Afternoon Lady's,

Holy Smoke's I just read 3 threads to try to catch up, didn't even get a chance to log on yesterday, had a ton of computer errors to correct from the weekend. So now that I've finished reading all the post's and my eye's are aching and crossed, I can't remember much. But I do know that I love all you gals, and that with out you I would be an unmotivated unactive, slobering pitiful person, and wouldn't have lost 41lbs in the last year, I am more open and honest with you guys then with anyone else, you my main support system, actually the only support system I have right now, and I value your friendship so much.

Okay, I know you guys were talking about confession's, so I guess I better fess up, I wasn't going to post my WI for yesterday, and hope that no one would notice, as you probably guessed it wasn't very good, I gained 2lbs last week, and I know I wasn't eating the greatest but I wasn't that bad either, I was lacking on the fruit and veggies, and you know I think it's all the carbs I eat that makes me gain. I can look at spaghetti and gain a lb, Friday I weighed my self and I had maintained, Saturday I had a baked potatoe, for lunch and 6 perogys for supper and thats all, Sunday, I was at son's hockey tournament, so I had a Cheese burger and fries and gravy, I know there's my 2lbs there, and for supper I had a plate of spaghetti and sauce, I know they weren't healthy choices, but 2lbs in 2 days, any ways what I'm trying to say, is that I can gain weight so easily, I'm not upset I knew I probably wouldn't lose but thought maybe I'd maintain. Just one week out of the rest of my life, won't let it bother me, will just keep on trudging on till the end.

Well I can't stand to look at this computer another minute, my eyes' are crying, literally
Chow for now

Donna, you are killing me with all your funny, naked stories!
Not that being hurt is funny, but you know what I mean!

I would only tell another fat person my weight. My sister and I have been going (on and off) to WW for years and we NEVER tell each other our weights! Now...there is no one in the world closer to me, other than dh and kids, than my sister. She probably weighs in the 170's...if that...and she won't tell her weight either! I agree with Sara, it is a shame issue, and yet I agree with Donna...there's power in those secrets.

However.............I'm still not sayin'! The rest of the world can see that I'm fat...they don't need me to put a number on it for them. Heck, why make it easy for them...let 'em guess! Maybe place some bets...I'll reveal the magic number when I reach goal!

Geez is it windy today! Mid 40s temperatures but it is blowing all over the place!

My daughter got a rejection letter yesterday from one of the schools that she applied to. (Philadelphia) She was sad for a moment, but what was once her first choice (this school) kind got pushed back into 2nd place, so this eased her mind that she wouldn't have to choose...not that she has heard from the other school...auditions for that are later this month. On the brighter side, she was accepted to a school in-state...(much less $$$$$!!) This school was her third choice, but they have a wonderful scholarship program...if selected (by audition) the student gets a FREE RIDE, but must commit to 3 shows a year...I'm sure my little drama queen/dancin' machine would have no problem with that!

That's about it for me today. I haven't been to bed yet...what a dope...will be going soon...I do have to work tonight.

Have a good night kids...

Just stopping in to say my dog has tonsilitis,
He was given an antibiotic and predisone.
I am having to rely on my hubby to give him his medication.
That is not reassuring. LOL

Okay... I have to run. I won't be back until late tomorrow night.

2cute: have a good trip and hope you poochy gets better. I don't think I ever heard of a dog getting tonsilitis.

Kat: I know it sounds like all I do is run around naked for heaven's sake. Though I have to say with kids out of the house, we do tend to be looser.... As to the weight thing. I just want every fat person to get their power back. It is time that the rest of the world quits dumping on us and we have to quit allowing it. Yeah for your daughter! I know it is disappointing not to get exactly what you want but it is good to know mom and dad may not have to bear so much.

Duckie: this is a good place to confess, but this is another power issue I think. We should not have to always be apologizing for something. We are working to try and make ourselves healthier and that is a really big big job. Perfection is not in the cards so when I occasionally go over my calorie limit, I do not freak out about it, I just look forward to the next day. Maybe that is what goes wrong and why I am having such a huge success right now. I LOOK FORWARD to the next day and not dread the exercise or what I am eating or not eating. I have chosen to readjust my lifestyle to better myself and if we are dreading it or beating ourselves up than we won't succeed because all of our energy is directed at the no part instead of the yes part!

I look at what all you ladies post and the tremendous strides you have made and want to just shake my finger at you when you get down on yourself. We have to start out with the concept that we are beautiful in and out and it only can go up from there. I mean being spectacularly gorgeous is a GOOD thing! I have a confession though too. I know you guys probably think, God, this chick is so full of herself. Nope, I grew up unloved and had horrendous things happen to me that no child should have to endure. What really gave me my courage and outlook is a man that 30 years ago told me I was beautiful and still calls me gorgeous instead of by name. Not all women have that and I thank God every day because he gave him to me. He and he alone is why I am able to say these things to you and mean them from my heart.

You know I am always telling you guys funny stories, but here is one that is not funny but a true miracle and the reason I always try and uplift and strengthen you guys so much.

In 1971 I was living with my mother and two other siblings in a garage. No hot water, my sister and I showered with a garden hose outside in the yard to go to school and we slept on the concrete. I was a junior in high school. One night, my mother's boyfriend who came for his evening visit and who had a home, but chose not to share it with us, threw hot coffee at me and knocked my glasses off my face because I hadn't done the dishes. I took my two siblings and walked in the dark down this long country road to a strangers house and called my uncle. We ended up living with our 80 year old grandparents. I went to church every time the doors were opened and fell head over heels for this young man a year older than I that was getting ready to go to Bible college. He saw us as buddies and I wanted to eventually be his wife. My fragile world crashed the night he excitedly told me about a girl he met that he was going to eventually marry. I went to my room and sobbed my heart out to God asking that he give me just one person that would love me for me. Two weeks later, we went to Arkansas to visit cousins and my girl cousin ask me if I would write this friend of the family for her because her boyfriend was jealous. He and her brother were in the military together and he would come home with her brother (at the time they were stationed here in Memphis) because he was from New Mexico and couldn't get home to see his family. I didn't want to do it so I wrote this letter sounding like some holy roller so he wouldn't bother me anymore. We returned two weeks later and there was a letter for me from him. The rest as we say is history. That was in August of 71, we were engaged the following Feb and will be married 31 years in November. He is the love of my life, my stability and God's truly great gift for me. So now you know my secret! I have this pillar that holds me up and encourages me all the time!

Every one of you has the power within you to accomplish spectacular things if you will let yourself. Each of us love each other and together we can change ourselves into what we want to be!

Donna