Food-wise, I didn't eat the best of foods, but made good decisions. For example, DH and I were going to order out a pizza but we decided to go grocery shopping and make a DiGiorno spinach and mushroom pizza instead - which isn't exactly great, but would be better than ordering a pizza. It was good. Also, had salads with grilled chicken on Saturday and I made a great salmon bake last night.
Wal-mart has these frozen individual servings of wild salmon that are $1 each! I am going to majorly stock up on these. The wild salmon doesn't taste as "fishy" as the farm-raised I think...and DH likes it. He's not usually a fish person. And it's loaded with Omega 3 fatty acid - the good stuff!
Went to the gym last night - 50 mins on the elliptical. I should have gone 10 more to make an hour. I will try for that next time. I am pretty sure I spied my ex boyfriend there, and that made the time go by quickly since all the cursing in my head made me forget all about the fact that I was exercising! LOL
Good morning,
I was down 3lbs at weigh-in last nite.
I guess going to curves 4x a week must help.
I'm still working really hard on my portion sizes. Drinking lots of water.
I had dh underfoot yesterday he took the day off. All we did was run errands. I have to go back to the boat registration place again today. I'm just so excited I can't hardly control myself.
Girlie: I'm going to walmart today. I'm going to look for that salmon and get some. We really love it. Ds's don't care for it so the single servings would work great.
Spores: CONGRATES..On your loss. Bored SPICE IT UP.. Works for food also.
I forgot to mention when your feet hurt roll around a ball or a bottle with them. It streches out the tendons.
I hope they feel better soon.
Holly: mother/daughter day out sounds so nice. Family is way short of girls. I have a sister but she lives 1000 miles away. Taking the guys is sure not as much fun.
Susie, Sandi, Annie and anyone I missed: I hope you are all doing well.
This is the email I sent to my family...
I received an email from Margaret today that stated she had spent most of the week at Grandma’s doing everything that no one else wanted to do. I quite frankly take offense to this and I am wondering if it is time for our entire family to take a look at Grandma’s care and reassess how it is being managed.
It is certainly news to me that were any jobs to do and that there was a new oil tank coming etc.
No one told me that Grandma’s house had been broken into. Couldn’t do anything to help with that either.
I do get tired of the negativity I do hear about Grandma. She is no Saint and nor is she perfect BUT she is a kind woman who went above and beyond( especially for Margaret well into her adulthood) as a Mother, Grandmother and Aunt. I GLADLY and WILLING LY give my time, lover and energy to her care in her old age. We are blessed in her good health and general presence in our lives.
I will remind you that I do Grandma’s hair and feet biweekly, I do her laundry and make frozen meals. I have also been discreetly helping Grandma with her incontinence. All without complaint.
Brenda and Kevin get Grandma’s groceries.
I will also remind Margaret that she has a retired Brother and Sister in law. Grandma has two biological Grandchildren and two step Grandchildren and their spouses who would willingly help out.
Communication is key. No one has asked Margaret to martyr herself.
It is discouraging to be criticized and shot down when you do give assistance. I am mostly able to ignore it for Grandma’s sake. Others, I know, have stopped offering help because it is never good enough.
Margaret has done a wonderful job as Grandma’s primary caregiver for several years. Maybe it is time for someone else to take over or for Margaret to delegate some jobs and “allow” others to help her.
I have gone and picked up any of my personal belongings from Grandma’s basement.
Let’s keep Grandma’s remaining years as enjoyable as possible together!!! H
This is where I am at today......LOL!
5 toddlers toddling and a happy babysitter and Mom.
I am feeling great!!!!!!!!
Did a lot of processing. The cyber waves were burning with heated exchanges with my sister. It was soooooo good to say the things I did.
In the end she told me I was right. All the secrets and backstabbing was not right.
I was on the phone most of the day it seemed.Church stuff. Babysitting stuff. Tax stuff.
I felt clear headed and I wanted to do everything. I have been “making” myself do the housework etc. I Finished 1 title page for the directory and I have 1 more to do and then the cover layout.Fun.
Big kids in school. DD is going to the Theatre to see a Jillian Jiggs play.
5 kids ages 3 and under. I love this age group. Dont talk back and sleep all aft!!!!!
