2 weeks til surgery. That time will fly by Trish. I hope you continue to feel better and regain strength during that time.

I have not been on the scale since Apr 26. 179.4. I get on my balance beam scale occasionally and can see that I'm around 180-181, but I just don't want to see that number on my scale that records to the app. My food is in the 1000-1300 calorie range and usually 50-100 carbs. MFP says I should be in the mid 170s but that doesn't happen. I am rarely hungry. In the past I had to feel hungry before eating in order to lose. No hunger, no weight loss. I'm just in a rut. DH is back to asking if I want some of everything he eats even though he said he would never do it again. He says I don't have to eat it. I'm fine with him eating if he doesn't offer me some and I do say no if its something I dont like. He is not going to change. I have to be the one to change. "No thank you, I dont care for any, I'm not hungry.". I have to repeat that over and over in my mind until it comes out of my mouth automatically. Sometimes its just easier to do what he wants. Why oh why does he want me to eat???

I have to keep telling myself that I used to weigh 217 lbs, and now it seems like my new set point is 180. That is progress.

Carol: really pleased you are not gaining at least. I know you want to lose more, but your stability is really important.
I am eating keto today, and then will have another fast starting after supper tonight. We went and bought meat for taking to the cottage, and came to the conclusion that we need a small freezer to keep there, LOL. I guess that will mean a trip to Sudbury, unless we find a reasonable cost closer to the camp. We can keep that and the drinks fridge outside I think, and free up some space inside.
I am really looking forward to the trip, and getting away from the construction.
Trish, thinking of you, I hope the nest two weeks you get steadily stronger. You may need a transfusion before surgery, or with it, I would not be surprised.
I remember being told when I gave blood the last few years, that my high hemoglobin and healthy blood cells meant my donation went into packed cells most used by cancer patients.
The plasma went elsewhere I suppose. In Canada, all blood is donated, not paid, and no prison donors. My Dad gave blood over 200 times, as he was O negative. My DD is almost up to 50 times now, with the same type. She can only give about 2 or three times a year now, it takes her a while to recover, being younger and still menstruating. I did about 50 before I stopped giving on my physicians advice. I gave many times around the times my administrator, SIL and cousin were dealing with her cancer. It was a nice and practical way to show love and support for someone with cancer. But it took a lot out of me.

Have a good week everyone

Fatmad My Daddy gave blood a lot over the years until he couldn't any more. He was A+ Positive and they would call him and tell him that needed his blood and he would go donate. I asked my onchologist if I needed someone to donate but evidently cancer patients don't have to have that done because he said I didn't have worry about it.

Carol Sue I've heard that once you plateau for a while that it is easier to lose when you can go back to dieting again.

It is hard to believe that I am finally 2 weeks from surgery. In fact, the roofer called me this morning to tell me they can't get the roof color we want to do the roof before my surgery. He is working everything around my surgery and DH son and his family coming in. He asked me when I am having surgery and what time. He said down to 2 weeks. My surgery will be at 2:30 on the 1st and he said he wrote it on his calendar because he will be praying for me at 2:30. Awesome. He is such a nice kid and he went through radiation before he had surgery. I am amazed at how the Lord has brought all the people across my path through this who have had cancer and are now cancer free. It strengthens my faith that it is going to be all right and I will get past this.

I feel better today. I couldn't eat much yesterday. DH scrambled 2 eggs for me yesterday but I only was abe to eat 1 1/2 eggs and a sl of SLMG toast. I hope to do better today because I need the nutrition to get my strength built up.

Y'all have a good day.

Yes, I am very glad I am not regaining,but the way I ate today its a miracle. It was not due to hunger, but I just ate one thing after another, then we went to DQ and I finished it off with a kid cone. I can eat an adult cone but I've switched to kid cones. That's enough. There's a woman on the LC board that recently confessed that she's regained 24 lbs after an 80 lb loss. Ouch! That hurts!

I used to donate blood when I was younger. Central Blood Bank came to work periodically. After I moved to another job location they had the American Red Cross come and they could not find my veins so I stopped donating. The people they sent were older women and they were volunteers, but Central Blood Bank is a business in Pittsburgh and are paid nurses. It was a world of difference.

Trish, I am very glad that you have such wonderful people in your life that are pulling for you! Its a blessing for sure.

Last night DH told me he was craving stuffed cabbage. I'm always craving it so we got up early this morning to shop for the ingredients. Its in the oven and I made halushki for lunch. DH got a $20 debit card from our insurance for having his annual check up at the doctors so that paid for the meat. I ended up with about 30 cabbage rolls. DH has already suggested giving some to step daughter. She works 1/2 mile from us so she can stop for them after work.

