SW: 143
CW: 143.8
5/31/11 GW: 133

5/7/11- 143.5
5/8/11- 147.1 very BAD eating!
5/9/11- 149.0 - retaining water from BAD eating plus pre-TOM bloating ( Im praying). I didn't eat THAT badly!!!
5/10/11- 143.8 ( Thank God for IF and a 3.5 mile walk last night, back on track )
5/11/11- 141.9
5/12/11- 143.5 TOM its official! Hopefully this goes down in the next few days!
5/13/11- 141.8
5/16/11-141.8 I was hoping to be under 140 by today but given a few indulgences this wknd Im glad to not see an increase :0)
5/17/11- 142.1 Eating was DEPLORABLE last night. Must get it together!!!!
5/18/11- ok got 138.7 3x, 143.2, 139.1 2x, and then got on another scale which gave me 138.2 sooo I dunno what to think. Going with 139.0 even.
5/19/11- 141.2! BLAH, too much snacking last night and skipped a workout. Retaining water. Gotta get these binges under control.
5/20/11- " didnt have time to weight this morning. " HA!
5/21/11- 139-Glad this came back down!
5/22/11- 139.0
5/23/11- 140.2- too many late night carbs
5/24/11- 142.2- Impromtu cheat meal last night. I needed this for sanity. The workout marathon begins as soon as I get home
5/25/11- No weigh in
5/26/11- 142.9- The cheat meals have not stopped. 24- 36 hour fast today. I lack the self control to cheat and get back on track. I just have to stop.
5/27/11- 142.3

Sw: 162.8
Gw: 157

05/01: 162.8
05/02: 160.8
05/03: 160.2
05/04: 159.8!!! new decade!!
05/05: 160.2 - pizza last night :/
05/06: 160.2
05/09: 161.8
05/10: 162.0
05/11: 161.2
05/12: 159.8
05/13: 160.6 {sore from the Shred...}
05/14: 159.8
05/15: 159.2
05/16: 159.2
05/17: 158.7
05/18: 158.7
05/19: 159.2 - Chili's last night =/
05/20: 159.2
05/21: 161.4 - cheat day yesterday
05/22: 161.4
05/23: 159.8
05/24: skipped
05/25: 159.6
05/26: 159.4
05/27: 159.4

SW: 162
GW for May: 155

5/9: 162
5/10: 162
5/11: 161.8
5/12: 160.8
5/13: 160.4
5/14: 160.0
5/15: 160.0
5/16: 160.4 Ughhhh...annoying
5/17: 159.8
5/18: 160.4 Grrr
5/19: 159.8
5/20: 159.8
5/21: 157.8 I wish this was real, but it's almost definitely just dehydration from drinking a little bit too much last night...oops
5/22: 159.0
5/23: 160.0
5/24: 161.6 Ughhhhh
5/25: 160.8
5/26: 160.0
5/27: 161.0 This is getting old...

Sw: 148.2
Gw: 144

5/01: 148.2
5/02: 148.4
5/03: 148.2
5/04: 148.2
5/05: 148.4
5/06: 147.0
5/07: 147.0
5/08: 148.6
5/09: 148.0
5/10: 145.6 - If only it were real...
5/11: 145.8
5/12: 146.4 - alcohol and then too much eating afterward. Ugh...I don't even want to think about the number of calories consumed last night.
5/13: 147.4
5/14: 146.0
5/15: 145.2
5/16: 143.8
5/17: 146.6 - Another binge yesterday.
5/18: 144.8
5/19: 146.0 - And another. WTF is wrong with me...
5/20: 148.8 - I almost wasn't going to post this. I've been seriously binging for a week now. I feel like crap. At first it was fun, but now the healthy food I've come to love just tastes nasty to me. Even the junk I'm eating tastes less and less good. But I know why I'm doing this and I'm not going to let it turn into months of binging like I have in the past. I will keep weighing in and I will keep posting it. Not doing so will just be ignoring the problem and letting it continue.
5/21: 153.6
5/22: 156.4 Some of this HAS to be water weight, right? I feel gross.
5/23: 156.0
5/24: 154.2
5/25: 150.8
5/26: 154.2 Why won't I stop drinking/eating so much? I have got to get a handle on this.
5/27: 154.2

morphomel: Can you identify any triggers?

