Hi ellis,
Thanks for the compliment. I've gotten good at hiding my weight, being 6' tall and wearing a lot of black does wonders. As for the chest well it's there, the sweater just hides it (so does that spare tire around my middle).

Well i have to go. Talk to everyone later.
MrsM

HI!!!

Mrs. M-I agree!! You ARE lovely, and you DON"T look like you have much to lose!!! Being 6 feet tall must help, because I am SUPER short, and I look like a little round matzo ball!!! If I wear black, I just look like a meatball!!! I cut all my hair off too. It is so much easier to take care of!!! I have that thin and fine hair that won't do anything. It has some natural curl, but when my hair is long the weight of it (0.0000001 grams) pulls the curl out!!!

You other two are too hard on yourselves too!! You are BOTH good looking women!!!

I'm going to keep this short today, so...TTFN!!!!

Hi Everyone.

Thanks Den, Being tall does really help with my weight but it isn't always a bonus. Due to my height I was able to pack on a lot of weight before most people ever noticed it, including myself. I have about 60 pounds to lose, my goal is to get down to 160+/- pounds.

I hope everyone has a marvelous weekend. I'm hoping to get some calm and quiet me time in.

MrsM

Okay, we're all beautiful and we're all a little bit chunky. I have a great idea. Why don't we all lose weight?
I know what you mean about the weight slipping on without anyone noticing initially, MrsM. Although I'm not tall (5'-4"), I put weight on fairly evenly all over my body. Someone once told me they wouldn't be able to tell if I weighed 120 or 180. Of course, I only weighed about 140 at the time. Unfortunately, two C-sections have done NOTHING for my lower stomach. ick.
I've been up since 4 am. Some idiot with his boom box booming outside our house. One of these days I'm going to lose it. And emerge from my house with bared teeth and a scalpel in each hand. Ah, well... may as well play my game, huh Den?

cheerio, girls
ellis

Hi!!

I wondered why you were writing so early Ellis!!! What a DRAG!!! I LOVE the image of you rushing out into the night with teeth barred and hair flying wildly about, screaming for silence while waving around a couple of scalpels!!!

I don't gain weight evenly. I get a HUGE stomach. Once I went over 200 other parts of my body started thickening too, but like you say Ellis, 2 c-sections haven't helped!!!

Mrs. M-You have the RIGHT idea!!! That is what I want this weekend too. PEACE AND QUIET!!! We've been taking it easy so far!!!! Hope it stays that way!!!

good morning all

no boom boxes last night. Either that or I was in a sleep to rival the dead. Speaking of dead, I haven't seen two many bugs outside this year. I've had to rescue a couple of bees from my house, but there's only a few Japanese beetles on my Virginia creeper... normally I'm out there mercilessly cracking them between my fingers before they wipe out all the leaves. And I've seen a total of 3 flies. Isn't this a fascinating monologue.

I bought a new game yesterday and I hate it. curses. Civilization III. Maybe I can get DH interested in it enough so that I can play my LAST new game.

I wonder what's harder to get rid of... a huge stomach or fat all over. I try not to look at my lower stomach. It resembles a wet paper bag. With marbles in it. I remember seeing my mother's stomach looking like that (she also had two c-sections), and thinking... EEEEWW!!

Den, how's your sweet little son? How does your sweet big son react to the situation? Is he understanding?
My husband has written out a "crisis intervention plan" for our daughter. Stuff for her to do when she's feeling down. Something tangible. She seems pretty happy with it. She's/we're seeing the new psychologist tomorrow.

I hope everyone is having a nice, peaceful weekend. I love a weekend when nobody phones or knocks on the door, there are no dinner commitments, no sporting events to take the kids to, no birthday parties. sigh. Just hanging around the house... what a lovely thought.

I have a new game plan. I'm contemplating exercise. I'll exercise for 15 minutes a day to start, and continue to eat a lot of healthy stuff as I've been doing this week. Once I get into a regular exercise routine, I'll start slowly cutting back on the food. Sounds good in theory, huh?

take care, darlings...
ellis

HI EVERYONE!!!

Hope you are all having a GREAT weekend!!

Ellis-This week it is our turn for the long weekend. We had a friend over and grilled steaks. I made rice pilaf (kinda) and a big salad with a mustard vinaigrette. I ate 90% of my calories for the day at one sitting!!! (And now I have gas....and I feel like i'm going to explode!!) Our friend brought over a six pack of "Christmas Ale" to commemorate Michigan weather!!! I had one of those and ALSO a glass of red wine with the meal. As you can see, I have "a drink" every once in a while too!!! (however, it did go straight to mty head!!!) We had a fly come into the house while the guys were bringing the steaks in, and hubby said, "Hey look!! It's spring!!" All the rest of them are now downstairs playong RISK. I felt too tired to join in. DS #1 said, "Mom, you HAVE to play, or else you are re-inforcing the stereotype that women are no good at strategy games!!!" OY!!! But I feel comfortable enough in my feminism to say no!!! I asked our friend if I was a stereotypical female, and he said no, he'd never really thought of me that way. He looked kinda scared too, so I think he was afraid I'd kick his....OOPS!!! Better stop there.

