sound like a basket case at all...I think that you sound like someone who is very in touch with her feelings and who is taking the steps necessary to deal with them.
Tina...I didn't mean for you to feel guilty, silly! Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.
Hi to everyone else, I hope that everyone's weekend is going well!
I'm off to the pool, while the sun is still out...I've been promising my son and nephew all day, as I try to get laundry, shopping, and cleaning done. I'd better get a move on.
Kat you make me laugh!! Grrr....Yeah I will be doing my aboslute bestest to be here to chat...now is it at 8 pm or 830 pm EST?
Tina...I have thought about the gastric bypass too since they just built a bariatric center up the road that I pass EVERY day taking Andrew to daycare. But I have heard sooo many horror stories that is scares me now that I have my baby! I don't want to be sick for him growing up no matter HOW thin I am. I know that WW is a healthy diet where I will relearn to eat in a normal world for the rest of my life. I lost 97 lbs before I can do it again..I just have to get that motivation going again and stop making excuses!!
Speaking of motivation....KAT...let your doctor's report be your motivator...stay strong and you do that...JUST SHOW him next visit...and TINA....let YOUR friend's weightloss be your motivator, if she can do it so can you....at least you are doing it the healthy way..not that I am disprespecting anyone's weightloss choice...heck I would have it done too if I had the GUTS!! But I am a coward and chose to do it the slow way...
Jen I don't think those urges ever go away if you are an emotional eater which I am...I just wish there was a pill that made me feel sick like you do when you have eaten too much or the wrong thing because then I probably wouldn't eat since I am never hungry I just eat mindlessly! Like I said above....you were brave to have the surgery...I am a coward!!
Andria....sounds like you are on your way to being reliberated! Just take the time and encourage yourself to let it all out! I would love to be able to stand in the rain and do just that...when I knew I was leaving my ex I use to go walking at night where no one could see me and cry my eyes out! It felt so good letting it all out and gave me the strength to move on and move out of the state to get away from which I did! And thats when I lost all my weight the first time!!
Natalie how was your dad's birthday? I just woke up from a nap and I was dreaming that I was hula dancing...it was weird...almost makes me want to go buy that tape and try it out. First I dreamt that I knocked down this guy I was seeing's...gorgeous guy mind you....big water slide jungle gym kind of thing I was playing on with my son...weird huh?? LOL
Pam are you home from work yet?
Mary glad to see you here...I am quite the whiner lately when no one posts for 2 or more hours after me!!
Thin I have to say my first reaction was terrorism too....I figured if not that lighting thing then something before they got the lights back on!!
2cute and Lori...thanks for the well wishes for the job interview. I would love to get this job because the benefits are much better, its closer to Andrew's daycare AND it would be $2-3 more per hour. If I don't get it I won't be devastated because I do love my job now! And...I actually miss my last job but the hours just weren't working for me...especially saturdays.
Ok now that I got that out of the way....Andrew's bed was delivered and installed today and he absolutely loves it! He took a nap in it for 2 hours...but we had to close his door so he would stay in his room!! That is the highlight of my day today....so I better at least go fold the two baskets of clothes I got hanging around then start dinner. Shrimp of some kind today!
Well I must share this with you all..since I keep such crazy hours, and do not know if I am coming or going most of the time, last night I went to chat and just sat there all by my lonesome!!! even made a few comments and no one answered! wonder why?? I never did realize why you all weren't there, until I read the posts today and it finally came to me that the reason I was all alone was because it is tonight!! Is that CRAZY OR WHAT???
Tina...wish I had a printer! I would love to be able to print out all of your posts so that I may respond properly, will have to get one soon...you girls are quite the busy bees! post a picture of you in your new do, I am planning on getting mine colored at the end of this month, a treat for having lost some of these pounds, may get brave enough to submit the pic.
Andria, thanks for your honest post, it helped me tremendously, I think when we pour out our hearts, especially here we make so much progress, we get rid of all the "toxins" and allow good stuff to come in...it helps me to feel closer to all of you, and gives me insight into you really are, it benefits all of us when someone is as brave as you are to open up, and isnt this the best place to do that?? All of these ladies are so supportive and loving, and you know you will be accepted no matter how vulnerable you may be feeling...,many many thanks for writing what you did, that to me is what this forum was designed for. By crying and "feeling the sadness", and getting rid of it, you are taking care of yourself, keeping it all bottled up inside, and turning it all inward only serves one purpose (I feel anyway), it makes us sick! and we are all on the road to become healthier beings!! take care of yourself, and say anything you want to or need to here...WE ARE ALL HERE WAITING TO OFFER YOU
Natalie, belly dancing?? that is wonderful, maybe you can demonstrate some of those moves to Tom....
well girls. is is approaching dinner time and I havent even started cooking yet...so I will ck in later!!
