Happy I am so sad to see your terrible news about your workmate. How terrible for all concerned who knew him. Big hugs for you all. May you all find in each other the comfort you all so badly need at this time.

It's good to see Linus's news, isn't it?? I think, looking at her post, that she may be a tad excited!! She certainly gets the record I think for the most smilies in 1 post!!! I just had to count!!! I made it 84!!!! Gone for sure are the days when we were only allowed 21 or so...I forget now exactly how many !!!

Sorry I haven't been in this week. I have had the builder/handyman in all week plastering and cementing the floor and the walls and so of course all the furniture that was in the way has been moved to "somewhere out of the way"!!!!i.e., in front of the computer desk!!! So today I have at last managed to push some of it away so I can actually get to my chair and turn on the "on" button!!!

6 weeks and 5 days till I go to see Linus!!! It'll be so good to see her in her new abode!!From what I hear, DH is already packing boxes!!! That'll take his mind off his rash!!! Do you know what it is yet?

My friend in Derby rang yesterday evening...he has just got a headship!!! Oh my goodnight!!! Alan's a headmaster from September! Heaven help the children of Derby!!! (sorry, this smilie will have to suffice! Its the only one who looks vaguely like a stern headmaster!!!) I don't think he can hardly believe it yet himself!!

Hugs to Miss Mel when she gets in to read this! I do hope you are healing up fast and life is getting back to near normal for you, my friend.

Meadow I feel for you right now my dear. Take heart for it will all come right in the end. We don't know why some people manage to lose weight fast and keep it off at the drop of a hat whilst the majority of the world has to work so dar

Meadow~ HUGS...This is my journal from today.
LindaT seems to get to the heart of things, so what am I stuffing down???
I have been eating things like icecream mid aft and again before bed.I made roast beef, potatoes and gravy the other night. Definitely comfort food. As with anything it is never simple or any one single thing. Physically it is allergies. This is the worst time of year for me. Meds help but I drag and I get a little down. I just plain dont have my usual energy. In the evenings all I can do is lay down and rest by about 9pm.
I feel frustrated. I think I am craving carbs for the energy. If I was thinking I would grab some fresh veg!
It makes me sad that my family does not value me. As a parent I can not imagine not going all the way no matter what it was my kids needed.I dont make it about me and as exhausting as it is I never dont want to be the best parent I can. My son is a royal pain in the ***. I cant imagine thinking, saying or behaving as if it was too hard to be his parent. That was my childhood. AND i was not as difficult as my son.
Breaks my heart.
So 40 years into this life I still have underlying feelings of ......... something. Loneliness. Disappointment. Why am I so hard to love?......
The upside is that I am true to myself, totally love myself, deeply loved by hubby and my kids, loved by the friends who matter......................it is good balance.

Anyhow those are today's thoughts. I will give them wings and not eat icecream for lunch today!!!

No icecream yet although I just ate a bologna sandwich that tasted like 2 more and I am sittng here instead and then I WILL cut up and eat a yellow pepper!!!!

Have a good day chicks!!!!

Peers out from her cocoon of fat and tries futile efforts to let the butterfly inside break free I was working on an AB picture and that came to my mind.

Holly-Are we both in the same young kids/mommy cycle or what?! We are vamping along the same lines in all this for sure. What a trip, eh? Sometimes I think I am stuffing myself to oblivion but for pete's sake I need better coping skills. This sugar and crap isn't making me happier, just more frustrated and angry that I haven't grasped the fact that I am my own worst enemy in all this. I need to change this voice that keeps saying "mmm, cookies" to "mmm, exercise" Sweat feels so good, stretching my muscles, getting stronger. That is what I want. I have to get this. "Insert stomping and swearing and general head banging" GAH! I doubt a psychologist could help me figure out where all the food=comfort stuff started back whenever it all began. It is me, here, now, that has to go forward and make it right today!!

