Day 10 -- fly-by almost non-existent postie. Doing okay. There was a lot of weird energy at the gathering today. My bipolar nephew badly in need of meds, two couples that have split and one couple teetering on the verge. I came up here and meditated as soon as everyone left, but I think I still need a walk and some tai chi. Off I go... Happy weekend, all!
Ah, well. Continuing on. Yesterday wasn't one of my more perfect days (no journalling, no exercise). But I drank my water, ate healthily, meditated. It was okay. Today, on the other hand, I woke up early. I could see that the moon was just beginning to set and the sun starting to rise. I broke off journalling to make some coffee, get dressed, and walk down to the harbour, sat on the stone steps on the shore and watched the moon setting while the gulls wheeled around, the tide came in and the sky colors went rosy. I didn't manage to get out while the moon was still colored though. Last night when I was going to bed I'd noticed the fullness of the moon, which was just coming up, but I was too tired to make myself go out for a walk... maybe tonight.
Kaylets, re: QOD -- the price of gas doesn't affect us much. We generally only fill up once a month, so it's not a big deal. I'm more affected by the environmental impact, thinking I should not make unnecessary trips, should walk or cycle for shortish trips. I was just thinking this morning of the age of innocence when you could hop in your car and go for a drive for the sheer fun of it without thinking about such things...
Ok, Queenlies, I intend to get my house clean today so I can just enjoy it tomorrow. Love to all, mentioned or un- Let's make this a good one!
Just a quick check-in. Dad was okay for 3 days and yesterday was really confused again, to the point of being angry and paranoid. This is really affecting me in a bad way. Even if I'm not there, if I just hear about it, it totally saps my energy. I'm happy when he's doing well and I guess I get my hopes up and then when things go bad, I'm devastated. Do I sound like a huge whiney baby? I know it's not about me at all, but it's REALLY getting to me.
You know, I really thought that I was more spiritual and evolved!
Sending as many good vibes as possible in thy direction, E. No, thou does not sound whiny or a baby and beg to differ as believe me, it IS about thee! I went through lots of stuff re my father and also my mother's Alzheimer's and believe me, it IS about us being the child and seeing our parents suffer and hopin' for the best and going up and down about it. You have no reason to think that you aren't spiritual and evolved because you feel devastated by this ... it is very hard and you are doin' splendidly. Please try to rest as much as possible, eat some good food (even treats) and do some yoga or Pilates if at all possible because you need that stretching/breathing/calming combo ... it can create a space for you inside yourself where you can rest and get perspective. Hope it doth not offend that I offer this advice. Hang in!
Quiet around my palace today... we were up early and have been making a lazy day of it....
Dh is already taking a morning nap and I can see myself doing the same....
Its just grey enough outside for it...
Eydie.... For myself, I wonder how I will react when its my turn w/ my parents... or even my spouse... I cannot imagine being w/o either....
BUT... I wonder if I would be able to see my reactions as clearly as you are seeing yours or would I be eating my way thru it???
Hmmmm.....and in saying that, makes me realize I might than choose to splurge on decaf teas and flavored water rather than the bags of M & M's I've been eyeing......
hmmmmm.......
hmmmm
Wood Nymph... its been wild and awful at work... And finally at the end of Friday I said out loud : is it Full Moon ? And three people said "Is that what it is?"...............
That said, I must confess that yesterday afternoon, when what I really needed was FUN, I sat at the computer and worked until suddenly I remembered a box of ice cream sandwiches sitting in my freezer. I went and sat at the table and ate one after another I was hungry, and never actually felt too full, but I swear I ate 8 or 10 of them! How is that possible? Well, the "no white stuff" area on my checklist got a big fat ZERO. Today I'm going to try to hit everything on my list. And that includes fun, but there's no spot for ice cream sandwiches.
Today's another day. I seriously thought of not 'fessing up about the above, but thought -- no, that's the wrong approach. 'Fess up, and move on...
Anagram, what a long and difficult journey you've been on with DH! No wonder your reserves of strength are feeling depleted. Be gentle with yourself, rest and replenish as much as you can!
Eydie, it's not surprising that your energy would be sapped by your dad's bad stretches. I think that's a pretty normal reaction to such a miserable situation that you can't do anything about. You're not being a whiny baby at all -- just responding appropriately and naturally
Kaylets, your job sounds "challenging" at the best of times. Full moon would have me howling!
Frogger, welcome back -- hope your vacation was great!
Hope all Queenlies, in the palace and beyond, have a wonderful day today. Love!
I an having trouble getting my mind around things. No focus. Guess I should use Empress A's 'hocus, pocus, focus!' line .....a lot.
Hope all is well in the Palace...you're doing great Arabella! Just thot I'd drop in briefly....am doing a lot besides eating that is...always time for that it seems! And the new heathen is keeping me really busy....he is doing well, but he's still busy.
Hola ladies! I ate like a pig on vacation, (all those buffets, so little time!)but those nightly walks must have done something for me. I haven't gained a pound! Actually, we went to 4 buffets (twice to the same one). Mostly I was eating crab legs and spiced steamed shrimpies, and other than that, my Sydney wanted Mommy to share her dinner (so I did ) I have to admit, she has a healthy appetite. She helped Mommy out a lot.
So starting a new. I have a mini goal for my B-day to lose 5lbs. (Two weeks time, so that should be OK). Portion control and some excersise (maybe walking depending on how hot it is outside or maybe my dusty Windsor Pillates vhs tapes sitting downstairs...)
eydie-sorry that things are so hard with your dad. sure is understandable(and not whiny) to have such feelings about it all. please be gentle with yourself.
arabella-i love reading your descriptions of nature. it calms me just thinking about what you wrote. it reminds me to breathe deeply and appreciate this moment, not stress about what might happen.
frogger-glad you had a wonderful vacation, and kudos for all the walking.
hi ceara, kaylets, wildfire, amarantha, aria, and to all in the royal manor, menioned or
-un. have been thinking about you. glad i am on final day of steroids. i have been drinking lots of water, but still have swollen hands and feet. we finally got a break today from the brutal heat, and it is supposed to last perhaps even a couple more days, which would be great. continuing to make better and better food and portion choices, and keeping up with daily exercise. have been stuck inside so much lately due to heat, my place is feeling mighy small (well, smaller than usual, that is) these days. i woke up at 4am after a very unsettling nightmare. i just stayed up, and was up and out early this morning to do a couple errands, and take advantage of the more tolerable temps. i treated myself to breakfast and a ny times this morning, and felt very happily decadent. it felt good to be back out among 'em! well, hope everyone's day goes well. take care.
I am here, just restin' ... hi to all ... am very excited about joinin' new gym (which hasn't opened yet, so for once I'm on the cuttin' edge of things) ... later, gators ... just very tired and can't focus long enough to write.
Sorry to be gone so long and sorry to be short now but its been wild....
Getting ready for a week off next week so lots and lots of desk clearing.... and the pile just gets higher and higher...
And all I want to do is eat.... eat... eat...
Just realized today I've been a little lax on the Black Cohosh so I am redoubling my efforts to stay on schedule.
WSW!!! We're with you lady!! This will pass! (((((((((((HUG))))))))))))))))
Day 11, just me & the tumbleweeds...
Well, the "no white stuff" area on my checklist got a big fat ZERO. Today I'm going to try to hit everything on my list. And that includes fun, but there's no spot for ice cream sandwiches. 
) I have to admit, she has a healthy appetite. She helped Mommy out a lot. 
