Hi, all--am just hanging around--had a bad day, actually just the afternoon--discovered a couple of the little "angels" in my class are working on some deceptive stuff--taking low-graded papers out of their take-home folders, not handing in a quiz one doesn't want to do--baloney like that. Do they really think I'm that dumb???? It really ------ me off. Anyway, I'll survive. I did eat about 10 Hershey's kisses as an afternoon snack after school--with a cup of coffee. I'm trying to escape for a while, but it really isn't helping. I've had very good luck with the sex ed. class I've been doing with the girls for the last three weeks. The boys start Monday--heaven help me, please!! Hubby is being very helpful to me tonight--good thing--I don't think I could really do any extra housework tonight. I've got a set of paragraphs to grade for midterm reports, which are due tomorrow, so that is where my evening will be. Tomorrow I make my regular drive to the orthodontist (50 miles each way) with older girl, and Friday night I have to go to this 8th grade honor dinner at school. What I need is pure mother's recreation for several days--not a chance in the next few weeks for sure--maybe in summer.

Well, I'm going to cook pancakes and sausage for the family--none for me--it's got eggs in it. I haven't had a stomach ache of any kind since I stopped eating things I know have eggs in them.

Debee, I was thinking about you. Keep in touch with your dr. regarding that breast. If it's anything suspicious, you want to get it taken care of as early as possible. Prayers to you.

Well, got to go. Talk to all later. Bye for now.

Happy Thursdays Ladies

well I didnt exercise last night and I dont think I will be doing it tonight cause its the friend's finale.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast, skim milk
lunch: chicken breast with baby mixed greens, asparagus, potato salad,green beans
dinner: scallops, sun dried tomatoes with garlic on a bed of whole wheat spaghetti
snacks: granola bar
beverages: diet cola, tea, water

Have a great day folks

Cyan

Hey Gang, Just a quick note to say hello. Beginning of the week was easy but the end has been tough. Thank goodness it's Friday!! I have to work on Saturday as well but I am looking forward to it as we have a fun activity planned. Debee, Mikki big hugs to both of you and hope all is well--keep posting to let us know how you are. The beginning of the week was good activity-wise as well--went biking Mon, Tues and baseball Wed. Yesterday watched Friends and today I hope to get some exercise in.

Hi, everybody--rough one this week with those 5th graders, and yesterday I finally lost it--absolutely lost my temper in class. Other teachers told me not to worry about it, but I feel bad--really bad. I ate about 20 chocolate kisses over it. My lost temper was triggered by the class's disrespect of a situation where I tried to begin work on an art project, and it involved collecting and tearing up the beginnings of hand tracings the students had done 2 months ago--probably 15 minutes of work in each one--and throwing away other coloring pictures they had done two months ago that I haven't had time to mount because of all the BS I've had to go through because of bad behavior from about 12 of 28 students. I also did about 10 minutes of ranting and raving, as well as beating the blackboard with an empty water bottle while I ranted about their disrespect. I somewhere let the d--- word escape--not referring to any of them--I just said something like, "we're not going to do a d--- thing." I also tossed three or four children's weekly paper folders on the floor for them to pick up because they had not put their names on the front of them, despite being asked several times, and I'd just had enough. I then called the principal to tell her what I had done and why, and cried. She spoke briefly to the students, I spoke to them again, telling them I was ashamed of my behavior but so very disturbed that their behavior had brought me to such a point. The principal is very supportive of me, but is also concerned about my loss of temper, though she understands this group and how far they can push. They have been like this since kindergarten. I'm going to finish the year with them in a very structured environment with very little opportunity for them to move around the classroom or the school, and a teaching style that will involve mostly me presenting information, their doing work based on what I presented, me reteaching, and over and over like that, with very little interaction because they cannot respect even a simple question/answer session. I am so frustrated. I have tried so hard--with every bit of imagination and effort I have been able to summon. Today I feel just sick. I am fearful that parents are going to say something, though I am praying not because I just sent home mid-quarter reports, and mostly they were very bad, as were the weekly behavior reports I send home on Fridays. Perhaps the kids are afraid to say anything because of their own reports--I can only hope. I was at a school dinner last night where there were parents of my students present. I kept looking at them to see if they were looking at me in any funny, horrified way. No one seemed to be. I am feeling very paranoid. This week I had to deal with an incident where a group of my boys vandalized the bathroom by throwing wet tissue on the walls and ceiling, another where one boy thought it would be fun to squirt glass cleaner with ammonia he was using to clean his desk at another student, and hit the child in the eye, and where another boy threw a pop top across the room, and it hit a girl in the forehead. This all happened before Thursday. It's like I have to be five people to keep track of what they are doing or planning to do next. Suddenly the old Sidney Poitier movie "To Sir With Love" comes to my mind. Do I need to watch it? Will it inspire me? I don't know. Anyway, thanks for listening/reading. I hope everyone is doing well. Take care.

