June 1st, 2005
 

Hi Kingdom,
Ivanna is doing better today. She is journaling all her food, and just got back from the Royal Curves! 4 glasses of water down already.

I had an email from Anne Collins (diet person - I believe in Merry Old England), and she suggested that I use Trisha's death as a jumping off point. So that when I am thin and healthy, I can associate the feeling with our beloved dog. Good thought, eh?

More later - off to the Royal Job (or is it the Royal Pain in the A?)
Ivanna B. Svelte

Thinking of you, Anagram and Ceara! :angel: And you too, Ivanna.

I had a great overnight beach trip and came back to drama at work and a little in my personal life too. Oh well.... :o all will be well though. I'll feel better after the board meeting tomorrow. Maybe that uneasy pall will lift from the ol' workplace.

Sorry about the flyby. More later.

Thanks for your support, Amarantha!

Hello all!

Woke up nearly 30 minutes early but under protest..... about 15 minutes later, I was glad I had a few spare minutes but then 5 minutes later am hot flashing to beat the band.... Bearable, but still wonder if this is what the day will bring.... ah well...

Almost Friday....

Ivanna-- Can relate to wondering why we have weeks of eating higher than others... No explanation.... just can relate.... It all will work out... It did for me... :)!!

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Thought of the day :

"Never let your head hang down. Never give up and sit down and grieve.
Find another way."
--Satchel Paige

Question of the day :

"Do you shower/bathe in the morning or at night?"

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Eydie, glad to see you , you've been missed. subject of flowbees came up yesterday and II mentioned you still are using yours..... folks were impressed!

Here's to ALL of us! Let's make it royal no matter what it is!
Time to get lunches made!

KETTLE IS ON!

Good Morning all!!

I'm feeling blah today. Very tired. Must be the dreary weather. I have been so sleepy lately. I think the commute is getting to me. Even though I use the commuter train, I think it's catching up with me getting up so early, and then just sitting here all day. Who knew being bored was so exhausting!!!

Hello, all!!! :wave: Am havin' a crisis at moment re logistics, car repair and employment so this is a hi flybye!!

E, thanks for visitin' my journal ... said hi to thee o'er there as well!!!

Aria, thou art welcome and thou haveth mine support always!!! Thou be doin' great and holdin' steady ... I wish I were as consistent at thou!

I'm a lil confused between my cowgal accent 'n the royal pronouns, so shall taketh meself off now!

Huzzah to the Kingdom of Royal Losers! Raise thy Royal Head! Let NOTHING get in the way of the Royal Goals! Smile prettily, and don't let anyone know what is in Your Royal Countenance~! :):

Hello all.....


Empress.... hate it when we are beholden to the repair places.... just hate it....

Yesterday, w/o a doubt, a close friend made me realize how my weight loss is "affecting" her.... I am suprised as I thought she felt supportive to this point. Someone we both know had a heart attack about 3 weeks ago. This person carries at least 150 extra pounds....He is now recovering but must make choices about his lifestyle.... he assumes his traveling days are finished. I suggested to my friend that another choice could be made ( losing weight) ... My friend than pointed out that she had never seen our friend eat very much.... his weight must be from a medical reason..... I said that this happens far less than we think and that I too would eat more "at home" than people imagined..... WELL, that's when I got an earful.....

and did "back down" a bit that I didnt say never, that certainly, some medical issues and/or medications will put weight on.....

but what I was really hearing in her tone was that she was defending our friend from the "shame" of overweight..... That "maybe something like pituary"
is really "justifiable reason"
I could tell from her tone this has been something "pent" up .....

The "if you are overweight, you are a bad person and should be ashamed." mentality......

And got the message loud and clear that she believes I am "at the judges table" because I think I have become " a good person".....

Well.....

As you can tell, all of this still stings this morning.....

Another expression of how little I feel 'heard' for the past 5 years by this friend....

I plan on emailing her, just a few lines.... to let her know in black and white,
that the one thing I have learned for sure is that what we weigh is
NOT who we are.... no more than our eye color.....and that our mutual friend could have many more years of traveling, etc if he changes his eating and activity habits.....

The only thing about my life that has changed is what I put in my mouth and how I get around.... All the other stresses and problems remain.....
Including, self confidence and shame issues......

Reminds me very much about how different people reacted years and years ago when I gave up drinking........
Only those who felt self concious about their own drinking got very defensive w/ me.....but again, w/ very little instigation...


WW's call this type of mentality "Sabateours".... Interesting how I really didnt
experience it until I got to goal.....

Hmmmmm......

Sorry for such a long me, me, me, vent..... and really about something that only was about a 3 minute conversation.... but the volume and tone said it all...





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Thought of the Day :

"Git her done."--- from the guy on the Jeff Foxworthy Show
("You might be a redneck if....")


Question of the day :

"Can you remember your first haircut?"

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Hi, Froggie 'n Ivanna!!! :wave:

:queen: s I am running late. The car checked out ok and apparently my stress from the accident is still with me because I am still compulsively feeling unsafe, checking tires every few hours, etc., will deal with it. :queen: E gave me a good idea re feeling safe again ... thanks, E!

Kaylets, a three-minute conversation can bother us for years, so no need to be sorry. I was interested in what you had to say because I get this also ... and I think you nailed it with this sentence re when you gave up alcohol: "Only those who felt self concious about their own drinking got very defensive w/ me.....but again, w/ very little instigation..."

Yup.

Qod: I do remember my first haircut ... mom took me to the lady across the street who was a beautician, I think. She "thinned" my hair (why they wanted it to be thin I have no idea). We then made maple syrup candy in the snow and ate it with cashew nuts (for some reason).

Good mornin' all! :wave:

Hi!
About ? of the day: I remember my first haircut well. My mom took me to the lady who cut her hair, a place she ran out of her basement. She proceeded to chop off all my hair--something she called a "pixie cut". I was devastated and it was all made worse by my older twin brothers teasing me mercilessly about it, following me around chanting. 'pixie, pixie'
Ironically, I now wear my hair in that same pixie cut and probabaly will the rest of my life! No more wasting time at the salon though. Long live the Flowbee!!!! ;)

Confession time! My weight is up 5 pounds :o so I'm officially no longer at goal. I really am [and I mean it THIS time] going to start my BFL for women thing starting Monday. I really do feel too heavy right now and my clothes aren't fitting so well, so I have to do something.

Hey, E, we are twins ... I use a flowbee like thing (it's not THE Flowebee, though) to "pixie cut" me hair!!! In winter I let it grow somewhat ... hadn't realized what I do to it is a pixie cut until you mentioned it. And yea I'm with ya in not shelling out the biggie bucks for salons ... anyhow, I hate anyone touching my hair! :lol:

Dinna worrit about that lil ol' five pounds!!!! Maybe it's water, maybe it's muscle, maybe ya might have slipped a little in eating habits, but HEY as you've pointed out to me, we're human, right? And ALWAYS maintaining a perfect weight slows down a human's metabolism and makes one sluggish and unhappy o'er time, so really YOU ARE IN JUST THE PERFECT PLACE right now and poised on the take off of your great BFL adventure ... honestly, I don't think you'd have wanted to do that if you WERE at your perfect weight because your bod would not be ready ... now your bod is asking for change! It's gonna be great!

Workday for me but I gotta go pay a bill and get some food first.

'Cleaning the Royal Kingdom today - well, not CLEANING, but getting rid of piles of junque. We are having tons of company this week, and I need to find a place for them to sleep - under all this clutter!

Actually, I am quite looking forward to having this place look nice - then I am having people CLEAN it on Wednesday.

Should be great for the Summer solstice -

Love to all, Ivanna