You know, it just occurred to me that I turned 30 recently, so maybe I shouldn't be in this forum! But I still feel like I'm in my 20s, except for after I've worked out too much. *Then* I feel my advanced years.
Congrats on the loss, Jina! Change your stats to reflect it! (-;
It's a rainy Tuesday here, which can be hard with preschoolers. BUT, compared to my day yesterday, I'm convinced today will feel calm & serene. (-; I'm striving to keep a good attitude--I've been blessed with so much & really have no good reason to whine or complain. God's good to me!
Have a great day, all!
so last night, i conquered "italian night" in cooking class. finished the day at 1440 calories, right in my range. woo. there is now a lot of spinach lasagna and spaghetti w/ meatballs in the fridge, next to the spring rolls and potstickers. things sure last a while when i can't eat them all at once!
david and i are meeting at the YMCA after work. my new thing is the ellipitical. kinda tired of the treadmill, it wasn't "doing it for me" anymore. so i work up a sweat on the elliptical, and tonight is upper body.
i'm actually looking forward to wednesday... i want to see how much i've lost this week!
*sigh* What is wrong with my motivation? I know I am really really busy, but why is it so much harder to lose the last bit of my weight? Why do I dread working out?? I used to love it. Why?????? (rhetorical questions of course).
Sorry to hear you're struggling with motivation tonic! Will this help?
Yeah, so far my day is so-so. I didn't have to work this morning (which means I slept in until 9!) Then my fiance calls to tell me he got the internship that he wanted. I'm trying to be happy for him. Really, I am. But it's 5+ hrs. away. It's not even in the same %&$# state! I don't know all the details right now (exact location/time frame/hours worked/days off/wages) but I already know it's going to be a challenge --- even if we weren't planning our freaking wedding! (Which is, as of Thursday, 6 months away! EEK!) Okay, okay: POSITIVE: He is so happy about it. It means a lot to him. It's going to look great on his resume (he got a bioengineering intership at the national research institute). One of our best friends (one of my bridesmaids even) will be there, so he'll have automatic friends (but there is a little jealous butterfly, you know?) He'll make way more money there than he would doing anything here. I can still visit him. He's only 3.5 hrs. from our wedding site, making planning together not impossible. Since we now live about an hour away anyway, we already only see eachother once or twice a week - we can handle this! I'll probably see him every other week or so. NEGATIVE: I'll miss him! I'll miss him! I'll miss him! Wedding planning will be very difficult. Chances of us moving into the house that we wanted to is much slimmer. Ouch, I love that house. I'll be horrifically and insanely jealous all the time for no reason! Why am I so neurotic? I will fight back the jealousy monster - just because other people get to see him everyday... grrrr.
Okay, lots of positives. We can work through the negatives. I need answers though, and he didn't have any!!! Ahh! But I will try to figure this all out and I know I'll feel much better about when I do. My only concern is that it might be a 12-week internship - that would be very, very bad. Our wedding might fall into it if that were true. So everyone cross your fingers that it's only an 8 week internship.
Thanks for letting me rant.... off to class I suppose. I was going to run before class, but that's okay, I'll swim after class instead.
Jen - I'll keep my fingers crossed its an 8 week internship. My fiance and I spent 6 months apart when I went to school 4 states away. It was a very difficult time in our lives, but it actually made us grown closer. I will admit it was very difficult because we had lived together for 2 years prior to me moving and we had to communicate in a completely different way. But we made it through it and I don't regret the struggles at all. Like I said, it really did make us stronger as a couple.
So although its really going to suck having him so far away.. just remember that its only for a couple of months and that he loves you and misses you just as much as you do. You two will make it through this period and then you have the rest of your lives to be together.
jen - My motivation is going up and down. Its usually related to my stress level which is at high right now. I'm gonna try to force myself to go to the gym tonight.. assuming I get this homework that due at midnight done today. *sigh*
So how did your tasting go? Did you decide on them for your wedding? Whats your menu?
Tonic: we tasted food, but haven't made any definate decisions yet. We did pick out a cake though - chocolate fudge with a ganache drip and a custard filling. Yummy!
Holly: We're actually moving to the town where he lives. All of our mutual friends live there or in that area (I'm the oddball who went to the "other" college ) I like where I live now better, but I miss seeing my friends during the week, so it'll be nice. Congrats on day 12! I made it through day 13 - GO US!