All the junk food I've been picking at is gone so maybe I will be able to get my weight to start dropping again.

Hope you are feeling ok, Trish.

Had rough night and morning. Back hurts a lot. Having to use pain pills which are not helping for very long at a time. So thankful surgery is in 2 weeks.

Trish, I am very sorry to hear of your back pain. If its not one thing its another. I hope the surgery is the beginning of healing for you. You have had enough of this.

Yesterday I got up early and then was cooking for half the day. It completely wore me out. I was starting to doze off around 5 pm and by 6 pm I put my nightgown on and laid on the bed.. I went out like a light and didn't wake up until DH came to bed at 10:30. I just got up and took my pills and went back to bed. So I got a lot of sleep but it was not good sleep according to Fitbit. I still think my poor sleep is due to not using the blueblockers. I am going to try using them again.

Carol Sue I'm sorry you are feeling so tired these days. Hope you aren't getting sick. Were you around your sick kids recently.

I slept good last night and have felt better today and it is my hope that I will continue to feel better each day.

I have not been around the kids. I think I am just sleeping poorly and overeating crappy food. I bought some sourdough bread because it is supposed to be healthy.. It went my blood sugar sky high. So the birds will get it.

What a day this is going to be. We went to the casino and got home after 3 am. We got tired but got our second wind. We were having fun but did not win.

Maybe tomorrow I will get on the good scale again. A day or 2 ago the balance beam scale went up above 180. Today it came back down around 180. The numbers and tick marks are so small I can't really tell what they are. But if I'm really careful today I might get below 180 again. I don't know what we are eating.

My real life friend is finally home recovering. She had back surgery. When she came home she was having abdominal pain. She went to the ER and needed emergency surgery for a twisted bowel. So she had an incision on her back and also on her abdomen. I don't know if the twisted bowel was related to her back surgery or something separate. She is allowed to start her daily walking again but not drive, although she drove to the store once.

Time to go to Walmart.

We ate breakfast around noon then went to Walmart. When we got home and put everything away DH said "I'm hungry, I'm going to make lunch.". I said " Look at the clock." He was amazed to see it was 4:15 pm. We slept so late that the day just flew by. We were both so hungry that we decided that dinner would be sandwiches since we just bought some deli meat and corn on the cobb. I drank ginger ale with my sandwich and that made me burp a lot so I think I didn't feel well because I had gas and bloating. I'm starting to feel better now.

I hope you are feeling better too, Trish.

Today wasn't so bad. Not much happening. Y'all's sandwiches sounds good and I look forward to when I can eat one again.

Goodnight.

179.4 on the scale this morning! Back in the 170s. Please God,let me stay out of the 180s and continue down. I spent way too long there and its time to move on. I felt thin. I knew I didn't overeat yesterday. So I got on the balance beam scale and the lever just sat there at the bottom, indicating a loss. I was so happy I ran to the digital scale!

Trish, I love cold sandwiches with deli meat but knowing its not a healthy choice I limit them to once a month or so. DH took sandwiches to work for lunch for over 30 years so after retiring he would not eat them. He recently started eating them again, but only occasionally. I made sure to keep my calories and carbs low for the day otherwise. I guess its just a treat. Deli meat is fatty and sometimes I get heartburn.

At the store yesterday an elderly man in front of me bought 6 different kinds of deli meat and also Swiss cheese. I would expect this from someone with a big family who take lunches to school and work every day. It made me wonder who is going to eat all that deli meat.

I'm glad your day was not bad.

Carol Sue Congratulations on the loss. I hope it will continue going down for you too.

Today hasn't been too bad. DH cooked a NY steak and I ate a small piece of it and a slice of cantaloupe. I drank a root beer and it made me feel bloated. I'm tired of water. It makes me feel bloated too. DH son and family comes in tomorrow sometime.

Trish, I get a little bloated when I drink carbonated drinks but sometimes they make me burp and I feel better.DH told me "If I drank that I would not be able to eat my meal.". I replied " Thats the idea.". I eat less if I have a,carbonated drink.

I got up before DH today and ate eggs. I knew he would want to go to Bob Evans,for breakfast but I didn't want to. They don't cook eggs the way I like them and its too expensive to pay for something I dont like. Sometimes I get oatmeal instead. We will go to Goodwill for senior day but they don't open til 10 am. I don't think we need anything from Walmart. Monday is not good at Wal-Mart because they have to restock after the weekend.

I'm sorry you cannot eat much but what you are eating is healthy. I ate cantaloupe as a child but it doesn't taste as good as it did back then. Maybe my taste has changed.