Hey girls, I know I have been caught up in my own drama these days but I am still with you in spirit.
I am shrugging it of. I am way okay with me and my choices.Just digesting it right now. Tomorrow is a new day.
Hugs to all.

Hello all....

Well weighed myself today and was still at 238.6.....so staying right there....I need to get back into the exercise habit, but it has been freezing here and after being cold at work all day...they turned the heat off for the year??!!??!!!.....all I wanted to do was curl up on the couch with my blanket! But stayed at 1350 cal. today and really had no temptations today....going to be TOM in the next few days, so I am surprised no munchies......I guess I will see what tomorrow brings!

Sandi...I work as a special ed consutlant at a high school. I work with teachers who teach students with severe disabilites...so high school students with autism on occassion....love my job!

Sounds like tomorrow will be nicer so I will get out for a walk!

Lilybutt

Good morning,
It's barely 6am and I just started my 2nd load of laundry. I have to work again today. I'm glad I need the hours. I keep hoping they will put me full time.
The scale didn't move last nite. Just very glad not to have gained. I Only went to curves twice last week. I plan to go this am.
I tried the new diet coke with splenda. I loved it. The other companies will soon start to use it also. I figure it is about time for the generics to start showing up. Splenda has been on the market for several years now.
Lillybutt: WELCOME...I truly know what you mean about the set point. I've only been under 200 once in the last couple of decades and couldn't maintain.

Holly: wishing you a good day!!!

Girlie: That is great that you planned some personal time on your vacation. DH doesn't understand that. His idea of a vacation is visiting his family...period.

Jodi: Good to hear from you. We miss you when you don't post for a few days.

Susie: If you are reading these we miss you also.

WOW.. so many teachers and me with no spell check..

Everyone have a great day.

Good Morning! (literally)
Life goes on.......
I had a meeting at the school at 7 last night with our new principal about the handbook and then scooted to the church for a congregational meeting. We are sorting out some communication issues. Setting up a person to connect with who will connect with the minister.It might end up being me with a team.
Out of the blue after the meeting my co SS person, started talking about what a loving and patient parent I am and how lucky my son is to have me for a parent.She said it bring tears to her eyes to see how much work I put into keeping him grounded and connected and happy. She went on to tell me how much my home reflects how much I love my husband and children and how it is like walking into a warm hug when you come in the door, it is an oasis of love.
My heart needed that!

My daughter was up sick to her tummy from 1am on. I am tired. Lots of thinking time. DH and I were up late talking too. He said all the right things.He “gets” me. That’s a good thing, lol, cause he is stuck with me. We really connected.
I wrote my Grandma a card and mailed it,telling her how much she means to me and how much I love her. I put her pic on my desktop on the computer to remind me of what matters.
I blocked the other’s email and IM.
There is a layer of sadness but not pain.
4 kids today, including DD( should be in school). She just woke up and is laying on the couch.
I really didn’t eat yesterday. Some fruit and crackers, lots of water and tea( chamomile). Unusual because I eat a lot when I am sorting through big emotions. Maybe it is really shifting.

Jodi turn that frown into a smile .Keep posting, even through the slumps. A big boost coming your way!!
Annie
Susie
Judy~ you are right. In my 20's I was always around 170, then up until kids 190, since kids I get down to 228 and dont seem to go lower...... 190 here I come!!!
Lilybut~ I am in the same boat. i turn 40 this summer and it is IS harder. I have to watch it too or I will bounce up to 240 in a blink. Nice to see you posting
Sandi~ I HAVE felt your prayers and I am honoured that you give me your time and energy. It is deeply appreciated. I love you level of understanding and insight. I value it!!
Girlie~ thanks for the hug and vote of confidence.
Beach time with the hubby sounds devine!!!
YP~
My love to you glorious women.

Time for a !!

Holly -
You gotta do what you gotta do to get over this, and move on in your life. People are so complex and sometimes, you may never connect well with another person. Just let go. Words and feelings get intertwined and sometimes silence is the best answer.

Debbie -
Wow, up early and productive! That's good! I hope you can continue to get more hours as well. It can be stressful worrying about that type of thing. Do what you can, take care of yourself and make sure you don't get caught up in a whirlwind. Or at least that's what I tell myself when I'm starting to get a lot going on - like right now!

Lily -
Interesting job! I'd love to work at a high school. There are so many things I'd like to do in general. You must have a lot of patience.

Sioux -
DH and I are but aren't looking forward to the trip. It's nice to get out, but I know we will be totally exhausted from all the family and stuff. He's never met my grandparents, and we've been married for 18 months. So, off we go! I know what you mean though - Dh usually considers a "vacation" going to a national battlefield LOL. But this trip will have a bit for him, a bit for me, and lots of family.

Jodi -
Oh, I know how you feel. I try to make it a point of posting even through I'm not OP...which is usually these days!

Girlie

Howdie All,

I have been so bad lately....moving on from that.

Holly - I am so sorry to hear about your family woes. It is difficult and I really don't know how to comfort you, only that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Lilybutt - welcome to the best journaling support you can find. and I love your name.

Jodi - I know exactly how you feel about feeling rotten about dieting and exercising then stearing clear of this place to journal, when we need it the most. I am praying for us all to gain composure.

I go back to TOPS tonight. I am dreading it, as I know I have gained back all my efforts. So tonight is my "re-start" (like my 548th time). I just wish I could keep the motivation going for longer than a month.