SW 142.2
GW 135 (anything in the 130's is gunna be fricken awesome!)

5/1: 142.2
5/2: 142 (TOM aww mannn I usually drop 2-3lbs during TOM)
5/3: 141.0
5/4: 141.2
5/5: 141.2 (Happy Cinco De Mayo!...Hope im not too bad tonight)
5/6: 141.2 (wow my scale really likes this number)
5/7: 142
5/8: 141.7 (slowly undoing cindo de mayo)
5/9: 141.0
5/10: 140.8
5/11: 140.1
5/12: 140.1 (oh come onnn)
5/13: 139.5 ( OH EM GEE!!! )
5/14: 139.3
5/15: 138.9
5/16: no weigh in
5/17: 139.5 (Movies popcorn and SPK were good but the guy who plays Thor was delicious!)
5/18: 139.4
5/19: 139.1
5/20: 140.0 (greasy yummy food last night and dinner out tonight not looking forward to the next couple weigh ins)
5/21: 140.3
5/22: no weigh in
5/23: 138.7
5/24: 138.5
5/25: 138.4
5/26: 138.4
5/27: 138.7 drinks last night

Sw: 237
Gw: 229

5/01 - 237
5/02 - 236
5/03 - 236
5/04 - 236 (I'm seeing a pattern here...)
5/05 - 236
5/06 - 235
5/07 - 234
5/08 - 233
5/09 - 233
5/10 - 233
5/11 - 232
5/12 - 232
5/13 - 233 (boo..)
5/14 - 231 (phew!)
5/15 - 232
5/16 - 232
5/17 - 230
5/18 - 230
5/19 - 228 (no way!!!)
5/20 - 228
5/21 - 227
5/22 - 228
5/23 - 226
5/24 - 226
5/25 - 226
5/26 - 226
5/27 - 224 (currently in state of disbelief, lol)
5/28 - 225

Sw: 130.2
Cw: 133.0
Gw: 125.0

05/01/2011: 130.2
05/02/2011: 130.6
05/03/2011: 132.2 (WTH!...TOM Maybe?? Or just self-destruction. I really got to get it together.)
05/04/2011: 130.6 (YAY!)
05/05/2011: 129.6 (Finally...going down the right way!)
05/06/2011: 130.4
05/07/2011: 130.4
URG. I FORGOT A FEW DAYS.
05/10/2011: 132.2
05/11/2011: 132.0
05/12/2011: 130.0 (out & Ate Right -- Day 1!)
05/13/2011-05/19/2011: No WEIGH-IN. Going to wait a WHOLE 6 days before weighing myself.
...Gave in! 05/17/2011: 130.8
05/18/2011: 129.2 (Heck yea!)
05/19/2011: 131.6 (WTH!)
05/22/2011: 132.8 (Done with this weight!)
05/34/2011: 131.4
05/25/2011: 133.4 (Haven't had a BM in awhile!)
05/26/2011: 134.4 (Trying to stay ACCOUNTABLE!)
05/27/2011: 132.4
05/28/2011: 133.0

May 1st: 128.8 (Big dinner out last night... hellOOoo sodium).
May 2nd: 129.8 (Alrighty then, guess it was just my real weight. Siiiiigh.)
May 3rd: 129.0
May 4th: --- (worked overnight)
May 5th: 128.4
May 6th: 126.6
May 7th: ---
May 8th: ---
May 9th: --- (... I think I work too much. hahaha)
May 10th: 127.2 siiiigh.
May 11th: 126.4
May 12th: ---
May 13th: ---
May 14th: 127. 6 (rrrgh. Sushi last night. )
May 15th: 127.4
May 16th: 128.0 ??!
May 17th: ---
May 18th: 126.6 (fluctuate much?)
May 19th: 125.8
May 20th: 125.4
May 21st: ---
May 22nd: ---
May 23rd: ---
May 24th: 125.0
May 25th: 126.8 (majorly off-plan & bingey yesterday. Siiiigh.)
May 26th: ---
May 27th: ---
May 28th: 125.0

