Auuughh today was terrible and yet so very very delicious.
Breakfast and lunch were fine, but ... dinner was fish and chips, then I had some grapes, four chocolate-covered strawberries, two cookies, and about 6 oz. of whole milk.
Mmmm ... how could I resist such wonderful party food? Hopefully my being good for the rest of the day will save me.
Supper went very well, but couldn't resist the ice cream pie and ate a whole piece........really yummy ......still feel I should have had the willpower to walk away!
Auugh, today is so dumb. I'm so stressed out and even though I stayed on plan to the T all day, after dinner I was still hungry and felt like I had to have more ... I made some oatmeal, I ate a low-fat cheese stick, and I ate a piece of sugar-free-low-fat cheesecake (practically no calories means practically no taste). And I was STILL starving. I'm up this late because I'm trying to finish a paper and feeling hopeless.
So I just ate a powerbar. Here's hoping it fills me up but it probably won't.
I need to get this paper done so I can collapse in the bed, but all I feel like doing is crying. I don't think I will get on the scale tomorrow, not for a few days until I feel like I can deal with it. Even if I still weigh 115 I don't want to think about the numbers or how many calories I've eaten today anymore.
My bf's getting his wisdom teeth out tomorrow and I don't know if I'll have time to go to the gym because I have to go with him.
I have another paper due Tuesday.
I need to get through the next two days without binging on anything that will REALLY make me feel terrible. At least all the extra stuff I ate today was sugar-free and low-fat ... but it was still over my calorie limit. I just don't even know what to do with myself or how to get through my homework right now. I would get up early to finish, but it's due at 9 am.
I need to pull myself together. I don't know how else to cheer myself up besides eating. I wish I could order a whole pizza and eat it right now.
- about 200 calories worth of potato chips
- 3 pieces of chocolate truffles (150 calories, I'm guesstimating) ~ 2 of which were offered for free @ the chocolatier! How evil (I bought another 4 pieces, so will be planning for the remaining 3)
Nothing to few extraordinarily guilty about, but definitely weren't in my plan, so might as well be honest about it and 'fess up!
PS I almost had to confess giving up my exercise for the day - thankfully, will power dust kicked in and I made it through the scheduled 50 minutes