Good morning, all! I am feeling more upbeat right now. Went to the psychiatrist who seemed very nice. She gave me a low-dosage prescription to try and I see her again in two weeks to make sure all is going well. The 'scrip is making it even harder to fall asleep, but I am actually less tired than I have been. I see my ob again tomorrow and will discuss with her as well.
I totally overdid it Sunday - my sister and I went for a six-mile hike along the C&O canal. My back was NOT happy with me around mile 4. We had a good time together though. Took the doggies with us - they LOVE the canal! Sammydog nosed a turtle that was sunning in the path. When it moved, he freaked! My back is better today though!
I've been eating better the past few days as well. I just need to keep that up!
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Modcat - way to go! you will be below 200 any second now!
Jolly - the first (and only) time I ran ten miles I could not decide at the end if i was going to cry, faint, throw up, or all of the above. Then i went back to 6Ks. You did it! You finished and plan on finishing again! Enjoy the last few weeks before school starts. The life of a 1L is a busy one!
Fauxtini - there is nothing wrong with starting over. We all have done it. Repeatedly. Just keep doing the best you can each day.
Shad - But, Jakarta *sounds* exotic and exciting! I am sorry you are stuck in offices and hotels all day.
Apple - good to hear from you. I hope all is going well.
Dixiemae - you are doing great! Take care of your body though.
Miriam - thank you for the kind words. I know worrying makes things worse, and I am *definitely* a worrier, planner, stick to a schedule type of person. I highly disapprove when I don't measure up to the standards I have set myself. I need to take a cue from your serenity time.
Red - I know you will get back on all your challenges. You are decidely NOT a failure!!! You are so inspirational, at least to me. Even when things are down you slog through and keep trying. I, for one, find it incredibly uplifting and impressive!
Yesterday a crazy day so didn't weigh myself. Also, did not exercise and had red wine last night b/c of stress (family issues). BUT, still kept eating OP.
And today, weighed myself--all-time low! 198.4! Maybe I need to take a day and drink and not exercise more often! (just kidding).
Well, I did do a lot over the week-end so that must be it. Hopefully will continue downward.
Used up last pause in exercise: still day 4
Used up one pause in new booze challenge: still day 2
Food journal: day 15
Faux: yeah, I feel that way about my eating, now, also. I'm almost feeling totally in control--I soooo hope that feeling lasts, b/c it feels so good!
Fish: So glad to hear you are feeling better. It does sound like you are too hard on yourself, and maybe are a perfectionist. And it is so easy for others to say, don't worry so much, or, you don't have to be perfect. But combining that with pregnancy hormone craziness has got to be rough. I feel for you.
Miriam: I like your serenity thing. I made a NY's resolution to find one thing every day to be grateful for, b/c I felt like I was not feeling gratitude in my life enough--I had started to focus too much on negative thoughts. I have been pretty successful with that, but should add a serenity meditation moment every day to help cope with stress.
Red: If the journal thing is stressing you out--you are right to drop it. It's not worth it to add to your stress now. I can almost feel your stress coming over the internet--just keep trying other things like the shiatsu/hari and such to cope. And know that this, too, shall pass.
Dixiemae: Yes, I agree--back off the hips, butt thing for awhile, no good to injure yourself. Cardio and upper body is still a good amount of exercise.
Jolly: I WISH I could do 10 miles! The most I've done is a 5K once about 20 years ago. I am so NOT a runner. I am trying to do a little, though, to help with my fitness, weight loss. I'm trying the C25K now and can actually run without stopping about 6-plus minutes or 0.5 miles on the treadmill. BTW, how long did it take you to run the 10 miles?
fish: SOOOOOO completely happy to see you are feeling better/doing better. Just keep thinking good thoughts and hopefully your new prescription will keep you under control. glad to hear
Mod: That same thing happened to me too! I took a day off, and had a couple drinks of wine and the next day.. a little woosh of weightloss occured! It's good to let our bodies rest once in a while.. as long as it's not tooo often! hehe. Glad to hear about the alltime loww!
It seems like all of our moods are related.. last week all of us were upset/depressed/down and this week.. we are all looking at things with a new vigor! So happy to hear and see that on here!! I guess we are pretty good at helping each other out! hehe
Hi all. Another not so good day yesterday. I did slog through though and it took a lot of strength to do that. So many times I just felt like "heh, why bother?" "Why not just throw it all in?" I'm really, really sick of everything and wondering why this is all happening. Then, again, I think, well, why not? So, what are you going to do about it? And there's not much question. I'm NOT going to just take it like some sort of victim.
Oh, I found a quote that I thought was lost forever on my dead computer hard drive, but a friend was able to retrieve it and I didn't even realize that I had it, until it occurred to me last night that maybe I did, and I DID! I've posted it here before but for all you newbies, here it is. Even when the enemies are bad habits, sloth, overindulgence, ourselves, it applies. Excuse the language. Just think of G.I. Jane or something...