Sw: 148.2
Gw: 144

5/01: 148.2
5/02: 148.4
5/03: 148.2
5/04: 148.2
5/05: 148.4
5/06: 147.0
5/07: 147.0
5/08: 148.6
5/09: 148.0
5/10: 145.6 - If only it were real...
5/11: 145.8
5/12: 146.4 - alcohol and then too much eating afterward. Ugh...I don't even want to think about the number of calories consumed last night.
5/13: 147.4
5/14: 146.0
5/15: 145.2
5/16: 143.8
5/17: 146.6 - Another binge yesterday.
5/18: 144.8
5/19: 146.0 - And another. WTF is wrong with me...
5/20: 148.8 - I almost wasn't going to post this. I've been seriously binging for a week now. I feel like crap. At first it was fun, but now the healthy food I've come to love just tastes nasty to me. Even the junk I'm eating tastes less and less good. But I know why I'm doing this and I'm not going to let it turn into months of binging like I have in the past. I will keep weighing in and I will keep posting it. Not doing so will just be ignoring the problem and letting it continue.
5/21: 153.6
5/22: 156.4 Some of this HAS to be water weight, right? I feel gross.
5/23: 156.0
5/24: 154.2
5/25: 150.8
5/26: 154.2 Why won't I stop drinking/eating so much? I have got to get a handle on this.
5/27: 154.2
5/28: 153.6

Ferumbras, it's a mixture of school semester ending, my depression rearing its ugly head, and a few stressors I can't get rid of or away from. I got complacent and thought a few drinks couldn't hurt, even if my mood was horrible. And calorie counting kinda stops mattering to me when I've crawled inside of a bottle. I'm slowly getting back to normal though. I've pushed to get to the gym even if I have binged and it's helping.

Sw: 279
Gw: 275

5/1-5/6: Have to get a new scale.
5/9: 279 (This weekend was BAD!!..I expected this)
5/10: 279
5/11: 278
5/12: 277
5/13: 276 (whew so glad to be back on track!)
5/14: 276 (yesss)
5/15: 276 (woohoo)
5/16: 276
5/17: no weigh-in (scale not working )
5/18: 277
5/19: 276
5/20: 276
5/21: no scale
5/22: 278 (grrrr this is so frustrating)
5/23: 278
5/24: 277.5 (yess I hope this is right)
5/25: 277.5
5/26: 276.5 (yayyyy!)
5/27: 276.5
5/28: 276

SW: 143
CW: 143.8
5/31/11 GW: 133

5/7/11- 143.5
5/8/11- 147.1 very BAD eating!
5/9/11- 149.0 - retaining water from BAD eating plus pre-TOM bloating ( Im praying). I didn't eat THAT badly!!!
5/10/11- 143.8 ( Thank God for IF and a 3.5 mile walk last night, back on track )
5/11/11- 141.9
5/12/11- 143.5 TOM its official! Hopefully this goes down in the next few days!
5/13/11- 141.8
5/16/11-141.8 I was hoping to be under 140 by today but given a few indulgences this wknd Im glad to not see an increase :0)
5/17/11- 142.1 Eating was DEPLORABLE last night. Must get it together!!!!
5/18/11- ok got 138.7 3x, 143.2, 139.1 2x, and then got on another scale which gave me 138.2 sooo I dunno what to think. Going with 139.0 even.
5/19/11- 141.2! BLAH, too much snacking last night and skipped a workout. Retaining water. Gotta get these binges under control.
5/20/11- " didnt have time to weight this morning. " HA!
5/21/11- 139-Glad this came back down!
5/22/11- 139.0
5/23/11- 140.2- too many late night carbs
5/24/11- 142.2- Impromtu cheat meal last night. I needed this for sanity. The workout marathon begins as soon as I get home
5/25/11- No weigh in
5/26/11- 142.9- The cheat meals have not stopped. 24- 36 hour fast today. I lack the self control to cheat and get back on track. I just have to stop.
5/27/11- 142.3
5/28/11- 140.2- Killed myself working out last nite ( despite a little binge) and off to the gym to do the same right now ( no binging today though!)
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SW: 200
GW: 174 (for the end of May *fingers crossed*)