We have Civilization II, and I like it pretty well, but I have to be in the mood for it. I prefer HEROES. Lately I have been concentrating on the Final Fantasy IV game on the playstation.

DS #2 is up and down. Whatever he was coming down with a few days ago he seems to have fought off pretty well, although his appetite is still a bit low. In this case that is maybe a good thing. He doesn't have a weight problem, but he sure has my taste buds AND my proclivity for cleaning my plate!!! He only ate half of his steak though, which surprised me!!! That is actually healthier though. He ate the rice and his salad (except for the tomatoes!!) He has been feeling picked on at home lately, which is kind of annoying. He and hubby do sometimes get into power struggles, but we are both usually pretty supportive!! DS #1 reacts in a couple of different ways. Sometimes he is VERY sympathetic, and he will come and tell us when he is concerned about his brother. Other times he antagonizes him, and tries to get him to blow up (without us hearing) so that he'll get in trouble. Sometimes I am afraid that HE is the one that will have problems later, because he is trying to be the compliant one NOW. (I was a bit like that. There were so many fireworks with my sister for a while, that I felt overlooked. But I also tried to get her into trouble!!!) So I try to give #1 the attention he needs, while giving #2 the attention HE needs, and hubby the attention HE needs and.....I know you know the rest!!! I must say though, that being a parent of a child like #2 has given me perspective on what it must have been like for my sister. Sometimes I feel like there isn't enough of me to go around!!! Especially as my parents get older, and I feel like I need to help them out more too.

I think your hubby has a good idea there. Our son's therapist has been trying to do the same, but our son "forgets" these suggestions when he is feeling bad. I found some information on an anxiety website that I ran off, so we can have a tangible guide to refer to. I really hope that the new psychologist works out. How does YOUR little one deal with what is going on? Or is he young enough that he is missing some of it?

WOW!!! I really am a blabbermouth!!!

Leens and Mrs. M-I know you two can't usually get here at the weekend. We miss you both, though, so try to post as soon as you can!!!!!

Hello hello hello, what a LOVELY day!!

Great new psychologist for my daughter!! What a dream! Someone who has all the answers. What a relief to finally find someone good. Hopefully today will be the last day I'll have to reel off all our family's psychological problems and break down in front of a professional. I'm drained. Again.

Go ahead, Den... talk about your great meals. Isn't that just awful when you eat all those calories in one sitting? I swear sometimes I eat enough in one meal to get me through a couple of days. Do you ever wonder how long you could go without food? I figure a month, easy. A bed, clean water, a huge stack of books, some sugar-free gum... heck... I'd be violent, but I'd be thin.
We had perogies tonight. Boiled. With a little low-fat margerine and no-fat sour cream. I love them... I could eat a couple of dozen, easy. It's one of the few things I can "cook" without screwing up.
Oh... gas... I get some wicked pains sometimes. I have to lie on the floor and rub my side. Nothing audible, but terribly embarrassing, nonetheless. And reflux? Anyone get reflux? Burp. I have to sleep on my back when I'm this fat, otherwise everything comes back up. Must lose weight, must lose weight...

Are there just two girls in your family, Den? I have one younger sister. I love her dearly, but as children, she was the cute, outspoken, chatty little attention-getter in the family, and she TICKED ME OFF!! I can see the same thing in my family... our son is outgoing while our daughter is reticent.
At the psychologist's today, the entire family were in the doctor's office. When we started "telling the story", my son piped up, "Oh no!! Not THIS stuff again!!"
He's actually been very good about it all. I'm sure his age helps. He doesn't know anything about his sister's suicide attempt, but because we've had a lot of doctor's appointments lately, he's wanted to know what's wrong with his sister. We just explain that she feels very sad right now, and that we have to figure out some ways to make her feel better. He's been very sweet... hugging her, etc. I think that they're closer now than they've ever been. She's still sleeping on a bed in his room, and I think it's been good for them. She's more patient with him because he's gracefully "putting up with her" (he actually LOVES having her there!), and he's learning to give her a little bit more space when she needs it.

