Bare yourselves...
 

Well ladies, I come here with my head hung low. Real low. I was so optimistic this morning, even up until this afternoon. Following plan on target. Until about 3pm.
The problem...we had bought chips for my daughter to snack on yesterday to keep her quiet. Four hours in a car seat is a lot for a 4 year old not used to traveling far. We couldn't find a small bag in the grocery store...so we settled for the big bag. Seems harmless, I thought!

I was doing so well!!! Here's what I did today:

Breakfast
Skim milk, 1 cup (90cal. - 0 fat)
Special K Vanilla Almond, 3/4cup (110cal. - 1 fat)

Snack
Strawberries, 1 cup (46cal. - 1 fat)

Lunch
Romaine Lettuce, 5 innerleaf (7cal. - 0 fat)
Carrot, 1 (7"-8" long) (31cal. - 0 fat)
Mushrooms, 1.5 medium (7cal. - 0 fat)
Celery, 1/2- 4" strip (0cal. - 0 fat)
Cucumber, 2 slices (2cal. - 0 fat)
Lgt. Spring Herb Garlic drssin., 2 tbsp. (40cal. - 4 fat)
Watermelon, 1 cup (49 cal. - 1 fat)
Silhouette fat-free yogurt (40 cal. - 0 fat)

Snack
Special K bar (90 cal. - 1.5 fat)

((Total so far)) = (512 cal. - 8.5 fat)

Now bring in the sound effects: **screeching halt**

Around 3 pm I was getting something outta the pantry for my daughter, popcorn infact. Not a big temptation of mine. BUT, passing by the popcorn was that big ol'bag of chips. (I can smell a chip from 50miles away I'm sure! A great BIG temptatio of mine...). I thought briefly for a moment and zeroed in on the item. Red flag! I do not allow myself these...but then my guard let down. Maybe just one...well, let me just say the Lays commercial is so true. "Betcha can't eat just one".

I decided to average it out and add to my talley:

Lays Smokey Bacon chips, 75 grams (390 cal. - 24 fat)
((Adjusted Total)) (902 cal. - 32.5 fat)

I stared at the new total in disgust, and lost it from there. I ate a Cadbury thin bar, one of my moms baking (bun), and a peanut butter and banana sandwich for supper. It's so funny after days (months) of determination, all the great feelings of victory and happy moments of what you are and have accomplished go right out the window when you have one moment of weakness.

I am absolutely disheartened and so disappointed with myself. I'm not sure what brought this on, unless it was the scale reading after my weekend away. I have dealt with retention gains before but somehow I let myself cave. I don't even know how I let it sneak up on me. And I wasn't even sure if I could even bring myself around to let you all in on it. Shameful, shameful, shameful....that's how I feel. It's ironic that you've named me positive, huh? I figure this is a support group and best use it when I need it! The best thing I can do now is to record how disappointed I feel in myself, get up, brush myself off and give it another teams effort tomorrow. I just can't wait for this day to be over so I can get up and feel better tomorrow.

Sorry to "weigh" down your day with my depressing let down.

Be back tomorrow.
~Tina

Tina, they say confession is good for the soul, so you should be feeling a little better already, hahaha!.

You've gotten it out... you already know tomorrow is a new day and this day will be behind you. Remember early on in our journey we spoke of those occasional indulgences... this was just one of those times.... It happens but that doesn't mean you've blown it. You have done absolutely fantastic these last few months and you will continue to do so... you know we got your back girl! :hug:

:dust:

Tina ~ You certainly haven't let me down!:hug: I still think you're wonderful and a very positive person! You have been on track all of these months, and you just now had one break down. You've been at it way longer than me, and I get so upset with myself...I need to look at you because I think you're still an inspiration to me. I'll be glad when today is also over so I can wake up with a new and better frame of mind to get going again! Glad you shared that with all of us, and hope all of us will be able to help you through this time also.:hug:

TINA:hug: :hug: You still are a very positive person!!! Now i know you are human too! We all do that, we start shoving it in and before we know what we have done we have tripled our intake! Please do not beat yourself up over this! WE ALL DO IT, just not all of us are brave enough to admit it! :D I am proud of you that you did. that's one thing about online support, we can make up whatever story we want or just omit the bad stuff. It takes a lot of courage to be honest and I thank you for doing it. Gonna get a little religious on you here but God's grace is new every day and if he can forgive us and move on then we need to do the same!:hug: Yeah I know easier said than done but we need to try! I hope you have a fantastic day and are blessed with new found inspiration!

LOIS Size 18!!! You go girl!:bravo: :cb: :cb: I think i have some 18's burried somewhere in the attic but they are probably so moth eaten i couldn't wear them even if i could fit them. Keep up the good work!

Linda Hope you're feeling back on track today. It's so hard not to let the scale make us eat! Mine is still blinking from the swift kick i gave it for ya'll yest!!

