YAY! I can post again!
Holy mackeral.... to be totally w/o the internet was eye opening.....

Even got a long nap, 3 books read ( ok, one was not thick, one had big print the other I really just skimmed....)

It was almost like being w/o power except of course, w/o power wouldve been much more of a whack in the head....

Empress, In a real way I can relate..... I found out this week that a good friend just hasnt been listening.... for about the past 5 yrs.... we were talking about DS and the possibility that he would suggest a pee test to "prove" his clean living ..... and she said " Does he have a problem?"
I was so dumbfounded I could hardly say "YES!"..... I realize that perhaps I just go on and on and she zones out but boy oh boy, if its like that, how canshe stand listening at all??
I know a while back I shared similiar info regarding another friend .... this is someone I really thought was listening....
guess not....

I have to go take some asprin.... and load the dishwasher....

And No, I didnt do lots of housework when the computer was down..
Goodness gracious.....



KETTLE IS ON!

Thanks for the hug, Kaylets. Yes, this time it's been really tough - don't know why as we've been through much before and I handled it better (I thought). DH is still doing his usual stoic thing but I'm hanging by a spider web. Only thing keeping me from losing it is that I don't want to upset him. Tears nearby all the time. Not like me. And, of course, my last few days have been disastrous foodwise. One reason I've not been reporting in.

And, boy, can I relate to the "not listening" people and who turns out to be a friend and who not. Fortunately I have a few "tried & true" and the really great neighbors. But a lot of others have dropped by the wayside (including some family members who are really disappointing me with their lack of interest/support).

But it's Monday - Fresh Start - and, while I don't expect to do anything great this week, perhaps I can at least run after the wagon. Have a patch of yardwork calling my name and taking care of that should help my mood and my caloric output. DH's preop shots seem to be going well and I've managed not to have his abdominal area bruised too badly so far. That's a plus.

Hugged my princesses a lot this weekend but having doubts about just how much DD realizes severity of DHs situation. I know she knows it's serious but think there's still some denial going on there. She's her father's girl that way. And, hey, so far he's always pulled through.

Anyhoo, Happy Memorial Day, All Royals!

Hello all!

Still enjoying having internet access! How funny to appreciate what just a few days ago I thought too expensive!! Hmmmmm , sounds like a speech somewhere....

Better yet, is the wonderful visual Anagram gave me of "Running after the wagon..."
1st of all, there might be some good activity in at least trotting after the wagon.....
But.... Why do I let myself get demoralized w/ this all or nothing mentality???
Wagons ( motivation, staying on program, etc, etc) keep coming into the terminal, are leaving every few minutes... Why do I feel like I need to run after one that's got the horses at a gallop....
Why can't I just be first in line for the next one, be escorted to my seat by the livery boy, nod and smile as the others file by ......
hmmmmmm.......

Thanks Anagram, you gave me lots to think about today.....

And sometimes, doing something physical such as in the garden or even scrubbing the tub gives a good vent to that knot in the stomach that is always there when these rough times are w/ us....

And sometimes, a good cry in the shower seems to help ...... sometimes letting go gives me room to go on......


DH and I are going to the other side of Lancaster soon to visit family. Men going to the shooting range, women to do important things.... ( yes, shopping!)

Take care all....

I'll be thinking of everyone...

KETTLE IS ON!

And Lancaster is a good place for your activity, Kaylets! I'm sure Rockvale Sq and Tanger will both be booming today (and I don't mean fireworks).

Did a solid hour or more in the yard and discovered there's still a few days work left in the one patch plus what I started (or really am continuing from last year in another). I'm glad you reminded me there are more wagons if I can't catch this one - maybe several better suited to my schedule.

So off to the shower. Meeting sister and BIL for lunch today, then a leisurely afternoon. Maybe culling clothes. Need to do that too. All these good sales lately have been tempting but haven't lost enough to get rid of last year's and get more. Oops, Punkin, told me it's about WANTING more - but I still have to make space.

Yo!!!
 

[color=blue][b]Hoopppy Holidays (to ya who has 'em ... I have to go to work, so this is a flybye) ...

VEGAN, IF THOU BE LURKIN' ... I pm'd thee!!! Please come on down to the palace and make thyself at home. The towel boys will bring ya some, well, towels and :queen: K always has the kettle on the hob (what is a hob?)! :wave:

Kaylets 'n Anagramatic, the wagons here be movin' too fast for me to hop on these days, so I just let 'em pass and walk!!!! :lol:

I had to go to the gym parking lot (it's closed) today just to be sure the trainer didn't come. She'd made an appointment with me but apparently forgot it was a holiday and I kept leaving her messages to get in touch with me just to verify she really didn't mean to work (I work holidays but others shouldn't have to). No replies, but she wasn't there. She's the gym owner's daughter but has contracted with me personally instead of going through the gym, so it was conceivable that even if it was closed, she meant to do the session. This irritates me somewhat as I always get back to people, but anyhow ... did a half hour walk and a half hour of the yard penance ... went over the front lawn with weedeater (we don't mow here, we weedeat).

