Hi Girlies !!!!

Just popping in to say HELLO!!

See you tomorrow

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Hi Chickies!

I'm gonna be away at an agility trial for a few days - I may pop on if I can get reception, but if I don't see you - I wish all of you a super happy 4th and a great weekend.

Buddly - yeah, training my replacement does make it feel real! I'm so happy!!!!!

Sassy - woohoo, that chick sounds like she rocks!

Hope - where are you? Are we not gonna see you as much now that you are working, or are your off traveling - I can't remember.

Ugh, better run - I have like 8 hours of work to do before they close the office... in 2 hours. Eep!

Hi all -

Still muddling through this week... next week will have to be better. Hard, but better.

Amarie - did I miss the significance of your new name??

A very good friend suggested I set a definite goal, every single day, to do one thing I enjoy... not a bad idea. I thought I'd share that here. I'll let you know how I get on

I miss you all - looking forward to re-committing to being here, as well as to looking after myself. I'm really scared to be alone, and quite terrified the loneliness will actually be overwhelming, but I figure if I can refrain just from stuffing my face, I'll be okay. That's my goal - to not GAIN any weight through this... it would be easy (and comforting) to sit in my house and eat. Instead, I shall try to set up a training programme again and get back into that, just to feel good again.

I'll talk to ya'll soon -
Heather

Good Morning Chickies!!! Ummm I mean afternoon actually since I just ate lunch...(that should have probably been my cue, huh?)

Okay! So yesterday was hella busy...I had a bunch of errands I wanted to accomplish...plus yoga class...etc...got all dressed up to go...got all the way over there...had a slight bothersome pain in the head on the way and just felt a little funny...so I decided to stop in at the drugstore to see if I could get one of my errands out of the way...didn't...but saw a few other things I wanted! By the time I got out of the checkout I was actually late for class...half thought about going for just cardio...then didn't! It was kind of weird though...I actually thought about getting a cookie...it was only passing really...but still...that was the first "off plan" thought I had even had in the last 12 days.. It made me realize I needed to get home for lunch...fast! Then a couple hours later I ended up with my first "snack" it was an on plan type though...and I just really felt like I needed it...and we were doing the grocery shopping as well so I just figured it would be a good idea. I think the 2nd Starbucks coffee I had the day before threw me off...it was sugar free and everything but I just think the combo of the timing and extra caffeine messed me up... (sniff sniff...but I love my coffee...) ah well, I just have to learn what I can and can't do I guess...
Anyway! I woke up just fine this morning! Ooh! Wanna hear something tragically funny? lol I bought those "ice tube" thingies at WalMart so I could put ice in my lovely SIGG bottle for class...ummm yeah..didn't get all the soap out apparently...I had soap ice!!! And to make it worse I didn't discover it until I was already halfway to the Y....ugh...had to buy a bottle of water... Yeah...go ahead laugh at me...I can take it! Oh, and I think I have the itchies from leaving the Veet on my legs too long!!! So, I have absolutely no reason to feel this good and cheerful...and yet I do!!! Amazing! Pilates was awesome...I was very in the zone...and they had the fans all going right over us...it was awesome...still buzzing a little...

Okay Peeps! On to the personals! In no particular order or favoritism...

Heather: That is a great plan! Definitely do that...you will feel so much better if you can even get one thing done.... Hang in there...

Amarie: Have fun at the agility thingie! (Don't quite know what that is but...faking it! )

Leenie: Good to see ya!! Have fun!

Sassy: SEEE!!! We told you so!!! You are loved! And I think it is fabulous that your other co worker stood up to the...ahem...woman... (You all know I was thinking something else...I am trying to be more loving to everyone not just the ones who deserve it!) And isn't that AWESOME when your guy actually pays attention to you...I have a Sweetie like that too...it is the best! Sorry to hear about the migraine...I get those too...they are ****! I use Excedrin migraine too!!! Congrats on the whole operation Hubby shift change!!! Awesome!!

Good job on the three miles Cathy!!!! Woo hoo!!

Hope: Sending you some energy...I have some to spare...finally!! I hate to sound like a zealot for my new plan...but are you getting enough protein????

Mom: lol Well, changing places might be a bit of a problem...I don't think DD or DH would go for it...besides I am getting a little downtime at the moment but sometimes all **** breaks loose medically around here! Besides...there is absolutely no way I could handle 4 kids that little! I have one 16 year old...it would be a shock to my system!!!! I wish you the best of luck with that though!!! Hang in there...

Hey Buddly! I am sorry you are feeling funky...been there done that...got WAY too many tshirts!!! I hope you feel betters soon and find your sunshine... luv luv Girlie! You just keep looking...you will find it!!!