When my husband did the crisis intervention plan, he sat down with our daughter and got HER to come up with the solutions. The psychologist today said that that's the best way to do it. She made a list of all the things she could do that would help her "get through" a crisis. ie reading a book, calling a friend, playing on the computer, drawing, talking to mom and dad, talking to a guidance councillor at school, etc. The only idea that my husband added was calling the distress centre. I think because she came up with the solutions herself, she'll be able to remember them better. IN FACT, I think we all need to do that, don't we? Make a list of the things that make us feel good. Easy talk.

Okay, I've rambled on at the mouth yet again.
Leens and MrsM, hope you're both well... talk to you soon...
ellis

Good Morning Everyone
I hope everyone had a nice weekend, mine was good but a little to busy to suit me. I got to spend some quality time with my mom and my daughter but didn't get to see hubby much, he had to work Saterday then spent Sunday and Monday helping the neighbor roof his house.

Saterday night we did take the time to go look at camp grounds that are in our area. We booked our first camping trip and we leave friday after work, i can't wait. We got a spot overlooking a lake and it has lots of room for DD to run and play and there is a fence along that part of the lake so we won't have to worry about her falling in the water.

I have an appointment this afternoon to go back and see the oral surgen (YUCK!!!) to see if they are going to have to do surgery on my jaw. I hope he decides not to. I'm going to keep a possitive out look about it and what ever is decided will be for the best.

My goal for this week is to get my water consumption back up to were it should be. I have really been slacking in that area and i can tell. I hope everyone has a wonderfull week.
MrsM

PS - see i can ramble too

Hi Girls,

I'm still here !! been really busy at work. You have my work addy and can catch me there if you want.

Nothing new sosdd, ate like a pig this weekend but what else is new

Huuggggssss !!
Love, Leens

'lo girls

Glad to hear I'm not the only one eating like a pig, Leens.
I did some resistance training for 15 minutes on monday. Yesterday I walked for over an hour. If I can keep up the exercise, it should be easier to get on track with the eating.
I hear you're going to be meeting Ruth. She is a freekin' riot!!! Have fun!

MrsM, I'm so glad you're getting away soon. You're going to have such a wonderful time. Make sure you relax... don't get stressed about the dirt. You can get really clean when you get home.
How's the water consumption? And the jaw? Good attitude... if it's necessary, then it's for the best.
Remember to drink lots of water while you're camping. It's easy to get dehydrated. (the only problem is when you have to get up and pee in the middle of night)

Den is experimenting with her meds, and should be back soon. Den, are you alright? Do you want me to come over and read to you?
And how's DS#2? Poor little love, throwing up.
I don't know about you, but as much as I love my kids, I really don't appreciate it when they throw up in the middle of the night. I start to wonder if I couldn't perhaps auction them off. I'm very bitter if I don't get my sleep.

talk to all soon... take care
ellis

Hi Everyone
I hope everyone is doing well today. This has been a hecktic and agrivating week so far for me. We're trying to get our camper ready to go and hubby is driving me nuts and work is making me even crazier. I think I need to have a good screem!! I should look on the bright side of things, i've managed to avoid a down swing in my mood through all of this but of course NO chocolate in sight has been safe and I have been eating like a pig as well.

Oh well on to the Good News!! I don't have to have surgery on my jaw until fall and might be able to avoid it all together(YIPEEEEEE!!!) Just a little info so you know why i was afraid i was going to have to have surgery on my jaw. I have Severe TMJ and a perferatin in the little disk that cusions the jaw joint and the swelling in my jaw was not going down. I have been seeing an oral surgen since the first of January with little to know releif and 2 weeks ago he tried one last ditch effort before surgary and it worked. About 11 years ago i got hit in the mouth playing basket ball & dislocated my jaw and now 11 years later i'm paying the price for having to much fun.

I've planned all of our meals for our camping trip and have got my bottled water already in the car. I don't have to worry about having to get up in the middle of the night from drinking to much water, our camper has a full bath room in it. I do love modern conveniences I am really looking forward to some time with nature, sitting back relaxing and just listening to the birds sing.

Ellis - Glad to hear you found a great new psychologist for your daughter, that has to be a great releif to you.

Well i must get some more work done. Talk to you all later
MrsM95

MrsM, I AM SO GLAD to hear that you have a bathroom in your camper!! I thought you meant that had bought one of those "pop-up" campers with the "pull-out" sides. I don't think using an outhouse is good for ANYONE'S personality.
Great news on the jaw!!!

ellis

Hi Ellis,
here is a link to a sight that shows what we bought.
http://www.starcraftrv.com/2002_ligh...t/shuttle.html

Are you serious? That's beautiful! It's nicer than most people's house!
Lucky you... you WILL have fun. And you won't be dirty, either.