Red, thanks for checking in. I think I found your bright spot for you, if you haven't already. Despite all the insanity that is going on, you are still managing to stay strong with the no cigs, no sugar, no processed foods. That is amazing, as are you. My thoughts and prayers are with you, that things get better for you.
Pat, way to go for getting it done. Iam sorry you've been depressed, and hope things pick up for you soon.
I had a good day. I need to redo and restart my food challenge, but I am ok with that. I met a friend for dinner, and I ordered what looked the best to me. I enjoyed it, and when I was full, I was done. Didn't have to send it away, or do something to ruin it, I just stopped eating. What an amazingly normal concept! The light bulb finally clicks. Giving myself a "free day" hasn't been working right. I am eating more because I can, and not because something tastes good. I would rather be able to have a healthier relationship with food, and enjoy what I want, in moderation, and stop when I am full. So I will figure out how to word that and restart.
oh my gosh - I am so sorry everyone has been having such a rough time of it
I am trying to stick to my challenges but haven't been posting since the further along I've managed on any is 3 days
Everything is going well with the baby - we had another ultrasound of the little zombie Tuesday morning. The technician did a few of his face in 3D/4D. Cool, but also sort of creepy! Most important, all of his organs, bones, and limbs that are supposed to be there, are there and healthy
Things are not going so good with me though - I am just sad all the time. And so unbelievably tired. I broke down and finally told my obstetrician how I have been feeling. I am apparently very high-risk for post partum depression. Just great. I am already feeling bad about being sad instead of happy, and now she tells me that I might snap and hurt Magnus after he is born. Anyway - I did go ahead and make an appointment with a psychiatrist for this Saturday. I just don't see what they will be able to do about my feelings. And I see my ob again next Wednesday.
Sorry for being such a downer today.
I will try to post more to chat even if I am not 100% sticking to my challenges.
Heh all, it's my birthday today, Aug. 8, opening of the Olympics and all that. I'm hoping I can at least make a somewhat good day out of it. Fish, seeing you back in here is my first present of the day! You hang in there! I'll talk later. Just wanted to tell you it's MY day....for what it's worth!!!
Last edited by redballoon; 08-07-2008 at 08:16 PM.
Haha!! Happy Birfday Redballoon!! YAHHOOOOO! Celebrate!! I hope do some fun stuff on your bday Let me know!!
I used a pause day earlier in the week... had a LOT of running around to do.. medicals, passport renewing.. blahblah for my marriage visa to go to the US to be with my fiance.. Can't wait till this visa foolishness is over and i can just be with him Soon sooon
fishwoman: Sorry to hear about your baby blues... Wish i knew how to help. Other than focusing on this second.. this minute always helps me. Dont let your selt get boggled down with how you may feel once the baby is born.. focus on how you feel now and making that moment ok. Im glad you have found someone to talk to. Its def a big help.
ANyway.. yeah.. had an AWESOME workout today and im feeling good.. I hope you guys are all havinga rockig good day today too remember.. just keep pushing forward.. we can all do this!!
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Fish, I am glad you are going to the psychiatrist, though i don't know how your obstetrician thought it would "help" you to know you were at high risk. I hope s/he put it gentler and more diplomatically then that. Please remember, this is something your body chemicals are doing to you, this is not about your FEELINGS. You are not a bad person. Hopefully the doctor can help get your chemistry straightened out so you feel better. Keep talking, and good luck.
I haven't restructured restarted the food goal, and I may have a slow week, but I am ok with that. I am feeling pretty darn good right now.
Happy Birthday, Red! Here's to making the very best of your day!
Thanks, Fauxtini - I try to take it one day at a time - sometimes it is definitely one hour or minute at a time
Best of luck with your visa/passport and impending nuptials!
Jolly - I am sure she put it in a more diplomatic way - but what I *heard* was - if you don't do something now, you will kill your baby and/or yourself I think her reasoning behind telling me i am high risk is that if I do need to go on medication, it can take a while to start working. Better to start now and give it time to work than wait until Magnus is born and have it not work in time.
I am glad your week is going well!
Hi Red!! A Happy Happy Birthday to you!
Sorry I haven't been around, I'm just not able to get moving on a challenge. We are going away next week, and then school starts. Once the kids are settled into a routine I think I can get my own routine started. 15 pounds by Thanksgiving!!(Oh how many times have I set a goal like that??!!!)
Anyway, Red, I am sorry for your woes at work. Smart of you to get a laywer. My SIL is a lawyer and my husband consults with her whenever he gets a new contract. He's really smart and catches a lot of details I know I would miss, and then his sister contribute her expertise. It's a good thing. I think you are going to have a great year coming up!!! And thanks for all you do here at 3FC, I know I wouldn't be here if it weren't for you. You're great!!
And have a wonderful birthday!
Thank you all SO much!!! It's so nice to have all these birthday wishes.
I am now recuperating from a long, long day yesterday. Will try to get back in and write at length soon.
Thanks again!!
Last edited by redballoon; 08-09-2008 at 02:05 AM.
Hi Red - a day late, but I'm in Jakarta and they are 20 YEARS behind, but I wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday. Hope this one day goes well for you out of all of the crud and corruption you have put up with lately.
Keeping tabs on you, but can't challenge while I can't really control all the food I put in my mouth - not that I am bad, just don't know how it is cooked and what ingredients are in there. That's hotel living for you.
Meantime hope you had a really good day yesterday.
SOrry to have missed wishing you a happy birthday, Red. I watch the opening last night--China is sure determined to wow the rest of the world aren't they? It was impressive and beautiful.
Food Journal--Day 12
Exercise every day--Day 3 (Had to restart)
Only water and tea--Day 1 (had a beer last night, so blew it!)
On the plus side: weighed 200.5. Yaay! Just a little bit more to get under 200!! I hope by Monday AM.
Good morning all. Red, hope you are recovering from a long birthday celebration. You deserve something great. Mod, Congrats on the scale. You can do it. Shad, what's in Jakarta?
I am feeling a bit down. We did our first 10 mile run, and I hit the wall. I don't know if it was that I hadn't taken any anti-inflammatories, or the shot of alcohol I had in my mixed drink last night, but my knees were rough, I was slow, and I just wanted to sit down, have a cry, and quit. I did finish, though slowly. However, it is discouraging. Ah well. I am trying to convince myself it is just a bad day, and the next run will be better.
The light bulb finally clicks. Giving myself a "free day" hasn't been working right. I am eating more because I can, and not because something tastes good. I would rather be able to have a healthier relationship with food, and enjoy what I want, in moderation, and stop when I am full. So I will figure out how to word that and restart.
Happy Birthday to me!!!!
Ah well. I am trying to convince myself it is just a bad day, and the next run will be better.