Great job lindor. I jumped on the scales this morning and they still said 90kg. Humph. But then I didn't expect different after yesterday. I dont know what I'm going to do anymore. I really dont like taking meds if I can help it. I spose I'll have to go talk to the doc again, its only a 3 hour wait after all. *Sigh*
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Keep fighting Kathy! Like I said before, at least staying the same is not going up any. You will make it, I just think you need a break for a little while
Another well behaved day for me
I kept myself busy again with odds and ends!
I chickened out of going to Woolies today though, so I'll have to do that tomorrow. It's odd really, I used to hate going out because I hated how fat I was. Then for a while, as I was losing this weight, I felt more confident about going out, and now, I hate it again
When I was FAT I feared people noticing me. Now I am thinner and people are complimenting me I feel more 'obvious.' Does that make sense? I am a bit of a loner...I like blending in and not being noticed. But so many people are 'noticing' me now I kinda freak out! Not sure how to handle the compliments anymore.
Anyway, regardless, I must go shopping tomorrow!!!
The rest of the day will be kept busy while I wash, clip and groom two poodles and one Shih-tzu!!
Hi Gale and welcome. I'm new here too, and have found everyone to be really supportive. What kind of weight loss plan are you working on?
Lindor I understand exactly what you're saying - I'm a solitary creature myself. But it's a really interesting question … why do you hate it that people are noticing?
Kathy, I would go back and have a chat with your doctor and let her/him know that the food is boring, and you're losing your motivation because of it. It's well worth coming up with a different plan … much better than losing heart and getting too frustrated with everything.
I had a better day yesterday and feel like I am back on track. I'm planning to walk again today (at least the wild storms seem to have blown themselves out here), and watch what I am eating.
Just a quick check-in as Im off to go shopping with the in-laws. All is pretty well here - havent weighed myself in the last couple of days. I think Im going to wait until my official weigh-in day: Thursday. Im kinda nervous that Im not losing anything. Despite eating really well, Im not able to exercise much at the moment due to a 7-month old who likes to have a lot of attention and am afraid that will really reflect in the scale numbers. Oh well. We'll see I guess...no use worrying about it now.
Welcome Gale! You'll love it here and yes, everyone is very supportive and helpful!
Lindor, I find that Im more of a secluded person as well...BUT, Ive only been that way since I got fat...so I really have no way of knowing whether I will welcome the attention when that time comes or not. Its very understandable though...
Perthchick, glad you had a good day yesterday! Keep it up!
Everyone have a great day and Ill be in again soon!
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It's really weird, because when I first started getting comments on my weight loss it was like 'wow - my efforts are paying off, it must be working.' But now, it is more that I don't know how to accept them. I say thanx but feel very embarrassed about it.
I never have really enjoyed being around other people. I liked that I was rarely spoken to on a personal level. Now the comments about my appearance is just getting too personal I guess?
I don't know, I had hoped my weight loss would help me overcome this need to keep to myself. I don't particularly like that I am a loner...but don't feel comfortable with it any other way.
Maybe when I go out and get a new wardrobe I might think differently again? At the moment I am still wearing some of what I was wearing nearly 30kgs ago! If not those, then clothes I was wearing many, many years ago before I got so big! I just don't see the point of shopping for new clothes when I still plan on going down another 20kgs!
And welcome Gale! You have stumbled on a great bunch of people here! If it is support you are looking for then you will get it by the bucket load! So, what are your plans and goals for your journey? Hear more from you soon I hope?
Lindor what motivated you to start losing the weight? Was part of it to do with wanting to meet people - or were the reasons more personal? I've been thinking a lot, these past few days, about my own tendency to prefer solitude, and trying to figure it out.
On one level I fully agree that comments about you losing weight can be intrusive. I don't like it either - and I wonder if it's related to me feeling ashamed of getting so big in the first place. I don't know. I think in some ways it comes right back to ourselves, and our own sense of who we are.
