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wsw , 10-08-2008 08:06 PM

a"me-me" check in--sorry no personal responses for now, but will catch up soon, i promise. my leak still not fixed because parts for my heat pump and a/c condensation tray not even made anymore. at the very least, would have to get a condensation tray custom-made, or just replace the whole heat pump system which is on its last leg. bottom line is---very expensive; parts have to be ordered, some custom-made, and any of the repairs will not even be able to begin for at least a week+. this place is driving me nuts, and i am so scared about financial situation. when the repairman took out the tray this morning (finally), the one he brought to replace it didn't fit. he couldn't put the old one back because it was so eroded, it literally was falling apart. because of that, i cannot use my ac at all until a new condensation tray is put in, which would have to be custom-made, taking a week or more--blah, blah, blah. with no a/c for so long, feeling really stressed because physically when i am hot, i feel awful ms-wise. if stress level highest ranking is a 10, i would say i am at about a 12+ right now, so just needed to vent in a safe place. thank you so much for listening to me, dear royals. trying hard not to dive into some chocolate cake over all this, because i sure know that would only make things worse. i really do sound whiny, i know, but i guess that is how i am feeling, so hoping getting all this off my definitely more than ample chest (lol!), will help to relieve some of the tension. again, thanks for putting up with me! i have been up way too long today, and need to get some rest. take care, all.

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#227

Arabella , 10-09-2008 08:13 AM

Sunny day
Although the forecast is for it to cloud over and start raining within the next hour so I'd better get shod and get out soon.

I finally got the scale to register back down to where it was at the low point in July. OMG -- if I could only keep my head together in those weak moments and remember how long it takes to recover from a backslide, even a little backslide. Yikes. I've got the mojo to hocuspocusFOCUS! now, though. No quitsies!

I went to my writing group last night and it was so much fun! We did an exercise that started: Open your junk drawer... I was cracking myself up as I wrote and then thinking "Ooh, better stop -- what if they don't find this amusing as I seem to?" Luckily, everyone laughed a lot, wiping tears from their eyes. Then I just basked.

WSW, Bless your heart! Poor Pauline. My goodness -- people buy condos because they're supposed to be trouble-free. What a pain! I can't believe the excruciating stuff you've had to put up with. I hope that it cools off for you there soon -- maybe at least the weather could cooperate?

Be sweet and gentle with yourself!

K, Dollings, I'd best get out there before the goes away and the starts.

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#228

wsw , 10-09-2008 10:45 AM

arabella-anniversaries of losses of loved ones is always so difficult. honoring those feelings, as anagram said so well, is very important and doing something commemorative does seem to mean so much. glad scale is back down to where it was. yes, hocuspocus focus--your mojo is inspiring my mojo. sounds like writing group last night was fun.

kaylets-hope your business trip went well. ---speaking of major, on-going stress. i am inspired by your dealing with so much turmoil and stress, and am trying to marshall my fortitude with you as an excellent example.

looking in store mirrors-so not my idea of a good time either. i absolutely needed a couple of items recently, and dragged myself in to the store. still at same size (which i was expecting, though of course will be happy when smaller one is called for), but got what i needed and high-tailed it out of there. trying on clothes in stores is definitely a good reality check, and equalizer.

anagram-glad that you are enjoying fall and your favorite month, october. hope the recent sore shoulder is all better. also hope dd is feeling better, and kidney stone free, or very soon to be, anyhow. when you described your siege of melancholy on sunday evening and feeling entitled to devour food-----could i ever realate! the melancholy was sure understandable. as you and arabella so lovingly remind us, you deserve to be very sweet and gentle with yourself. loved hearing about helping out with tai chi class before instructor arrived. smiling just thinking about that scenario.

kat-hi! nice to see you! celebratory brunch gathering in honor of your dad sounds like it was very nice. that's neat.

ceara-so good to see you in the palace! hope your shoulder is soon to be pain-free. i am definitely sympathetic to shoulder pain. it's the pitts!

shoulder stuff must just be in the air. this afternoon, i am having cortisone shot in my shoulder---just couldn't take the pain anymore, so giving in and doing what my orthopedist suggested doing a couple of weeks ago. have rotator cuff problems and arthritis in both shoulders, and my left one has been the culprit of late.

andria-glad to hear that things are starting to clear up, and that your world is looking brighter. new gym membership sounds nice.