Everyone have a safe and wonderful holiday... Happy 4th!!!

I haven't actually felt like typing today....Awful crappy crappy day yesterday and pretty crappy day today. I am just wondering if good days are gonna come my way soon?? I almost broke down and cried several times yesterday. Today i missed an appt that it is hard to reschedule. I feel so stupid. I feel like I am running after a car and just when I get close they hit the gas....I just cant seem to get ahold of my life that is just speeding recklessly ahead of me. My calendar looks like a dart board and I forget appts because I dont even remember the date most days. Like when I worked fulltime and I had appts for ethan and prego appts I never had to write down a single appt. I would sometimes sched. my prego appts 2 at a time and always always remembered the date and time and NEVER missed them. But now I can remember the date and time of the appts (most of the time) but I just dont realize its that date until its too late. It SUCKS!! I figured its sounds stupid but I think every night before I go to bed I need to write out my whole day from wake up to sleep so I have some sense of direction. I am so a night person so I remember stuff well at night but morning my brain does not function until about lunch time so anything before that is not good. Plus planning out when i am gonna clean what and what time I start dinner and what we are having and what appts i have and what phone calls i need to make and when a good time to do them is......will all help me get a step toward order in my life. Seriously if I can get order...i guess control of my life I know the weight will come. I am just tired of going day after day winging it hoping i did everything I was suppose to do.
I have to force myself to get everything in order cause I cant keep living like this.
Ok everyone just thought i would share where I am at...not very exciting not all bouncy like raven....grrrrrrrr....lol....I should cut all sugar from my diet too!!! i am not sure of all the details of your eating raven...just know that sugar causes crashes at points and tiredness...

Happy 4th everyone...have to be up at like 5 something to drive 6 hours(3 there & 3 back!) to bring our foster daughter home for an overnight visit!!

Still here

I have to get used to budgeting my time. I only had one training module today and then I went on the floor. Despite me not knowing many things or where anything is, I was so glad to get away from the computer screen! Five days in a row of being bombarded with info was wearing me down.

I'm leaving in the morning to see my mom and I won't be back till Tuesday. I won't have internet access so I'll miss you all this weekend.

Good news: I got an email today from Anthem telling me to fill out an application online. I guess I didn't bomb their pre-screening test as bad as I thought. (Either that or they are desperate ) I plan to apply and interview if can and see what their offer is. I hate to leave HD after they've invested the time to train me but oh well. I may still work there part time if and when I get a better paying 9-5.

Raven, yeah I getting plenty of protein but the french fries and brownies may be countering the positive effects of it. I'm actually feeling better just from the workouts I've gotten in this week. I have to make an effort to at least walk this weekend at mom's or I'll be hurting next week.

Heather: Big for this weekend. I'll be thinking of you. I think that setting goals is a great plan. I need to do the same for myself. Definitely try to get your workouts in just for the endorphins. I know being single can be scary but it can also be awesome. You'll have time to do what you want when you want and with whom you want. Making lots of time for friends helps and also maybe set a goal to do something for someone else once or twice a week. Something small. Just a suggestion but it usually does more for you than the other person. Again

Sugarmama: Strange. I think I have a tooth infection too. I'm going to start some antibiotics.

Cathy: I did two miles yesterday with WATP. I'm going to try to walk outside this weekend.

Buddly: I hope it passes quickly. I love fresh fruit and veggies. I actually had a couple of fresh tomatoes from my vines this week.

Amarie: Hope you have a fun weekend. See you next week.

Sassy: Congrats on all the positive news! Glad things are working in your favor.

Leenie: Hope you have a great weekend and get some well deserved rest.

Momof4: I don't blame you for giving in on the bike. You have to do that once and a while and I'm sure he'll always remember that. Are you attempting a cookout or anything like that this weekend?

TTY Tuesday!!

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Happy 4th of July!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Sorry that I've been MIA..I've been spending a lot of time with dh since he got home on sunday. We're practically joined at the hip now, lol. Since he's been home though..I haven't been eating so well..and been feeling sick every single night. Ugh..I hate it. I'm actually still feeling sick. And we're supposed to go out later today. I just hope it isnt too hot outside today, cuz the heat will make things worse for me. This is our first 4th of July together, and I dont wanna ruin it.

Thankfully though..I havent gained or lost any weight. I did buy some clothes the other day..and the shirt is a smaller size..and I had to return the capri's because they were too big!! LoL!! That was pretty exciting!!

Well..I'm gonna go try to get some more sleep. Hope you all have a great day!!!! Remember to use sunscreen if you're going out!!!