To those you that I didnt get to say personal hellos to, I hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend.
It is after midnight again....so this will be short. I did not get to bed last night until 2:30am and I DON'T want to start that habit again.
Andria.. I just could not ... not ...respond to you.
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I also believe this is the next step I have to take in becoming the woman I see in my dreams.
I am sooooo proud of you. It is hard letting go of the old familar self and letting the "real" you out. Sometimes we don't even know what the "real" us is because we are such people pleasers. We tend to be the person other people want us to be instead of who we were meant to be. Does that make sense?? Let that "inner" Michelle come out and let her grow into the beautiful woman of your dreams. {{{ HUGS }}}
Tina... Oh how well I know what you are feeling. Just remember to NOT compare yourself to others... good or bad. And also remember... you are only seeing the skinny body... you are not seeing the problems and the pain and the $$$$. She is only telling you the good side.... but all of life has two sides to every story. It is not all glamour... even when successful.
And the bottom line is.... even with surgery... you have to change your eating habits ... and you have to exercise. If those with surgery go back to old eating habits they will go back to being overweight. I too have thought long and hard about it. But I want to LIVE and I too know tooooooooooo many horror stories.
Thin... I have never heard of a citronella plant ... only candles.
A friend of mine used those Bounce fabric softner sheets and she said they worked GREAT while camping. I want to petition the state to change our state bird to the "mosquito".
Jen... I am sooo glad you posted. How does it feel being back in Germany again??
I had to raise my 3 kids alone for 3 years. It is HARD WORK.
My husband got a job out of town... then some marital problems ... so I know somewhat , what you are talking about.
Kat... didn't you tell the doctor that you have lost some weight?
Instead of saying "low carb" ... next time say ..."I eliminated sugar and white flour and started eating more veggies." The doctor will pat you on the back. It is all in the "presentation".
I would just like to say.... I think 246 sounds LOVELY. 226 is my goal weight.
Michelle ... was anyone in chat.??
Pam.... I got a big laugh out of your "chat" on Friday night. LOL Sounds like something I would do. LOL
Mary... did you make it to chat ??? You are a regular there.
Tina... I am going to miss you until Tuesday.
Natlie... someone else in our group does belly dancing too.
I just can't remember who it was now ???
Thin... thanks for the update. I am glad your son was wise enough to stay home.
Okay... so much for my "short" post.
Now I am headed for bed.
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RISE AND SHINE EVERYONE!! ITS A BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY MORNING!
Well I can't really tell that yet since it is still kinda dark here!!
2Cute...I do have to say...YES THERE WERE PEOPLE IN CHAT WHERE WERE YOU??? I have so much fun in chat...I just wish more people would show up!! Of course since hardly anyone was there we talked about the ones who werent? Ha ha!! And Amanda will NEVER tell what or who we talked about! Ok so I will tell you that we talked about potty training!! But....Only Tina has an excuse NOT to be there this time!! Aren't I such a whiner lately!!
Pam I have a confession to make....I can't tell you how many times I sat here on a tuesday waiting for someone to come into chat because I thought it was wednesday...then missed the chat wednesday night because I kept thinking it was Thursday! What an idiot I am!! anyway...it was fun chatting...and no...we didn't talk about you after you left!!
Nor you Mary...but I wish you could have stayed a little longer!
Well I think I am going to jump back into bed with my little guy...he and his black bear are sound asleep in MY bed and John just left for work! So I'll catch up with the rest of yas later!
Yes!!! I missed chat and I was very upset about it!! Around 5:00 we had this major thunder shower go over, it knocked out the satelitte for a bit, but it came back about 20 minutes later. Anyway then it was time to finish getting supper and eat at the kitchen table like a family for a change. Then my mom called during supper and wanted to know if I wanted to take the kids swimming, so we did that. Then when I got home my dear Husband was on the computer watching the newest Star Trek movie. Now, I could have argued with him but you know what they say about picking your fights and this one was not worth it. The man did help me buy the puter and he rarely uses it, so I let him stay on it and Alexis and I went to my room and curled up and watched "The Sound of Music" one of my all time favorite movies.
Today we have Alexis' party at the pool. Earlier in the week the weather man predicted RAIN, but nope the sun is peeking through and looks like it will be a great day.
I was right in the middle of a post and low and behold "aol encountered a problem", and knocked me off line, IMAGINE THAT
Michelle, enjoyed talking with you last night too, and I am glad I missed the dicussion on potty training, that is way out of my league.