Hope everyone has a fantastic day and we all find strength to focus on the moment and be proud for all the little things we do right not the slip ups we all have now and then! Gotta run time to get ready for school! Love ya'll Erin

Good Morning . . . it's raining again. Oh well at least it's not cold and it's not snowing. :)

Michelle . . . I guess I over-simplified a little. It's actually the various medications and the insulin I take because of the diabetes that tend to play havoc with the hormone and the metabolism levels. Whatever actually does it, it makes for lot of strange bounces and burps along the weight-loss road. Hey, as long as the overall direction is good, I try not to get too upset about the bumps and curves. Thanks for your concern. :hug:

Tina . . . Hey girl, stuff happens. :hug: You know that. Stop beating yourself up. Throw away the chips and move on. Keep nothing but popcorn in the house since your daughter likes it (it's better for her in the long run anyway). You have done so wonderfully well since you began this journey, don't let one little slip make you think you've fallen down forever. Go, girl, go. You can do it. You will do it. :high:

Erin . . . thanks for kicking your scale for me :hug: . . . I actually think it's working. Three of the 4.4 pounds of www (weird water weight) have gone packing already. This was my official weigh-in day, so I'm 'officially' only 1.4 above my ticker weight for the week. Hopefully I'll be back in-sync soon :^: . . . but I'm not moving the ticker and I'm not getting on the scale again until next Wednesday.

Well, back to the non-fun stuff, and some more water to drink. See you later, gang. Have a great moving and shaking kind of day. :carrot:

Hello Ladies, I am a little later than normal this morning, had to have a chat with the school about a teacher that needs a good swift kick in the back side:kickbutt: .

Linda, I am with you on the www being gone, isnt it great. I drank so much water yesterday I think it would have drowned a fish. 175 ounces, that is a new all time record for me. But it worked I was back down to my Sunday Weigh In Weight.

Erin, Thank you for kicking your scales yesterday I think mine felt the kick.:goodscale

Lois, :cp: yeah on the size 18, I just got into a 18 myself dont it feel great.:carrot:

Michelle, Fitday is a little tedious and time consuming but it really helps me. However I use it more as a planner than as a record keeper. I get on first thing in the morning and enter all the food I plan on eating for the day and exercise/activity I plan on doing. For some reason if I put it in Fitday I wont cheat. I stick to what I enter. Maybe its just cause I dont feel like having to go back and change it to see where I am, I dont know.:?:

Tina, Tina, Tina, Sweetie it was 1 day out of how many? You got a little weak for a little bit of time. Besides I look at it this way, did you plan on never ever ever for the rest of your life not having another peanut butter and banana sandwich? I dont think you planned on cuting it out forever did you? Just cutting back. It could have been worse it could have been 2. We cant forget our favorite foods forever, I dont think any of us could ever stick to this if we planned on never having our favorite food again. But I think we have all started learning moderation. Ok I know I have gotten a little chatty here so just let me say, Dont Beat Yourself Up Yesterday Is Gone Today Is Here, It will Be OK.:hug:

Now for a confession of my own. I dont know how many of you know that Along with trying to lose weight I have also quit smoking(in January). Well yesterday I cheated and had a smoke:smoking: and I would love to say that I am disgusted with myself it tasted bad and blah blah blah. But the truth is It felt so good. I have gone 4 months without and yesterday I just caved, but the worst part of it all is I dont feel bad about it. Well I just wanted to get that off my chest.

Check back later

Happy Wednesday!
 

Good morning gals. Let me just say first off...YOU ALL ARE THE GREATEST!! Thanks so much for listening, understanding and standing beside me. Well, it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be this morning. Somehow, by the grace of God...one of the pounds I had on from after my trip is gone this morning! **doing the happy dance** I drank way more water than recommended yesterday (not quite as much as you Robbin), but more than I usually do. Not sure if that had something to do with it or not. I'm just glad that it isn't as disasterous as I thought it was going to be. I feel so much better this morning physically and mentally. I'm back girls!! I think that little slip has made me even more determined today to beat this fat in the can. Coming to terms with it and be able to think on something after the fact is often what we need during this journey. I can now put everything into perspective again. I'm the winner in this battle, I may have been weak...but it was just for a moment...the rest of the game belongs to me!

Erin, thanks for the congrats (on the 16's) and the positive compliment..hehehe! Thanks for the pep talk...it helped in a lot of ways.

Michelle, thanks also for the congrats and compliment. The hod rod handled really well, my husband and I were thoroughly impressed. Thanks for standing beside me and making me feel like I haven't let you down.

Lois, wow! Five hours of shopping sounds like a dream! Do you take your little one with you? My daughter is only good for a couple hours till she starts complaining. Congrats on the 18's!! That's awesome...you doing great girl, keep up the great work! Thanks for having my back girlfriend!

Linda, sounds like you had a nice day yesterday with your friend. I so understand the self-sabotage theory. That was me yesterday..."you've eaten this much..might aswell keep going and get everything you can in this moment". Oh well, it's a new day! Thanks also for the pep talk. You're right, I shouldn't let my daughter eat something that I wouldn't.

