thank you reji, his been saying for months and months he wanted to get fit but pushed it under the carpet, then makes me feel ****ty when ive lost abit of weight an he feelin bad because he has to go up another size, or if im cal counting he sneeks in foods that he knows i cant eat but really want!.. i asked him not to do that but he still does..but the main issues is that he dont help me when i really need it, its up to him if he wants to get fit just dont want him makin me feel bad when i am, u are right tho the kids are the main thing an i need to clear my head an sort myself out for them

thanks for the kick up the bum x