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Well, just think Carol that enormous spud would be "FREE" on a green day my daughter is always eating stuff like that and shes as thin as a rail well, no she is'nt she has a great figure and i wished i looked like her in a pair of jeans

It was nice and peaceful at work yesterday cos there had been a fire during the night so we were closed meant that i got to work without shoppers asking me what aisle they could find Q tips etc my super popped in to input my hours into the computer and i said to her i thought you were going to pay me for working extra she said that that would go on next months and that i had to let her know what days i'd done extra we clock in! the computer should tell her what she owes me i think she's only going to give me the 15 minutes for that missed break anyway cos she said "don't stay behind without asking a manager first". I think a little bit of skiving is in order I thought i was going to be late yesterday cos my car was playing up it looked like it was my radiator there was steam pouring out of the vents and rising from the bonnet and i was choking it smelt so bad i had to pull over a couple of times but i 'limped' into work and called hubby during my break who quickly diagnosed that it was the heater core and it would be alright to drive as long as i checked my rad before i left, when i got home he fixed it by cutting off the hoses and re-routing them so that i don't have a heater anymore he said i don't need one at this time of year and we'll worry about it when i do i told him i'll need it when i'm going to work at 4.30am in winter and his last sentence was "it'll probably have blown up before then" cheeky so and so

Feel lazy today and i've completely lost the plot with eating and i'm devouring every chocolate biccy in the house and have been for days it started with that pizza then progressed to a big bag of chocolates then biccies and now i'm eating anything I'll probably show a gain this week cos i've worked for it i've got to get back on track, i want to lose 20lbs by mid August so i can't afford these relapses.

laidies doing mega housework but kiddie home tomorrow so ill try and get in for a blether later
kirsty

Hey, what ya all up to? i can see you Kirsty so start blethering i've nowt much to say this morning P.O.'ed with myself for letting myself out all week just wondering whether to treadmill or start feeding myself today i think feeding myself will win somehow

OK I've been here before and you've heard it all before but I have to do this (apologies over)

I have to find my serious head, I want to lose weight, I want to be healthy and I want to feel good about myself, plus a whole load of other reason, all to do with me. I want to lose this weight for me, not for anybody else, although I have no doubt that if I was a bit thinner we as a family could have more fun instead of me always moaning on about how big I am, how hot I am, how tight my jeans are and so on and so on.

So I want to do it, what is stopping me

As Cathy says in her signature ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can eat alright until the evening and then things fall apart at the seams. The solution seems to be to find other things to do in the evening to keep me away from the fridge and too busy to have time to over eat.

My big problem is what plan suits me best, WW, SW or just watching what I eat

Just Watching What I Eat - doesn't really work for me because I just kid myself that that big portion is really healthy and if I have a couple of apples after those 2 (or 3) packets of crisps then that will balance it out

WW - does work for me but is restrictive. Can't find a leader I like as much as Gail I went to last year and she has vanished off the face of the earth. It is easier than counting calories as I only have to do sums up to 24

Which brings me back to SW. It was very easy to do that first week, when I worked at it and then I fell to bits. Maybe I didn't give it enough of a chance. I know Veggie has posted lots of links to recipes, etc. Maybe I should give it another go. Nearly signed up on line until I realised I would have to pay £60 for the priviledge cos you have to sign up for 3 months minimum. Not sure my fragile commitment could stretch to that.

Not really in the frame of mind to go to a class at the moment, feeling a bit like been there done that, now I've got the T shirt, only it doesn't fit me.

Think I need to give this some serious thinking, at the moment am swayed by SW but I know that I can do WW long term and lose but then I gained it all back apart from half a stone.

Why isn't life simple, why can't one of these science boffins just invent a pill which will let me lose 6 stone over night

I know the answer really eat less and move more, simple really If only

Decision made, guess I just had to write it all down to sort it out in my mind. Am going to give SW a test run for the next 4 weeks.

Although I know WW like the back of my hand, do I really want to go back to reading all the sat fat values and being left with no points in the evening and been forced to nibble (if my life depended on it) on pickles and sugar free jelly or standing in my kitchen blowing the white of the eggs out so I can make a point free omellette. No so SW here I come.

I will drive you all scatty with this but you should be used to it

Watch out I am back in the driving seat and I will kick butt

thank you ladies for listening (reading) have a great Saturday I know I am going to

You don't have to sign up online I'm sure there's a kind member who would give you the weekly password to the members site

carol i had to decied to do it on my own and im loving it i dont feel guilty if i want a packet of chrisps and im managing great i even drink plenty of water too im coping so well i gave up smoking today i thought if i can cope with no coke i can cope with no fags you know im saying this now but as i only stopped today by tomorrow i might have changed my mind thats if dh and ds,s dont have me commited or murdered by then but what the hey ill give it a try and if i fail i try again im my own best cheer leader and the encouragement i get off dh and kids make it all worth while as im the only smoker in the house and i want to buy expensive curtains and cushions but wont do it because of the nicotine and i tend to buy the cheapest wallpapers because i know that in a year ill have to rip them all down againas theyll be ruined by the smoke so just decied you want to do this for yourself and stick to it you run a house work bring up kids and cope with a man surely your not going to let a little thing like an appetite beat you
kirsty

Appetite what's that

Ended up going out with two friends last night to a local chinese buffet. I was very controlled with my eating was having a green day and didn't have too much meat but lots of noddles (probably all cooked in oil, but the thought was there) Shame I wasn't so good with the wine. Think we drank about 5 bottles between the three of us. Feel a bit fragile this morning, that should teach me.

So today I am having another green day as it suits best what I have in the house. Am trying to persuade Sean to go to the shop and get some eggs for his poor 'ill' mother so I can have am omelette and baked beans, but he ain't for moving

Booked a holiday yesterday for me and the boys. Ray has used all his holidays up on his two gliding courses, so we are off to Dornoch caravan park in the middle of July. Never been there before it is the other side of Inverness so will be a long drive with Steven no doubt asking how much further it is, every couple of minutes once we are past Perth

Best go and try and sober up. The boys want to go swimming, but i am not fit to drive, is a slight problem. Will need to find a solution to that one and quick

Meant to say good for you Kirsty on the stopping smoking

Thats the spirit Carol now i hope some of that will rub off on me don't know why i can only go for so long doing great and then 'rebel' and eat everything in the house i've already had 4 slices of toast with butter this morning i need to get my serious head back on too relatives come over in 2 mths and i would really like to get 20lbs off by then

Congratulations on quitting smoking Kirsty

Hey Veggie, i'm sure there are some very grateful people here that would love to know the SW p/word i for one am very and like to peek at whats going on

I pmed you quickly Cathy as I have email alerts on

I been on Russian ship today Walked for hours am now v red. Had lovely veg wrap with sour creme, tasty but impossible to eat outdoors whilst watching speed boat racing

Sounds very glamourous Veggie. I've been to Asda, not quite in the same league.

Hey people I'm having a dead exciting day reading about the absolute conception of reality and cooking (but not eating!) sausages for revising bf and drunk house mate. I only have 600 calories left today I've got WELL bored of dieting recently and ate a load of biscuits last night. Hopefully when I turn 20 next month I'll lose that "can't be arsed" teenage attitude he he.

i still can't be arsed Dill and i've just turned 50 so don't count on it mind you i've only had a weight problem for a few years so i did'nt need to be arsed before 600 cals is a lot you can have some good stuff for that

Whats the Russian Ship all about Veg glad you had a nice day

Right now Carol going to Asda would be a real treat for me think i'm digging grass out of the cracks in the rock wall again today