Ok then!! I am in for the fight!! I have my breakfast, lunch and dinner already prepared for tomorrow. I am going to TRY not to be so anal about it all.
So I am good to go!! Let's HOPE!! Maybe I'll challenge myself to this dual and see who comes out the winner
Good idea Vickie...3-4 lbs doesn't sound so bad, but am I capable of this?? I hope so. I mean it really isn't asking too much of myself. You'd think I'd WANT to do this for me. Why do we put ourselves second....
Well, Thanks again
Be back tomorrow.....LJ
Everyone is in the basement racing slot cars., so I thought I would jump on here for a minute. I think my problem is the darn weather. I am just not a cold weather person and the colder I am, the hungrier I am. Think I need food to keep me warm. It's funny how on a nice sunny, warm day, I have more energy and am much happier. I need one of those "lights" , I forger what they are called.
I think I had around 21 pts. today, no exercise except for shoveling the slush off the driveway. I keep forgetting about the oil. I did buy the Light extra virgin olive oil and it is not bad, I think what I had before might have been a little rancid. Anyway, I had a salad and a baked potato for lunch and forgot the oil until after I was finished eating.
Maybe I should leave it out on the counter as a reminder.
Lin - maybe you should just focus on 1 lb. a week until you get on a roll., sometimes when I set my goal too high, I get discouraged then eat. I'm trying to get on plan and actually got my WW stuff out of the car today. Yes, meeting was canceled last week due to snow, so that "stuff" has been in the car for 2 weeks. Oh....... and the week where I lost the most weight, was the week my scale was broken and I couldn't weigh myself. I've got to stop getting on the scale every morning.
Which one of us gets on the plane?? Hmmm ... we'll have to figure that one out!
Five pounds by Easter is SO do-able! Now keeping it off (for me, at least) is the key. We'll do it together. Oh and by the way, I guess I should adjust my ticker because this morning's weight was 152. So that'll be my starting weight, and I'll be shooting for 147 by Easter Day.
I wonder if I should be backing it down to 1,150??? You know, if I would only lose the soft drinks, I'd be there with no problem. In fact, I would probably have to add food.
thanks lj for your kind insight to my sister. the 4 years are not any fault of mine. and it will probably happen again, this sister takes leaves of absences quite often. it is unfortunate circumstances that brought her to phone me and a lot of courage. she has experienced and is experiencing being on rock bottom and needed help. if i have managed to keep her off the streets and not having to be in soup kitchens then i have done what i needed to do. we will see what happens next.
yes, vickie i have one of those other toxic relatives, in fact, 2......it is hard but we keep going don't we. hopefully, this one will realie how important family truely is
this board is absolutely the best.......not even going to chat about the eating except for a chocolate bar i have stayed on plan and within core and 35 points!
Kathy, 1150 might not be enough food. I say lose the soda but I know how hard that will be for you. Can you commit to going without it for a week just to see what will happen?
First got my x-rays done: picture a beached whale on a tiny table about 12 inches wide, covered in a short paper gown - open in the back exposing lovely white skin w/white panties...being placed in different contorted positions to get some pictures taken........and there were a lot...and some didn't "take" so more contortions were required. Not a fun time!
oh ya - and thanks for the codeine warning Vickie - just a bit too late! I popped a pill at lunch w/my soup right before I left the house - had some tummy pains while driving - felt like I was still hungry? Then the major aches started while I was sitting in the waiting room - like bad cramping and hunger. All I could think of was the nutrigrain bar in my car and that I had to eat it to get rid of the pain! Got back to the car and ate it and drank some water and this finally relieved the pain (it was so sweet tho - definitely not used to eating that stuff!).
Then hobbled off to the therapist appt driving and sliding through mounds of snow.....nice older lady - why are you here she asks? Well I told her all right - poor dh was just sitting and shrinking into his chair - I told the truth, and I'm sorry if it made him feel bad but it had to be said.
She asked him some good questions: are you a happy person (no) do you know why you are not happy (mostly). She thinks we need to work more as a team when parenting (well duh) and hopes to get us back to this level of cooperation. I told her he basically is a) trying to get my kids out of the house, b) never participates in anything they do c) is very negative towards them. Yes dh stood up for himself said he was trying harder, and working on his own issues... she felt encouraged that he was at least trying.