Do you feel differently about yourself now that you've lost 30kg? Has it made a noticeable change for you? I know what you mean about clothes - I'm buying from the op shop until I reach the weight I want to be, because there's no point in spending money on stuff I won't wear for long.
I know I ask a lot of questions, and please don't feel obligated to answer any of them. I'm curious about how you've managed to come so far - and I guess, in some ways, I'm looking for some roadmaps for my own journey.
And positive 'keep going' vibes and big hugs to those who didn't (me to no doubt)
So far it has not been very good for me, being at Uni is so hard. I have had take away but I've also bought a lot of healthy snacks. So that's a start at least, I just don't feel like I can stay on track. I start out with good intentions but the have zero will power.
I know that when I go back to Curves Gym next week that it will make a huge difference. To me, without working out, I don't see any benefits even if I am eating well. But anyhow, just touching base during this busying Uni Block ... will write more next week.
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What motivated me?
I was not happy with my appearance.
My father has recently been diagnosed with type II Diabetes. He was a large person too (and has lost a lot of weight in recent months also). I was worried I was walking the same path he was so felt I needed to make some changes before my health deteriorated.
My sleep was becoming affected...I found laying in some positions I'd wake myself up because I'd stop breathing. I also found the bed squeaked a lot everytime I rolled over and that would always wake me up
Yes I wanted/want to meet people, gain a social life, maybe even participate in social activities.
I wanted people to accept me - Mum, my brother and his wife, everyone I felt was judging me because I was fat and ugly (and I know most of them were just what I felt they thought).
I have been single for toooo many years - I would love to be able to love myself enough to allow another to love me. Does that make sense?
I have always struggled with compliments. Whether it is to do with my weight loss or a new hair style or even on how I do my job at work. There is something about being noticed that I can't handle. And now for someone to stand right in front of me and look me up and down while they tell me how good I look...it's just too much! Yes I like that I am losing the weight, but I can't take the compliments, I can't take that people are noticing me more.
How do I feel now that I am 30kgs lighter? Truth is I don't feel much different. Even though I was at 112kgs and I felt fat and ugly, I could stand in front of the mirror and convince myself that I was not that big. Now, I stand in front of the mirror and I honestly don't 'see' much of a difference. I see it when I stand on the scales. I see it when I have to buy new clothes. I hear it when people tell me I have lost a heap...but I can't physically see it for myself. Weird huh?
Ask as many questions as you like...I am not sure the answers I give will be much help, but I am more than happy to try and help where I can.
Now I have one question for you...
Can we call you by a name? I don't know, I feel weird calling you 'PerthChick'
It doesn't have to be your real name...just a name?
Thanks for the welcome. I plan on controlling my portoin size and generally eating healthier. Getting more active too. My weight has gone up and down over the years. I thought I'd combine my goal of losing weight and my growing interest in the internet to find some support.
I thought I'd log in every day and it would help keep me aware of my goals. I'm 46 yo and have 25-30kg to lose. I've been happily married for 25 years and have 19 yo and 16 yo sons. I am a teacher and am generally a pretty happy person but I'm just so sick and tired of feeling negative about my body. Time for a change.
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Gale your plan is exactly what I have been doing. Smaller portions and better food choices have lost nearly 30kgs for me! Good luck!
And we'd be happy to support you in your weight-loss and, if we can, help with any internet problems you might have.
So it's back to work for me tomorrw afternoon! I have to say I am pleased with my efforts these last four days off I have had. I have kept myself busy and therefore kept my mind off of food.
I never managed the shopping today either *sigh*
Went to the smaller store and got the essentials instead - milk and bread etc. Was straight in and out, didn't bump into anyone. Although I did bump into a packet of almonds!!! But I hadn't had lunch at that point so the almonds became lunch for me
Well it is off to bed for me...I'll check-in in the morning and when I can throughout tomorrow
Lindor, I reckon there are a million pop-psychologists who would jump on you from a great height for calling yourself fat and ugly. They would probably even lecture you about learning to love yourself … and about changing the language you use, so that you don't reinforce negative stereotypes about yourself. And I know that because there have been a few who have crossed my path, and sung that very song to me :-)
There are a number of reasons why I am trying to lose weight. My health is a big one - just knowing that I am really unfit, get out of breath easily … and owe it to myself to be more healthy. I also have a nasty back injury - and it would help a lot if I was carrying less weight.