Hey girls...Newie...wow...I hope things work out at school for you. I would be paranoid too. Hang in there and hopefully you will know what to do with those monsterous kids.

Cjunk...how are you feeling...if allthat exercising is an indication..I am thinking you are on the mend...I hope so.

Well this friday I weighed myself and I am down to 167.5...I lost another 1.5 pounds this week...wooohoooo...I am getting close to my lowest weight in the past 4 years of 163...after I reach that goal...I will go onto weights I haven't seen in 4 years! I cant wait..how exciting.

Have a great weekend

Cyan

Hey Everyone,

Cyan!! Big congratulations!!!! You are doing awesome!! Keep up the great work -- you are an inspiration to us all!!

Newie-sounds like a rough week for sure...getting close to the end of the school year though. You can almost count down the days!! That means that only 5 or 6 more weeks where with your planned structured environment you will be doing just fine. I can remember when I was young and we acted out very badly in class one day and my teacher "lost it" and frankly that was what turned our behaviour around. None of us talked to our parents about it at all from what I can remember--mainly because we knew we had it coming to us.

This weekend was a bit rough for me. I am adjusting to a medication to get my levels back in line, but some days are better than others. It is taking me a bit of time to adjust but I have only had it for a few days so I have to take it easy. I was thinking that I might take a sick day if I feel as rough as I was yesterday. I ended up working but I was not at the top of my game and really needed to be so it would have been best had I not been there at all. Unfortunately, my whole body feels like what the equivalent of eggs would be if they were scrambled. I am hoping today is the last of the adjusting and then I can feel normal again next week. Normally I don't work on weekends but I had to this weekend and I had flexed another day earlier in the week for it. Have you ever had a day where you wish you could live it over again just so that you can change one decision you made during the day to see if a better outcome would have happened??? That's kind of my yesterday. I am determined to make this a better day.

Talk to you all soon,

Cjunk

Debee, Mikki--how are you both??

hello girls----------pardon me for being nosy,but every now and then i jump out of the cow pasture next door and roam around the surrounding fields!!!---the misc. groups board seems pretty friendly!!! anyway,here is my nosy question-----last fall one of you spoke of having your abode featured on a Home and Garden Show!!! I found that very exciting,but haven't heard mention of it lately!!I love all those shows and I would love to see a 3FC member profiled! Hopefully you don't mind me dropping over,---you can check me out at the Cow thread if you like----nice talking to you,Bagzz

Hi Everyone,

Sunday was a much better day. I took my mom for a mother's day bike ride and my dad and fiance came as well. Then we had a salmon and veggie dinner at my fiance's parents for mother's day (his dad cooked it!!) and after that went to the pool and swam for about a half an hour later in the evening. It was more of a relaxing swim than anything. Discovered that the side effects of the medication that I am on are virtually non-existent if I am exercising and post-exercise. So I guess I will have to keep up the workouts. Whatever works to make me feel better!!!

Gotta head back to work!! It is my birthday later this week and I am feeling this one a bit more than others but I think it will be fun.

Talk to everyone soon,

Cjunk

Hey girls

The weekend was good...I kept to the program and didnt overeat although I had Opera Cake yesterday for Mother's Day.

I weighed in this morning and I am at 167.5 ...which means I have reached my mini goal so onto 163 for the end of May...I cant wait.

Hey Bagzz...I think you are talking about Debee..her home was featured in the show. She will be excited to know that you are asking about it. Hopefully she will drop in soon and read your post.

Anyway, Meal plan for today
breakfast: instant carnation with skim milk
lunch: turkey breast sandwhich on sourdough bread, tomato salad and carrots
dinner: salmon steak with spinach
snacks: dunno yet

Have a great day

Cyan

Hey girls! I'm back. I'm not back on the weight loss train. Trevor Michael was born Tuesday, May 4 at 9:35am. He was a scheduled induction. Pitocin was started at 7am. Water was broken at 7:39. Epidural given slightly after 8am. I went from 5 cm and neg. 2 station to complete and +3 in 20 minutes. While the epidural took care of the actual contractions, I still felt all the pressure in my "area." I felt him slide down my birth canal and felt like I was pooping a pumpkin. He was 9 pounds 3 ounces and 19 1/2 inches long. I have recovered nicely. He has a bad bout of jaundice right now and is on a bili-blanket that Home Health brought over today and set up for us. I'm stressed about all that but I know he'll get better. Breastfeeding is going well. He's the cutest baby ever (along with my other two children of course) and he's very serious. I got up to 225 with this pregnancy which means I gained a total of 52 pounds. I'm not sure what I way now because my scale needs batteries. I'll probably just wait until my 6 week check up and then get batteries and get serious about the weight loss. I have the whole summer off from classes!