Teel-I'm so glad you were able to tunnel your way to the computer and let us know how things are going in your part of the world. Thank you for your sympathy and encouragement, I need it. I'm kind of letting you all be strong for me and I'm hoping some of your good energy will rub off My personality at present is very tight. Probably the prospective move and all the upheaval, having to think about that, changing the kids school/registering, not knowing what is ahead. I'm not an adventurous persona and this is going to be a HUGE change.

Shad-waiting patiently for what you have to say I'm sorry you had a swearing session this morning. What has shaken your calm core? Here is the AB picture I was working on to make me feel better about being the cookie monster yesterday. I think I need a new picture in my posts huh? I'm taking on the wrong message from the blue dude

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v2...ndsprayer1.jpg

The week has thankfully finished. I’ve done 50 hours on the job and only managed two gym workouts. It seems sleep was more important. It’s been a case of work, eat and sleep. Makes Shad a very dull old lady.


We nearly made our deadline - there is one more screencam movie to make and several documents not yet reviewed. Apart from that the documentation is done. This is only in the CRM neck of the woods, I have no idea what the others are doing, have done or will do. And whats more I don't care. There's too much on my plate to worry about anything but our small section. We are already carrying one person and another of the guys is going on a tour of England in another week or so, needless to say although he is trying hard, his mind is not on the job.

Food hasn’t been too bad apart from a blip on about Wednesday/ Thursday. Then I felt the beginnings of the usual lack of bodily functions because of the lack of water and took the time to remedy that before I got into trouble. Maybe you can teach an old dog new tricks!

Had a look at the garden this morning - first time in 5 days that I have seen it in daylight. What I have been doing at night is to go out, grab a handful of leaves from somewhere in the vicinity of the lettuce patch and bring them back in to see what I have got for dinner. Some interesting combinations have been had - including one that only had one lettuce leaf and the rest was basil, coriander and parsley. Tasted darn good even if I say so myself.

I must have slept funny last night as I have woken with a pain in the neck and between the shoulder blades. It may be that I was cold and got all scrunched up while sleeping, so will put the doona on the bed today and declare the season to be winter.

Actually the weather has been totally unseasonable around here this week. We’ve had gray skies and rain for the entire week, its been cool for here, under 20 most days and down to 12 at night, and last night got a drenching that was good for the garden but not great for the idiots out on the roads. Normally Autumn is cool at night, warm during the day and blue, blue skies. I have a weeks worth of laundry to process this morning and had better get to it shortly. I’m almost out of towels but luckily have enough clothes to last another week or so even if some of the underwear has seen better days.

Weight has been static - as I would have expected from the week that I have. I can’t say it often enough, no exercise equals no weight loss and the more the long muscles get working the more the metabolism rate rises and the more energetic one feels. The best part of the whole exercise thing is that one can actually eat a little more and enjoy some of the good things of life more than when one sits on the couch and whinges about not losing anything - and yes I have done that too. So for the Eco Challenge this week, I am back up to 72 from 71.5. Next week WILL be better. I will be taking my lunches again and organising proper meals for nightime since it won’t be so frenetic at work. I’ve had enough of this weight and am so ready for the rigours of maintaining. Since I seem to have proved I am really good at plateauing, I think I should be good at this! Famous last words.

