Copying this from the chat thread, I love both threads so much!
Hey everyone. I'm sorry about not being around to support and talk to you girls, life has distracted me somewhat and I hope you forgive my lack of personals. If you're still interested in what's going on with me, then here goes!
My time in America with my boyfriend after not seeing him for 7 months was, unsurprisingly, amazing. I loved being with him, I cherished every moment I had with him and I know some of you might gag a bit - but I feel like I love him even more. We're such a great team, we really support each other, love hanging out together and when things do get rocky (just a few moments of bickering here and there) we figure them out in the end.
For those who might remember, there was a bit of trouble with his Mum and her opinion of me after the last time I visited. I can confirm that there is still an awkwardness with her, although we never talked about it. Why? Because I firmly believe the woman is crazy. She is obsessed with one thing in her life and is the moodiest strangest woman I think I've encountered. The one thing in her life is their new puppy, who she is treating like a baby. I'm aware that puppies need attention...but not that much attention where it feels like she's so controlling of the training and the grooming that she's forgetting to love her and play with her.
At one point when we were visiting some of the boyfriends family, the bf overheard her talking to his cousin and auntie and she was basically telling a story he had told her as if it had happened to her. He was right, she was taking his story and pretending like she was there...the bf tells me she does it all the time which is really bizarre.
The bf and his Mum don't see eye to eye and they never have, and now I know why. At one point in his life his best friend, his friend who he had known since he can remember told him he hated him and he never wanted to speak to him again. When the topic came up at the dinner table, his mum defended the friend who had betrayed her son, who had quite literally change the way he trusted people for the rest of his life. I was furious, but I didn't say anything...but how can a parent know that it's happened and defend it? I knew the friend who betrayed him, and he quite literally went off the rocker and seemed to have decided overnight he hated him - it was a shock to me too.
But because of how stubborn and manipulative she is of conversations, I just didn't want to make a scene. One day I got really upset, but then I realised that I don't need to prove myself. I've been my boyfriends best friend for 10 years, I've changed his life for the better - made him realise he should follow his dreams and be happy. I've supported him, loved him and cared for him in a way that I don't know if she has. I know him inside out, and if she wants to dislike me for any reason then I don't care, because what's important is my boyfriend and he is completely on my side and thinks she's a bit of a psycho too.
The family drama made me quite ready to get out of there by the time the holiday was over - it made me miss my own family (and be thankful that despite how crazy we can be, we love each other and communicate) so I wasn't too sad when I left. I arrived in England fine, I was greeted by a very excited Mother and I felt ok. However, when I went to bed that night, I bawled my eyes out. I missed him so much, I felt horribly down and I didn't know how to stop feeling that way. I did not like sleeping alone in a single bed, I didn't like being away from him. I felt like I had left a huge chunk of myself with him, and I was so desperate to go back. I remember thinking "I don't want to be here, I want to be with him." It was awful.
The next day I had to go to work, I almost cried explaining to my friends that I felt awful being home. I didn't break down, I stayed smiling, and I do have some amazing colleges where I work so it made me feel better to be back in a place where I was missed. The work sucked of course! After a few days of work, going to a gathering with my friends and hanging out with my favourite work friend I felt right back at home. I feel much much better now, my surroundings don't feel so alien, they are starting to feel like home again.
Now all the boring stuff is out of the way, time to get down to the weight loss side of things! While I was in America I managed to stay on plan for 2 weeks. I was exercising, weighing and staying on top of things. The last week? Yeah, I failed. HOWEVER! When I got home and weighed myself, I had only gained 1 pound. And considering that I lost a pound out there I pretty much maintained the weight I was before.
I've been home now for over a week, and I haven't been on track. I've weighed myself here and there, and every time it's been at 156 lbs, but the last few days I've been a bit naughty. I haven't exercised once since I've been home having found myself very frustratingly bored with Insanity (been doing it for 6 months!).
However! The last time I was at work my manager came to me with a piece of paper, he was arranging for people to do a 10k race for charity. At first I was like "hmm, I dunno..." but then I thought "no, a 10k race got me on the track to healthy before, it can do it again" so I signed up. SO! 10k training starts Monday! It's on May 13th and I've got a work out buddy this time. She's overweight, and a bit out of shape she says, but I've already warned her I won't be sticking around with her I will be training for my personal best. She understood completely, so I hoping she'll help me stay on track on days I feel like not going.
So, my life is starting to take form again. I'm staying positive about being away from my boyfriend again, who I will see again in August. I've still to hear back from my interview with JET, I've got an interview with Interac on Tuesday (that I'm trying to not over prepare for like I did with JET and get overly nervous) and if I don't get either job offer I'm going to apply for a work visa anyway and move in August (which is when I would be placed if I got a job with either one!) Phew. So, life is getting back on track, fitness will be in check on Monday and weighing/accountability will start asap.
Did you honestly read all that? I admire you if you did! Thanks for listening, I'm excited to get back in the swing of things on here, I miss you guys and your support!
Glad to hear from you, Riestrella! I think that's a major accomplishment that you didn't let yourself get distracted from your goals while in America. I totally feel you on the week after thing, though. I had a long distance relationship (Not as long as yours! But we were 1000 miles apart) and whenever he'd come and see me I would just be despondent after he left. I'd close myself off in my room and cry. It's really super hard and depressing to leave your significant other like that or to have them leave you. Good luck on the 10k though! Training will be a nice way to get back in the groove.
Daki - Thank you! Long distance really does suck. For now, we're fine - we love each other and we're trying our best to make it work, but I cannot do this for too much longer! At least when we were both living in the UK I got to see him every month, now it's turned into every half a year! But moving to Japan will fix that =D. It sounds silly but 5 months wait to see him doesn't seem as horrible now I've waited 7 months.
I'm really excited to start 10k training, and especially since I've got a friend who's doing it with me. I hope you're well!
I just joined - I love charts! Thanks for all of your hard work with this.
Riestrella Yikes, she does sound a little crazy alright. Sorry to hear that but it's good that your boyfriend realises it too or else it'd be super difficult. The important thing is that you're good for eachother and happy and it sounds like you definitely are.
I don't know how you can do long distance, I don't think I'd be able for it to be honest.
I'm probably going to stall again this week. Between being sick, eating more (though still under maintenance) and eating tremendously sodium-laden foods, I can't see myself as having lost anything when I step on the scale tomorrow.
I'm so excited! I've been dropping the excess lbs that I gained during 2/3 weeks off plan living this week. And if all goes well I'll weigh in exactly where I was at during my last weigh in 3 weeks ago at 140!! Was up some today due to muscle soreness. So hope that effect is gone before my weigh in tomorrow. Would be so nice if I don't have to report a gain due to my off-track behavior.
thanks torito! i gained a bit again due to unmentionable issues, hihi. atleast I have been strictly on plan for a week so i know the scale will go back down again soon... so, i'll weigh in with a 1lbs gain.. it's all good. the loss next week will be even bigger
Went to a restaurant for mother's day here in the UK and sad to say I ate quite a bit! So even though I've been 154.3 for most of the week my weight went up to 155.2lb on weigh-in! Eeek! Will try to eat better this week!
So even though I've been 154.3 for most of the week my weight went up to 155.2lb on weigh-in! Eeek! Will try to eat better this week!