Happy 4th of July!!
I hope you all have a save and fun holiday weekend!

Good morning everyone!

Feeling a bit better here. I had a better day yesterday after a nap and drinking a lot of water. I felt like I finally accomplished something as I had managed to clean the four fish tanks, dishes all done, baked two loaves of bread and get the laundry all washed, dried, folded and headed into its respective areas. Thats a lot for me. But I really like that the dryer and the laundry baskets are empty, thats rather unusual for around here. Unfortunately our hot streak seems to be ending. They are calling for rain all weekend. At least it will help the forests. No plans for the weekend. DdA only has Sat off and hubby only gets Sun off.

amarie good luck at the trials! Hope you guys do well.

Heatherthe daily goal sounds like a great idea.

Sugar sorry about the gum infection. I've just returned to the dentist after a couple of years and the cleaning is taking quite awhile. Hope you feel better soon.

Raven, Wow its great that your plan is still going strong! I can feel your energy all the way here!! And I'm sure I'll find something soon. Right now I think I'm getting bogged down in a transition period as my girls are finishing high school and are starting on their lives and I have to start making changes as well. But it will all be good.

momof4 just hang in there. I sure don't envy your drive! Try to relax and enjoy your weekend.

Hope congrats on the job invite! (wasn't sure how to phrase that!) Have a good visit with your mom. Fresh tomatoes from the vine, oh I'm jealous! My garden didn't even get turned over this year, I'm so disappointed.

Shop congrats on the smaller clothes! Thats so wonderful! Enjoy the time with your hubby.

Sassy thats great news to hear that other lady stood up for you, its nice to know others have your back!

Hi leenie, cathy and everyone else!

Well take care and once again have a great 4th and stay safe!
K

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...I wish i could scream or run away or do something. Its a holiday and its suppose to be good and fun and whatever but to me its just another CRAPPY sucky stinky flippin day. I stopped at our old house on the way home to get some stuff. Well when we got service to call them (fstr dght group home) they said she needed to call more and she will probably get in trouble. I had no service and there were no pay phones. Then i wanted to nap when we got home i had 4 hours sleep and am sick from lack of sleep well kira was screaming and wouldnt go to sleep and woke maddie up they just now went to sleep and the boys are laying down but my moms foster girls will be being dropped off here any minute..I am to that i want to cry because I am so tired point... I seriously just want to have a good old fashioned temper tantrum!! I looked when I took my meds this morning and I hadnt taken any since early this morning....girls are here gotta go

happy 4th of july everybody!

hope everybody is having a great day!

I did 4 miles today so I'm glad about that

what's everybody up to today? we grilled meat on the pit and boy was it good. we plan to relax the rest of the day! yeaaaaaaaa!

later gaters

Happy 4th Everyone I am just chillin until tomm when I have my dentist appt.

Wow girls seems like the dentist is running in cirlces with us hope you guys don't have the same problems me.

Shopaholic I am glad dh is home hope you felt better to go out.

Hi all - just poppin in because the fireworks are keeping me awake.

Mof4 - eek! 4 hours of sleep and all the stuff you try to get done? Impossible! I don't know how you do it - on 4 hours sleep all I can do is cry! Wow, good for you catching that you missed your meds today - maybe it doesn't seem like much, but its a step in the right direction! You sound like you have "mom-heimers". I heard how its super common for moms of young kids to get forgetful like you described - haha I "heard it on the John Tesh radio show". I think he had some tips for it, but I don't remember. Maybe they are on his website?

Heather - its just the slightly revised me . So much is different or changing in my life that it seems appropriate. Hang in there kiddo! In the immortal words of an animated fish: "just keep swimming!". You have greater strength than you know, and now is a great time to explore it.

Sugar - ouch! Hope your teeth get better soon! I have to admit I've never had a rt canal - is it very painful?

Sassy - day is night, and night is... Ack! Too confusing for me

Raven - wtg on the pilates! I really need to get back into mine. My kayaking classes really took a bit out of my schedule the last two weeks, so I need to reintegrate a lot of exercises. Oh, and agility is like that thing you might have seen on tv where the dogs jump over things, run through tunnels, and weave through poles. Its fun and a really great wkout!

Hope - let's chat when you get back. I'm falling so behind on my house projects

Francie - finally came up for air? . Glad you are enjoying time with dh. Don't get conned into thinking that fun has to involve wrotten food, though.

Leenie - hi! How's the pup?

Buddly - just reading your list made me tired!!! That's a lot!!! Wtg. Feel like taking on my laundry?

OK chicks. The fireworks are quieting down so I oughtta try to sleep - up early early again tomorrow to drive to the agility trial. Its so HOT up there!!!