plumbing perils of pauline----the series continues. thanks for the hugs, arabella. i could definitely use them. the repairman called this morning, and i had made the decision to have one thing at a time repaired, even though in the end, it will cost more. coming up with the money for both is just too much for me now. right now, i need a working a/c the most, so that is what i am having done now. well, it will take at least a week just to have that part custom-made, but the a/c is my first priority and coming up with the $500 + for that now is going to be hard enough, so the new heat pump will just have to wait. with that pan as eroded as it was, he said it was amazing i did not have a big flood of water. (the leak was bad enough, believe me.) last night, it was cool outside and i was very grateful. the nights should be ok for this next week---the days are another story, but i will take a lot of cool showers, and keep lots of little ice packs in the freezer at the ready to cool fevered royal brow and dainty wrists at a moment's notice.

i woke up way too early again this morning, but have been productive, and glad about that. got some exercising in, ate a dainty breakfast, and now just need to stay awake so i don't miss my doc appointment later. well, thinking of you all, dear queens. take care.

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#229

wsw , 10-10-2008 08:48 AM

again, woke up way too early this morning, but at least once again, have put the time to good use. have several appointments today, which is fine with me, since will be out in a/c. i've only been without a/c now for 2 days and one night, and it has been really rough already. the thought of a week or so makes me quake in my boots a bit. actually, thought it might not be too bad, but i was wrong about that one! ah well. anyhoo, glad i got that cortisone shot for shoulder yesterday. granted, it hasn't kicked in yet, and may not from 48 hours to a week, but just knowing it will grant some relief, as will the return of a working a/c, reminds me things will improve. pretty warn out right now, though. have been making myself weigh in and write down food in journal daily, because this is the time that is just tailor-made for me to give myself an excuse to jump off proverbial wagon. well, lovely royals, i am off to my appointments now. thinking of you all. take good care of yourselves, everyone.

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#230

Arabella , 10-10-2008 10:51 AM

Friday!
And it's AND I've got today through Monday off. Yay!

I'm officially at my lowest since about 5 or 6 years ago. .6 off at WI this a.m. Will work hard this week to have a more substantial loss next Friday.

Went to tai chi last night -- it really does wonders. I was tired but went anyway. Still tired afterwards, but in a really nice mellow mood.

I'm going shopping for groceries -- stuff for Thanksgiving Day feast chez nous on Sunday. I intend to figure out what I'm going to have in advance and then stick to it! I've already got 25 extra points saved...

WSW, someone just posted this in another thread: "I wish I could bottle how awful I felt yesterday, so I could reuse that feeling when I think food will help anything other than actual need fuel hunger." Sure hit home for me. I generally feel so bad, stressed out, depressed, hopeless after a binge. And eating to feel better? Wow. Just doesn't work.

But it's like temporary insanity when I'm tempted. I'm not thinking "Here I go on a binge -- waaaaaa-HOOO!" More like, "I'll just have a bit more of that..." and I have it and then I'm suddenly remembering what else I've got in the house or can buy or make. And then the has me. I think I'm going to come up with some symbol to put on the fridge that stands for that evil.

Just keep taking gentle care of your own sweet self. Try to stay as cool as you can. Hope a/c woes are fixed pronto and that the cortisone shot kicks in ASAP! My dad used to get those for arthritis.

K, lies, it beith Friday. Let's make this day work for us!

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#231

Kaylets , 10-10-2008 06:33 PM

Hello all!

I got back Wed evening and am finally starting to feel more on track.

WSW---YIKES ! YIKES! YIKES!
How awful! I do not do heat well and can only imagine!
Here's to the pan being completed early, the breeze to be nonstop and those icepacks to remain icy!

Wood Nymph--Yes, if we could only bottle that feeling so we could remember!

My trip went well. Bumped into someone I worked with a long time ago who is doing well. Two bad about 2.5 hrs from where I live. But perhaps something could be worked out. Also have a possible lead in a field I worked in nearly 20 yrs ago. Not my favorite but right now, I am thinking I might be better off leaving insurance .......
I really hate the thought of it but I really must make a move while I can.

I am meeting someone I used to work with ( but the same company) in a few minutes. I am hoping she might have some insight on how much time we have.... I suspect some pruning will be done before the final sale is made.
And then when the sale is made, there is no telling if any will be kept on.
I don't even have a full 5 yrs being back with this company so any severance would be slim.

So. I am on the look out. Am considering any viable opportunities here in this area.

This certainly has been an interesting year!