The kids and I are going to Graceland in July to see Elvis. ;^) Only for a few days, however long enough to get away, and come back refreshed. My daughter has wanted to go there since she was about 5, now 19, so it is time I think. haha.

Hello to all I missed, stay focused, and OP.

Hugs to all, extra hugs to Holly and Jodi.

Annie

Thanks gals!!! Annie, there is nothing for you to do. The fact that care enough to read my stuff and keep me in your prayers goes way beyond my wildest dreams!!!!!!

Spores???? How are you?????

Hello everyone, I'm still trying to keep track of who's who and who's doing what on here!

I've been busy racking up my running impressively in the past few days, running 5k regularly and feeling that 3k is a short run, also adding in hills. I'm very impressed, I looked back at my diary from September last year and saw what I was proud of achieving then exercise wise with what I can do now and I'm amazed how much fitter I am. Even if I don't lose a pound more that has to be good for me (and if I carry on running I will do). I've been eating relatively well. Have been struggling with random cravings and a sudden dislike of fruit/veg, but I'm sure it will pass and I'm trying to at least make sensible choices, even if it's not quite what I'd like to eat.

Sounds like everyone's busy, keep on sticking with it!

Hey YP! Race ya to 227!!! LOL!

I'm 227.5 if that gives me an edge...

AW Man!!!

Hey gals,

I am 29 and facing the battle with my weight for the second time. I had lost 85 lbs and saw that wonderful mark on the scale that says 198. Aw, that was such a great day. Then I allowed life to get in my way and here i am again at 276. I have had good success in the past with watching calories and exercising, so that is what I am sticking with on this, my last, commitment. I started three days ago, and I am already feeling better. I have exercised induced asthma, so that makes things interesting, but I truly feel great after working out.

Thank you all for being here. Wow, it is nice to have company on a lifelong journey!!

Annie:
Don't worry about the re-starting thing. That is my problem too. When I could afford to go to Weight Watchers, I would get too embarassed to go back. It sounds silly because places like that and TOPS should be absolutely the most non-judgmental place you can go. But I always fail to go back.

YP:
I am quite amazed at your running. I wish you lived near me and we could to for runs. Well, at least, you could kick my butt and get me to run again. I haven't run a 5K in a few years, not to mention, I'm afraid to try running again. I think of the number 230-something and think someone at my weight shouldn't be running! But I miss the feeling, and it's a great way to beat stress and exercise and challenge yourself. My husband and I used to go for late- night runs when we were dating, and I was around 190 then. Even when I play softball on Friday nights, I run the bases and get a little winded, and feel my shins burning just from that. Do you have any tips for me?

Gonna:
WELCOME! Please stay and hang out with us. As you can see, we talk about everything! A great group here!

Talk to everyone later!

Girlie

hello chicks!
first of all thank you so much!! i know this is the place i need to turn when i can't get it together. all of your support is wonderful! today was good. i think i can do this! i really need to do this. i am the only one stopping myself from reaching my goal. i have a very supportive family who will eat whatever i throw in front of them, diet or not. i also have all of you behind me and that is wonderful. the people at WW are totally supportive and positive. i have a wonderful supportive email friend who cheers me on through thick and thin. so why is it i can find so many excuses not to do this? lol

annie- like you i am at start # 580 something. we are going to do this!! congrats going back to tops tonight! i am going back to WW on saturday am. oooohhh elvis's place? sounds like a blast!!

girlie- thank you!! i'm going to try harder to peek in when i am not being a good girl. maybe someone will slap the chocolate bar out of my hand lol

gonna- welcome!! you most certainly are right on time!! great bunch of support in here!! you can do this!! we are all going to do this!!

yp1 - welcome! great job running!! keep up the great work!!

holly- thank you! i need the boost! good for you putting g-ma first and forget the rest. sometimes family is just too much to worry about. take care of the DH and little ones, all the rest will sort themselves out!

debbie- well aren't you the early bird? good for you going to curves! keep up the good work!

lillybut- you must be very special. my 10yo DS is autistic and all of his teachers are angels. good job staying within your cals!! keep it up TOM will come and go!

sioux- thank you! beep beep big wave!! i might be a lap down but i am still in this race!! glad school is almost done! enjoy!!

hope you all have a great night!! hello to everyone i missed!!

1338 cal today.....and even had an ice cream cone from McD's! I have found the past week or so that my urge to eat has really subsided...not sure why exactly...but I used to not be able to make it to lunch...but now I am so that is good!

Kind of had a bad day emotionally though, my ex BF wrote me a nasty email about how I am wasting my life going out with the guy I am seeing and how I am better than that....just made for a bad night and a bad day....shesh he dumped me for someone else and I really am not sure who made him my judge and jury all of a sudden......Actually from the words in the email....it appears that he has been getting into either my email or a mutual friend's......he used words and said things he had no reason to know....so all new passwords! What a hassle! I am sure he could make a good guess at what mine was....and I know he knows the mutual friends.....so we won't communicate by email anymore! I tell you one more word from him and I am going to a lawyer for a restraining order.....I could purge more here, but I hate to drudge up the past!

YP….I envy your running…my knees just can’t take it!

Holly …..I love your signature “I do not need permission to be myself” I LOVE IT!!!!!

Well sleepy tonight so heading to bed soon!

Have a good day!

Lilybutt