Again, I make this plan to eat right, and exercise, and what happens? Something gets in the way. I've been eating right, (today I went off track) but I haven't been able to exercise, other than the first two times I used my treadmill. Something has to be wrong. I have this horrible pain that runs through my lower back, down my butt, and through my leg. I've been experiencing this for a while on my right side, recently it's been getting worse as the days go on, and every once in a while it occurs on my left side. On top of this, something is seriously wrong with my ankle. The past two nights I've gotten off of work (I work in a clothing store, so I'm constantly on my feet.) crying, because I'm in so much pain. I feel as though the ankle pain is related to the feet and leg pain. By the time I get home, I can't do anything more than sit down, or lie in bed. Before work, I can't do anything either, because if I do, I'll be in too much pain to be able to get through my shift. I can't make it through 2 hours of a shift without being in a lot of pain. I went to see my gyno yesterday, and though she can't do anything for it, she said she thinks it could be sciatica (sp?) My parents agree with that, and so does my friend/manager Kim. Kim went to jokingly massage my shoulders at work, and said I'm the tightest person she has ever felt; her just pushing a finger against my back (and she didn't do it that hard) hurt badly. She wants me to go to a chiropractor. I'll have to look into it, but I can't deal with the pain anymore. It's ridiculous. I can't do anything, except go to work, and that's getting to feel impossible. I'm looking to get a job where I'm not on my feet as much, at least until I can figure all of this out. I know it's partially because I can't find any shoes that fit, that have support. (I need a 12 wide in women sizes. It's such a pain) I'm going to order pure black shape-ups. They're the best shoes I've tried on so far as far as comfort, I'm hoping they'll help. And I know it's also partially because of my weight. I'm frustrated because I don't know how I'm supposed to be losing when all I can handle is a few hours of work, and then the rest of the time I need to be off of my feet. I know I can still eat right, but you need exercise too. I should've been at the doctor a long time ago, but, it sucks not having insurance. I don't know what I'm going to do.
I'm not really thinking logically about it at the moment. I know something has to be done. I really just needed to vent. My boyfriend bought me some Excedrin: Back and Body to try today when I went to work. I won't be taking that again. A.) It didn't really help. and B.)Not so lovely side effects.
Blah.


