Today I said no to pigging out on snacks. I found out my dad was in the hospital and the urge to eat everything in the kitchen was so strong I didn't know if I would be able to control myself but I counted out a serving of cheez its and ate it slow enough that it was enough to satisfy myself. I was so proud of myself.
I just said NO to the 2nd half of my cookie.
I've been good all day, except I chewed so much gum I think it made me even more bloated. :/ Can that happen? My "real" mom gave me a call today on my way home from the mall (where I fought the urge to get upset at my body) to fill me in on family drama. Which really ticked me off because I moved away from home 6 years ago to escape that drama!
So, tonight I have to write a paper and tomorrow evening I'm going to see my boyfriend (oh yea, we're exclusive!). The added stressed made me just want to eat and eat after dinner, which I ate fast even though I did my best to slow it down. At least I was conscious of this, right? I decided I HAD to leave my apartment. So, I went to Barnes and Noble to write in the cafe, but there was no where to plug in my laptop and people seemed to be talking louder than normal - adding to the stress. I decided that I needed to do something. So I got a small black coffee (w/ sugar free vanilla - I used to live on this, now I have coffee maybe once-twice a week!) and I stared at the desserts until I absolutely knew which one would satisfy my craving. I got a shortbread cookie. And anyone whose seen their cookies knows that they are good-sized. Instead of digging right into it, I walked to my car, caught my breath and decided that I was just going to eat half of it. I broke it in half and that half into bite size pieces so I didn't devour it in one bite. I took my time and by the time I was home, my coffee was cool enough to rid the cookie flavour from my mouth and help me realize that I was satisfied.
I gave the 2nd half to my roommate (a guy) the second I walked into the door. He thinks I'm so generous sometimes
Sorry for the novel, but seemed like quite the feat - braving to get something sweet while I was stressed and on the edge of "binge mode" and succeeding to stay under control.
Last edited by tater tash; 07-09-2010 at 12:07 AM.
I don't know if this counts, but I planned for a treat in my day, about one scoop of ice cream, and I said no to more than that, when everyone else around me filled up their bowls. I don't know if was a no moment, but for someone who regularly binges when naughty food is freely available, it felt like a "no" moment. It felt like a small victory.
Today I said No to one of those apple pies they always love to put by the registers. I went to the grocery store for the second time since I started counted calories and I kept being drawn to all the food I use to love especially that apple pie. It was so hard not to just grab something and throw it in the cart but I checked my calories on everything and told myself that it was not worth it and moved on. It was really hard but I managed it and I feel like I'm slowing starting to be able to trust myself with that kind of situation. I feel good for the moment at least...
It's Saturday morning and I've already started my weekend off with fantasies of donuts, pancakes, soft pretzels, and bunch a crunch.. But instead I'm eating a very healthy & fulfilling strawberry walnut protein smoothie.
I keep a food journal and everyday there's a slot where you're supposed to write down a goal for that day. Well, everyday I write one down and I never make the goal. I kept screwing up. I realized I had such a lack of will power it was sickening. SO finally today I wrote down a goal, a goal which I have written down numerous times before and always failed, which was to drink nothing but water. I'm so proud to say I stuck to it and drank nothing but water! I achieved a goal I set for myself FINALLY and it's so empowering! I said NO to soda today! Whoo hoo!
pot luck at work today!! I said no to oreo cake, cookies galore, carb loaded salads, fried potato wedges, soda cheesy tortilla rolls. I had chicken and broccoli and that was it.