"As far as I am concerned, the human race works on the schoolyard bully principle; smack the a**hole back, and he'll find some weak f**ker to mess with. I have seen nothing since that has changed my mind.
The really sad thing is, I think most people choose to be weak! I'm not talking big muscles; all anyone had to do was take a look at my classmates. Most of us were not strapping muscle men.
Strength is definitely a mental game. Strong people do one simple thing:
Win, lose, or draw,
they get back up;
they get the f**k back up."
"Class 29 -- The Making of US Navy SEALS" by John Roat
Now if THAT doesn't make you feel like standing up and letting out a rebel yell, then I don't know what will!
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Where I stand on Wednesday (not including Wednesday)
CHALLENGES:
Food and exercise journal. Ending this.
New COUNT for below four:
No booze Day 13 completed 1 pause of 3 left
No sugar Day 12 completed no pauses of 3 left
No cigs Day 13 completed no pauses of 1 left
No processed foods Day 12 completed no pauses of 3 left
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No alcohol current straight 4 days/longest straight thus far June 28-August 3 = 36 days
No sugar current straight 0 days/longest straight was 39 days (July 1-Aug. 9)
No cigs current straight 4 days/ longest straight was 38 days straight July 1-Aug. 8
No processed foods current straight 0 days/40 days straight (July 1-Aug.10)
Thought I would stop in and say hello. Hope everyone is doing well. Hasn't been good for me the last few days. I got back on the meads ( after being off them for a bit ) about a month and I am very sick again. Last weigh in was good but I am starting to moon face up and be real puffy. I am mostly staying in bed the last two days ( thank heavens it didn't get real bad until the last couple days of vacation, still enjoyed the Ted Nugent concert lol ). I am being very careful what I eat but have no energy what so ever to exercise at this time. Give me a few days and ( that is all I will allow myself 3 more days lol ) I will be getting back to normal and back chatting again.
Hey all. Quick flyby here, before heading in to work. Fish, glad you are feeling better. That is great news. Thanks for reminding me of the busy life of a 1L. I am already freaking out though I hope that being part time will help the busy part.
OK. Sorry that is all I have time for. I am coming down with a bug, and having a hard time focusing on what I want to write. Know I'm with you all, and cheering for you
It's all too depressing. I fell off the wagon on booze and cigs last night. I am disgusted with myself, but then....SO under the gun. Really stressful and...it was the anniversary of my mother's death and she was on my mind a lot. Strike at work and I was asked to scab. Had to put up a fight. Don't know where any of this is leading. Couldn't sleep for the itching last night. Sigh. Again, I can just try to push on.
Where I stand on Thursday (not including Thursday) CHALLENGES: Food and exercise journal. Ending this. New COUNT for below four: No booze Day 13 completed no pauses of 3 left No sugar Day 13 completed no pauses of 3 left No cigs Day 13 completed 1 pause of 3 left No processed foods Day 13 completed no pauses of 3 left *************** No alcohol current straight 0 days/longest straight thus far June 28-August 3 = 36 days No sugar current straight 1 days/longest straight was 39 days (July 1-Aug. 9) No cigs current straight 0 days/ longest straight was 38 days straight July 1-Aug. 8 No processed foods current straight 0 days/40 days straight (July 1-Aug.10)
Lost some more this morning! .2 away from the 270's! I hope to see it tomorrow. If it stays rainy like this, I doubt I will get lots of working out in. Im thinking abouthauling out some of my workout dvds. I do like them.. just like being outside better. lol
Red: I read this in a book once. And I really think it makes sense.
When given every situation in life, you can do 1 of 3 things.
1) accept the situation
2) leave the situation
3) change the situation
I know you mostly are in the waiting game of life right now, but is there aything you can do to help the situation for yourself? I know this all sounds kind of fluffy... but i find that those three choices do make sense at the end ofthe day.
REgardless.. still thinking of you.. Remember.. booze won't fix the situation big hugs hunny!
Red
Sorry you are having such a tough time. I do feel for you. I lost a really good job one time because I wouldn't cross a picket line. Keep strong, things will work out the way they should for you.
God grant me the serenity to
Accept the things I can not change
Change the things I can
And Know the difference.
Red~I really feel for you, you are in a very tough situation. No one likes scabs. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Shy~Thank you for posting the prayer. I was thinking about it this morning, then you post it. WOW!
Jolly~Hope you are feeling better today.
I am going to spend some time figuring out what and how to do my next challenge. The soreness in my shoulder is now gone. The numbness in my fingers is better. I still have some ache in my hips, but I think I am ready for some light exercise. No running or jogging for awhile though. Catch ya all later. Pat
Where I stand on Friday (not including Friday)
CHALLENGES:
Food and exercise journal. Ending this.
