[Posy]

Hi everyone

BPB, of course I don't mind you saying I have had a greater journey than the rest of you, I can't mind because its true.
Now how am I still sticking to it? if I am totally honest I really don't know, I have dieted on and off throughtout my life and the only time I ever really had any success was when I lost 114lbs to get pregnant...the incentive to have a baby was what made it easy the last time, but as soon as I was pregnant the motivation to carry on losing weight was gone and it took no time at all to gain back all the weight I lost and then some.
This time I have no real incentive except the fact that in september I will be 40 and I promised myself years ago I would not reach that age and still be fat, mind you I have said that about every age ever since I can remember.

This time I just got so sick of feeling depressed about my weight all the time, looking at all my slim friends, never wanting to go out with them because I was emarrassed to go out and be seen by anyone I didn't know, sick of sitting at home crying because I was fat, but comforting myself by stuffing my face with chocolate, not being able to even walk up the stairs without feeling as though I was going to have a heart attack before I had reached the 3rd step.
I felt guilty for what I was missing with my son and for what he was missing out on because of me, ok I admit he probably hasn't really missed out on very much because if he wanted to go anywhere ( baths, pictures etc ) my husband would always take him, but I knew that although he likes going out with his dad, sometimes he just wanted me to go.
I know he always wanted me to play football with him, but I just physically couldn't, last summer when I was finally able to move around without gasping for breath and I played tennis with him, the look on his face was priceless, and I really realised how much losing weight meant to me and the people I love too.

Every day I notice little differences in myself, not just physical differences, but differences in things I can do as well, even the smallest of things get noticed and although they may mean nothing to anyone else they mean a lot to me.
silly little things like suddenly realising I can eat my dinner off my lap, I could never do that before because my belly usually filled all my lap, or dropping food from my fork and finding it falls straight back onto the plate instead of covering my chest.

Apart from feeling so much better and seeing how proud of me everyone is, I have you all now watching me. I am carrying onb for myself, but I am also doing it for you all now too, to show you that I am just a normal everyday regular person, just like you and if I can make it to my goal, you can all make it too.
I know it is hard and although I look as though I am sailing through this, believe me I don't always find it so easy, I just try to stay positive when I post on here...I have really bad days when I think I will never do it and I still end up in tears feeling sorry for myself.the difference now of course is I have lost 140lbs and now only have 72lbs left to lose the hardest part for me I think is over...I know the last pounds are always the hardest ones to lose and it will probably take me longer to lose the rest of the weight, but I feel that I have totally changed my entire eating habits now, I actually don't enjoy what I used to eat ( except chocolate of course) so I don't feel as though I am in any danger of giving up, its now just a question of hanging in there and accepting the weight losses as and when they come knowing that I will reach my final goal no matter how long it takes.

I suppose after writing that little epic what I am really trying to say is that I want to be slim, fit and healthy more than I want anything else and I am prepared to do whatever I have to to be that way
hehehe if you are still awake after that I hope you found it helpful

Ali

[Smiling Sal]

Originally posted by Posy
I suppose after writing that little epic what I am really trying to say is that I want to be slim, fit and healthy more than I want anything else and I am prepared to do whatever I have to to be that way

I want to be slim but somehow I don't seem to have the staying power at the moment. I do want to lose this tummy, I do want to be fitter and more healthy but something keeps stopping me - what ME .

Only I can do it, only I can stop trying and put back on some of the weight. Only I can stay in bed in the morning instead of working out. Only I know how much I want it

Think what I am saying is that I know exactly where Ali is coming from. I wasn't sleeping by the end of your post at all. I just need to pull myself together and get on with it. My birthday is 2 months away and I could easily be a stone down by then if I plan and organise and work hard.

Monday is a new day and a new chapter in my weight loss book. Another new start - yes I've had a lot before but at least I haven't give up completely. So I must still want it

[Sarah Ann]

Well done to all you losers and big {{{{ hugs }}}} to all the gainers - we've all been there - good luck with your fresh starts this week.

This week our weight changes were .....

Me: -1lb
Ali: (19/03) -2
Ali: (23/03) -2
Carol: +2
Kizzie: -2.5
TQ: -0.75
Chris: +3.5
Kim: -3
Tracy: -3 (is this right Tracy??)

So, we lost a total of 8.75lbs which brings our total group loss up to 169.75lbs or 12st 1.75lbs!

WONDERFUL!!!

**********************************

I have got a little bit of celebrating to do this week - for the first time in years I am 12 stones something.... OK - it is a BIG something but I am still celebrating..... but - like they say at the Oscars - I couldn't do it without you guys!

My stats this week are :

(Original start weight April 01: 16st 3lbs)
Start Weight this time (02 Jan 02): 14st 10lbs
Current Weight: 12st 13lbs
Target Weight: 10st 7lbs
Lost since 02/01: 1st 11lbs
Total lost since April 01: 3st 4lbs
Remainder to be lost: 2st 6lbs
Current BMI: 28.3
Loss this week: 1lb

[Phoebe]

Hello

Thank you so much to Ali and everyone else who has posted supportive messages over the last few days. I have just been reading all the posts and they really do help, so big thanks to everyone. I too am a huge stress/comfort eater but I really have to stop using this as an excuse to binge whenever I feel tired or irritable or just a little down. I sympathise with your job worries Carol, my boyfriend (I hate that word, it seems so silly when you are 33 ) works for the Post Office so that's a very real worry.

