Better - YOU GO GIRL! That's awesome!
Dria - Fingers crossed for you!!!
Michele - You must be SO proud!!
cgy girl - thanks for the encouragement

We'll see the real numbers tonight.
To all the other ladies - WOOT WOOT...you can do this!!
So I didn't go to WI last night... I slept on the couch instead. I'm not feeling too well lately...stomach pains, indigestion, tired, nausea...and no, NOT pregnant.
Last night, I had a trigger. Long story short (as short as can be), I was in love with this man... I was 18 when we met. He was my first... I loved him so much. I wanted to marry this man... but we were never a "couple"...
Through the years, we had quite an adventure... He never had a gf cause his 1st gf broke his heart - couldn't handle getting close to someone.
Whenever I had a bf and broke up, we ended up together again... We had passion, we had quite the attraction... but it never grew to a relationship as he was scared.
I met my husband when I was 22...but I still thought... "one day"... that one day we'd be together. We've kept in touch, we've become real close, great friends... more than friends really...hard to explain...
So now I'm 29, married...and he's now with someone in my town...(he lived 2 hours away)... I'm having a **** of a time with this. He moved in with her, I see his car, her car... The pain is very... present.
So, last night, I'm driving...close to where their home is (I try to NOT drive there as much as I can)...and here they are walking on the road...they had to wait for me to pass... I couldn't look... I felt like I was going to be sick.
So I stopped at the store, grabbed cookies and went home. I felt so sad... still feel sad this morning...
I don't understand why GOD would punish me this way...why bring him so close to me?
Last year, she moved in an appartment...at my stepdaughters's grandma's house... CAN YOU BE CLOSER TO ME?? I had to see his car, see him...whenever we picker her up after school... *huh* and THEN, my husband comes home one night, to tell me that the new league he plays in in town, well he plays in it too. I mean...
He too wondered why there was so many coincidences...he called me up many times to talk about it... but he doesn't feel the pain like I do.
Not sure what I'll have to do about this... You can't throw away 10 yrs of friendship/love... and forget about it....