The saddest part for me was when she asked him about the marriage...was it going well (no).....and my favorite - what do you feel you brought to the marriage? (financial support and taking care of the kids) ARE YOU KIDDING? WHAT A CROCK!!! I am so disappointed in hearing him say this! (Yes I was a single mom, but had my own home, car and good paying job???).
I was asked what I brought to the marriage - what a sap I must have sounded like when I said love, life experience, nurturing..that dh was a kind, loving person who was very romantic (in the good old days) who made me feel so special - this is when I burst out crying! She seemed not to be too fazed by this, and passed me the tissue box....the rest of the afternoon has not been too enjoyable. As I hover between pain, discomfort and despair. Was I so blind? Can this be salvaged? Is he just so damaged from his childhood that he cannot change?
I am not sure what to do! I feel so depressed and shocked and not sure why we are even doing this??? She wants to see each of separately, then once again together. Oh ya I mentioned the "he's unhappy cuz I'm overweight" issue and she didn't freak out - but I think she then realized how much "hurt" there was and we had to get the marriage back on track so I could feel "special" again (more crying from me!).
She also mentioned that we needed to get together especially for the youngest's sake as while he was cute and adored right now - he too would be 14 one day and we would again have to deal w/teenage issues!
Did not feel like dinner but of course tummy was rumbling and more pills to take, had a glass of milk, a scoop of cottage and a raisin bran muffin w/coffee. I think this is enuf to keep me going.
I feel like I will never be happy again! I must be a stupid and rotten person to have brought this upon myself and my children! I feel like crap!
I feel like I will never be happy again! I must be a stupid and rotten person to have brought this upon myself and my children! I feel like crap!
HEY, now! I was okay, feeling really bad for you of course, but basically okay until I read this part!! NOOOOOOOOOOO!! Stop and realize you feel like that because he has made you feel worthless too many times! And finally it took! NOT GOOD!
You really think that? Ask your kids how they feel about YOU. Are you a lousy rotten mom who smacks them around just for fun? Locks them in a closet? Are you mean to your friends? A sloppy worker at the office who slacks off ALL day and expects everyone else to do your work? Do you forget to pay the bills and the utilities are always getting cut off? Or do you just walk out of the store without paying (because you're stupid, remember?) Are you a terrible driver who gets road rage and runs other people off the road? A really and truly terrible, horrible person?
Um, no I didn't think so. You aren't stupid and you aren't rotten and you have friends and you are loved. Heck, WE even love you and we've never laid eyes on you -- but we can tell what kind of person you are by how dedicated you are to your family, and how good you are at your job, and how sweet and kind and supportive you are to us.
Froufie, my heart is breaking for you In God's name please don't feel that way about about yourself....your post saddened me so, YOU are one of the MOST upbeat most 'friends' here at this board. Kind, warm, caring, and loving. What a sad, sad situation. To see how much you love everything around you, but not so much love for the most important person, YOU!
Dr. Wayne Dwyer has a great book out from many, many years ago, probably more than 15, called Your Erroneouos Zone....great book, helped me plenty. Maybe, just maybe you could stop by a Barnes and Noble or Border Books and sit and just pick through it.
I won't say too much. I agree with Angela, Amen to everything Kathy has said. Please Froufie take care of YOU, that is most importtant. But here is a
Please take care and God Bless.....L.J
Just LOST an entire 2nd. post............UGHHHHHHH
Talk with you all later....it's 5:30 AM and I have to get ready for work.....I am not going to stress over it, and will remained focused......
Froufie, I can't add anything new to what has already been said. You ARE special in so many ways and there are really no words for what I'd like to say to your husband (not dear to me in any respect) for treating you the way he has. He sounds as though he is someone who must blame others for his own inadequacies but don't let him do that to you. I know ... easier said than done. Take care of yourself ... I know you're hurting, physically and emotionally. Come here often to vent and cry and think out loud. We love you, girlfriend!
Linda, just wanted to wish you a good start to your day ... from reading yesterday's posts, I know you're all planned out and ready to kick everything up a notch. Hope it goes well for you! And since you and Kathy are doing this tag-team style , I hope your day goes smoothly too, Kathy! Both of you can do this!
its 6"30 am and I am not hungry so I will drink water and wait for breakfast hungries.
I am not hungry so much of the time, but that doesnt mean I dont want to eat. I have my head wrapped around food way too much.
I am hoping that my struglles with core can help sort this out for me.
have a good day all.
So that'll be my starting weight, and I'll be shooting for 147 by Easter Day.
Sadder Than Sad....