Meadow, I'm trying to think what to say that will get you going again. It's a personal thing and we each have to find the one thing in this world that will provide the necessary inspiration. In the meantime my suggestion is that you give yourself permission to maintain - not to gain, maintain. This means that you plan meals, get a good shopping list going, fill up on fruit and veg and try to limit severely the cookies. Now the children can do with less cookies as well. It's great to say the children are not dieting so they should have what they like, however if this is what they have, then at some time in their life they are going to need to look after their weight. So try different treats - things that either don't have anything to do with food, or try nuts, dried fruit, ordinary fruit and yoghurt. Keep food put away and out of sight. It's usually the sight or smell of food that gets me going and then of course there is my old saying - if you feel hungry, drink a large glass of water. If you still feel hungry after 20 mins eat. Later you can amend that to 30 minutes, 40 minutes, 1 hour. It's like exercise, up the intensity when you are feeling good about the current intensity. Keep journalling here and tell us what you are up to and how you feel. If it is written down, you can often see a pattern emerging. Once the pattern is visible, you can do something to change it. Yes moving house is stressful, yes having kids is stressful, being a mum is stressful, but it doesn't get that much better as they grow older. I've had to teach myself to contact my two only once a fortnight. I have this fear that more than that, they will feel I am an interfering old mother!!! No matter how old they get, they are still my babies, but I can't tell them to do things, I can only advise.
On the other hand, it is no good saying I will change things, I will lose weight when all this stress is over - it's never over, something else always comes up to take its place.

Teel, good to hear from you. The house must be starting to look good now! You will be pleased when it is all over and you have the place to yourself again - oh yes you and Holly. Sorry Holly.

Linus, a NEW place, good stuff. Now the strain of packing, keeping, throwing and deciding what goes and what stays. Take it easy now, let the others do the hard yards. It's a great opportunity to get rid of a stack of junk.

Hey that's three of us on the move this year - Happy, Linus and Meadow. The addresses, they are a changin'

Been trying to ring Mel, she isn't answering the phone. Aaaah well, try again later and see what gives. Haven't even had an e-mail this week. Hope everything is alright with her.

Gotta go. Lots to do.

Hey chickies,

Teel, so good to hear from you again. It seems that you will be seeing Linus about the same time my family comes to visit me. So there will be at least 3 happy little bunnies here as Shad would say, come the end of next month. I am excited for your friend from Derby tho I admit I have no idea what you were saying I take it that he's getting his own ship - a captain or something of that noble honor?

Holly, I hate to say it, tho I always loved my mother dearly, I did not really learn to appreciate or EXPRESS appreciation until well into my adulthood. I'm sure that while you feel unappreciated, taken for granted, you are loved. I myself have never had children but my opinion is that kids today were given way too much in the way of material things and not enough gentle loving cuffs on the head when they crossed the line of "you've gone too far". We have to get back to teaching people that they are not the center of the universe and we are here to help one another. Our next door neighbor is a nice woman. She is single and has what appears to be a lazy, sullen teen aged son living with her. She said she works long hours. Occasionally you see her in the yard but the only time you see the son is when he's trotting from his friend's car to the house and back. Occasionally you can hear the strains of a garage band in practice. There is a huge mangy magnolia tree of hers which borders our driveway. There is also a huge round bush of some sort at the end of our driveway. I told DH the bush must come down as it is a horrible blind spot and I live in fear that even tho I go slowly down the driveway, I will someday hit a passerby or dog walker because I can't see them. This very morning in fact I almost hit an elderly gentleman driving slowing down the MIDDLE of the street - 5 seconds earlier and I would have banged right into him - darn bush! Anyway we saw the neighbor in the yard the other day, she was trying to clean the mess of tangles under the magnolia. DH offered to clean under the magnolia for her and asked if we could trim the round bush a bit (should have asked permission to cut the bloody thing out of the ground). DH worked all day cleaning under that tree. He left 3 huge piles of brush that needed to be picked up and bagged. It sat there for 2 days before he got to it again. I told him that it's nice to be a good neighbor and if she needs something electrical checked out, he should lend a helping hand. However, I have a problem with us becoming the gardeners when there is an able bodied young man wasting his life away in the cool comfort of the house. And don't beat me up all you moms but I do blame her for raising him to be that way. My own mom or dad would not have had to tell me more than twice to go out and help - otherwise dire counsequences would follow - whether I was 8 or 18 years old. And it didn't make me a bad person... Anyway I will get off my long winded soapbox now. Hope I didn't offend anyone. I just don't think we do right by ourselves or society when we teach our kids and young adults not to pull their own weight.