And I'm embarrassed that I can't walk into a normal shop and buy "off the rack" clothes. By no means am I a slave to fashion, but I have found the bigger I got, the less I cared about how I looked – and that seeped into my general attitude.
Emotionally I wonder if I have added these layers to protect myself. As much as there's a part of me that would desperately love to find *someone*, I was really hurt in my last relationship (I was cheated on), and I'm more than a little bit wary now.
Why can't you accept a compliment? Do you think you don't deserve it? I have found that, for many women, it's really hard to see the good and wonderful things inside ourselves – much better to be our own Number One critic.
Sorry, I'm rambling. I slept in this morning and am trying to compose this email with my first coffee.
Ani, I know how you feel about clothes shopping. I hate it too unless I happen to find something that is perfect. I usually hang onto my clothes till they fall apart. Sometimes I feel like I have nothing to wear anymore and find it hard to find 3 different outfits to wear sometimes. I'd better keep on top of the washing more hey.
I'm losing weight for my health. To get my body down to a 'normal' weight and hopefully prevent diabetic complications from Type II. Its just that there seems to be some underlying reason why I'm not. I thought I'd figured it out, and sorted it, but something is still there. I know its not ALL physical but that there is a hidden mental reason. LEts just keep plugging at it. I'm taking a bit of a break this week and am planning meals for next week.
Thanks for the encouragement everyone. Sounds nuts but it's given me the encouragement to do something I've wanted to do for ages. I'm going to buy myself some nice tailored trousers and start throwing out the much hated elasticised leggings I've adopted (I've got about 8 pairs!) I swear they just keep expanding with me and have done me no good. Even though I don't want to spend money buying clothes that I hope I won't fit into soon, it'll make me feel better-I really hate those leggings! Besides, I can always get them altered. I reckon I've put on 24 kg since buying those leggings. I know I ate the food but I always knew those pants would fit me, no matter what I ate! I'm going shopping tomorrow!
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Jo!! I missed your post up there for some reason??? Anyway, good to hear from you! I remember my brother when he was at Uni, Mondays were KFC nights, Tuesdays were Maccas nights, Wednesday was that Kebab place down the road...
I can't imagine it being easy for you - I'd probably be easily tempted too. Hang in there, and focus on the gym next week! And I hope everything else is going well at Uni
Gale, it's amazing how encouraging it is when you know you are not alone in the fight! Have fun shopping tomorrow
Kathy, I think you are doing the right thing by taking a break. It'll help you gather your thoughts and maybe get back into the right frame of mind? Sending positive thoughts your way.
Ani!! First up, thanx for the name
I know I am not doing myself any favours by calling myself names and putting myself down...I have been told that many times too. I guess my weight is just one of my problems, but I do believe my weight has a lot to do with my poor self esteem too. If things don't resolve once I reach goal, I promise I'll go find a message board that tends to Psychology issues
Why can't I accept a compliment? You're right, I don't feel I deserve it. I should never have got this fat in the first place...why should I take pleasure in the compliments now? I do my job well...because that is what I am paid to do. A new hair style only looks good...because I paid the hairdresser to do a good job.
I know, I know! I've got to change my way of thinking! Easier said then done though
Anyway...lets stop trying to untangle the jumble that is my head!!
Was another good day for me today, my only downfall was that I had an extra apple But I think that is a good thing and not a bad?
I am actually feeling very determined still. I think I have found my way again
My parents are due back in four weeks, I hope to be well out of the 80's by then! I would love it, for once, for my mother to come home from a long trip and say 'Wow girl, you look good!' rather than the 'GOD GIRL!! You have gotten fatter!!!' that she always says!