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#232

katrinabgood , 10-11-2008 02:10 PM

Hey all... so...here goes nuthin: My sister was diagnosed with breast cancer yesterday. There was an abnormality on her mammo, biopsied earlier this week, she got the news yesterday. The good news is they caught it early and it's very treatable.

What a reality check. You're just going along, living your life, and WHAMMO! That life is turned on it's ear in one fell swoop. I'm sad for her, but hugely hopeful. Needless to say, we'll be marching for breast cancer next Sunday! (weird how I just happened to save the info (re: the walk) that came in the mail a few weeks ago, before we knew anything... when life was still normal)

THINKING POSITIVE THOUGHTS HERE. I will not dwell upon "what ifs." Moving forward.

I will truly try to keep up here, but at this point, my head's just not in it 100%. I know you'll understand...

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Arabella , 10-11-2008 03:24 PM

Kat, I'm sorry to hear about your sister's diagnosis. Thank goodness it's so treatable and the prognosis looks good. Take good care of yourself!

Kaylets, I'm glad your trip was good! Sending you some job mojo

Well, I've been chugging along here. Thinking I may get to move my ticker again soon. I've got a big TDay dinner here tomorrow night and am making my plans to get through it unscathed. Really, so many great foods that are even CORE. I will stay on track!

Hope all are having a lovely Saturday.

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#234

ceara , 10-12-2008 09:13 AM

Just a quick check-in...we're in OK right now, leaving after we show today and heading for Amarillo Tx and then onto NM...having a good trip...fighting my dear friend the munchmonkey. I just don't eat when she does, or I'll be the size of a small room!

I'm aiming for a maintain or loss this trip...which would be a first. I usually gain 5-10 pounds when I'm with her. I won't fit my nylons, never mind my clothes if I do!

wsw...what a mess for you! Geesh! Four more days to go right?

Will try and catch up with the rest...good going Arabella, lower numbers are good. Kay...hope you get your opportunity and dream job! Kat...hang in there, at least it is an early diagnosis! I wish they'd work on prevention a little harder instead of just concentrating on "cure". We live in such a chemical filled envionment!

'K...gotta go...shower and packing to do!

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Arabella , 10-12-2008 01:19 PM

Today's the day
TDay dinner tonight. AND coincides with an actual weight loss -- 205.8 this morning! So I'm planning what I'm eating this evening very carefully, so as to avoid a nasty bump-up tomorrow.

Ceara, I so totally agree with you. It drives me nuts that the Cancer Society is so focused on finding a cure instead of looking at why incidence rates are increasing all the time. My husband just read "The Secret History of the War on Cancer." Not that there's anything we didn't think before but it's so disheartening to think that the toxic environment is tolerated for the sake of profit and they seek a cure instead of trying to address prevention.

WSW, sending cool thoughts your way!

Kat, sending good thoughts for your sister.

Anagram, I guess you've gone to be with DD -- hope all is well!

Kaylets, I'm feeling like this is going to work out well for you -- hang on!

Andria, hope all is well in your corner of the palace.

Let's take this day and make the most of it!

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#236

anagram , 10-12-2008 07:35 PM

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO OUR NORTHERN QUEENS!

KAT, so sorry to hear of Sis' diagnosis. Glad prognosis is good. Brunch to honor Dad seems like a charming idea. Normal? I'm not sure I know what that is any more and you seem to have been on that upanddown track lately too. As has Andria, for sure and I hope things are improving there.

Dear wsw - it is absolutely unbelievable what's been going on with you. I empathize because I too do not do well in heat. That you can cling to "dainty" is marvy and a tribute to your royal character.

ceara, glad to hear from you and avoid that otherwisegoodfriend, the Munchmonkey.

Kaylets, so wise to be working things out before the ax finally falls.

The Palace seems to have moved to Stress City.

Congrats on low number again, Arabella. Hope dinner tonight went well and left you with a warm glow.

I was back at 207 today after a week of the upsies/downsies. The funky mood has persisted a bit even though I DO LOVE OCTOBER and it has been very lovely. No I never did go to DDs though I was on call all week. She's still passing some stones (hundreds by now, it seems) and she had gyn appt this week re fibroids, etc. Decided to get LOTS more info before she decides on what to do.