Sandy, I love the sound of music too, I know all the songs, Climb Every Mountain is my favorie...."Climb every mountain, board every stream, follow every rainbow, till you find your dream"...a metaphor for all of us here, that is what we are doing, following our dreams! and we will make it...I may just have to watch it again now!! see what you started? Have fun today.
OK I have a confession to make...I had the ultimate indulgence this morning! I made myself fried green tomatoes straight from the garden...oh how I love them!! I try to only have them once a year!
I really need to get this laundry under control and get the house cleaned up! So I will be back later!
Actually, the morning is almost gone...whoops...someone slept in!
I had every intention of going to chat last night...then we got an impromptu dinner invitation, so we went out with my sis and bil and my brother and sil. And, do you know?? Miss 2cute was right there with me as I ordered a double order of veggies instead of "french fries, rice or baked potato" to go with my grilled salmon. We dined out on the deck, over the water, and I'm here to attest to the anti-mosquito power of Bounce sheets. My sister had a bunch in her bag...after a few buzz bys, she handed them out and they really do work! Just rub them over your skin and clothing...not only do the skeeters stay away, you smell lovely!
BTW, 2cute...I'm happy when your posts are as "short" as the last one! I know you've been busy lately but I have missed your long, chatty posts. You said something in your last post that had me talking to the computer...it just hit the nail right on the head...
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Sometimes we don't even know what the "real" us is because we are such people pleasers. We tend to be the person other people want us to be instead of who we were meant to be. Does that make sense??
This is, no...WAS...welll, I'm working on it... me, abso-freakin-lutely!!! Funny thing is, when I start being the person that I truly am, it tends to piss people off that I actually have a backbone and can say "NO." Too bad for them...time for me...and for all of us.
Pam...You're another one...you always have good words and advice...
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I think when we pour out our hearts, especially here, we make so much progress, we get rid of all the "toxins" and allow good stuff to come in...
This is the kind of stuff I LOVE to read here! Thank you!
Michelle...Fried green tomatoes? Never had 'em...how do you make them? Are they batter dipped and fried? Hey, just make good choices the rest of the day...it all balances out. How's the potty training going? <<<shudder>>> I'm glad those days are long behind me...I don't recall either of mine being too cooperative on that front! Bless you my child.
Sandy, it sounds like you had a lovely night with your daughter...I still like to curl up with my kids for a good Disney movie...yes, even the 17 yr old and I can get down with "The Little Mermaid" or "Mary Poppins." My son and I go for "The Lion King" or "101 Dalmatians." I'm surprised those tapes haven't worn totally through, given the amount of times they've been watched over the years! Treasure these moments...they grow up so fast.
Jen...Good to hear from you! I'm glad you're feeling better. How much have you lost now? Hang in there, kid...I hope that hubby is home real soon...you are going to knock his eyeballs out when he sees how gorgeous you look!
Tina...
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I was a jumble of mixed emotions..... and still am. But I'm working it out. While I honestly am happy for her, I can't help but feel jealous and anxious
Of course, who wouldn't? BUT, as 2cute points out, you're only seeing the good side...there's more to it than that. Keep doing what you're doing, you will get there!
Andria...how are you feeling today? Any better? Your words have been weighing on me...
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It is like I'm holding on to my pain as if it is a sort of lifeline and I'll drown without it.
Hey! We're all here to save you from drowning!
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I think I'm afraid of not getting myself back if I do.
You just may move beyond the tears to a better place...don't hold them back, honey. Do what you have to do to make yourself feel better and please know that you're not alone.
Natalie...SO? How was the belly dancing/hip-hop? Sounds like a funky combination! Congrats on your interview...it's good to let the boss know that you have "balls of steel!" Atta girl!
Mary...how's it going? You're not too chatty lately...
Thin...are things back to normal now for you? Did the garden benefit from all the water you stocked up on? Inquiring minds want to know....
Homebound...ugh...I HATE car problems! You sure have good friends to lend you their car...We're having car issues at the moment, too...I don't think I told you guys how I backed my car into my husband's... He had parked the car at the end of the driveway, facing the wrong way, cuz he was just going in and out again. I was leaving to drive my son somewhere. Dh said to me, "I'll be right out to move the car." Okay..........Well, I got into my car, started it up...and then I guess automatic pilot took over, cuz I just threw it into reverse and backed up til I heard "BAM!!!"
Aw, $H!T!!!! Right into his little Honda Civic, with my big bully Rodeo...Smashed the driver's side window into a million pieces and left a huge dent in the door. I thought nothing happened to my car, since i hit with the spare tire that's mounted on the back, but I guess I jammed the back window and door, they won't open now....*sigh* So, the Honda is in the shop now, next the Rodeo will go in. Boy, do I feel sheepish...After the initial incredulous reaction from dh (and I DO mean dear!) He has been wonderfully understanding...welllll, that may be the wrong word...he still doesn't understand how I could possibly do something like that, but he's been sweet to me, seeing how upset i was...oh yeah, he's a keeper.
