Need some motivation
I came back here and my last visit was 8/27, which is mostly because, after a good first week of being mostly on plan, I immediately fell off the wagon for the 2nd, 3rd, and 4th. And I feel like this is what I always do. I make a commitment to go back to weight loss because I feel so miserable all the time about things that are related to my weight and then I make excuses for not going to the gym or for binging on chips or whatever and jump off the cliff.
My excuses this time? Well, school just started back, and I am graduating this semester. So (1) I have like, literally, 400+ pages per week to read (I'm an English major with a religious studies minor) (2) I am finishing the honors program, which for me as a creative writing concentration, means writing a novella for my thesis project (3) I am applying to grad school and since I am a December graduate rather than a May graduate, I am scrambling to get things like recommendations from teachers and official transcripts and people to read over a statement of purpose that hasn't even been written yet (3) I also am looking for a job because, whether or not I get in/go to grad school, I have to have a job for nine months until I can start a program next fall (4) I am involved with a group on campus and trying to be involved with another that is related to my major so I have meetings and events with those (5) I am also in a book club. That I started. And I'm on like page 15 out of 600 for the book I need to have read in two weeks. (6) I have a boyfriend. So a lot of the time not spent at school or on school-related things is spent with him. (7) I have a job that I am slowly starting to hate even though I really enjoyed for a long time. Things have changed there and I'm sick of it. Especially since I can't even decide if the little money I get is worth it versus having zero income. (8) I have to sleep. When talking to my boyfriend about all of this, he said he'd had semesters like this where he just had to pull all-nighters a few times per week. I really can't physically do it. I just fall asleep at some point and I don't retain any information.
But at the same time, I know everyone has a hectic life and many people with such lives still manage to exercise once per day and eat healthy. I know that nothing I say means that I can't lose weight. I know that I can. But it seems so difficult in light of all the other difficult things I'm doing.
So, anyway, I hope that tomorrow morning when my alarm clock goes off at 8 that I will get out of bed, put on my sweats, and walk over to the gym and have a good work out. I hope that I will resist the temptation of the PCJ located right next to all of my classes and instead eat all of the healthy things I bring with me to have throughout the day. I hope I can do all of the other things I need to do. But, most importantly, I hope I can also accomplish these things on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and so on until I reach my weight loss goal along with all of my other goals.
But it kind of seems impossible right now.
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