Carol, I haven't posted in a couple of days because my internet was acting up. Not deserting you!!!
This week hasn't been horrible food wise, but work wise it hasn't been the best. The full moon made the kids crazy. I know a lot of people don't believe in the whole full moon thing, but I do.
I had a nice 8 mi run yesterday. I don't feel quite 100% today, but am hoping I'll feel better this afternoon and can go for a run when my husband gets home from work.
I have just been tired of eating. Nothing sounds good, and I don't want to have to make a decision about food. I have been eating meals more out of habit than hunger. Trying to find my hunger here!!
This hasn't been a very good weekend at all here. I feel discouraged in so many areas. The eating, upset with my husband and kid, etc. I feel like running away and my attitude has spilled over into my eating too. Kind of like no matter what I do everything ends up a miserable failure, so why not just eat whatever, whenever, and plenty.
I think I'm back on track though. At least with the food. At least for now.
I've been feeling like that too, Wiffle. I think I was the only one to post for 3 days and was getting really discouraged but then the posts came in and I felt like I could keep going with intuitive eating. I have been really hungry lately and craving sweets. Someone suggested extra protein so I will try that. So many here are on low carb but I am not a big fan of meat and I can't have calcium so no milk which I love. I have found that there are plenty of other things like soy milk which is very low in calcium if you don't get the fortiifed kind.
Do you like eggs? Sometimes the mere thought makes me gag, but other times I really enjoy them and they sure are quick protein.
Right now I have my timer set for 15 minutes. I am not sure if I am really hungry or just feel like eating. I just had my breakfast, and it seemed like plenty, so I really don't trust that I am hungry.
I went for a walk this morning, a couple of miles. I'm so miserable here at home that I stayed in my own world and didn't wave at the people I saw while I was out. Also, I just feel gross, like why would they want to talk to me anyway?
When I got home from my walk I decided to try my "Turbo Jam" cardio workout. Normally I do the 20 minute cardio and I really sweat. Today, I tried the 40 minute routine and decided that I'm really not ready for 40 minutes of cardio. That's scary because I used to be able to do 40 minutes of intense cardio, even within the last year. This tells me that regardless of my weight, I must exercise more. Otherwise I am going to die, especially with this stress.
It is so tempting to give up and diet again but I am not going to do it. NOT!
I realize I do better when I post here (accountability) and it has beenmy TOM so I am going to chalk up my eating badly to that.. Had too much of a subway sandwich today. Sticking to water...been VERY thirsty lately, again, think it is due to TOM. Hoping to have my DVD player setup tonight so I can get back to walking. On a good note, my new commute involves LOTS AND LOTS of stairs, and they haven't been a real problem.
Hi ladies,
We all seem a little down, but the neat thing I am reading or NOT reading is that isn't revolving around "Falling off" the diet wagon. Really, we are struggling with issues in our lives and dealing with them! It sounds like we are all in a "funk" right now. I stayed home from school in bed today. I felt really crappy. I slept most of the day, and feel ready to join the world again tomorrow. I guess I just needed to step back and take a break. Anyway, I am sending hugs to everyone! Hang in there!!!
Thanks, Kay. Way to go on the stairs, Obi!! Sorry, Wiffle, I never did like eggs too much even when I was a kid. We are just having leftovers tonight and that is always helpful in more ways than one. I usually don't eat too much then and not too much clean up either. Worked in the garden today. It is supposed to get really cold here in WI..... might even snow.
Well, I'm back. I've spent the last few months trying to count calories and fat grams. I've hit diet bottom. Tonight I'll read more of Intuitive Eating. Hopefully, Overfed Head will get here soon. I thank everyone for posting even if the going is tough, and for sticking with it. I gathered ALL my diet books, materials, tapes, programs, and magazine articles and carried them to the dumpster yesterday. They must have weighed 40 pounds. What a load off my mind.
Well the subway sandwich lasted the whole day. When I got home had egg white omlet. I think until I get a better handle on the stopping when I am satisfied I'll try and stick to smaller portions.
My husband and I went out to eat tonight, a "date night" of sorts. We took our textbooks (we are in class together) and did some studying, had coffee, talked. It was nice, much nicer than the arguing!
There was a really good looking dessert in the case, something pumpkin and cranberry for the Thanksgiving season, but I was full. I will go back later this week and get that dessert, maybe for lunch.
I am going to order some clothes from LandsEnd.com. I need to get some winter pants. I'm not happy with my size, but no matter what I am going to need pants especially if I am going to work temp which I do at the end of the year. I guess that is some sort of acceptance, that I will buy pants that big... last year I refused and I was cold!
On a positive note, the clothes I did wear last winter still seem to fit, and I've eaten whatever I please and then some all year, but I didn't have enough of them and they weren't warm enough. Especially in our government offices, where I temp, good grief, I needed gloves indoors!
Anyway, feeling a little better tonight. Glad to see all of us here on the boards for each other. Excuse my blathering.
Well, I'm back. I've spent the last few months trying to count calories and fat grams. I've hit diet bottom. Tonight I'll read more of Intuitive Eating. Hopefully, Overfed Head will get here soon. I thank everyone for posting even if the going is tough, and for sticking with it. I gathered ALL my diet books, materials, tapes, programs, and magazine articles and carried them to the dumpster yesterday. They must have weighed 40 pounds. What a load off my mind.
Good for you for dumping the diet stuff.
While I am not thrilled with my body, I am rather surprised that I've eaten whatever I've wanted to in the last year and seem to have not gained. When I think back to the diets and purging (through exercise) and the broken promises to self of never gaining any of it back after every short-lived "success" and then promptly doing so, I think this is better.
What are some things you will be allowed to eat now?
I have a huge love affair with ice cream, cheese, and premium bleu cheese dressing. I am to the point of moderation with all of those.
A new love of mine is balsamic vinegar with a little "good" bread or drizzled over tomatoes. That's a good dinner right there.
I'm telling myself that I can eat anything I really want; the key is that I have to be physically hungry and I have to pay attention and stop eating when I'm comfortably full. I can be a Champion Mindless Eater, so this is big step for me.
A nice lettuce/greens/veggie salad and fresh bread sounds like a great meal. I'd have to ease into balsamic vinegar or olive oil; way too exotic for my white food tastes at this point.
Well the commute to work seems to be getting better. I can take the bus in and walk up and I am there, no more 3 trains and up and down the steps nonsense. I think I want to be more active, but I am never going to like using stairs.....blah...
Yogurt and Toast for breakfast.....life seems to be settling down nicely.
and they haven't been a real problem.
If we all brought our diet books we'd probably have one big enough to be seen in space!
