Location: You'll never, never know, if you never, never go!!
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S/C/G: 109.6kg/104.6kg/67kg (15/8/10)
Height: 170cm
Another reasonable day yesterday. Ate good! Drank a little, and walked the dogs. I even went shopping yesterday and only bought what was on the list!!!
Although I am not sticking to my challenge goals, I am happy that I am still managing some control. Mentally I feel I could do this last 20kgs now if I wasn't going on holiday. I hope I can keep this mind while away or at least have it when I get home!
Ani, I am usually the same at Xmas. Although my family are here in town, I don't talk to my father and refuse to go around to visit Mum because he will be there! I used to make a point of being rostered on to work Xmas Day and Boxing Day so I wouldn't sit at home and feel down about not being able to do the 'traditional' Xmas stuff.
Last year was different - better! I visited some friends who have two young daughters, I actually felt the 'family' thing that Xmas is meant to be! This year, I am visiting them again, but because they have other guests over Xmas, I won't be there for Xmas.
And I have all confidence that you will achieve your 10kg goal n good time!
Leeny, well done for making WW work!!! Keep at it!
This time next year we are all going to be skinny chicks!!!
Everything is still frustratingly slow for me - not yet able to go for a walk, and I feel blurk!
But as I get closer to the 10kg mark I am already starting to set goals for the next 5kg loss. I figure I might as well exercise my mind, since my body is on strike! I worked out that, even at my slow rate of losing, I should make it to the next 5kg by mid-March … and I've decided that to avoid getting bored, I need to make my exercise etc a bit more fun.
Sometimes I feel like I am doing the *same old* thing every day, and even though I love walking I feel that I could get bored with doing the same thing all the time.
Does anyone else experience this, and how do you deal with it?
Just a quickie as i am off the get the hair done soon. I need a new me so who knows how or what will happen
Ani sorry to hear that you are still not well. Just rest and you soon will be. I love the fact that you are already challengeing yourself to reach another goal...good for you.
Lindor.....i also am pleased that you are still focused. It is a really hard time of year for me with all the Xmas parties etc etc. I am real close to my family so outings, shopping, lunches occur frequently so Xmas is the "biggoo". We all have kids so that makes it special even though mine and my sisters are teenages. My brother has a 3 year old and one on the way so he is so much fun. I am scared i will blow it.
I am having a bit of a spac attack today as we are having people over for xmas drinks tommorrow. I have no idea if they are coming for lunch, dinner, just drinks what? Have no idea what to prepare and what pi**es me off even more is that i might break my diet and i don't want to. Will try my best but....
Anyhow must away and make myself beautiful and then i suppose grocery shop for some form of food for the hoards....yuk.
There are some things you really have to be grateful for in this world. As I have mentioned before, I rent a house which is 15 minutes from the city. It's perfect for me - a very quiet neighbourhood, but right on the edge of the inner city. My lease is due, and I've been panicking about how much the rent would increase - yesterday I was notified that the owners have insisted that my increase be kept 'low' because I'm such a good tenant … so I'll be paying $225 a week. To know how GOOD that is, you need to know that the average rental price in my area is $385/week.
I had a shocking sleep last night, and kept waking up coughing and sneezing - so I feel special this morning… not! Hopefully this lurgy will soon pass, because I don't want to be sick for my holidays.
I have no plans for the weekend, aside from doing a few domestic chores. I still need to rest my body and try to recover.
Location: You'll never, never know, if you never, never go!!
Posts: 810
S/C/G: 109.6kg/104.6kg/67kg (15/8/10)
Height: 170cm
Another so-so day! Ate good(ish) drank about 1 litre, but didn't walk or do my step-ups. Got up to 42C yesterday!!! And I find 7pm too late to take the dogs for a walk!
Ani, it is a good feeling to to put some financial worries out of your head! Your rent there is huge, here is not too good either. I am lucky with my unit as my rent is only $80 a week and that includes water!! If I was looking at renting a similar unit through a real estate agent or privately I'd be looking at around $225 a week!
Hope you get over this bug you have...it sounds awful!
Other than packing and getting the place tidied up before leaving on Monday, I have no huge plans for the weekend. The Xmas dinner that was organised for work has been cancelled due to lack of interest!!! Have to admit I was one who was not interested too!
I have a huge jigsaw puzzle on the go on my table and I'd like to get that finished and away before I go too! So looking at a bit of time sitting on my butt doing that!!!
I need coffee...will check in intermittently through the day!
I think I'm on the mend. I didn't walk yesterday but I did spend four hours in the garden pottering around and moving plants around various spots on my verandah. I might *test the waters* today and go for a walk for half an hour.