Meadow, I agree it is a vicious cycle and I can't give any better advice than Shad's words. I don't have the magic answer as to why enthusiasm for cookies (even if they give us heartburn, guilt and pimples later on) is higher than enthusiasm for exercise. The more I back away from things, the lower I sink. It comes down to I just have to purge the things from the house because I can't be trusted to handle treats in reasonable doses. My other nudge is to start making a list and make sure I at least do one thing when I get home. And I build on that. I find that when I start to gain a sense of accomplishment, it helps me get back on track again. Don't compare yourself to others, don't think well if I lost 30 pounds I'd still be a Draw your strength from resisting the immediate in favor of the long term. It's hard I know, that's why we are all here to cheer each other on.

Shad, my sympathies to you and your long, long week. Is this temporary to get your through the next wave / release or does it look like the writing is in the book for the duration of this contract? Nothing worse than leaving when it's dark and coming home when it's dark. And then you try and catch up on everything on the short weekends. Aha, that cramp in the neck sounds familiar - if I could go back to prior year's posts I'll bet I see a pattern of cricks, the onset of winter and the need for the doona. Stay warm and rested my friend. And relish the joy of another work week down the drain and one week closer to retirement

As for me, the week recaps as follows: I have survived the horrid cold from #$%@!. I am still suffering from the after effects of the antibiotic that was strong enough to kill the infection in my chest and sinuses but wreaked havoc on my digestive system - and yes I was eating yogurt all week to help rebalance things. Just as all the doctors here will tell you - my allergies which have set dormant for 5 years have bloomed along with the spring flowers. And I was never allergic to pollen - everyone has told us that you WILL develop allergies within one year of being here. I did go in the pool this week - water was 78 degrees which is still quite cold for me. I was in waist deep and did some leg exercises to keep warm. I will really enjoy it when it heats up a bit more. We had a neighborhood association meeting this week - I will now be responsible for writing the association's newsletter. DH will use his digital camera to take pictures of all the broken sidewalks that need repairs. Does this count as community involvement? I was distressed to hear that one woman I have made fast friends with at work and who makes being there bearable is leaving to return to her home town in another state. I am not only deeply saddened that she won't be around for moral support but I am also concerned that since we do the same type of work for 2 different businesses, that I may be saddled with her work also. I can't keep up with what I already have ** bangs head against desk *** And finally I went to the doctor to be tested for sleep apnea. They did some tests, I don't have apnea enough to do something about but the doctor was kind but stern in insisting I do something about losing some weight. So here I come humbly again, swearing to start anew and keep my intentions for longer than 1/2 a day...

Boy if I could burn calories by typing, I think I'd have dropped 2 pounds after this severly long winded post! Enjoy your weekend ladies. Linus, do you need me to send you empty moving boxes?

Happy~ I agree with you. we are quite strict by todays standards and live a very simple life compared to most yet we have an abundance of things. I try to aim for a balance. Other parents think I am really tough. I do not. My son is challenging but it is more his personality. My daughter just goes with the flow. My reference to family was to my parents ,that is what gets under my skin. Even more noticeable as I am a parent now.
My nuclear family is very open with expressing love and gratitude etc.

To the Dump, the dump the dump,dump dump.........
Spring cleanup day!!!!! The trailer is full for trip 1! I am feeling all the bunged up karma flowing away!!!!! Weeeeeeeee

Going to get my hair done...ALONE! DD is at a sleepover DS is hanging out with Daddy!!!!!!!!!!
Rainy day. I got lots of cleaning done yesterday. More today. Paint those darn stairs.
Had a big long sleep.
I didn’t eat icecream for lunch but I did eat WAY too much bread. One step forward. Another one today.
I will pop back in this rainy aft for personals.