Robbin, thanks also for standing beside me. You've put it in another perspective I haven't thought of. I've beening denying myself these foods and totally told myself "stand 50ft. away", but you're right...I probably will have them again sometime in life and it won't be such a big deal. I don't need to be so scared of them. But let's just say they will not be welcomed here for a very, very, very long time! LOL! You've done so well and so long without a cigarette. Fighting an addiction **raises hand and announces, food addict here** is a very difficult task to do. I for one can not point fingers to anyone who slips up. I'm sending some good :dust: and thoughts you're way so you're able to resist the next temptation because I know this is something you're doing for your health. BTW - I hope you were able to get a good strong kick in...LOL!

Well ladies, I'm off to exercise. I'm going to be such a good girl today. Thanks everyone for your support. It feels so awesome to have someone to talk to and get advice from people are going through the same thing. You all mean the world to me..your friendship is more than I could ask for. Thanks again!

TTFN!
~Tina
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Just came in to report after I left here I went directly downstairs to the treadmill. I did 2 miles in 32 mins. burning 272 calories doing a combination of brisk walking and jogging. I'm feeling so far so good, although it's about that time same as yesterday that I hit a moment of weakness. Which brings me here. Better keep my mind focused...LOL!

Michelle, thanks. I'm glad that I add something to to this group. I hope the meeting you have with your moms doctors goes good and is able to help you guys out.

Lois, I love doing my errands when my daughter is in preschool. The stores are pretty empty first thing in the morning. As funny as this sounds, I look forward to meeting up with Bob tonight! LOL!

Hope you all are having a great day so far!

I'll check back later.
TTFN!

~Tina

Oh . . . Robbin . . . :hug: First let me tell you how impressed I am that you've been giving up cigarettes at the same time as you've been giving up the unhealthy eating habits. Both habits can be soooooo hard to break. For you to tackle both at the same time . . . well, all I can say is WOW :bravo: Now . . . I'm afraid I'm going to sound like the wicked witch of the west, but I cannot tell you not to worry about your little cigarette slip-up. Nicotine is such an insidious addiction. One little slip off this particular wagon can screw up months of effort. Twenty years ago, I was a very heavy smoker (35 to 40 a day). I quit cold turkey on October 27, 1986 and I never touched another cigarette. In the first 3 weeks I thought I would go insane (literally). Even for the first couple of years, I still got serious cravings. The only thing that kept me from giving in to those cravings was the memory of how bad I felt during that first three weeks and the terror of having to ever do it again. I sincerely hope you can get back on the non-nicotine track. Good Luck. :hug:

Okay now, she says, climbing off her soap-box, and taking a deep breath . . .

Tina . . . :hug: So glad to hear that you are right back on track again. Not the least bit surprising, of course. You always make us proud.

Lois . . . :hug: It's really terrific that you stopped smoking when you were pregnant and never took it up again. I had a girlfriend who stopped smoking through both her pregnancies and then started again (which I never could quite figure out). Of course, I have to admit that I continued to smoke through both of mine. Definitely not something to make me feel proud. :(

Michelle . . . :hug: So sorry to hear about your Mother. This is a very serious disease and needs to be treated that way. All diabetics probably go through periods of denial, I know I certainly did. Several of them, in fact. Unfortunately, diabetes does not 'just go away'. In fact in is a progressive disease for which there is no cure. It can be controlled but it takes a very conscious effort. Please let me know how you make out with her doctor and remember I'm here for you. :hug:

Have a great evening, girls. Here's some extra :dust: and a good :kickbutt: to keep us all heading in the right direction this evening. See you soon. :carrot:

Howdy Girls! I am heading to the endocrinologist today for first official weighin with someone who is really following what i am doing. I feel pretty confident (notice change in my ticker) at the moment which usually means i am in for a huge let down! I am determined whatever the outcome of the visit and his feelings about it all, I have done well with what I wanted to do and who cares what he says, (but i really do still sort of care).

Robbin Smoking is such a difficult thing for a non-smoker to understand. I have a mother-in-law who can not put them down and knows how bad it makes my kids feel as well as me. Even the grandchild card doesn't work. I admire you for only having one!!! I hope you can continue to stay away after that little taste, i know with food that is near impossible for me!

TinaIt's good to hear the ecitement in your typing again. I just love your enthusiasm! We all struggle so we can all help each other. Next time one of us is feeling really weak we know we can come to you and you can totally relate!!!

LindaThe reason i am seeing the endo today is due to insulin resistance and trying not to get to diabetes. My husband is diabetic and it scares me to death. I have not been able to be pushy with him but i think he is beginning to see the light now that i am definitely on the band wagon! As a PT i see the devastation it can cause on a daily basis and i just don't want to see anyone have to deal with that, especially those i care about! Does seem though the treating it is as difficult as the disease itself!

Lois You shopping woman!! I could not handle that. I tried to shop for a bathing suit and bras with my 6 year old daughter along and after about and hour I had about all i could take. We were both exhausted when it was all over!

Michelle How did your mom's appointment go. It is so difficult to deal with someone who isn't real gung ho on doing what is best for them in the long haul. I am feeling for you!

Well girls gotta run, another busy day. Will try to check in tonight. Oh yeah, forgot to mention i got on my elliptical trainer last night, 1 mile in just over 8 min.

Good morning girls, I dont have much time to post right now, my receptionist called in today and I gotta get clocked into work early. Just wanted to wish everyone a good day.

Check back when I have a little more time.