Hey everyone I have been MIA because I not only way cracked and screwed up on raw foods, I actually cracked and have been eatting non vegan foods too..no meat though..but cheese and breads I know arnt vegan..
atleast I think the crust had egg in it..maybe it was vegan I dunno..but I know the cheese wasnt..
anyways I realized I was really spinning myself in a werid cycle with the raw foods ..I am taking a step back now and having a breath..
I have ordered the nutrisystem vegatarian package just to make myself eat 3 meals a day and stop the almost starving/binging thing I had accidently started doing..
NOT that I am downing raw foods or anyting, its a wonderful beautiful thing, but I think for someone like me who had a ED (eatting disorder) during my teen years..it was a bit triggering for me..It made me have to think about food too much, control it too much, and I got wrapped up into this vicious cycle with it untill I finally cracked and just went on a wild binge..and thats not good..thats not what I want..
I cant swear I wanna eat over priced freeze dried over processed nutrisystem food either..lol but I figure just the making a habit for a month of eatting 3 meals a day and 2 snacks or what not..just getting back to making myself do that and I will..when I pay for overpriced stuff I sure as **** do use it..LOL
then maybe I think I might look into ediets..see if they have reasonable vegan or almost vegan diets at reasonable amounts of calories..
this is kinda lame but I need it planned for me which is one of the reasons I picked nutrisystem..if I ..myself start picking what I am going to eat..it just never goes good..lol my mind goes ga ga with it..I need that *diet plan to follow* and that was something new I learned about myself..and I have never seen myself as a follower..always a lil proud to be independent and stuff..but when it comes to this I have to admit..doing it my way dosnt work..lol
cuz my way gets a lil crazy
anyways so thats why I havnt been around
scale is still stuck..probabbly from the binges..
but I am still at 164
the heat wave has finally broke, I am going to start walking again and that should help too