I'm glad to be back so plan on hearing from me often!!!

Love,
Lisa

Hey Lisa

Congratulations ...I send you and your family best wishes, a big hug and kiss to Trevor. Wow...he's a big boy...good on you Lisa! Its nice to have the summer off too. you gotta post up pix soon! I will be here to encourage you to lose weight once you are ready...just holler (sp?)

Well I havent done any exercising this week thus far so I guess I will get back to it tonight. I have also been eating my Mother's Day cake I bought for my Momma...just to good to pass up but I dont want to put any weight back on especially in light of my success...so I wont be touching it again for the week...I hope my father will eat it.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: tuna sandwich with light mayo on sour dough bread
dinner: tomato salad with smoked salmon and feta cheese
snacks: yogurt with bran cereal
beverages: water, tea, diet cola

Have a great day everyone and once again Lisa...congratulations and good to have you back with us.

Have a great day
Cyan

Hey Lisa

Congratulations ...I send you and your family best wishes, a big hug and kiss to Trevor. Wow...he's a big boy...good on you Lisa! Its nice to have the summer off too. you gotta post up pix soon! I will be here to encourage you to lose weight once you are ready...just holler (sp?)

Well I havent done any exercising this week thus far so I guess I will get back to it tonight. I have also been eating my Mother's Day cake I bought for my Momma...just to good to pass up but I dont want to put any weight back on especially in light of my success...so I wont be touching it again for the week...I hope my father will eat it.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: tuna sandwich with light mayo on sour dough bread
dinner: tomato salad with smoked salmon and feta cheese
snacks: yogurt with bran cereal
beverages: water, tea, diet cola

Have a great day everyone and once again Lisa...congratulations and good to have you back with us.

Have a great day
Cyan

Anyone who is interested in pictures of my new little one can go to growingfamily.com Click on the link to their web nursery. Then it will ask for the birthday May 4, 2004 and the first 3 letters of my last name, SMI, and the state, KANSAS. Then click on find baby. That will send you to a link for Trevor. Click on his name and there are four pictures from the hospital. They are hospital pictures so they're not that great. He's much cuter in person. Hope to hear from all of you soon. I've missed you all!!!

Lisa

Welcome back and congratulations Lisa!! I looked at the pictures of your beautiful new baby boy with the directions that you gave to the website and he is so cute!! He is a big baby like my nephew was. I am looking forward to reading your posts and happy to encourage you along the way once you get back into things.

Cyan, good for you for getting back into the exercise and putting down that cake!! I am happy to hear that you made your mini-goal.

Newie, Mikki, Debee--I am looking forward to hearing from all of you. I so much enjoy all of your posts and hope that all is going well for each of you.

I am starting to physically feel better lately. The medication I am on seems to be working well and for the first time I have been sleeping only 8-9 hours a night instead of 12-14 hours!!! That makes me feel like I have so many more hours in my day to do things instead of just coming home from work and going to sleep within a few hours. I hadn't really truly realized how badly it can affect you when your iron is that low. So happy to be getting back on track. Looking forward to getting back to my normal pattern of 7 hours sleep a night which I used to be like before. For now I am happy at 8.

Talk to you all soon. I am going to enjoy the sunshine here as I understand that it is supposed to rain tomorrow!!

Cjunk

Hi, girls--I have about 2 minutes. Congratulations, Lisa, on that new boy of yours. I know the pumpkin-pooping feeling. My girls were 8 lbs. 14 1/2 oz. and 9 lbs. 5 oz. respectively. Glad to know all is well. I gained 48 lbs. each with my two girls, so I know the project you're facing. We'll be here for you.

I've had a rather difficult few days, what with the explosion I did at school on Friday, although there have been considerable changes in the children's behavior. There were a few parent calls, by the parents of the good children mostly (of course), and I did receive a warning for my personnel file--mostly a formality to protect the principal, I think--but mostly it's seeming to blow over. I think the person hurt by it the most was probably me. It devastated me to think that I could be pushed to the point of losing my temper like that, but there are a few "bad seeds" in that group that everyone else feeds off of. I never did that in all the years I taught--11. I am trying to turn it into a positive life lesson for myself and the children and face every consequence directly and courageously. Well, I will tell more when I get more time. Bye for now.