I hope your 4th was great. I really didn't watch any fireworks......I have seen them many many times before, so its not biggie. Just haven't had the energy to much of anything. But I am feeling better so I guess the resting is doing its job of making me well...........
Unfortunately my "focal points" on cleaning has suffered this week.
But there is always next week. 
Now if I can get my DH to at least GET started on that horrible office of his............
I feel better, physically, but emotionally, I just feel blah.
I feel like I am just hopeless in the weight loss and getting healthy dept. I get these newsletters from e-diets to try to motivate me, but all they do is make me realize how much work I have yet to go. 
But I don't wanna give up. I just need to do better. I had a dream lastnight that I started biking to work!!!! That would be like a miracle for me because work is about 12.7 miles away. That would be 25.4 Miles a day x 3 nights a week on my "short weeks" and 4 days a week on my "long weeks". Yes that is doable I mean how many flippin' miles do they do on the tour de France? Ok looked it up and its: 2,235 miles!!!
And that is throughout all kinds of country. Mine would basically be flat except for the hill by our apt. So yes indeed I could do it and yes it may take like a long time before I actually could do it, but it is doable. I just dunno if I have that kind of energy and stamina anymore! lol. But "can't" couldn't do anything as my mom always has said. lol. So who knows.......I could be peddling to work if I ever get off my fat lazy bum!
Actually when I was younger I wanted to be a professional bike rider and do competitions and all, but never got that far.........lol. Not even close. lol. I think the farthest I've ever went on a bike was about 2 measely miles and that was when I was in A LOT better shape than I am now!!!
So whoppee do why can't I get motivated?? What is wrong with me?? I have never liked being overweight and now eeekkk obese.........
So what is the problem here? Maybe I have something mentally "blocking" me??? Should I see a therapist? Should I go on a retreat somewhere? Should I become a buddist monk? What is the answer here? Okay okay I know the answer isn't that easy. But just "thinking out loud" here........So don't think I'm whining or complaining cuz I'm really not. I am thankful for everything I do have because there are many who would love to be in my shoes, I know that. So I dunno. I just feel like a major change needs to happen for me otherwise I'm doomed..................and that is not acceptable for me. I just need to find that "fire" inside that I used to have cuz my "fire" has gone out a long time ago.
Anyways, rambling here..........
Can't you tell I am feeling better? 
Momof4 -- I think we all could use a getaway, anybody wanna go? lol. Big
girlie and I hope things got better for ya and I hope your getting a good sleep. Cathy -- WTG on the 4 miles!!! I'm lucky if I could even do 1!!!
Sugar -- Hope the dentist situation gets worked out
Francie -- Glad you finally have joined us again.......Hope your time with the hubs is going well.
Buddly -- Wow girl! Slow down! Your making us look bad here! lol.
Hope -- WTG and Good Luck on the Anthem Job!!!
Raven -- LOL. Your post made me feel better. lol. I am glad you took everything and laughed it off. What an awesome attitude!!! I am desperately trying to keep that attitude as well and yes I felt very well liked with the lady at work standing up for me.
Yes I only have to get through this week and possibly next week and then the hubs should be on my shift, if they don't flippin' change mine! But I can't see them doing that when I am the Sr. Agent on nights. Don't be too impressed, there is only me and one other girl on nights and two newbies that work a few hrs at night and on the weekends. So Whooppee but so far at least everybody has said (except for Ms. Nasty Pants) that I am doing a kick @$$ job. 
Even my bosses have said so. They say my weakest thing? Is my attendance and I can fix that one. I just have to "suck it up" and not miss any days. Boy that is tough for me. Esp the 1st of October we're getting ALL of our PTO time all at once.........I'll be like a little kid surrounded by candy and told, "Don't touch that!" lol. But if I don't touch it, then maybe DH and I can take a true vacation!!! That is if we are still there by then. Things could change, so who knows! lol.Anyways. there I go again...........ramble ramble........
I need a "chatty" avatar! lol. If anybody finds me a cute one, I'd be ever so appreciative!!! lol.I hope you all had a wonderful 4th!!!
Anyways!!! lol It was fun... I thought I would sleep in a little bit but dang it...this new food thing has my body thinking it is just the right thing to do to be up at 5:30 in the morning!! I needed to get up and feed it anyway...(makes me sound a little like a zoo animal doesn't it? Ha!) So, I did, dorked around a little while...then went back to the cuddlefest...sooo nice... When I woke up again I made a small cup of coffee and went and put in 45 mins on the elliptical! Now, I had had a couple of days last week where I had a headache...and it turned into a full blown migraine on Friday night (kinda another reason I took it easy on Sat) Well, I started doing some thinking... I used to use my heart rate monitor all the time to make sure I was in the correct zone for my age and everything...well, I haven't been doing that for quite awhile... I think my body is feeling so strong and good and I get such a endorphin rush from working out that it is making me not realize my heart rate was getting too high...hence the headache and possibly triggering the migraine... So, I used my monitor today when I was on the elliptical and sure enough...I had to adjust my resistance and my speed alot towards the end of my workout to keep my heartrate from going too high... So, can't forget to wear my monitor and keep things from getting out of hand for me! 
(In case you couldn't tell, I was just kidding...we all adore Sassy...that's why I get to tease her!)
dgramie!!! Don't pay any attention to what these people say they are truly demented! 
That is why I love them so! lol. 
lol. WTG on the exercise! I had a headache all week last week, it finally went away after I had dh get me some Excedrin Migraine. I'm glad that I am so well loved 
here! lol. Teasing I am used too esp since I work with all men. They love to "torment" me all night long. lol. Its like being with a whole bunch of brothers! If you can imagine that! lol. And hey missy I "resemble" that comment about your post "almost worse" than mine!!! 
nice to meet 'cha. Like the commercial says - depression hurts everyone. I'm glad you came in here for support - 
Cat Lady!" who sits with all her cats watching all her old tv shows and love "stories" 
Yeah yeah I know, and YES I would like CHEESE with my WHINE please!!!! 