I feel dehydrated and my body feels really out of balance – so I am planning that this week, on the first week of my holidays, I'm going to take some time and do some fun stuff for myself.
Last night I had my first moment of really noticing that I'd lost some weight. After I had a shower I threw on these old track pants I had worn quite a bit throughout winter. They just swam on me. I looked in the mirror at my side-on profile, and got a big surprise. I'm not one to look in the mirror too often, and I did a bit of a double take.
I could actually SEE some changes in my body. Long way to go yet, but it's good to remember that I have come a long way too. In fact I'm 25% of the way through this weight loss :-).
Location: You'll never, never know, if you never, never go!!
Posts: 810
S/C/G: 109.6kg/104.6kg/67kg (15/8/10)
Height: 170cm
It's a wonderful feeling isn't it Ani, when you notice it for yourself? I know the first time I really saw a difference in my appearance was when I did not recognise myself in a photo that was taken a few days prior!
I still view myself as large when I look in the mirror, I don't notice the loss. I only notice it when I glimpse myself unexpectedly like when I walk past a window or something.
Sounds like this bug has really knocked you about too. I agree take sometime for yourself, it should help with the recovery too.
So, I have had a hectic day today. I have such an awful habit of leaving stuff for the last minute! I have finally made a start on packing for my holiday...I leave in about 12hrs! I have scrubbed the unit...which wasn't too filthy thank god! I have got the dogs and cat set up for their drive. I am just about to go out and get the car sorted with fuel and the likes.
Last night was not a good night diet-wise! I ate like a pig! Why do I do that??? I was doing so well too. Anyway, have picked myself up again today and have not done anything bad...yet!
Alright, still stuff to do.
I will post with my weigh in tomorrow before I leave.
Last week was very, very bad for me. I got right into self destruct mode on Tuesday night and got really drunk. Didn't go to work on Wednesday and spent the rest of the week eating badly and treating my body badly.
The time has come for me to admit that I have a problem with alcohol and that is having a run on effect into most other areas of my life.
So now I'm concentrating on treating myself well and making positive decisions in all aspects of my life. Back on the healthy food wagon again and will be hitting the gym tonight.
Hey Little Kiwi, in many ways I think everyone here can relate to at least some of what you wrote. Whether it's alcohol or something else - it's mostly our own self-destructive behaviour that leads us here. Are you OK?
You don't have to answer this, but can I ask what you mean by thinking you have a problem with alcohol? It isn't any of my business, but please know that if you want to talk about it some more we are all here for you.
I have reached the 10kg mark, and am very happy with that. It is 3 weeks earlier than I had set my goals for - so I feel really pleased about that.
Since I began this journey in August I decided I would set goals 5kg at a time. The thought of losing 35kg was just too much - but I knew I could lose 5kg.
And it's time now for me to get to work on losing the next 5kg. I'm a fairly conservative planner/goalsetter, so I am working on the goal of ONE pound per week. That way I should be able to lose the next 5kg within the next 11 weeks.
This week I plan to get back into walking. I am going to start with 30 minutes a day and see how my body copes with that. I am also going to make the main priority a goal of drinking two litres of water EVERY day.
Have a great trip Lindor it this post isn't too late. I'm sure she will anyhows and has set a reasonable goal to maintain her 82kg whilst away.
Ani....you don't push yourself you hear too quick. I am soooo proud and happy for you that you have reached your 10kg mark(and before your scheduled date) how impressed you must feel Keep going you can do it i know.
When i was losing my weight before i only set 5kg goals as i had sooo much to lose. I felt like i was achieving something when i reached them, I am still the same. WW on Wednesday i should hit the 5kg goal and be rewarded with a lovely bookmark at the meeting..how embarrassing. Don't they say "small bites of the elephant".
Littlekiwi...ani is right. We will all listen(or read) if you want to talk about it. I have found the girls here to be so supportive even when we fall off the wagon, slight detours or even a derailment. Admitting you have a problem is the first step to fixing it. My dad has a serious drinking problem and does not think he has. I even found him out the other day sneaking beer at a kids concert we went to from his glovebox in his car after he made the excuse he had to just "check the cricket scores". My mum doesn't know a lot of his "sneakiness" and he will not admit to anyone he has a problem. I have begged him to get help but his answer is always" i can stop if i want to but i don't want to and its not harming you"....that's where he is wrong.
Anyways...got off on a tangent there...sorry...my week has been good. I had a party at my place on Saturday. The others drank, ate and generally was merry and i was "very conservative" and even ate a WW frozen dinner that evening instead of all the leftover "gutrot". Still some rum balls and slices left in the fridge but after a funny story happened at the party i am determined not to eat it.