Have a groovy day chicks!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello, I'm new and have been invited to pop my head in here, so I thought I'd introduce myself. I'm having a very productive day today with exercise and chores so I'd better dash off and do some more of them! I've done some painting and I've mowed the lawn, but there's cleaning to do. Oh, and I ran 5k this morning I'll be back though...

Welcome new bunny YP1 - nice to have another runner on the thread. Good for you Holly - no ice cream and a whole load to the dump.

I'm right behind you... it's also a rainy day here and by the end of the day, house will be clean, laundry done and a number of boxes in the garage emptied and cleaned out.

Gotta run...

YP1 ~wow!! that is beyond productive!!! Tig is a runner too and her hubby Slim.

Weehee Happy, happy unpacking!!!! Glad you are feeling better too! Busy week for you. Hope the work load doesn't double, ack!

Shad~ our temps are about the same. We did drop to 0 one night but it is back up. Still too cool to plant veg tho. Hope your weekend is peaceful!

Meadow~ how are things today? Masbe we need a buddy system to give each other a kick in the pants!

Teel~ glad you are getting things sorted out at home!
Linus~ how's the packing, family and wee baby??
Mel????? Getting worried here! Hope all is mending.

Hello to everyone else!!

Spoke to Mel yesterday after playing phone tag for a couple of hours. She is okay and is presently braving a series of doctors all of whom have varying reports of nastiness and osteoporosis. From what I can gather, the pap smear is fine, there is osteo developing in the spine, the trauma from the accident is slowing going away but it will be a long haul and she is being advised to try doing the normal things but only until she tires or gets numbness or pain. Not to stretch it. I fear our Mel will be able to come to the forums, make an entry and maybe copy that entry to the journals. I do not think she will be able to make the 101 comments, dispense sympathy, sing or otherwise chat as she did. For her age and the disability she has, she is apparently quite strong, but that is nowhere near where the rest of us are as you all know. We will have to learn that to have Mel with us and not commenting is far, far better than not having Mel at all. And if we want to keep her with us and posting, we will have to accept that she can only do so much and not take offence at her not replying to a question or commenting on an action.
Welcome YP1, so good to have you on board. I see you are in Leeds. I remember being there once in 2000 I think it was. I see you run, well good for you. I run only on treadmills at the moment. I will get back to running outside, it is a vastly different animal from the treadmill and here I can only go out in winter. Gets too hot in summer even at 4.00am. Look forward to you coming back to get to know us.

Happy, I have to agree with you about the way children are brought up. Now I know there are some good ones out there - plenty of them, but the minority always make it bad for the majority and so we view them all with suspicion and they give it right back. I despair of some of the loutish behaviour now apparent in our city streets and the nightclubs - how anyone can enjoy those I don't know. But then I was raised in gentler times and our endeavours - the things we invented, discovered, got away with, the boundaries we pushed were the springboard for the things the kids are doing today. Unfortunately and ultimately, we are the perpetrators of todays crime waves - we invented so many 'fun' things that the kids have never had to use their imaginations, never had to do without, never known what it was like to have to put your mind to the problem of how do I get/ make/ imagine 'that'. Mind you the so-called 'do-gooders' who told us we could not smack the child, chastise the child or make the child eat/ do/ say what was within the bounds of propriety, honesty and good old fashioned courtesy have a lot to do with it as well - not to mention dishonest politicians, weak judicial systems and making the police force more or less ineffectual. BRING BACK COMMON SENSE is what I say.

Steps gracefully off the soapbox to let someone else have a go.