5/02: 186.4
5/03: 184.8
5/04: 184.8
5/05: 183.0 Huzzah for Zumba!
5/06: 182.6
5/07: 182.8 Didn't work out yesterday.
5/08: 182.2
5/09: 181.4
5/10: 180.8 Down four pounds for the week. Not too shabby.
5/11: 181.0 Not going to worry about that little fluxuation. Besides, I weighed in at 4:30am. That probably has something to do with it. Last weigh-in for almost a week, though.
5/12: ---
5/13: ---
5/14: ---
5/15: ---
5/16: ---
5/17: 178.2
5/18: 177.4
5/19: 176 Of course, I dreamt I had hit 152, so while excellent, I'm still a touch disappointed. Stupid dreams and their false expectations.
5/20: 176.4 Boo. Hoping it's just salt from the edamame causing water retention.
5/21: 176.4. Hmmm... maybe this is due to TOM...
5/22: 176.6
5/23: 176.6 Very frustrated at this point.
5/24: 176.4
5/25: 176 Finally
5/26: 175.4
5/27: 175.0 Overate a bit last night, but not feeling bad about it. Update: Re-weighed after working out and down .4. I'll take it. :)
5/28: 174.2

morphomel: That's something I completely understand. Glad to hear you're pushing your way back to the gym. :hug:

SW: 116.6
GW (By May 29th): 113.7
5/1: 116.6
5/2: 117.2
5/3: 115.6
5/4: 115.0
5/5: 114.8
5/6: 115.0 (TOM is near)
5/7: 115.0 (I am very happy to be holding steady during my TOM. I hope to see a huge loss after it's gone).
5/8: 116.0 (TTOM and maybe extra water weight from exercising)
5/9: 116.6 (Definitely TOM weight. I was under my calorie goal yesterday)
5/10: 115.4 (Finally going back down. Hope to be back to normal by 5/12)
5/11: 116.8 (WTH! I'm officially pissed)
5/12: 116.6 (At least I'm losing, hopefully it stays that way)
5/13: 114.8 (FINALLY!!) [My body fat percentage is down to 24.3% (lost 1.2%), my water percentage is 55.2%, and my BMI is 21.1. I am ecstatic.]
5/14: 115.8 (I am really starting to think that I may be going into starvation mode)
5/15: 115.0
5/16: 114.8 (My body fat percentage is down to 24.2% (lost 1.3%), my water percentage is 55.3%, and my BMI is 21.1.)
5/17: 115.8
5/18: 115.4
5/19: 114.0
5/20: 113.4
5/21: 113.4? (The scale flopped around [113.4, 113.6, 114.0, 114.2-- and I got several of those numbers in a row and then if I weighed again, I would get a new number.] a lot today, but the good news is that I lost an inch in my waist.)
5/22: 113.4 (scale jumped around again today.)
5/23: 113.2
5/24: 112.6
5/25: 113.6 (the lowest number I got today. )
5/26: 114.4 (the lowest number I got today. My cal limit is 1200 and I have normally been eating 700-900 calories per day and for the past 2 days, I have eaten about 1000 cals. I guess I shocked my system and that's how I gained 2 lbs in 2 days.)
5/27: 114.6 (Binged last night, ate over my calorie limit for the first time in months)
5/28: 115.4 (I guess my binge is catching up with me-- there goes my goal for the month)