@morphomel: Seems like you're handling this right. Sorry to hear that you've hit a rough spot, though. Hang in there. :hug:

Sw: 162.8
Gw: 157

05/01: 162.8
05/02: 160.8
05/03: 160.2
05/04: 159.8!!! new decade!!
05/05: 160.2 - pizza last night :/
05/06: 160.2
05/09: 161.8
05/10: 162.0
05/11: 161.2
05/12: 159.8
05/13: 160.6 {sore from the Shred...}
05/14: 159.8
05/15: 159.2
05/16: 159.2
05/17: 158.7
05/18: 158.7
05/19: 159.2 - Chili's last night =/
05/20: 159.2

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@tropica & all:

thanks everyone! it's nice to see familiar people around too. I guess from my flop I've learned that this really has to be a lifechange. I figure I'll be eating 1500 calories a day for the rest of my life if I ever want to reach my weight goal. I just feel like that's how it has to be.

:(

It's hard to get used to eating so little throughout the day, some days it feels normal, and others, it feels so strange. I working on it though, and that's all that matters. At least, I am trying.

I get mad at myself because I know what I have to do, and then I don't do it---it's nice to know that I can come back here though to confess this. I feel better about getting it off my chest, and it even makes me feel better about my self esstem---at least I am trying, right? lol

until tomorrows weigh in
amy

SW for may:246
GW: 238

5/01/2011: 246
5/02: 243
5/03: 245
5/04: 245
5/05: 244
5/06: 242
5/07: 241
5/08: 243
5/09:244
5/10: 242
5/11: 243
5/12: 243
5/13: skipped
5/14: 243
5/15:242
5/16: 242
5/17:243
5/18: 242
5/19: 241
2/20: 243
2/21:241

Sw: 237
Gw: 229

5/01 - 237
5/02 - 236
5/03 - 236
5/04 - 236 (I'm seeing a pattern here...)
5/05 - 236
5/06 - 235
5/07 - 234
5/08 - 233
5/09 - 233
5/10 - 233
5/11 - 232
5/12 - 232
5/13 - 233 (boo..)
5/14 - 231 (phew!)
5/15 - 232
5/16 - 232
5/17 - 230
5/18 - 230
5/19 - 228 (no way!!!)
5/20 - 228
5/21 - 227

Sw: 279
Gw: 268


5/1-5/6: Have to get a new scale.
5/9: 279 (This weekend was BAD!!..I expected this)
5/10: 279
5/11: 278
5/12: 277
5/13: 276 (whew so glad to be back on track!)
5/14: 276 (yesss)
5/15: 276 (woohoo)
5/16: 276
5/17: no weigh-in (scale not working )
5/18: 277
5/19: 276
5/20: 276
5/21: no scale

Sw: 148.2
Gw: 144

5/01: 148.2
5/02: 148.4
5/03: 148.2
5/04: 148.2
5/05: 148.4
5/06: 147.0
5/07: 147.0
5/08: 148.6
5/09: 148.0
5/10: 145.6 - If only it were real...
5/11: 145.8
5/12: 146.4 - alcohol and then too much eating afterward. Ugh...I don't even want to think about the number of calories consumed last night.
5/13: 147.4
5/14: 146.0
5/15: 145.2
5/16: 143.8
5/17: 146.6 - Another binge yesterday.
5/18: 144.8
5/19: 146.0 - And another. WTF is wrong with me...
5/20: 148.8 - I almost wasn't going to post this. I've been seriously binging for a week now. I feel like crap. At first it was fun, but now the healthy food I've come to love just tastes nasty to me. Even the junk I'm eating tastes less and less good. But I know why I'm doing this and I'm not going to let it turn into months of binging like I have in the past. I will keep weighing in and I will keep posting it. Not doing so will just be ignoring the problem and letting it continue.
5/21: 153.6 - Some of this HAS to be water weight, right?

Here's the first month of daily weigh-ins!
SW: 243.6
GW: 233.6


5/1 - 243.8
5/2 - 242.2
5/3 - 242.8 -- :(
5/4 - 242.0 -- Yay! Down again :)
5/5 - 241.6
5/6 - 240.6 -- I never thought I'd be so happy to see a pound of loss!
5/7 - 239.4
5/8 - 238.6 -- 10lbs down from my overall starting weight!!! :D
5/9 - 237.4
5/10 - 238.0 -- Ugh... Gain.
5/11 - 238.4 -- I'm trying something new today...
5/12 - 237.6
5/13 - 237.2 -- Daily Weigh In is making me too stressed. I think I'm switching to twice a week. See you next Tuesday!

5/18 - 236.8 -- Boyfriend back in town so I haven't been very good :-P

5/21 - 234.4 -- Woohoo! Less than a pound away from my monthly goal!