Another blooming beautiful day in the great south east. From my spot at the computer I can see the 'Radio Times' rose in all its pink glory greeting me for the day. There is no breeze so I can't smell it's luscious perfume. The temps are about 15 and will rise to 25 and I am having a barbecue lunch for friends on the patio. We will have herb crusted leg of lamb, roasted pork leg roll and a marinated chicken along with caesar salad, mixed green salad with fresh herbs and potato and onion bake. I have to use up the cos lettuces in the garden because they are about to run off to seed. I have some herb and cheese bread to serve with it.
Part of the reason for lunch is just because and the other because Russell is going to write the story of what was in my shed but is there no longer for the insurance company and Tim will sign it as my Justice of the Peace. Then maybe I will be able to replace (some of) the things that were stolen. Next week if I can find some time, I had best get someone around to put in a gate down the side of the house so the shed can not be easily got at. There is of course the other side of the house, but as yet I don't want to go to that expense. I will make do with temporary arrangements until I get to the front yard project - hopefully sometime this winter. Meantime the shed is locked on every conceivable portal and it is a pain to always have to wander out the back with a set of keys on my person.
Yesterday saw all the washing done, folded, ironed and put away. I also chipped off some more tiles in the front door foyer and brushed down the walls in the foyer and front room ready for the undercoat which I am about to go and do when coffee is finished and this novel is also done.

Which I think it is. So off to the paint brush and roller. Tonight I shall have stark white walls and windows, grotty floor and door (a new front door is on order) and the shower screen finally fixed in place instead of temporary, smell of paint and barbecue and be a really happy fulfilled Shaddie pup. This will be a great leap forward in the project saga of the HOUSE which has been going on for far too long.

That is good news about Mel. A little Mel is WAAAAAY better than no Mel at all. Maybe it is her time to receive all the comments , support and songs!! Big warm hugs and LOVE our Melly!!!!!!!

Shad~ you sound wonderful!!

Before I forget...Hello and a big welcome to YP1 and what is your first name?!?!!?? or nickname? Should we call you YP for short!?

You are Mel-less no longer. The ***** is back! Albeit maybe not in the same condition but back nonetheless. I see sister Shad has told the Good, Bad and Ugly. She has been a rock in my life as are you all. Spent some time crying and genuinely feeling sorry for myself but today I decided that was enough. 2 days of Drs and painful poking and prodding was what started the crying. Now it's time to grin and bear it and get on with my life. Came home with new prescriptions for back and such. they even sent me home with 120 codeine for JIC!!! And this Dr hates narcotics of any kind! Hope they all do what they are intended to do. Not the codeine, the others. lol I use a chest strap to hold myself in the chair now so I can type. Relieves the pressure of trying to sit up and use my arms. They also are sending me something that looks like a giant enema bulb!!! It's for putting air into my lungs and expanding the lower region so breathing should be better when I get going on that 3X's a day. Some of the Drs I have not seen for 8 years and were impressed with my weight loss.....of course they poo poo'ed the "diet" and said I am probably at a permanent plateau. We will see....ever the optimist am I.

I have missed you all very much. I didn't dare turn this on and when the kids were using it I stayed in the other room watching TV. It's the first time that I actually stayed off when told!!! Guess the fear of God got me this time!

Poor Willy feels so much better now that I went shopping with him twice. He uses the brake a LOT more than he ever did!!! I am still tense when riding now. Got the fear of ever feeling that kind of pain again in my head yet. Guess it will fade away eventually.

I read the pages and am so sorry for your losses of life. Hugs to you and hope all is as welll as can be expected. some struggles going on too and hugs for them too. I well know the feeling! such busyness and activity too! New houses, new people. Let's try not to scare this one away!

I must go and find something to do that doesn't involve arms! Take care my Worldly Chicks and Have a great week. Thanks for all the good wishes.

Where is Nae?!?!?!

Hi -call me YP, that's what I usually go by but it wouldn't let me register a 2 letter user name. It's nothing to do with my real name, but on the first message board I signed up on on the internet many years ago I chose a 2 word name with the initials YP. It made sense in the context of where I was posting, but elsewhere it's just too confusing. So I ended up calling myself YP, which is what everyone on the original board calls me anyway. And the P stands for Pie which probably isn't the best thing to post here under in case it sets off cravings!