My neighbors are sweet, too, Kaylets. Of course, as to listening, they really can't as they don't speak English ... except for two of the kids, who have to translate all the time! :)

I really have to go.

Hi Kingdom,
It is Ivanna - and Ivanna is very sad. The Royal Dog had to be put down today. Last Thursday she had a massive heart attack - heart stopped, but then restarted on it's own. Today she just couldn't get her breath - So, we said - enuf is enuf!

She has been with us for 15 years - black and white Shih Tzu.

Eating will not help this, right?

Right. (Sorry about your dog!)

Also adding my heartfelt sympathies re the loss of your old friend, Ivanna. I know how painful such a loss can be (my Old Dog is also getting on in years).

Don't know if eating will help. It can't be by accident that they always have ladies and gentlemen in churches who make big meals for bereaved families. Seems it's just an urge to eat and nourish ourselves as we deal with the sadness.

Hi, Aria!!! :wave:

I am through with work FINALLY.

Later, gators (oops, datin' meself with that line).

Hello all!

DTimpma---- Sorry to hear about your shitzu.... We had a similiar experience a couple years ago... Its hard. And I agree w/ the Empress.... in some life experiences, we need to grieve and deal in whatever way we need. And food is lots safer than hard liquor......
My guess is you might do as I did and wound up w/ 2 to fill the big space left behind .....

Actually Anagram, we headed the other direction to York to the Phaltzgraff factory store.... the entire operation is in flux, probably all relocating to Mexico, most employees in the factory out of work. I've always loved their pottery/dishes and now my sister is also collecting. The store seemed to have a pall over it, employees seemed a little sad.... Could be my projection....

Did find a lightweight pair of dress slacks at the Goodwill that I will wear today to work.... have been looking for something appropriate for summer and I finally got lucky yesterday.... and less than $2 too.....

wish I could stay longer .... today is a busy one ... tonight we have bowling so I am afraid I won't be able to come by till tomorrow....

So, if someone would keep an eye on the kettle for me,
KETTLE IS ON!

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Thought of the day :

"Things turn out best for the people
who make the best of the way things turn out."
--Art Linkletter

Question of the day :

"What would you do without the Internet?"
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Hello all!

Stopping by b/4 out the door again for bowling.....

So far, nearly 100% on program.....

Anyone ever read "Thin is a four letter word"?? Funny, and very very insightful....which I had read it 3 yrs ago when I was too intimiidated to be at the gym .... which if you think about it is like saying "I'm too sick to be in the hospital, too cold to put on a sweater, etc,....."
Hmmmmm
That last little gem was all my own too....

HMMMMMM......

ok.....

who's ready for some tea?

Ceara! Feel better! and that's a royal proclamation! Glad you are w/ your folks...I too had an experience just yesterday w/ a different type of mouse and felt like I was all thumbs.....

ok my friends....

I'm not kidding now,

KETTLE IS ON!

Decaf that is.....

Glad you are past the surgery and on the road to recovery with your parents at hand, Ceara!!! :wave:

Yes, maybe I will post a pic o' the "lawn" ... using the term loosely. But it's only green in the monsoon season... the rest o' the time it's dirt, rocks and brown thatchy dead Bermuda grass, plus some other nameless tumbleweedy things and a giant weed that climbs up the side of my house. I believe it is from another planet.

Kaylets, re qod, without the internet, I would never have met y'all!!!

That'd be sad!

I am falling asleep. Long day ... tire troubles, production.

hELLO ALL!

Dh and I were like two little kids last night who knew we had an early start to the day yet sat up way beyond our bedtime because "we're not tired now, we'll feel this good in the morning too" ....

No we don't!

Empress- How silly of me not to think about the Royals w/o the Internet.....
So true.....

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My own reality tv is showing an increase above the allowed amount on my scale ...... not suprised as my thought process since I've hit goal and then lifetime has been....."Great, NOW WE CAN EAT!"...

I have not gained because of white sugars/white carbs although my brain is constantly suggesting them.....
Very much like the commercial, if I see an innertube I think donut, a jello form, I think fudge, etc, etc....
Sure, hormones are supercharged ..... but I also have a theory that becuase I've been light on activity lately that my metabolism is in neutral.....

so.... I need to knock at least 2 lbs off b/4 my weighin or I will be back to paying status.... which wouldn't be the end of the world but ......

Part of the process..... unexpected travel conditions not seen on the map.....

Anagram! I'm thinking about you and sending positive energies your way !


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Thought of the day :

"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us."
Joseph Campbell


Question of the day :

"Do you remember the first time you ever ate in a 'restaraunt' ?"


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Must be off my friends....

Still trying to get in early to tackle the desk.....


KETTLE IS ON!