Did not sleep well last night either (full moon coming) but woke up remembering some bad dreams - things going WAY back to adolescence. Then had back pain - now that's a new one - have had it before but not for a long time. Shoulder still unhappy too - the one on which I had surgery but I don't think it's the tear again. MRI had shown lots of other things there, arthritis, bursitis, etc., etc. I think joining the gym might have been a bad choice for me. All I can do lately is treadmill and abductor/adductor.

So I did get out for walk that ended up being moonlit (last night too). Have a big chore planned for morning. Bought a new outfit and will be taking it to be hemmed here and there.

Anyway....................................

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#237

Kaylets , 10-13-2008 06:06 AM

Hello all!

Katrina! So sorry to hear about your sister! Lots and lots of positve thoughts coming both your ways!

Hugs to all in fact!

Sorry to be brief but I need to get on the road.....

***********
Thought of the day:

"Grey skies are just clouds passing over."
Duke Ellington

Question of the day:

"What is your favorite kind of pie?"

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#238

ceara , 10-13-2008 10:47 AM

Happy Thanksgiving!

QOD: Any kind of pie that my mom makes is my favourite.

Another day of travel under my belt...we ate at the Big Texas steak house last night in Amarillo. Good steak. Need less to say I am not hungry this am...coffee, banana and yogurt for brekkie.

Am currently waiting to leave. I do a lot of that.

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Arabella , 10-13-2008 11:30 AM

Fresh Start Monday!
I really behaved well last night but had a few too many rice crackers with dip and so weight is back up to 207.2 this a.m. I expect it to be banished again tomorrow and I AM GOING TO HAVE A GOOD LOSS THIS WEEK.

Nice to have the day off to recover from the party yesterday. It was good, but DS had to work (I'd been hoping he'd be able to get here) so it seemed mostly just like a nice dinner party rather than a real Thanksgiving. Hmmm... I hear me being insufficiently grateful... Working on fully accepting my life as it is at every moment, being grateful for my many blessings

So nice to see lies in the Palace!

Anagram, sorry you got funky! Sometimes it just seems to come out of nowhere. Who knows -- the moon? Anyway, I guess life could never look so spectacular as it does sometimes if that was our constant perspective, huh. If that makes any sense.

Kaylets, mmmmmmm... pie! I can't pick a favorite but... pumpkin, pecan, rhubarb, lemon meringue (I even like spelling "meringue" ), mince, oh, of course apple. My mom used to make the most sublime apple pie you could imagine -- exquisitely flaky pastry, cinnamon-y sweet tender flavorful apple filling.... mmmmm... (Did I say that already?) Yeah, I think those ones are my favorites. All but the lemon and pumpkin served warm with ice cream. Pumpkin with whipped cream. OMG, stop me. Thanks for the visit to pieland, at least in my head. (Better there than on my thighs...)

Ceara, sounds like your trip is a real challenge food-wise. Are you going to have a Thanksgiving dinner at some point or are you dodging that one? When do you get back home?

WSW, sending you cooooool thoughts!

Kat, Andria

K, Dollings, let's take this day and do our level best with it.

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wsw , 10-13-2008 03:03 PM

happy thanksgiving, arabella and ceara!

kat-i am so sorry to hear of your sister's diagnosis. at least the prognosis sounds good. am sending lots of good thoughts and hugs to you and your sister. take good care of yourself.

arabella-sounds like your thanksgiving dinner party was nice, though certainly unfortunate that your ds had to work.

anagram-sorry to hear your shoulder is still painful. also sympathize with trouble sleeping the other night. last night, woke up after a nightmare and couldn't get back to sleep. i know that is always so unsettling. glad to hear you are still enjoying october.

kaylets-hang in there. my favorite pie: banana cream.

ceara-glad your trip is going well. good for you by not getting tempted to eat along with good friend, munchmonkey.

hi andria.

thanks for al the support re: a/c woes. i left a message for the repairman friday to see if could give me any better guestimate of when repair can actually be done, and never heard back. left another message a while ago, but trying not to lose hope. have a feeling he probably took a long weekend with today off for columbus day. anyway, i am sure hoping that is it, because if i have to start all over again trying to find someone who will even work on this, i will be ready for the looney bin. well, actually, i already am. have been using table fans, but certainly need more than that. by this next weekend, it will be cooler though. between all the aggravation and much-too- warm temps in here, i am feeling quite stressed. ugh! ok, enough of my whining. just needed to vent that. well, i need to get some errands done, and also nice excuse to get in to some a/c. thanks again, dear royals, for all your cooling thoughts. you are the best! take care, everyone.

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