I know I'm too late to be included in this week's totals - and congratulations to all the losers - but I have lost one and a quarter pounds this week.

Sarah, that is great! You must feel very very happy!

Thanks again everyone!

[Shad]

I am so pleased for you - you are doing so well. You deserve your success - you have worked so hard for it so celebrate as much as you like!!

[veggie]

Well done Sarah

Im back up to 17 st 13 but I have made a new start since...whenever it was

[Tizme2000]

Hi veggie,

Dont give up I am also having a b ad time of it and have been given an ultimatum by my doctor to lose 1 stone in six weeks which is the next time I see her. She says excercise but if you are disabled there is only so muuch you can do. Theres only swimming but the kids are off now and you just get jumped on and anyway the local baths are too cold for me, and thats not just an excuse. I can only walk a very few steps so walking is out of the question.

Any bright ideas short of sewing mouth up for six weeks..!!!!!!!!
I have been told not to try any liquids diets or silly things as my kidneys wouldnt stand it.


miserable but determined.
Vivienne

[Smiling Sal]

Vivienne I wish I had the answer for you. I could pop round and eat all your food for you so you could starve it off. Believe me I am doing a power of eating at the moment. Seriously all I can suggest is you find an eating plan that suits you and stick with it. As to the exercising - is there not a pool close to you which does a ladies or adult only night ? won't help with the cold water but will mean it will be kid less. Good luck

Veggie I too am going to be posting a gain this week. I meant to stick to it all this week but had no will power. Am going to sleep tonight will powerless and am going to wake up determined. Then I will roll over and kiss the handsome prince and everything in the palace will be peachey. Just kidding about the last bit, but I am getting my act together from tomorrow. If I make one more excuse please send the boys round to kick butt.

[Sarah Ann]

Isn't anyone getting on the scales nowadays????

[flumper]

yes sarah i am!!!!!! every time im in the bathroom as i gained a lb over the weekend my own fault though but my official weigh in day is friday so i better have burnt it off by then ......blood sweat and tears springs to mind

[tupperware queen]

Well I won't be getting on tonight sarah cos I am heading for the M1 as soon as I can haul my backside away from the computer. But I will report in next Wednesday regardless of the amount consumed in any way shape or form this weekend.
Hope you all have a good Easter weekend, speak to you all soon, Michelle.

[TracyLangford]

Have a lovely week away michelle!

I have stayed the same this week which is only what i deserve!!

This week was supposed to be a new beginning but it didn't happen for many reasons - mainly stress at work and a really bad bout of pmt (if you want to know how bad ask DH!!!)

I have new incentive now - i have been accepted on a volunteer program with a local charity which basically involves, after a training program, befreinding a child (to whom you are matched by the charity) who is in long term care but for whatever reasons has been moved around from foster home to foster home or care homes.

You then meet up with them on a long term basis weekly or whatever and basically provide them with a freind that they can rely on and do activities with.

I would like to do activities such as swimming, skating etc but feel that, while i am this size, it could be unfair on the child to take them places like that where they may see schoolfriends etc or to have other kids in the home laugh about me to the kid so hopefully it will spur me on to do this.

I have to do a 3/4 month training course first which i imagine will be similar to the one sarah has told us about.

TRACY

[Sarah Ann]

Oh - Tracy - WELL DONE!!!!! These kids REALLY need friends like you, especially the teenagers. Don't worry about your weight - the most important thing is that you talk to them and listen to them. It's amazing what some of these kids have been through and talking about it is such good therapy for them.

[TracyLangford]

Thanks for the encouragement Sarah - i have been thinking about this for a long, long time and finally made the decision to go for it at the weekend.

Tracy

[Smiling Sal]

I stood on the scales., I have to keep doing it else everything is lost. Weighed in at an amazing 15 stone 7lbs. Another pound up. But at least it was just a pound. Need to go hunt out all my stats so I can post them.

This week is going to be difficult to as I’m going away tomorrow night as soon as I leave work. I’ll be in mum & dads caravan with the boys and mum & dad, and won’t be coming home until Monday evening. We will be doing loads of walking which might help but the eating will be whatever we can get out hands on and there will be loads of drinking – although I need to be strong about that.

So my aim for this week is lose one pound but I will be over the moon if I manage to maintain – but I have to aim high else I’ll go nowhere on this journey. I need to keep my weight moving, it has moved every week – never stayed the same since January. But unfortunately 3 weeks it has moved up instead of down. But these are the breaks. I am in this journey for the long haul and if it takes me 2 years to lose it all it’ll take me two years. Nobody else can do it for me, but then nobody else force fed me all the yummy stuff which now sits on my hips. – I AM GOING TO DO THIS

Starting Weight 16st 8lbs
Current Weight 15st 7lbs
Target Weight 10st 7lbs
Loss this week +1lbs
Loss so far 1st 1lbs
Remainder to loss 5st 0lbs
BMI 36.1 Morbidly Obese
Basal Metabolism 1738
Daily Activites - Cals 175 (only counted walking as away most of the week)
Daily Cals Limit 1750