One of my DH friends must weight about 250kg...a very big boy. He is so uncomfortable and could not fit into one of the outdoor chairs i have. I gave him another with no arms (I'm sure he must have felt embarrrassed) and guess what he promptly snapped the legs off it. I was angry and embarrassed for him(this chair was a good one). My DH gave him a milk crate to sit on(after he insisted) with a cushion and then cried in front of all the other guests "he hates himself and will never lose weight". How sad. I have rung him since and asked him if he has ever considered lapbanding as a friend of mine did that and it worked great for her. I would help him if he wanted to...he was angry at me(maybe he was angry at himself) and hung up. What to do?
Anyhow enough waffling, i have to pick the kids up. They volunteer at an Animal Refuge on Mondays and come home smelling like dog/cat. Have a good day allxxxxleeny
Ani - congrats on your 10kg loss! That's a totally awesome achievement and I'm sure I'm not speaking out of turn to say that we're all really proud of you.
Leeny, that's really sad about your husband's friend. I can only imagine how embarrassed he must have felt and I'm sure that it wasn't what you said that made him hang up the phone. At least now he perhaps knows that you're there for him if he needs help?
As for me, well, it's been a long time coming. When my first long term relationship started to go down the gurgler, I had gained lots of weight and because he wouldn't help me or talk with me about anything, I started drinking. Generally 1 bottle of wine a night by myself but at times I would binge and I had a few episodes of blacking out.
Since then, I've been ok for the most part but I don't seem to know my limit anymore. Sometimes I get an overwhelming urge to just write myself off. I thought that with a lovely new man in my life who treats me like a princess and loves me as I am, I wouldn't feel like that anymore but not so.
Last Tuesday I'd had a great workout and I sat down and had 1 drink. That somehow turned into 1 bottle of bubbly and 1/2 a bottle of vodka and 3 packets of cigarettes, by myself. I stayed awake all night and just got trashed. Couldn't go to work on Wednesday because of it and I blacked out on some of the night too.
I know that I've got a problem and I know that if I don't get a handle on it now, I'm going to end up in rehab so this is really my last chance to get better on my own. I have to either control the urge to keep drinking when I've had enough or stop drinking altogether. I've got a couple of really close friends who I've told about it and I'm going to get some books out of the library about alcoholism and hopefully that will help.
I think that staying on track with my fitness/weight loss goals will help me to get a handle on the drinking because I feel so good when I'm in control of what I'm eating and how much I'm exercising. I guess that I have an advantage in that I'm aware of the problem, I just hope I can do this.
Thanks for listening guys, I'll be checking in regularly and will be doing my best to make the right decisions this silly season.
Little Kiwi, it is so brave of you to tell us about your drinking - even more so to be honest with yourself about it.
I was relieved when I read that you have talked to your close friends, because whatever you need to do from now on, it is so much better when you have understanding and support from people who love you.
What do you need from us? You know that you can come on here and talk and talk and talk… leeny is far more wise and sensible than me, and she is very grounded. Britt is a great listener (as is Lindor when she's not traipsing around the country on holidays). Barb is also full of compassion - so we be there for you if you think it's appropriate.
I don't know what resources are available over your way. Is there a phone line you can call, a non-judgemental doctor or drug and alcohol service?
There is one thing I want to say to you - and PLEASE don't think I am judging you in any way. I'm not. I am worried that the amount of exercise you're doing - and adding booze and fags to it, is going to put your body under extra strain. Now I smoke, so don't think I'm standing on any kind of lofty tower here. I'm also a little concerned that the well-being you feel from exercise can mask the bigger problem of drinking.
Have you tried cutting back the alcohol? Do you drink every day? Does the idea of not having a drink for a week scare you?
{{{{{ big hug }}}}} from me, because it's not an easy problem to fix. But you've already done one of the hardest things … admitting it's a problem.
Thanks for all your support, it means a lot. Sometimes it helps if I just write it all down and I'm glad I can do that here. I'm feeling positive, have looked up the alcohol support phone number and will call it next time I feel the urge to overindulge. With the smoking, I'm pretty good and most days only have 4 or 5 and often less but I do smoke like a train if I drink.
So, the plan going forward is to make better decisions in all areas of my life.
I went to the gym last night and although I can't say that I enjoyed it, I made it thru 40 minutes and was glad that I'd made the effort . My weight had stayed the same as last week and I'm happy with that - so much better than a gain! Seeing the personal trainer tonight and am almost looking forward to it
I have a wedding to attend in February and I have set a goal to get into a beautiful size 16 dress (that is sitting in my wardrobe unworn) for that occasion.
Keep going you can do it i know.
. My weight had stayed the same as last week and I'm happy with that - so much better than a gain! Seeing the personal trainer tonight and am almost looking forward to it 
