Hello lovlies...
(a little self eye-opening semi rant...)
Well, as Kaylet's quote o' the day dictates, I will acknowledge that I hold my own future... my mood has been poopy for about two weeks now, and I'm amazed at how it affects my eating! Today I decided that how I've been reacting to things affects my mood. Bad, stressful, annoying things are going to happen - it's a part of life and I'm thinking it's also becoming my job requirement to deal with them. In the past (like just a few weeks ago) I've never had any problems with managing these things but I've become overwhelmed and started to slip underwater - I realized today that I don't have to swim in the emotions that these things make me feel - Stressed, angry, desparate, helpless... They just are - feel them and let them pass and continue on my way. Doing the same great job I've been doing since I was 15 - nothing's changed so why should *I* change?
Today's been a MUCH better day
Ok, other than the fact that I now have a sinus infection (complete with cheek and tooth pain

) - which is probably why I've been so tired, emotional and short fused. I cancelled my plans for tonight so I can go home and play "sick person" (read, drink tea in bed). Actually, the realization that I'm sick explains a LOT about the last few days...
Scooby - How are you holding up hun? How's Grandma doing today? Sending you a big ol'
Kaylets - Ya know, we giggled during my Grandma's funeral. Some of her friends looked at us like we were crazy - but my eldest cousin did her eulogy and well, Grandma was just so funny that he couldn't keep it all that serious - and I'm sure she wouldn't have wanted us to!
Dollar - I wouldn't doubt for a minute that our loved ones that've passed still watch us - maybe not always, but they keep tabs on us. I still talk to my Grandma's all the time...
Amarantha - Bummer, 3 hours is far... I haven't decided yet if I want to fly into San Diego or Phoenix - which would you suggest?
Tipper - Congrats on the loss!!!

You inspire... keep it up and maybe I'll catch on!
Hugs to you all - happy Friday eve!
Terri
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Punkin o' Friday)