I gave the framed pic I put together to S last night of her and Ben and kids. She told me I was “better than a friend. She couldn’t find words to describe me.”
Sis, Mom and Aunt M are very close.I call it co dependant. They all talk on the phone almost every day. Sis bought a house one street over from my Aunt. They kind of feed off of each other.
They called me Friday night. Mom and M were there for a sleep over and they were drunk and giggling. EW!
I cant imagine spending my Fri night with two 60 year old family members partying. The whole thing is unhealthy, to me. Sleepover??????
Still haven’t heard anything from my parents or M. I think that is weird too.
Maybe they are having a family meeting to decide how to deal with me! Funny but true it has happened more than once. In hushed voices, how are we going to handle H? She is soooo overly sensitive. Will you talk to her? NO, you should do it.
What will we tell other people if it comes up? Lets get our story straight.......Blah,blah.blah!!!!
Best go toddle with the toddlers.
MIA lately. Seems to happen when I am doing an awful job at exercising and eating. Silly, but I think this is when you need the most support.
Have been out of control on eating for about 5 days. Each day I get up and say it is going to be better then I lose it and eat. I need a mental attitude adjustment.
Have worked way too many hours the past week, which may be why the out of control feeling. Tired and can't think. Plus they are monitoring our email and internet use, so it is very hard to get anything personal done. haha.
Holly -
I think family situations like yours are, unfortunately, some of the hardest in life. Your family should be close, loving and non-biased...unfortunately though, I think families judge the most, have the most separation and cause some of the most stress in our lives, which just doesn't make sense! I admire you for getting through all that you have.
Annie:
Sorry to hear that you aren't doing as well as you had hoped - me neither, but I think the most important thing is to continue to post, and to continue to be conscious that you aren't making the best choices - it's better than to just become uncaring and oblivious. So you are still on track mentally! Keep your chin up.
I am doing okay - ate too much at dinner out last night but had a simple salad with FF italian for lunch and an oat bran bar for breakfast so hoping it evens out. Had trouble waking up this morning. Going to the gym tonite and going to get a good night of sleep before my morning interview - it's a 2nd interview with a small local marketing group. I think I have to basically meet with the whole office tomorrow and that's very nerve-racking! But the owner of the business apparently liked me, so I'm back to meet the group. The office is very casual and creative, so I'm going to dress a little more casual, a little more creative and artsy - a little more ME than my suits. I bought this bright spring trench coat with splashes of pink, yellow and blue, and it also has some black in it, so it's very versatile. It's a new thing for me but I feel good in it and have black slacks, heels and a simple yellow cardigan sweater to go with it. Wish me luck!
Hey everyone,
I though I would do a fly by posting. I'm at work and have a few moments.
I made it to curves this am. Doing fair on food. Except for the b-day cake I baked for a co-worker. I ate a small piece
Annie: Know that we all have days like that. forgive yourself then go do something nice for yourself. This is a life long war not a few days battle.
BIG HUGS
Weigh-In last nite was good, down 2.4, I can live with that. HOLLY, You have had a week, and it is only Wed. Sorry for you. You are doing great positive things, take care of you.
Annie, Sorry you are struggling. I can feel that way sometimes too, you are at a good place for support. Take a bath, maybe a cry, then get back in the game. Sometimes girls just need to do that. I always think of that story someone sent to me a few years ago, called the Awakening. Have you read it? You can do this, not in one day, one week but in time. Take the time that you need. (((HUGS)))
Girlie- Good luck. I am rooting for you. It is nerve racking. Is that the place you really want to work? I hope it all works out.
Debbie, Good for you. I am happy for your loss. I have thought about joining curves, but I have just been doing my treadmill. Tonite I am stressed out, I usually can do 40 min, but my calves and legs have been aching so terribly, I think I need to do something else. I haven't missed my treadmill once since the first week in March, I do it everyday, and walk for 40 minutes during the day, at lunch. I think I am just whipped. I am scared to quit doing it for only a day, because I am afraid it will be easy for me to say, " I'll do it later" and then not get back into it. Any advice I would love to here. Our closest Curves is over a hour away. No other gym, except at school.
Spores, your poor feet. I bought a pair of shoes about a year ago, that someone told me would feel great. They were a leather Merrell's mule. I LOVE them, I have since bought 2 more pair in different colors. They are a bit pricey, but I will pay that just so my feet don't hurt. If you are looking for a Tennis Shoe, I just bought a pair of KSwiss, and I have had no trouble with them. They give good support. Good luck.