SW: 145.2
GW: 139.8

5/01: 145.2
5/02: 146.4 (Mexican last night, whoops!)
5/03: 145.6
5/04: 145.2
5/05: 144.4 (Yay!! Lowest weight in like 3 or 4 years!!!)
5/06:
5/07:
5/08:
5/09:
5/10:
5/11: 146.4 (went on a little vacation back home...time to get back to business)
5/12: 146.0
5/13: 145.2
5/14: 145.0
5/15: 144.8 (I'm getting sick of these .2 drops)
5/16: 146.4 (binge last night, things are not going so well in my life right now)
5/17: 146.0
5/18: 146.8 (I really don't know what this is about! Very discouraging)
5/19: 146.2
5/20: 145.4 (weighed late, this this may not stay)
5/21: 145.8

SW: 200
GW: 174 (for the end of May *fingers crossed*)

5/02: 186.4
5/03: 184.8
5/04: 184.8
5/05: 183.0 Huzzah for Zumba!
5/06: 182.6
5/07: 182.8 Didn't work out yesterday.
5/08: 182.2
5/09: 181.4
5/10: 180.8 Down four pounds for the week. Not too shabby.
5/11: 181.0 Not going to worry about that little fluxuation. Besides, I weighed in at 4:30am. That probably has something to do with it. Last weigh-in for almost a week, though.
5/12: ---
5/13: ---
5/14: ---
5/15: ---
5/16: ---
5/17: 178.2
5/18: 177.4
5/19: 176 Of course, I dreamt I had hit 152, so while excellent, I'm still a touch disappointed. Stupid dreams and their false expectations.
5/20: 176.4 Boo. Hoping it's just salt from the edamame causing water retention.
5/21: 176.4. Hmmm... maybe this is due to TOM...

Sw: 162.8
Gw: 157

05/01: 162.8
05/02: 160.8
05/03: 160.2
05/04: 159.8!!! new decade!!
05/05: 160.2 - pizza last night :/
05/06: 160.2
05/09: 161.8
05/10: 162.0
05/11: 161.2
05/12: 159.8
05/13: 160.6 {sore from the Shred...}
05/14: 159.8
05/15: 159.2
05/16: 159.2
05/17: 158.7
05/18: 158.7
05/19: 159.2 - Chili's last night =/
05/20: 159.2
05/21: 161.4 - cheat day yesterday

5/1: 116.6
5/2: 117.2
5/3: 115.6
5/4: 115.0
5/5: 114.8
5/6: 115.0 (TOM is near)
5/7: 115.0 (I am very happy to be holding steady during my TOM. I hope to see a huge loss after it's gone).
5/8: 116.0 (TTOM and maybe extra water weight from exercising)
5/9: 116.6 (Definitely TOM weight. I was under my calorie goal yesterday)
5/10: 115.4 (Finally going back down. Hope to be back to normal by 5/12)
5/11: 116.8 (WTH! I'm officially pissed)
5/12: 116.6 (At least I'm losing, hopefully it stays that way)
5/13: 114.8 (FINALLY!!) [My body fat percentage is down to 24.3% (lost 1.2%), my water percentage is 55.2%, and my BMI is 21.1. I am ecstatic.]
5/14: 115.8 (I am really starting to think that I may be going into starvation mode)
5/15: 115.0
5/16: 114.8 (My body fat percentage is down to 24.2% (lost 1.3%), my water percentage is 55.3%, and my BMI is 21.1.)
5/17: 115.8
5/18: 115.4
5/19: 114.0
5/20: 113.4
5/21: 113.4? (The scale flopped around [113.4, 113.6, 114.0, 114.2-- and I got several of those numbers in a row and then if I weighed again, I would get a new number.] a lot today, but the good news is that I lost an inch in my waist.)

@Ekicna: Congrats on losing that inch!!

SW: 162
GW for May: 155

5/9: 162
5/10: 162
5/11: 161.8
5/12: 160.8
5/13: 160.4
5/14: 160.0
5/15: 160.0
5/16: 160.4 Ughhhh...annoying
5/17: 159.8
5/18: 160.4 Grrr
5/19: 159.8
5/20: 159.8
5/21: 157.8 I wish this was real, but it's almost definitely just dehydration from drinking a little bit too much last night...oops

SW: 143
CW: 143.8
5/31/11 GW: 133

5/7/11- 143.5
5/8/11- 147.1 very BAD eating!
5/9/11- 149.0 - retaining water from BAD eating plus pre-TOM bloating ( Im praying). I didn't eat THAT badly!!!
5/10/11- 143.8 ( Thank God for IF and a 3.5 mile walk last night, back on track )
5/11/11- 141.9
5/12/11- 143.5 TOM its official! Hopefully this goes down in the next few days!
5/13/11- 141.8
5/16/11-141.8 I was hoping to be under 140 by today but given a few indulgences this wknd Im glad to not see an increase :0)
5/17/11- 142.1 Eating was DEPLORABLE last night. Must get it together!!!!
5/18/11- ok got 138.7 3x, 143.2, 139.1 2x, and then got on another scale which gave me 138.2 sooo I dunno what to think. Going with 139.0 even.
5/19/11- 141.2! BLAH, too much snacking last night and skipped a workout. Retaining water. Gotta get these binges under control.
5/20/11- " didnt have time to weight this morning. " HA!
5/21/11- 139-Glad this came back down!