Hi girls.
It has been a LOUSY day, to say the least. My mom and I were supposed to leave for a cruise tomorrow- she had a stroke yesterday.
I am trying really hard to hold it together, the rest of the family is falling apart, we moved mine and her flight yesterday in case she would still be able to go, because at the time we didn't know for sure it was a stroke and she feels perfectly fine. So my husband went on the original flight, he's out in Florida waiting for me. My family is making me feel super guilty for going, my mom would be PISSED if I don't go and have fun... what do you do? *sigh*
There are a few positives that have come out of this:
1. I got to tell my sister off for being ridiculous, with no major consequences because everyone thinks it's stress.
2. I figured out just how strong I really am, and that I am capable of quite a bit when in front and staring down a crisis. I only lost it when I was alone.
3. For the first time EVER I resisted emotional eating. I was able to sincerely evaluate my physical needs and emotional needs and differentiate, thus leaving the pan of rice krispy treats alone.
4. God handed me a pretty harsh reality check, and essentially shouted at me about my physical and spiritual condition. I haven't taken care of either, and I have always made excuses. Right now I am forced to acknowledge that the only thing I have to go by as far as my mom's future is concerned is faith, and this is the one test of faith I could possibly be faced with and pass. We had to recite the family's medical history, and it's grim. Heart disease runs rampant and there just isn't room for unhealthy habits. So I am making an appointment for all my physicals, even the girl check up I avoid at all costs, as well as an appointment with a nutritionist as soon as I get home.
Glass half full, right? You can still catch it mid- tip and rescue what's inside before it spills!
So, For the month of December I lost 4 lbs, I managed to not gain anything over the holidays, which was my only real mini goal, and I have definitely readjusted my priorities, which I think counts as a pretty great accomplishment!
I hope you all feel good about your accomplishments this month, have a wonderful new year, and I will talk to you all in about a week!
Crissy
P.S. Sorry for the crazy long post!!