Just checking in. Kids are counting down---11 days left of actual school days. I am counting also. I am ready for summer, but I am worrying about a few of my little people over the summer. My son and I are going to be BIG golfing partners this summer, so I am excited to spend some time with him, and not have a bunch of other kids around, although it does seem like we sometimes seem to have a few extra's around.
Take care, Happy Hump Day.
Just popping in to say hey to everyone. I've been having a fun social life (for a change!) but making so-so choices. This week I have been struggling with painful shin splints, so I'm a mite depressed that I will have to cut back on the walking.
But I can't complain! I'll come back for personals as soon as I can. Take care--judy
Hey everyone,
I overslept so this will be brief. I'm still doing ok. Drinking lots of water.
Its raining here. I really hate working out in the rain. Don't mind the rain but the markers we have to use to write in the winshields of the cars don't work well on water. Trying to get them to try something better. Our sister auction in seattle uses another brand. You know it rain there all the time.
Oh well, you know bosses.
I'll do personals later. Just know I'll be thinking of everyone. Have a blessed day.
Deb~ I slept in too. On purpose tho. I knew i didn't have a busy morning.You are on such a positive roll!!!!!
Judy~ ouch!! Take good care of yourself.
Sandi~ great LOSS!!!!! Wow, we have 2 months more of school here. About the lunches, we dont have programs like that here.
Girlie~ how was the interview??
Annie~ I fall apart with food and exercise when I am super busy too. I am the last one who gets taken care of and I run out of time. HUGS!
Spores, Susie, Jody HI!!!!!!!
My clothes smell like fresh air!!!!
Hung out the wash yesterday. This morning as I was doing the mad dash I kept smelling something glorious. I was sniffing at kids etc, couldn’t figure it out.It was ME!! Aaaaaah.
Thanks for the support on the family stuff. It is not the biggest thing in my life but it one of the things that is underlying and “eats” me.My theory is if I let it out, face it, handle it effectively I will not over eat. It is definitely a thread throughout my life. At times it was the biggest thing. Dont give them that much of my personal power these days.
The positive stuff in the last few days have been huge. Has me smirking. The feedback and emails from fellow school council members on my parent handbook have been stunning and very nice to hear. They come from people actively involved in the community resources for kids etc..... very nice. I also had a nice visit from my co SS superintendant. I wrapped up the photo directory!! Looks just peachy.
My old rocker friend is stopping by tonight with her 2 kids.
I was down 2.5 at TOPS last night but that is still UP 4 from the end of FEB!
3 little guys here today. I should have 2 hours to myself this aft. Lots to do. I need to pick one thing. and veg abit too.
I finished Clara Callan( Richard B Wright). A must read. So incredibly enjoyable to read.
I am starting No great Mischief by Alistair Macleod. The first paragragh describes the route we take to go to Dh’s Bothers. I could picture every bit.
Sun is shining. Will get these kiddies outside and dig in the dirt this morning!!!!!!
Hi! Just popping in at lunch for a quick hi. It's been a very busy week (it seems to be that way a lot these days!). Despite being busy, I've done well with the food and exercise this week. I've also been acknowledging a lot of things to myself. I'll share more on that this weekend when I have some time to post and catch up.
Sorry I've not been around to support you, but you all have been in my thoughts. I'll catch up this weekend.
Good morning,
I had a real "pig-out" day yesterday.
I ate my yogurt for b-fast. Then lunch came and I let my friend decide where we ate. She picked a mexican place with a very small selection. I ate nachos. I won't go into details but it was definatly not on my plan. Then Dh had pizza waiting on me when I got home. He had Mushroom. My favorite. I ate 4 slices. Today needs to be a salad day.
Holly: CONGRATES ON THE LOSS...I also hang my clothes on the line when I get the chance. everything smells so great. They can't bottle that.
Judy: AH.. A social life...only a sweet memerory. Have FUN girl.