New COUNT for below four:
No booze Day 14 completed no pauses of 3 left
No sugar Day 14 completed no pauses of 3 left
No cigs Day 14 completed 1 pause of 3 left
No processed foods Day 14 completed no pauses of 3 left
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No alcohol current straight 1 day/longest straight thus far June 28-August 3 = 36 days
No sugar current straight 2 days/longest straight was 39 days (July 1-Aug. 9)
No cigs current straight 1 day/longest straight was 38 days straight July 1-Aug. 8
No processed foods current straight 1 day/longest straight 40 days (July 1-Aug.10)
I'm pushing on. Don't worry. It's what I do. But thank you all for the support. It truly helps just knowing there are people who care.
************** Dixie -- Hope you get back on a challenge soon. Why not try something non-exercise related so you won't have any pain issues?
Shy -- Good for you for not crossing a picket line. For me it's a matter of principle, as I suppose it was for you. Like they say, win or lose, you've got to make a stand. I do hope you feel better soon too. Ted Nugent?! Wow. Is he still playing?!
faux -- I'm not really in a waiting game. There are things going on in the background. I just am not going into detail here. Still, it is important to be vigilant. It is very easy to not do enough quickly enough. Timing is important. Also, there are many fronts and I do admit, though I am taking action on some of them, I am not on others. Oh, I wasn't looking for booze to fix anything. I just have a bad habit of indulging myself (because I'm being so strict in other areas largely). I need to come up with other ways of doing that I suppose. On the other hand, a bit of drinking is nothing bad. It's just that I have the challenge and was looking for a bit more perfection...not a good thing perhaps either. If I say, ok, tonight I'm doing this, then I shouldn't chide myself later about having done it. Even so, within the evening out I was actually quite lowkey. I left early. I left as soon as it wasn't fun. I didn't drink much at all, actually ordered tea twice. The content WAS different so I guess I should consider that quite a show of improvement overall.
jolly -- How are you? I hope the bug hasn't got a firm hold on you.
modcat -- Good for you for sticking to the plan. How are you doing now? Yeah, things like keeping records really annoy me. It's not like I don't remember what I've eaten or anything. It's more just executing the intention. That I can do if I set my mind to it. Normally, I just don't feel like it.
Fish -- Very glad to hear you're feeling better. Strength and power to you! You're a pro. Don't let this beat you!
red
YUP he is still playing and as good as ever. I saw him many moons ago ( went with friends since he isn't my thing ) and the concert we saw the other day was every bit as good as the one I saw years ago ( unfortunately he didn't ride out on a buffalo but he did do the fire arrow bit ).
Have to love many things about the man I just can't stand music so loud that A. you have no idea what they are saying and B. You can't hear for hours afterwords lol. Give me some good old Conway Twitty lol. Unfortunately saw one of his concerts and it was the worst concert I ever went to. The man had no stage presence what so ever. Yes, it was a matter of principle.
Dixie
Sometimes it is all that gets us through life.
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Im down a bit today and really glad I didn't eat that toast that was tempting me last nite
Red: Sorry I sort of assumed your situation. I have a habit of trying to fix everything around me.. hehe. Regradless of everything.. im thinking of you and hope it eventually works out for you Big hugs
Shy, Jolly, Dixie--hope everyone is feeling better by today, And you too, Red.
It really sucks when your job is so stressful and there's a bunch of crap happening. I on the other hand am stressed b/c our office is so s-l-o-w....
I am not working enough hours, and so I have been looking for another office to work in for a couple days/week. But apparently everyone is slow, so no one needs anyone right now. The economy, everyone says. So the money situation is not great right now.
The positive is, we aren't destitute, and even though my hub is also slow, we have 2 decent incomes--just that now we are in CA and just bought a house, money is sooo tight, especially b/c of the higher mortgage and the high gas prices and the tax bites etc.
The unexpected benefit is--I've been able to really focus on my new diet/exercise resolutions this summer! I finally have the time to devote to making a reasonably steadily progress, and that's been keeping me optimistic and motivated. (That and this website!)
And the exercise/diet is keeping my mind off of my work woes. But I'm good at denial, anyway......
) time I ran ten miles I could not decide at the end if i was going to cry, faint, throw up, or all of the above. Then i went back to 6Ks. You did it! You finished and plan on finishing again! Enjoy the last few weeks before school starts. The life of a 1L is a busy one! 
"Why not just throw it all in?" I'm really, really sick of everything and wondering why this is all happening. 
Then, again, I think, well, why not? So, what are you going to do about it? And there's not much question. I'm NOT going to just take it like some sort of victim. 
though I hope that being part time will help the busy part.