I've spent the day fighting (and beating cravings), but I've got a horrible feeling that if I've got any unhealthy food in the house I'll be finding it later. I think I'm safe though, so as long as I can resist walking up to the shop for chocolate I'll be fine (and that's exercise anyway...)

Evenin' Chicks!

I have been in a bit of an emotional train wreck. i journalled about it yesterday, a couple of entries.
Lets just say I have had some closure with one of my "what's eating me" issues. I am working at releasing it......fly away..........
My emotions have been all over the place today. Swinging from extreme happiness to deep anxiety. Church this morning was very emotional and powerful for me. I am feeling incredibly close to my husband and children. I went to give my Grandma a perm today and was there for 3 hours. It was peaceful being there. I actually fell asleep when she was under the dryer. I feel sad but haven’t put my finger on why. I am focussing on the positive things in my life, like you chicks, and the appreciation I get from our minister, and school principal for the work I do those places.It seems that every time I let go of part of my past I find a new deeper connection with my husband. I love that.
This is the life I dreamed of as a little girl and the life I waited for and then fought for....dreams do come true. I will let my heart be filled with the blessings of my marriage and sweet babies.

MEL! Welcome back to the fold!! You were totally missed So good that you are taking good care and things are looking up for you. It takes a strong person to realize that they need to take it easy and give their body time to catch up with their mind. Good energy for your continued recovery

YP-Welcome to the bunch I hope you win your cravings battle and went to bed instead I ate five oreos with double filling and great big gulps of tea. I'm a work in progress

Holly-it isn't easy being human is it? So much ticking over in our heads. All that swirling bunch of unexpected feelings and odd turns. I hope the sun shines on your side of Canada and your Monday is a glorious fun filled day. Don't take any guff from the little ones, smile and say no! They love boundaries

Shad-I appreciate very much you keeping us up on Mel's journey to wellness. It is awful not knowing and wondering. Your barbecue sounded majorly yummy, I hope your friends were hungry and helpful with the clean up I had some "yellow tail" Australian wine last night, a merlot, thought of you Your home sounds like it is looking sparkling and pristine in its transformation to perfection. Well done you! Determination not only with the workouts but the environment sprucing up

Happy-Sleep apnea, hmm, I'm glad yours isn't too serious. I've heard that can be quite an awful disruptive thing. So you are recommitting to the weight focus? I wish I was a better encourager. Thank you so much for your kind words about my decline into cookiedom. I am struggling with trying to focus on me and being kinder to my machine that keeps me upright and pumping, got to generate the cells to function at a higher rate and on better fuel You know how that is

Well I went up to investigate what was happening with the house. The builder put the bathroom sinks at the side of the counters by the wall instead of in the center of the vanities... looks awful. The counter tops have to be replaced and redone, big waste of money. Of course, the builder is a buddy of my husband's so I am not to say anything about it looking ridiculous and what was he thinking and are you an idiot, nobody can wash there face in those basins, their elbow will hit the wall!! The guy who was hired to put the moldings in banged up all the newly painted walls downstairs and in the stairway. I am not to complain or say anything about that either because he is a good friend of the builder and the guy my husband is going to hire to smooth out all the dirt and stuff outside the house. Do you ever feel like you are being muzzled and like a volcano about to blast molten lava everywhere?! This is why I had the five oreos when I came home. I tried to resist by eating a sandwich and having a cup of tea, but my undeveloped coping skills required sugar. On the good side, the tile guy, also a good buddy of my husband has done a beautiful job of putting in my tile floors. Even the hall and kitchen which are straight rather than on an angle like the other rooms looks good. He did a little detail work where the kitchen table is to go with a square and some cuts, so it doesn't look so plain. The cream aluminum siding I chose looks really good, like a pale butter yellow on the outside of the house. So there are a few things going good. Maybe I will have more positive stuff come out of this building/moving experience, I'll keep you posted