I have had a FULL week of kids, which also means lots of pay!!!! DH still hasn’t been paid for the last house he built. The new guy short changed him several hours last week. This guy asks DH to be there for 8am(most builders start at 6:30-7) then he doesn’t show up till 11am, then he gives DH grief for leaving at 6(home at 7), which means DH eats dinner alone and has no time with the kids.......hense DH is very unhappy,feeling unvalued, lonely.,........ he was monumentally sad last night,went to bed at 9, wasn’t talking this morning.....sigh. It is hard.
I am doing great. Yesterday aft I raked and mowed part of the front for a couple of hours. Nice!!
Had extra kids for dinner.Watched Survivor and ER.
Still working on the mountain of laundry.
Tomorrow at noon I am going to London to give an afidavit about conversations I had with Ben about his relationship with his mother. The kids will spend the aft with S and the boys. DH is driving to Windsor( 2 hours) to try and get his $$$.
For mother’s day we are making stepping stones, pouring cement into pie plates, and popping in some glass beads, shells etc.
Playgroup this morning till 11.
Sun is shining, birds are singing...........
Debbie~ back on the wagon today!!!!!!!
Susie~ thinking of you too!!!
Sandi~ nice loss!!!
Judy~ a social life. DO tell! I can live vicariously!!!
Girlie: Good for you for going to the grocery store instead of eating out. And hitting the gym!
Debbie: Congrats on your loss. Sounds like your work at Curves is really paying off!
Holly: Sounds lik eyou are embroiled in family madness! Hope it clears itself up soon. Good for you for speaking your mind.
Annie: I also tend to keep to myself when Im not doing well, and you’re right – that is just when we need the most support! I wonder why that urge to hide pops up. Fear of failure, for me, I think. It’s like when a kitten is hiding behind a pot waiting to pounce on something, and it thinks it’s being sooooo sneaky, but you can see its tail waving all over the place. It’s like, if I don’t look at something, it’s not there. If I don’t talk about my problems, they don’t exist. If no one sees me fail, I am not really failing.
Sandi: Wow, you have done your treadmill every single day for months?! I am in awe. *Bows* I am lucky to get in once a week lately! The thing that has worked for me, when I am doing the treadmill, is TV shows on DVD. I rent or buy a season of a show I love and promise myself that I will only watch them when I’m walking. This is especially good because I don’t have cable and we get terrible reception, so all the shows I love I never get to see when they air. I walked my way through Kids in the Hall, Mr. Show, and The Office, and now I am starting on the complete set of Monty Python. So I am guaranteed to walk for at least 30 minutes because I want to see the end of the show, and then walking is like a treat when I get to watch my comedy. I have tried movies, but they’re a little too long, and I hate stopping a movie halfway through. I was also thinking of getting one of those headset phones and talking to my mom when I walk. We tend to have long converstations, and she doesn’t mind if I am huffing and puffing. Thanks for the shoe ideas. I went shopping this week and, after a loooong time searching, found a pair of danskos that are pretty cute and comfy. I will try them out at work tonight and see how I do.
Judy: Yikes, shin splints! Sorry to hear about that. Hope you’re feeling better soon.
Hi to anybody I missed! Hope all are well.
Well, once again, I have been offplan and off the radar for a few days. Eating out a lot. Not exercising. Not sure exactly what’s going on with me. Part of it is being tired. I haven’t had enough sleep for a while, and I’m not sleeping well. Part of it is being busy and a bit stressed about lots of little things. My jaw is killing me – clenching in my sleep again. I am wanting to find a way to help with that without buying one of those mouthpieces. Does anyone know of any good remedies for TMJ symptoms?
So my insurance offers this weight-loss program where they send you a binder of info and exercises and you meet with a phone nutritionist every week for eleven weeks. I did this last year. The six-month follow-up phone consultation was today. I was disapointed that I didn’t have much success to report. I am starting to wonder if a structured eating program would be good for me, but they all seem so expensive, and now that school is ending, my salary is going to drop signifigantly. So I’m not sure what to do. I am sort of lost these days on what to eat. I am feeling sort of lost in general. Not quite sure how to figue everything out. I feel like I need to ask for help, but I’m not sure who to ask or where to go. Maybe I am just craving an outside authority figure to tell me what to do. Which, I know, is a cop-out. I need to be my own authority figure!
Anyway, thanks for listening, you guys. I have a busy weekend, and I am going to try to find some time to write in my journal and just relax a little. Hope everyone has a great weekend!
