Hi Everyone,
Just checking in and updating on my progress. I've been working to stay on plan as much as possible this week. Last week was terrible, I was pretty much off plan 1/2 the week, this week is better, I went sour Monday and divulged in sweet cold things but since then I've been pretty dilligent, sticking to the plan as well as possible. The only foul ups I've had is eating a little too much here and there (extra oz of protein, a few extra bites of veggies or a 50 cal cheese stick) - it may seem small but it still adds up. I seem to always have the munchies at night. I think part of the problem is I haven't been drinking enough water, haven't been drinking my HNS throughout the day like I should and have not been taking any vits/herbs for quite a while. I'm going to try to fix the first two problems and see if that helps. Then I will go back to the MRC6, Flax, B6. It's just so expensive and makes constipation worse so I've been avoiding it. As far as the scale goes, I haven't really been expecting much of a change b/c I've been so off track the last few weeks. I did the MQ which got me back down to 187 after my 5k weekend extravaganza but I'm sure I'm back up. I haven't weighed in at the center for 2 weeks. The last visit I had I knew my program time was coming to an end 10/21. I was debating how to renew - 10 weeks for $99 or 17 weeks with the purchase of a large herbal product... I had originally wanted to lose 100 lbs, goal weight 150. Now I'm starting to think 160 would be good. For some reason everyone thinks 40 more lbs is too much - hubby, family, friends. Whenever they ask me how much more I want to lose and I say 30-40, they're usually surprised and say they don't think I have 30-40 more lbs to lose. I guess I hide it well. Anyways, at this point I have got to find a way to trick my mind into making this final part of my journey seem smaller and at least get myself to lose 15 lbs at at time. I want to take my focus off of "what I'm eating" or "how much I'm eating" and put it back onto how many lbs I've lost this week and month. I need to start fresh like I did when I was new to the program, be more diligent and vigilent (LOL, I liked it b/c it rhymed). I will go shopping this weekend, clean out the pantry/fridge, start anew just like my 1st day on MRC, pour over my menu, plan my meals, cook in advance, write out my journal, drink my water, drink my HNS, take those lousy pills etc etc.. Oh, and I will go officially weigh-in. Those are the things I've stopped doing and that is what is making me struggle. I will fix this and start again. I need to reinforce my willpower with good planning. I can do it, I can do it ... 15 lbs is my current goal and when I get there, I'll re-evaluate. 15 lbs, that's not terrible! I guess I should re-sign for another 10 weeks or so this weekend. Alright, I'm gonna do it!! Take care everyone, Have a safe and fun Halloween weekend, stick with the program, we can make it to Thanksgiving at least!!