Well this has taken me HOURS to complete...I think I started it at 11, somewhere in that time I had to take daughter to work, (because of above car issues, dh has her car, she can't drive a stick) and stop a few times to dole out chores to son, let the dog out, let the dog in...you know...the usual distractions...
Have a great day, everyone...thanks, as always, for being here!
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Thank goodness the cat brats actually let me sleep.
Last night, of course, the Steeler game was on (heck, they lost anyway, for all that was worth. The nice thing about exhibition season is it doesn't count--THANK GAWD!) at 7:30. Well, it wasn't bad enough the game ran two hours before halftime, but then there was ANOTHER 30-45 MINUTES of rain/lightning delay before the second half could start! So it was close to 11:30 to quarter to midnight before the game itself was actually over.
Then, ding-a-ling here gets online and goes into a wrestling chatroom and proceeds to get into a hot debate about a match this past Thursday with a few other people (most of them on my side...lol) on fake injuries vs. authentic ones. Well, that lasted till about 4AM. So much for me and my sports.
Needless to say, I didn't actually roll out of bed until 1:30 this afternoon. Bad me I'm almost as bad as I used to be when I went club hopping 20 years ago...and I didn't even leave the house!
Kat... NEVER NEVER NEVER park behind me.
I have backed into my husbands, sister's and daughters vehicles. I have backed into a three strangers cars and MOST EMBARRASSING.... while parked in the garage I backed into the "CLOSED" garage door.
I also backed over my daughters bike... thankfully she was not on it. I cried the most over that one because she could have been.
I am sure I will think of some more if I try. LOL
I am proud to announce... I have only hit one car going forward. LOL It was a tap.. not a hit. NO DAMAGE. We were stopped at a red light. He moved up for me to go around him but there just wasn't enough room.
Geeze... this makes me sound like a terrible driver. I can't believe I am confessing all of this to you. LOL I sure hope you all forget it by the time I drive you around my home town.
I am really a very good, careful driver. Like I said... just don't park behind me.
Last edited by 2cute2Bfat; 08-17-2003 at 03:17 PM.
Hey there chickies....
I always try to get there right about time for my appt because if I don't, then I have time to go shopping. Needless to say.....by the time it was time for my appt, my hair cutting $$ was gone. 
Dh and I do have two new pairs of New Balance shoes though... just perfect for exercising. 
Oh well, I just rescheduled for next week. I'm thinking I'm going to get some highlights too. 
She was SO thin. Well, I don't know if I would use the word "thin"... perhaps, beautiful would be more the choice. She looked better than she did in high school. (I've seen pictures) I was absolutely blown away. Turns out, she had gastric bypass surgery and has lost 122 lbs. in the last year and a half. At one point, this girl was my nemesis. She was the first person I hired when I was managing the marketing dept. at Olan Mills and when I left and moved up, I gave her my old job. After I left, she ran me down to all my previous employees and I called her on it. We were at odds several times and even had a couple of shouting matches. Years later, long after she and I both were gone.... we both got a job at the hospital. (ironic, huh?) This time, we were both more mature and she didn't feel intimidated by me, so we seemed to get along fine, although there was still the underlying animosity between us, but we both held it down.
And.... I don't think it matters that you just got your job in June. You need to be where you're happy. I'm happy for those people that have jobs that they've been at forever and ever... it's a good feeling, I suppose and they must like them or must be paid exceptionally well. I think sometimes you just have to find your niche. Good luck my friend. 
even made a few comments and no one answered! wonder why?? I never did realize why you all weren't there, until I read the posts today and it finally came to me that the reason I was all alone was because it is tonight!! Is that CRAZY OR WHAT???
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Is it morning already?
He had parked the car at the end of the driveway, facing the wrong way, cuz he was just going in and out again. I was leaving to drive my son somewhere. Dh said to me, "I'll be right out to move the car." Okay..........Well, I got into my car, started it up...and then I guess automatic pilot took over, cuz I just threw it into reverse and backed up til I heard "BAM!!!" 
Right into his little Honda Civic, with my big bully Rodeo...Smashed the driver's side window into a million pieces and left a huge dent in the door. I thought nothing happened to my car, since i hit with the spare tire that's mounted on the back, but I guess I jammed the back window and door, they won't open now....*sigh* So, the Honda is in the shop now, next the Rodeo will go in. 
